Challenging Alexithymia
By Katie Mia/Aghogday
I struggled with Alexithymia, off and on, during the course of my life. The piano helped me gain access and a language for emotions from age 12. I also found it more fully opened a pathway of emotion in my brain that enhanced my verbal speaking skills. My fine motor skills were not good, but never the less, I could play by sheet music well enough to gain a benefit.
I always wanted to create music without a guide, and during a period of chronic stress when I found myself losing all connection to emotions, the result was the music I finally took the time recently to upload to a you tube video format, from a very low quality recording I had off of a dictation device.
Interestingly, part of how I was diagnosed with Alexithymia was when I could not describe an emotion for the music that I suddenly was able to create.
My spouse's brother has a gift of emotional insight. He described the music as "a lonely ghost wandering the earth, not realizing they were dead". My spouse had previously described it as what sounded like "a tortured soul".
I doubt anyone that hasn't experienced Alexithymia could personally relate to the music, in the context of Alexithymia. But perhaps, there is someone out there that can. :)
Note:
The recording volume for this music plays very low on android phones and tablets for some reason and sounds distorted when the volume is turned up. I attempted a louder recording input version at this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mkr5RS... that plays at increased volume, but still may sound distorted on mobile phones and tablets.
Link to Discussion about the Music at the "Wrong Planet Website:
http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt22573...
My blog post that goes into more detail:
http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com/...
http://www.facebook.com/katie.mia.10
