 Section 6 of the Cricket on the Hearth by Charles Dickens. Tackleton had brought his leg of mutton, and, wonderful to relate, a tart, besides. But we don't mind a little dissipation when our brides are in the case. We don't get married every day, and, in addition to these dainties, there were the veal and ham pie and things, as Mrs. Piri Mingle called them, which were chiefly nuts and oranges and cakes and such small deer. When the repast was set forth on the board, flanked by Caleb's contribution, which was a great wooden bowl of smoking potatoes, he was prohibited by solemn compact from producing any other vans. One led his intended mother-in-law to the post of honour, for the better gracing of this place at the high festival. The majestic old soul had adorned herself with a cap, calculated to inspire the thoughtless with sentiments of awe. She also wore her gloves, but let us be genteel or die. Caleb sat next to his daughter. Dodd and her old school fellow were side by side. The good carrier took care of the bottom of the table. This slow boy was isolated for the time being from every article of furniture but the chair she sat on that she might have nothing else to knock the baby's head against. As Tilly stared about her at the dolls and toys, they stared at her and at the company, the venerable old gentleman at the street-doors, who was all in full action, showed a special interest in the party, pausing occasionally before leaping, as if they were listening to the conversation, and then plunging wildly over and over at great many times without halting or breath, as in a frantic state of delight with the whole proceedings. Certainly if these old gentlemen were inclined to have a fiendish joy in the contemplation of Tackleton's discomforture, they had good reason to be satisfied. Tackleton couldn't get on at all, and the more cheerful his intended bride became in Dot's society, the less he liked it, though he had brought them together for that purpose. For he was a regular dog in the manger, was Tackleton, and when they laughed, and he couldn't, he took it into his head immediately that they must be laughing at him. Ah, may, said Dot, dear, dear, what changes to talk of those merry school days makes one young again? Well, you ain't particularly old at any time, are you, said Tackleton? Look at my sober, plodding husband there, returned Dot. He adds twenty years to my age at least, don't you, John? Forty, John replied. How many you'll add to Mary's, I'm sure I don't know, said Dot, laughing. But she can't be much less than a hundred years of age on her next birthday. Ha, ha! laughed Tackleton. Hollow was a drum that laughed, though. And he looked as if he could have twisted Dot's neck, comfortably. Dear, dear, said Dot, only to remember how we used to talk at school about the husbands we would choose. I don't know how young and how handsome and how gay and how lively mine was not to be. And as to May's, oh dear, I don't know whether to laugh or cry when I think what silly girls we were. May seemed to know what to do for the color flashed into her face, and tears stood in her eyes. And the very persons themselves, real, live, young men, we fixed on sometimes, said Dot. We little thought how things would come about. I never fixed on John, I'm sure. I never so much as thought of him. And if I had told you that you were ever to be married to Mr. Tackleton, why, you'd have slapped me, wouldn't you, May? Though May didn't say yes, she certainly didn't say no, or express no, by any means. Tackleton laughed, quite shouted, he laughed so loud. And Peary bingled laugh, too, in his ordinary good-natured and contented manner. But his was a mere whisper of a laugh to Tackleton's. You couldn't help yourselves. For all that, you couldn't resist us, you see, said Tackleton. Here we are. Here we are. Where are your gay young bridegrooms now? Some of them are dead, said Dot, and some of them forgotten. Some of them, if they could stand among us at this moment, would not believe we were the same creatures, would not believe that what they saw and heard was real, and that we could forget them so. No, they would not believe one word of it. Why, Dot exclaimed the carrier, little woman. She had spoken with such earnestness and fire that she stood in need of some recalling to herself without doubt. Her husband's check was very gentle, for he merely interfered, as he supposed, to shield old Tackleton. But it proved effectual, for she stopped and said no more. There was an uncommon agitation, even in her silence, which the wary Tackleton, who had brought his half-shut eye to bear upon her, noted closely and remembered to some purpose too. May uttered no word good or bad, but sat quite still, with her eyes cast down, and made no sign of interest in what had passed. The good lady, her mother, now interposed, observing in the first instance the girls for girls and bygones bygones, and that so long as young people were young and thoughtless, they would probably conduct themselves like young and thoughtless persons, with two or three other positions of a no less sound and incontrovertible character. She then remarked, in a devout spirit, that she thanked Heavens she had always found in her daughter May a dutiful and obedient child, for which she took no credit to herself, though she had every reason to believe it was entirely owing to herself. With regard to Mr. Tackleton, she said, that he was in a moral point of view, an undeniable individual, and that he was in their eligible point of view a son-in-law to be desired. No one in their senses could doubt. She was very emphatic here. With regard to the family into which he was so soon about, after some solicitation to be admitted, she believed Mr. Tackleton knew that, although reduced in purse, it had some pretensions to gentility, and that if certain circumstances not wholly unconnected she would go as far as to say with indigo trade, but to which she would not more particularly refer had happened differently, it might perhaps have been in possession of wealth. She then remarked that she would not allude to the past, I would not mention that her daughter had for some time rejected the suit of Mr. Tackleton, and that she would not say a great many other things which she did say at great length. Finally she delivered it as the general result of her observation and experience, that these marriages, in which there was least of what was romantically and cillily called love, were always the happiest, and that she anticipated the greatest possible amount of bliss, not rapturous bliss, but the solid, steady-going article from the approaching nuptials. She concluded by informing the company that tomorrow was the day she had lived for expressly, and that when it was over she would desire nothing better than to be packed up and disposed in any genteel place of burial. Disease remarks are quite unanswerable, which is the happy property of all remarks that are sufficiently wide to the purpose. They changed the current of the conversation, and diverted the general attention to the veal and ham pie, the coal of mutton, the potatoes, and the tart. In order that the bottled beer might not be slighted, John Peary Bingle proposed tomorrow, the wedding day, and called upon them to drink a bumper to it, before he proceeded on his journey. For you ought to know that he only rested there, and gave the old horse a bait. He had to go some four or five miles further on, and when he returned in the evening he called for dot, and took another seat on his way home. This was the order of the day on all the picnic occasions, and had been ever since their institution. There were two different persons present, besides the bride and bridegroom elect, who did but indifferent honor to the toast. One of these was Dot, too flushed and discomposed to adapt herself to any small occurrence of the moment. The other, Bertha, who rose up hurriedly before the rest, and left the table. Good-bye! said stout John Peary Bingle, pulling on his dread-knock coat. I shall be back at the old time. Good-bye, y'all! Good-bye, John, returned Caleb. He seemed to say it by rote, and to wave his hand in the same unconscious manner, for he stood observing Bertha, with an anxious, wondering face that never altered its expression. Good-bye, young Shaver, said the jolly carrier, bending down to kiss the child, which Tillie's slow-boy, now intent upon her knife and fork, had deposited asleep—and strange to say, without damage, in a little cot of Bertha's furnishing. Good-bye! Time will come, I suppose, when you'll turn out into the cold, my little friend, and leave your old father to enjoy his pipe in his rheumatics, in the chimney-corner, eh? Where's Dott? I'm here, John, she said, starting. Come, come, return the carrier, clapping his sounding hands. Where's the pipe? I quite forgot the pipe, John, forgot the pipe, with such a wonder ever heard of, she forgot the pipe. I'll—I'll fill it directly, it's soon done. But it was not soon done, either. It lay in the usual place, the carrier's dreadnought pocket, with the little pouch, her own work, from which she was used to fill it. But her hand shook so, that she entangled it—and yet her hand was small enough to have come out easily, I'm sure—and bungled terribly, the filling of the pipe, and lighting it, those little offices, in which I have commended her discretion, were vitally done from first to last. During the whole ceremony, Tackleton stood looking on maliciously with a half-closed eye, which, whenever it met hers, or caught it, for it can hardly be said to have ever met another eye, rather being a kind of trap to snatch it up, augmented her confusion in a most remarkable degree. Why, what a clumsy dot you are this afternoon, said John, I could have done it better myself, I verily believe. With these good-natured words, he strode away, and presently was heard in company with Boxer and the old horse and the cart, making lively music down the road. What time the dreamy Caleb still stood, watching his blind daughter, with the same expression on his face? Bertha, said Caleb softly, what has happened? How changed you are, my darling? In a few hours, since this morning, you, silent and dull all day, what is it? Tell me. Oh, father, father, cried the blind girl, bursting into tears, oh, my hard, hard fate. Caleb drew his hand across his eyes before he answered her, but think how cheerful and happy you have been, Bertha, how good and how much loved by many people. That always strikes me to the heart, dear father, always so mindful of me, always so kind to me. Caleb was very much perplexed to understand her. Don't be blind, Bertha, my poor dear, he faltered. It's a great affliction, but I have never felt it, cried the blind girl. I have never felt it in its fullness, never. I have sometimes wished that I could see you or could see him. Only once, dear father, only for one little minute that I might know what it is that I treasure up. She laid her hands upon her breast and hold here, that I might be sure that I have it right. And sometimes, but when I was a child, I have wept in my prayers at night to think that, when your images ascend from my heart to heaven, they might not be the true resemblances of yourselves. But I have never had these feelings long. They have passed away and left me tranquil and contented. And they will again, said Caleb. But father, oh, my good gentle father, bear with me if I am wicked, said the blind girl. This is not the sorrow that so weighs me down. Her father could not choose but let his moist eyes overflow. She was so earnest and pathetic. But he did not understand her yet. Bring her to me, said Bertha. I cannot hold it closed and shut within myself. Bring her to me, father. She knew he hesitated and said, May, bring May. May heard the mention of her name, and coming quietly towards her touched her on the arm. The blind girl turned immediately and held her by both hands. Look into my face to your heart, sweet heart, said Bertha. Read it with your beautiful eyes and tell me if the truth is written on it. Yes, Bertha, yes. The blind girl, still upturning the blank sightless face, down which the tears were coursing fast, addressed her in these words. There is not in my soul a wish or thought that is not for your good bright May. There is not in my soul a grateful recollection stronger than the deep remembrance which is stored there of the many, many times when, in the full pride of sight and beauty, you have had consideration for blind Bertha. Even when we too were children or when Bertha was as much a child as ever blind as can be. Every blessing on your head, light upon your happy course. Not the less, my dear May, as she drew towards her in a closer grasp. Not the less, my bird, because today the knowledge that you are to be his wife has wrung my heart almost to breaking. Father, May, Mary, oh, forgive me that it is so, for the sake of all he has done to relieve the weariness of my dark life, and for the sake of the belief that you have in me, when I call heaven to witness that I could not wish him married to a wife more worthy of his goodness. While speaking, she had released May Fielding's hands and clasped her garments in an attitude of mingled supplication and love, sinking lower and lower down as she proceeded in her strange confession. She dropped at last at the feet of her friend and hid her blind face in the folds of her dress. Great power exclaimed her father, smitten at one blow with the truth. Have I deceived her from the cradle but to break her heart at last? It was well for all of them that dot that beaming, useful, busy little dot for such she was. Whatever faults she had, and however you may learn to hate her in good time, it was well for all of them, I say, that she was there. Or where this would have ended, it were hard to tell. But dot, recovering her self-possession, interposed, before May could reply, or Caleb say another word. Come, come, dear Bertha, come away with me. Give her your arm, May, so how composed she is, you see, already, and how good it is of her to mind us, said the cheery little woman, kissing her upon the forehead. Come away, dear Bertha, come, and here's a good father will come with her. Won't you, Caleb, to be sure? Well, well, she was a noble little dot in such things, and must have been an obdurate nature that could have withstood her influence. When she had got poor Caleb and his Bertha away, that they might comfort and console one another, as she knew they only could, she presently came bouncing back, the saying is as fresh as any daisy. I say fresher, to mount guard over that bridling little piece of consequence in the cap and gloves, and prevent the dear old creature from making discoveries. So bring me the precious baby, Tilly, she said, drawing a chair to the fire, and while I have it here in my lap, here's Mrs. Fielding. Tilly, who will tell me all about the management of babies, and put me right in twenty points where I'm as wrong as can be, won't you, Mrs. Fielding? Not even the Welsh giant, who, according to the popular expression was so slow as to perform a fatal surgical operation upon himself in emulation of a juggling trick achieved by his arch enemy at breakfast time. Not even he fell half so readily into the snare prepared for him as the old lady into this artful pitfall. The fact that Tackleton having walked out, and furthermore of two or three people having been talking together at a distance for two minutes, leaving her on her own resources, was quite enough to have put her on her dignity, and the bewailment of that mysterious convulsion in the indigo trade for four and twenty hours. But this becoming deference to her experience on the part of the young mother was so irresistible that after a short affectation of humility she began to enlighten her with the best grace in the world, and sitting both upright before the wicked dod. She did, in half an hour, deliver more infallible domestic recipes and precepts than would, if acted upon, have utterly destroyed and done up that young Peary-bingle, though he had been an infant Samson. To change the theme Dot did a little needlework. She carried the contents of a whole work box in her pocket, however she contrived it I don't know. Then did a little nursing, then a little more needlework, then had a little whispering chat with May while the old lady dozed, and so in little bits of bustle, which was quite her manner always, found it a very short afternoon. Then as it grew dark, and as it was a solemn part of this institution of the picnic, that she should perform all Bertha's household tasks, she trimmed to the fire, and swept the hearth, and set the teaboard out, and drew the curtains, and lighted the candle. Then she played an air, or two, on a rude kind of harp which Caleb had contrived for Bertha, and played them very well, for nature had made her delicate little ear as choice of one for music, as it would have been for jewels, if she had had any to wear. By this time it was the established hour for having tea, and Tackleton came back again to share the meal and spend the evening. Caleb and Bertha had returned some time before, and Caleb had sat down to do his afternoon's work, but he couldn't settle to it for a fellow being anxious and remorseful for his daughter. It was touching to see him sitting idle on his working-stool regarding her so wistfully, and always saying in his face, Have I deceived her from the cradle but to break her heart? Then it was night, and tea was done, and Dot had nothing more to do in washing up the cups and saucers, in a word, for I must come to it, and there's no use putting it off. When the time drew nigh for expecting the carrier's return in every sound of distant wheels, her manner changed again. Her color came and went, and she was very restless. Not as good wise are when listening for their husbands, and oh, no, no, it was another sort of restlessness from that. Wheels heard, a horse's feet, the barking of a dog, the gradual approach of all the sounds, the scratching paw of Boxer at the door. Whose step is that? cried Bertha, starting up. Whose step? returned the carrier, standing in the portal, with his brown, ruddy face, as a winter berry from the keen night air. Why? Mine. The other step, said Bertha, the man's tread behind you. She is not to be deceived, observed the carrier, laughing. Come along, sir. You'll be welcome. Never fear. He spoke in a loud tone, and, as he spoke, the deaf old gentleman entered. There's not so much a stranger that you haven't seen him once, Caleb, said the carrier. He'll give him house room till we go. Oh, surely, John, and take it as an honor. He's the best company on earth to talk secrets in, said John. I have reasonable good lungs, but he tries them, I can tell you. Sit down, sir. All friends here, and glad to see you. When he had imparted this assurance, in a voice that amply corroborated what he had said about his lungs, he added in his natural tone, a chair in the chimney corner, and leave to sit quite silent, and look pleasantly about him, is all he cares for. He's easily pleased. Bertha had been listening intently. She called Caleb to her side when he had set the chair, and asked him, in a low voice, to describe their visitor. When he had done so, truly now, with scrupulous fidelity, she moved for the first time since he came in, and sighed, and seemed to have no further interest concerning him. The carrier was in high spirits, good fellow that he was, and fonder of his little wife than ever. A clumsy dot she was this afternoon, he said, encircling her with his rough arm, as she stood removed from the rest. And yet I liked her somehow. See yonder dot, he pointed to the old man. She looked down. I think she trembled. He's, ha-ha-ha, he's full of admiration for you, said the carrier. Talked of nothing else the whole way here. Why, he's a brave old boy. I like him for it. I wish he had a better subject, John, she said with an uneasy glance around the room, at Tackleton especially. A better subject, cried the jovial John. There's no such thing. Come off with a great coat, off with a thick shawl, off with the heavy wrappers, and a cozy half-hour by the fire. My humble service, mistress, a game at Cribbage, you and I. That's hardy. The cards and board dot, and a glass of beer here if there's any left small, wife. His challenge was addressed to the old lady, who, accepting it with gracious readiness, they were soon engaged upon the game. At first the carrier looked about him sometimes with a smile, or now and then called dot to peep over his shoulder at his hand and advise him on some naughty point. But his adversary, being a rigid disciplinarian, unsubject to an occasional weakness in respect of pegging more than she was entitled to, required such vigilance on his part as left him neither eyes nor ears to spare. Thus his whole attention gradually became absorbed upon the cards, and he thought of nothing else until a hand upon his shoulder restored him to a consciousness of Tackleton. I am sorry to disturb you, but a word directly. I'm going to deal, returned the carrier. It's a crisis. It is, said Tackleton. Come here, man. There was that in his pale face, which made the other rise immediately, and asked him in a hurry what the matter was. Hush, John Peary bingles, to Tackleton. I am sorry for this. I am indeed. I have been afraid of it. I have suspected it from the first. What is it, said the carrier with a frightened aspect? Hush, I'll show you if you come with me. The carrier accompanied him without another word. They went across a yard where the stars were shining, and by a little side door into Tackleton's own counting-house, where there was a glass window commanding the were-room, which was closed for the night. There was no light in the counting-room itself, but there were lamps in the long, narrow were-room, and consequently the window was bright. A moment, said Tackleton. Can you bear to look through that window, do you think? Why not? returned the carrier. A moment more, said Tackleton. Don't commit any violence. It's of no use. It's dangerous, too. You're a strong-made man, and you might do murder before you know it. The carrier looked him in the face, and recoiled a step as if he had been struck. In one stride he was at the window, and he saw— Oh, shadow on the hearth! Oh, truthful cricket! Oh, profiteous wife! He saw her with the old man—old no longer—but he wrecked and gallant, bearing in his hand the false white hair that had won his way into their desolate and miserable home. He saw her listening to him, as he bent his head to whisper in her ear, and suffering him to clasp her around the waist, as they moved slowly down the dim wooden gallery towards the door by which they had entered it. He saw them stop, and saw her turn, to have the face, the face he loved so, so presented to his view. Then he saw her with her own hands adjust the lie upon his head, laughing as she did it at his unsuspicious nature. He clenched his strong right hand at first, as if it would have beaten down a lion. But opening it immediately again he spread it out before the eyes of Tackleton, for he was tender to her even then. And so as they passed out fell down upon a desk, and was as weak as any infant. He was wrapped up to the chin, and busy with his horse and parcels when she came into the room, preparing to go home. Now, John, dear, good night, May, good night, Bertha. Could she kiss them? Could she be blithe and cheerful in her parting? Could she venture to reveal her face to them without a blush? Yes, Tackleton observed her closely, and she did all this. Tilly was hushing the baby, and she crossed and recrossed Tackleton a dozen times, repeating drowsily. Did the knowledge that it was to be its wives then ring its hearts almost to breaking, and did its fathers deceive it from its cradle but to break its heart at last? Now, Tilly, give me the baby. Good night, Mr. Tackleton, where is John, for goodness' sake? He's going to walk beside the horse's head, said Tackleton, who helped her to her seat. My dear John, walk, to-night! The muffled figure of her husband made a hasty sign in the affirmation, and the false stranger, and the little nurse, being in their places, the old horse moved off. Boxer, the unconscious boxer, running on before, running back, running around and around the cart, and barking as triumphantly and merrily as ever. When Tackleton had gone off likewise, escorting May and her mother home, poor Caleb sat down by the fire beside his daughter, anxious and remorseful at the core, and still saying in his wistful contemplation of her, have I deceived her from the cradle but to break her heart at last? The toys that had been set in motion for the baby had all stopped and run down long ago. In the faint light and silence, the inperturbably calm dolls, the agitated rocking horse with distended eyes and nostrils, the old gentlemen at the street-doors standing half doubled up upon their failing knees and ankles, the writhe-faced nutcrackers, the very beasts upon their way to the ark in twos, like a boarding school out walking, might have been imagined to be stricken motionless of fantastic wonder at Dott being false, or Tackleton be loved under any combination of circumstances. End of GERB II. CHERP III. The Dutch clock in the corner struck tin when the carrier sat down by his fireside. So troubled and grief-warmed that he seemed to scare the cuckoo, who, having cut his tin melodious announcements as short as possible, plunged back into the Moorish Palace again and clapped his little door behind him, as if the unwanted spectacle were too much for his feelings. If the little haymaker had been armed with the sharpest of sides, and had cut at every stroke into the carrier's heart, he never could have gashed or wounded it as Dott had done. It was a heart so full of love for her, so bound up and held together by innumerable threads of winning remembrance, spun from the daily workings of her many qualities of endearment. It was a heart in which she had enshrined herself so gently and so closely, a heart so single and so earnest in its truth, so strong and right, so weak and wrong, that it could cherish neither passion nor revenge at first, and had only room to hold the broken image of its idol. But slowly, slowly, as the carrier sat, rooting on his heart, now cold and dark, other and fiercer thoughts began to rise within him, as an angry wind came rising in the night. The stranger was beneath his outraged roof. Three steps would take him to his chamber door. One blow would beat it in. "'You might do murder before you know it,' Tackleton had said. "'How could it be murder if he gave the villain time to grapple with him hand to hand?' He was the younger man. It was nill-time thought, bad for the dark mood in his mind. It was an angry thought. Loading him to some avenging act that should change the cheerful house into a haunted place, which lonely travelers would dread to pass by night, and where the timid would see shadows struggling in the ruined windows when the moon was dim, and hear wild noises in the stormy weather. He was the younger man, yes, yes. Some lover who had won the heart that he had never touched. Some lover of her early choice. Of whom she had thought and dreamed. For whom she had pined and pined. When he had fancied her so happy by his side. Oh, agony to think of it! She had been above stairs with the baby, getting it in bed, as he sat, brooding on the hearth. She came close beside him, without his knowledge. In the turning of the rack of his great misery he lost all other amounts, and put her little stool at his feet. He only knew it when he felt her hand upon his own, and saw her looking into his face. With wonder? No, it was his first impression. And he was feigned to look at her again, to set it right. No, not with wonder. With an eager and inquiring look, but not with wonder. At first it was alarmed and serious, then it changed into a strange, wild, dreadful smile of recognition of his thoughts. Then there was nothing but her clasped hand at his brow, and her bent head, and falling hair. Though the power of omnipotence had been his to wield at that moment, he had too much of its diviner property of mercy in his breast to have turned one feather's weight of it against her. But he could not bear to see her crooning down upon the little seat where he had often looked on her, with love and pride. So innocent and gay. And when she rose and left him, sobbing as she went, he felt at a relief to have the vacant place beside him, rather than her so long-cherished presence. This in itself was an anguish keener than all, reminding him how desolate he has become, and how the great bond of his life was rent asunder. The more he felt this, and the more he knew he could have better born to see her lying prematurely dead before him with her little child upon her breast, the higher and the stronger rose his wrath against his enemy. He looked about him for a weapon. There was a gun hanging on the wall. He took it down and moved a pace or two toward the door of the perfidious stranger's room. He knew the gun was loaded. Some shadowy idea that it was just to shoot this man like a wild beast seized him, and dilated in his mind until it grew into a monstrous demon in complete possession of him, casting out all milder thoughts and setting up its undivided empire. That phrase is wrong, not casting out his milder thoughts, but artfully transforming them, changing them into scourges to drive him on, turning water into blood, love into hate, gentleness into blind ferocity, her image souring, humbled, but still pleading into his tenderness and mercy with relentless power never left his mind. But staying there it urged him to the door, raised the weapon to his shoulder, fitted and nerved his finger to the trigger, and cried, Kill him in his bed. He reversed the gun to beat the stock against the door. He already held it lifted in the air, some indistinct design when it is in his thoughts of calling out to him to fly, for God's sake, by the window. When suddenly the struggling fire illuminated the whole chimney with a glow of light, and the cricket on the hearth began to chirp. No sound he could have heard, no human voice, not even hers, could so have moved and softened him. The artful words in which she had told him of her love and love for this same cricket were once more refreshingly spoken. Her trembling earnest manner at the moment was again before him. Her pleasant voice, oh, what a voice it was for making household music at the fireside of an honest man, thrilled through and through his better nature and awoke it into life and action. He recoiled from the door, like a man walking in his sleep, awakened from a frightful dream and put the gun aside. Glasping his hands before his face, he then sat down beside the fire and found relief in tears. The cricket on the hearth came out into the room and stood in fiery shape before him. I love it, said the very voice, repeating what he well remembered. For the many times I have heard it and the many thoughts its harmless music has given me. She said so, cried the carrier, true. This has been a happy home, John, and I love the crickets for its sake. It has been, heaven knows, returned the carrier. She made it happy, always, until now. So gracefully sweet-tempered, so domestic, joyful, busy, and light-hearted, said the voice. Otherwise I never could have loved her as I did, returned the carrier. The voice, corrected him, said, do. The carrier repeated, as I did. But not firmly. His faltering tongue resisted his control and would speak in its own way for itself and him. The figure in an attitude of invocation raised its hand and said, upon your own hearth. The hearth she has blighted in her pose to the carrier. The hearth she has, how often, blessed and brightened, said the cricket. The heart which, but for her, would only a few stones and bricks and rusty bars. But which has been, through her, the altar of your home, on which you have nightly sacrificed some petty passion, selfishness, or care, and offered up the homage of a tranquil mind. A trusting nature and an overflowing heart, so that the smoke from this poor chimney has gone upward with a better fragrance than the richest incense that is burned upon the richest shrines in all the gaudy temples of this world, upon your own hearth. In its quiet sanctuary, surrounded by its gentle influence and association, hear her, hear me, hear everything that speaks the language of your hearth and home, and pleads for her, inquired the carrier. All things that speak the language of your hearth and home must plead for her, returned the cricket, for they speak the truth. And while the carrier, with his head upon his hands, continued to sit meditating in his chair, the presence stood before him, suggesting his reflections by its power and presenting them before him as in a glass or picture. It was not a solitary presence. From the hearth stone, from the chimney, from the clock, the pipe, the kettle, and the cradle. From the floor, the walls, the ceiling, and the stairs. From the cart without, and the cupboard within, and the household implements, from everything and every place, with which she had ever been familiar, with which she had ever entwined one recollection of herself in her unhappy husband's mind. Fairies came trooping forth, not to stand beside him as the cricket did, but to busy and bestow themselves. To do all honor to her image, to pull him by the skirts and point to it when it appeared, to cluster round it and embrace it and strew flowers for it to tread on, to try to crown its fair head with their tiny hands, to show that they were fond of it and loved it, and that there was not one ugly, wicked, or accusatory creature to claim knowledge of it, none but their playful and approving selves. His thoughts were constant to her image, it was always there. She sat plying her needle before the fire and singing to herself, such a blithe, thriving, steady little dot. The fairy figures turned upon him all at once. By one consent, with one prodigious, concentrated stare, and seemed to say, Is this the light wife you are mourning for? There were sounds of gaiety outside, musical instruments and noisy tongues, and laughter, a crowd of young merry-makers came pouring in, among whom were may-fielding and a score of pretty girls. Dot was the fairest of them all, as young as any of them knew. They came to summon her to join their party. It was a dance. If ever little feet were made for dancing, hers were, surely. But she laughed and shook her head, and pointed to her cookery on the fire, and her table-ready spread, with an exalting defiance that rendered her more charming than she was before. And so she merrily dismissed them, nodding to her would-be partners, one by one as they passed out, with a comical indifference. Enough to make them go and drown themselves immediately if they were her admirers. And they must have been so, more or less, they couldn't help it. And yet indifference was not her character. Oh, no! For presently there came a certain carrier to the door. And bless her what a welcome she bestowed upon him. Even the staring figures turned upon him all at once, and seemed to say, Is this the wife who has forsaken you? A shadow fell upon the mirror or the picture. Call it what you will, a great shadow of the stranger, as he first stood underneath their roof, covering his surface and blotting out all other objects. But the nimble fairies worked like bees to clear it off again. And Dot again was there. Still bright and beautiful. Rocking her little baby in its cradle, singing to it softly, and wrestling her head upon a shoulder which had its counterpart in the musing figure by which the fairy crickets stood. The night, I mean the real night, not going by fairy clocks, was wearing now, and in this stage of the carrier's thoughts the moon burst out and shone brightly in the sky. Perhaps some calm and quiet light had risen also in his mind, and he could think more soberly of what had happened. Although the shadow of the stranger fell at intervals upon the glass, always distinct and big and thoroughly defined, it never fell so darkly as at first. Whenever it appeared the fairies uttered a general cry of consternation and plied their little arms and legs with inconceivable activity to rub it out. And whenever they got at Dot again, and showed her to him once more, bright and beautiful, they cheered in the most inspiring manner. They never showed her otherwise than beautiful and bright, for they were household spirits to whom falsehood is an annihilation. In being so, what Dot was there for them, but the one active, beaming, pleasant little creature who had been the light and sun of the carrier's home. The fairies were prodigiously excited when they showed her with the baby gossiping among the knot of sage-old matrons, and effecting to be wondrous old and matronly herself, and leaning in a stayed demure old way on her husband's arm. Seeing she, such a bud of a little woman, to convey the idea of having adjured the vanities of the world in general, and of being the sort of person to whom it was no novelty at all to be a mother. Yet in the same breath they showed her, laughing at the carrier, for being awkward, and pulling up his shirt-collar to make him smart, and mincing merrily about the very room to teach him how to dance. They turned and stared immensely at him when they showed her with the blind girl. For though she carried cheerfulness and animation with her wherever she went, she bore those influences into Caleb Plummer's home, heaped up and running over. The blind girls' love for her, and trust in her, and gratitude to her, her own good busy way of setting Bertha's thanks aside. Her dexterous little arts fulfilling up each moment of the visit in doing something useful to the house, and really working hard while feigning to make holiday, her bountiful provision of those standing delicacies, the veal and ham pie, and the bottles of beer, her radiant little face arriving at the door and taking leave, the wonderful expression of her whole self, from her neat foot to the crown of her head, of being part of the establishment, a something necessary to it, which it couldn't be without. All this the fairies reveled in, and loved her for, and once again they looked upon him all at once, appealingly, and seemed to say, while some among them nestled in her dress and fondled her, is this the wife who brooched your confidence? More than once, or twice, or thrice, in a long thoughtful night, they showed her to him sitting on her favorite seat, with her bent head, her hands clasped to her brow, her falling hair, as he had seen her last, and when they found her thus they neither turned nor looked upon him, but gathered close round her and comforted and kissed her, and pressed on one another to show sympathy and kindness to her, and forget him altogether. Thus the night passed, the moon went down, the stars grew pale, the cold day broke, the sun rose, the carrier sat still, musing, in the chimney corner. He had sat there, with his head upon his hands, all night. All night the faithful cricket had been chirping on the hearth. All night he had been listening to its voice. All night the household fairies had been busy with him. All night she had been amiable and blameless in the glass, except when that one shadow fell upon it. He rose up when it was broad day, and washed and dressed himself. He couldn't go about his customary cheerful evocations. He wanted spirit for them. But it mattered the less that it was Tackleton's wedding day, and he had arranged to make his rounds by proxy. He had thought to have gone merrily to church with Dot, but such plans were at an end. It was their wedding day, too. Ah, how little he had looked for such a clothes to such a year. The carrier expected that Tackleton would pay him an early visit. And he was right. He had walked to and fro before his own door many minutes, when he saw the toy merchant coming in his chase along the road. As the chase drew nearer, he perceived that Tackleton was dressed out sprucely for his marriage, and that he had decorated his horse's heads with flowers and favors. The horse looked much more like a bridegroom than Tackleton, whose half-closed eyes were more disagreeably expressive than ever. But the carrier took little heat of this. His thoughts had other occupation. John Perry Bingle said Tackleton with an air of condolence. My good fellow, how do you find yourself this morning? I have had a poor night, Mr. Tackleton. Returned the carrier, shaking his head, for I have been a good deal disturbed in my mind. But it is over now. Can you spare me half an hour or so for some private talk? I came on purpose, returned Tackleton. Alighting, never mind the horse, he'll stand quiet enough with the reins over the post if you'll give him a mouthful of hay. The carrier, having brought it from his stable, and said it before him, they turned into the house. You are not married before noon, he said, I think. No, said Tackleton, plenty of time, plenty of time. When they entered the kitchen, Tillie Slowboy was wrapping at the stranger's door, which was only removed from it by a few steps. One of her very red eyes, for Tillie had been crying all night long, because her mistress cried, was at the keyhole, and she was knocking very loud and seemed frightened. If you please, I can't make nobody hear, said Tillie, looking round. I hope nobody ain't gone in and been in dead, if you please. His philanthropic wish, Miss Slowboy, emphasized with various new wraps and kicks at the door, which led to no result whatsoever. Shall I go? said Tackleton, it's curious. The carrier, who had turned his face from the door, signed him to go if he would. So Tackleton went to Tillie's Slowboy's relief, and he too kicked and knocked, and he too failed to get the least reply. And he thought of trying the handle of the door, and, as it opened easily, he pipped in, looked in, went in, and soon came running out. "'John Perry Bingle,' said Tackleton, in his ear, "'I hope there has been nothing rash in the night,' the carrier turned upon him quickly. "'Because he's gone,' said Tackleton, and the windows open. "'I don't see any marks, to be sure. It's almost on a level with the garden. But I was afraid there might have been some scuffle, eh?' He nearly shut up the expressive eye altogether. He looked at him so hard, and he gave his eye, and his face, and his whole person, a sharp twist, as if he would have screwed the truth out of him. Make yourself easy,' said the carrier. He went into that room last night without harm in word or deed from me, and no one has entered it since. He was a way of his own free will. I'd go out gladly at that door and beg my bread from house to house for life, if I could so change the past that he had never come. But he has come and gone, and I have done with him. "'Oh, well, I think he has got off pretty easy,' said Tackleton, speaking a chair. The sneer was lost upon the carrier, who sat down to and shaded his face with his hand, for some little time before proceeding. "'You showed me last night,' he said at length, "'my wife, my wife that I love secretly, and tenderly,' insinuated Tackleton, conniving at that man's disguise and giving him opportunities of meeting her alone. I think there's no sight I wouldn't have rather seen than that. I think there's no man in the world I wouldn't have rather had to show at me.' "'I confess to having my suspicions already,' said Tackleton. "'And that has made me objectionable here, I know. But as you did show at me,' pursued the carrier, not minding him, and as you saw her, my wife, my wife that I love, his voice, and I, in hand, grew steadier and firmer as he repeated these words, evidently in pursuance of a steadfast purpose. As you saw her at this disadvantage, it is right and just that you should also see with my eyes, and look into my breast, and know that my mind is upon the subject, for it's settled,' said the carrier, regarding him attentively. And nothing can shake it now.' Tackleton muttered a few general words of assent about it being necessary to vindicate something or another. But he was overwhelmed by the manner of his companion, plain and unpolished as it was. It had a something dignified and noble in it, which nothing but the soul of a generous honour dwelling in the man could have imparted. End of Section 7. Section 8. I am a plain, rough man, pursued the carrier. I am not a clever man, as you very well know. I am not a young man. I loved my little dot because I had seen her grow up from a child in her father's house, because I knew how precious she was, because she had been my life for years and years. There's many men I can't compare with who never could have loved my little dot like me, I think. He paused and softly beat the ground a short time with his foot before resuming. I often thought that though I wasn't good enough for her, I should make her a kind husband, and perhaps know her value better than another, and in this way I reconciled it to myself, and came to think it might be possible that we should be married. And, in the end, it came about, and we were married. Ha! said Tackleton, with significant shake of his head. I had studied myself, I had had experience of myself, I knew how much I loved her, and how happy I could be, pursued the carrier. But I had not, I feel it now, sufficiently considered her. To be sure, said Tackleton, giddiness, frivolity, fickleness, love of admiration, not considered, all left out of sight. Ha! You had best not interrupt me, said the carrier with some sternness, till you understand me, and you're wide of doing so. If yesterday I had struck that man down at a blow who dared to breathe a word against her, to-day I'd set my foot upon his face if he was my brother. The toy merchant gazed at him in astonishment. He went on in a softer tone. Did I consider, said the carrier, that I took her, at her age, and with her beauty, from her young companions, and the many scenes of which she was the ornament, in which she was the brightest little star that ever shone, to shut her up from day to day in my dull house, and keep my tedious company? Did I consider how little-suited I was to her, sprightly humor, how weirthome, applauding man like me, must be to one of her quick spirit? Did I consider that it was no merit to me, or claim in me, that I loved her, when everybody must who knew her? Never. I took advantage of the hopeful nature and her cheerful disposition, and I married her. I wish I never had, for her sake, not for mine. The toy merchant gazed at him without winking. Even the half-shut eye was open now. Heaven bless her, said the carrier, for the cheerful constancy with which she has tried to keep the knowledge of this from me, and Heaven helped me that, in my slow mind, I had not found it before. Poor child, poor dot, I, not to find it out, who have seen her eyes fill with tears when such a marriage as our own was spoken of. I, who have seen the secret trembling on her lips a hundred times, and never suspected it till last night, poor girl, that I could ever hope she would be fond of me, that I could ever believe she was. She made a show of it, said Tackleton. She made such a show of it that, to tell you the truth, it was the origin of my misgivings. And here he asserted the superiority of May Fielding, who certainly made no sort of show of being fond of him. She has tried, said the poor carrier, with greater emotion than he had exhibited yet. I only now begin to know how hard she has tried to be my dutiful and zealous wife. How good she has been, how much she has done, how brave and strong a heart she has, let the happiness I have known under this roof bear witness, it will be some help and comfort to me when I am here alone. Here alone, said Tackleton, oh, then do you mean to take some notice of this? I mean, returned the carrier, to do her the greatest kindness and make her the best reparation in my power. I can release her from the daily pain of an unequal marriage and the struggle to conceal it. She shall be as free as I can render her. Make her a reparation, exclaimed Tackleton, twisting and turning his great ears with his hands. There must be something wrong here. You didn't say that, of course. The carrier set his grip upon the collar of the toy merchant and shook him like a reed. Listen to me, he said, and take care that you hear me right. Listen to me. Speak plainly. Very plainly indeed, answered Tackleton, as if I meant it. Very much as if you meant it. I sat upon that hearth last night, all night, exclaimed the carrier, on the spot where she has often sat beside me with her sweet face looking into mine. I called up her whole life day by day. I had her dear self in its every passage in review before me. And upon my soul she is innocent if there is one to judge the innocent and guilty. Stonch cricket on the hearth! Loyal! Household fairies! Passion and distrust have left me, said the carrier. And nothing but my grief remains. In an unhappy moment some old lover, better suited to her taste in years than I, forsaken perhaps for me, against her will, returned. In an unhappy moment, taken by surprise and wanting time to think of what she did, she made herself a party to his treachery by concealing it. This night she saw him, in the interview we witnessed. It was wrong. But otherwise than this she is innocent if there is truth on earth. If that is your opinion, Tackleton began, so let her go, pursued the carrier. Go with my blessing for the many happy hours she has given me, and my forgiveness for any pain she has caused me. Let her go, and have the peace of mind I wish her. She'll never hate me. She'll learn to like me better when I'm not a drag upon her, and she wears the chain I have riveted more lightly. This is the day on which I took her, and with so little thought for her enjoyment from her home. Today she shall return to it, and I will trouble her no more. Her father and mother will be here to-day. We had made a little plan for keeping it together, and they shall take her home. I can trust her there, or anywhere. She leaves me without blame, and she will live so, I am sure. If I should die, I may perhaps while she is still young. I have lost some courage in a few hours. She'll find that I remembered her, and I loved her to the last. This is the end of what you showed me. Now it's over. Oh, no, John, not over. Don't say it's over yet. Not quite yet. I have heard your noble words. I could not steal away pretending to be ignorant of what has affected me with such deep gratitude. Do not say it's over till the clock has struck again. She had entered shortly after Tackleton, and had remained there. She never looked at Tackleton, but fixed her eyes upon her husband, but she kept away from him, setting as wide a space as possible between them, and, though she spoke with most impassioned earnestness, she went no nearer to him even then. How different in this from her old self? No hand can make the clock, which will strike again for me the hours that are gone, replied the carrier with a faint smile. But let it be so, if you will, my dear. It will strike soon. It's of little matter what we say. I'd try to please you in a harder case than that. Well, muttered Tackleton, I must be off for the one the clock strikes again. It'll be necessary for me to be on my way to church. Good morning, John Peary-Bingle. I am sorry to be deprived of the pleasure of your company. Sorry for the loss, and the occasion of it, too. I have spoken plainly, said the carrier, accompanying through the door. Oh, quite. And you'll remember what I have said? Why, if you compel me to make the observation, said Tackleton, previously taking the precaution of getting into his chaise, I must say that it was so very unexpected that I'm far from being likely to forget it. The better for us both, returned the carrier. Goodbye. I give you joy. I wish I could give it to you, said Tackleton, as I can't. Thank you. Between ourselves, as I told you before, eh? I don't much think I shall have the less joy in my married life because May hasn't been too officious with me and too demonstrative. Goodbye. Take care of yourself. The carrier stood looking after him until he was smaller in the distance than his horse's flowers and favors near at hand. And then, with a deep sigh, went strolling like a restless, broken man among some neighboring elms, unwilling to return until the clock was on the eve of striking. His little wife, being left alone, sobbed piteously, but often dried her eyes and checked herself to say how good he was, how excellent he was, and once or twice she laughed, so heartily, triumphantly, and incoherently, still crying at the time, that Tilly was quite horrified. Oh, if you please don't, said Tilly, it's enough to dead and bury the baby. So it is, if you please. Will you bring him to me sometimes to see his father, Tilly? inquired her mistress, drying her eyes. When I can't live here and I have gone to my old home, oh, if you please don't, cried Tilly, throwing her head back and bursting out into a howl. She looked at the moment uncommonly like a boxer. Oh, if you please don't. Oh, why has everybody gone and been done with everybody, making everybody else so wretched? Oh! The soft-hearted slow boy, tailed off at this juncture, into such a deplorable howl, the more tremendous from its long suppression that she must infallibly have waked the baby and frightened him into something serious, perhaps convulsions, if her eyes had not encountered Caleb Plummer leading in his daughter. This spectacle, restoring her to a sense of the proprieties, she stood for some few moments silent, with her mouth wide open, and then, posting off to the bed on which the baby lay asleep, danced in a weird, St. Vitus manner on the floor, and at the same time, rummaged with her face and head among the bed-clothes, apparently deriving much relief from those extraordinary operations. Mary, said Bertha, not at the marriage. I told her you would not be there, Mom, whispered Caleb. I heard as much last night. But bless you, said the little man, taking her tenderly by both hands. I don't care what they say. I don't believe them. There ain't much of me, but that little should be torn to pieces sooner than I'd trust a word against you. He put his arms around her neck and hugged her, as a child might have hugged one of his own dolls. Bertha couldn't stay at home this morning, said Caleb. She was afraid, I know, to hear the wedding bells ring, and couldn't trust herself to be so near to them on their wedding-day. So he started in good time, and came here. I've been thinking of what I've done, said Caleb, after a moment's pause. I've been blaming myself till I hardly knew what to do, or where to turn. For the distress of my mind I have caused her. And I've come to the conclusion that I'd better, if you'll stay with me, Mom, the while. Tell her the truth. You'll stay with me awhile? He inquired, trembling, from head to foot. I don't know what effect it may have upon her. I don't know what she'll think of me. I don't know that she'll ever care for her poor father afterwards. But it's best for her that she should be undeceived, and I must bear the consequences as I deserve. Mary said, Bertha, where is your hand? Ah, here it is, here it is. Pressing it to her lips with a smile and drawing it through her arm. I heard them speaking softly among themselves last night of some blame against you. They were wrong. The carrier's wife was silent. Caleb answered for her. They were wrong, he said. I knew it, cried Bertha proudly. I told them so. I scorned to hear a word. Blame her with justice. She pressed the hand between her own, and the soft cheek against her face. No, I am not so blind as that. Her father went on one side of her, while Dot remained upon the other, holding her hand. I know you all, said Bertha, better than you think. But none so well as her, not even you, Father. There is nothing half so real and so true about me as she is. If I could be restored to sight this instant, and not a word were spoken, I would choose her from a crowd. My sister. Bertha, my dear, said Caleb, I have something on my mind. I want to tell you, while we three are alone, hear me kindly. I have a confession to make to you, my darling. A confession, Father? I have wandered from the truth, and lost myself, my child, said Caleb, with a pitiable expression in his bewildered face. I have wandered from the truth, intending to be kind to you, and have been cruel. She turned her wonder-stricken face towards him, and repeated, Cruel! He accuses himself too strongly, Bertha, said Dot. You'll say so presently. You'll be the first to tell him so. He cruel to me, cried Bertha, with a smile of incredulity. Not meaning it, my child, said Caleb, but I have been, though I never suspected it till yesterday. My dear, blind daughter, hear me and forgive me. The world you live in, heart of mine, doesn't exist as I have represented it. The eyes you have trusted in have been false to you. She turned her wonder-stricken face towards him, still, but drew back, and clung closer to her friend. Your rodent life was rough, my poor one, said Caleb, and I am meant to smooth it for you. I have altered objects, changed the character of people, invented many things that never have been to make you happier. I have had concealments from you, put deceptions on you, God forgive me, and surrounded you with fancies. But living people are not fancy, she said hurledly, and turning very pale, and still retiring from him. You can't change them. I have done so, Bertha, pleaded Caleb. There is one person that you know, my dove. Oh, Father, why do you say I know? What in whom do I know? I, who have no leader, I so miserably blind. In the anguish of her heart she stretched out her hands as if she were groping her way, then spread them in a manner most forlorn and sad upon her face. The marriage that takes place today, said Caleb, is with a stern, sordid, grinding man, a hard master to you and me, my dear, for many years, ugly in his looks and in his nature, cold and callous always, unlike what I have painted him to you in everything, my child, in everything. Oh, why, cried the blind girl, tortured as it seemed, almost beyond endurance, why did you ever do this? Why did you ever fill my heart so full, and then come in like death and tear away the objects of my love? Oh, heaven, how blind I am, how helpless and alone! Her afflicted father hung his head, and offered no reply but in his penitence and sorrow. She had been but a short time in this passion of regret when the cricket on the hearth, unheard by all but her, began to chirp. Not merrily, but in a low, faint, sorrowing way. It was so mournful that her tears began to flow, and when the presence which had been beside the carrier all night appeared behind her, pointing to her father, they fell down like rain. She heard the cricket voice more plainly soon, and was conscious through her blindness of the presence hovering about her father. Mary, said the blind girl, tell me what my home is, what it truly is. It is a poor place, Bertha, very poor and bare indeed. The house will scarcely keep out wind and rain another winter. It is as roughly shielded from the weather, Bertha, dot continued in a low, clear voice, as your poor father in his sack cloth cloaked. The blind girl greatly agitated Rose, and led the carrier's little wife aside. Those presents that I took such care of, that came almost at my wish and were so dearly welcome to me, she said trembling. Where did they come from? Did you send them? No. Who then? Dot saw she knew already, and was silent. The blind girl spread her hands before her face again, but in quite another manner now. Dear Mary, a moment, one moment, more this way, speak softly to me. You are true, I know. You'd not deceive me now, would you? No, Bertha, indeed. No, I'm sure you would not. You have too much pity for me. Mary, look across the room to where we were just now, to where my father is, my father so compassionate and loving to me, and tell me what you see. I see, said Dot, who understood her well, an old man sitting in a chair and leaning sorrowfully on the back, with his face resting on his hand, as if his child should comfort him, Bertha. Yes, yes, she will, go on. He is an old man, worn with care and work. He is a spare, dejected, thoughtful, gray-haired man. I see him now, despondent and bowed down, and striving against nothing. But, Bertha, I have seen him many times before, and striving hard in many ways for one great, sacred object, and I honor his gray head, and bless him. The blind girl broke away from her, and throwing herself upon her knees before him took the gray head to her breast. It is my sight restored, it is my sight! She cried. I have been blind, and now my eyes are open. I never knew him, to think that I might have died and never truly seen the father who has been so loving to me. There were no words for Caleb's emotion. There is not a gallant figure on this earth, exclaimed the blind girl, holding him in her embrace, that I would love so dearly and would cherish so devotedly as this, the grayer and more worn, the dearer father. Never let them say I am blind again. There is not a furrow in his face, there is not a hair upon his head that shall be forgotten in my prayers and thanks to heaven. Caleb managed to articulate my bertha. And in my blindness I believed him, said the girl, caressing him with the tears of exquisite affection, to be so different, and having him beside me day by day, so mindful of me always never dreamed of this. The fresh, smart father in the blue coat bertha, said poor Caleb. He's gone. Nothing is gone, she answered. Dearest father, no. Everything here, in you. The father that I loved so well, the father that I never loved enough and never knew, the benefactor whom I first began to reverence and love because he had such sympathy for me. All are here in you. Nothing is dead to me. The soul of all that is most dear to me is here, here, with the worn face and the gray head. I am not blind, father, any longer. That's whole attention had been concentrated during this discourse upon the father and daughter. But looking now towards the little haymaker in the Moorish meadow, she saw that the clock was within a few minutes of striking, and fell immediately into a nervous and excited state. Father, said Bertha, hesitating, marry. Yes, my dear, returned Caleb. Here she is. There is no change in her. You never told me anything of her that was not true. I should have done it, my dear, I am afraid, returned Caleb, if I could have made her better than she was. But I must have changed her for the worse if I had changed her at all. Nothing could improve her, Bertha. Confident as the blind girl had been when she asked the question, her delight and pride in the reply, and her renewed embrace of Dot were charming to behold. More changes than you think for may happen, though, my dear, said Dot. Changes are the better, I mean. Changes for great joy to some of us. You mustn't let them startle you too much, if any such should ever happen and affect you. Are those wheels upon the road? You have a quick ear, Bertha. Are they wheels? Yes, coming very fast. I know you have a quick ear, said Dot, placing her hand upon her heart and evidently talking on as fast as she could to hide its palpitating state, because I have noticed it often, and because you were so quick to find out that strange step last night. Though why you should have said, as I very well recollect you did say, Bertha, whose step is that, and why you should have taken any greater observation of it than any other step, I don't know. Though, as I said just now, there are great changes in the world, great changes, and we can't do better than prepare ourselves to be surprised at hardly anything. End of Section 8. Section 9 of The Cricket on the Hearth by Charles Dickens. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. The Cricket on the Hearth by Charles Dickens. Caleb wondered what this meant, perceiving that she spoke to him no less than to his daughter. He saw her with astonishment so fluttered and distressed that she could scarcely breathe and holding to a chair to save herself from falling. The hair wheels indeed, she panted, coming nearer, nearer, very close. And now you hear them stopping at the garden gate. And now you hear a step outside the door, the same step, Bertha. Is it not? And now she uttered a wild cry of uncontrollable delight, and running up to Caleb, put her hands upon his eyes as a young man rushed into the room, and, flinging away his hat into the air, came sweeping down upon them. Is it over, cried Dot? Yes. Happily over? Yes. Do you recollect the voice, dear Caleb? Did you ever hear the like of it before, cried Dot? If my boy in the golden South Americas was alive, said Caleb trembling, he is alive, shrieked Dot, removing her hands from his eyes and clapping them in ecstasy. Look at him. See where he stands before you, healthy and strong, your own dear son, your own dear living, loving brother, Bertha. All honor to the little creature for her transports. All honor to her tears and laughter when the three were locked in another's arms. All honor to the heartiness with which she met the sunburnt sailor fellow with his dark streaming hair halfway, and never turned her rosy little mouth aside, but suffered him to kiss it freely, and to press her to his bounding heart. And honor to the cuckoo, too, bursting out of the trapdoor in the Moorish palace like a housebreaker and hiccuping twelve times on the assembled company as if he had got drunk for joy. The carrier, entering, started back, and well he might to find himself in such good company. Look, John, said Caleb exultingly. Look here, my own boy from the Golden South Americas, my own son, him that you fitted out and sent away yourself, him that you were always such a friend to. The carrier advanced to seize him by the hand, but recoiling as some feature in his face awakened a remembrance of the deaf man in the cart, said, Edward, was it you? Now tell him all, cried Dot, tell him all, Edward, and don't spare me, for nothing shall make me spare myself in his eyes ever again. I was the man, said Edward. And could you steel disguised into the house of your old friend for joining the carrier? There was a frank boy once. How many years is it, Caleb, since we heard that he was dead, and had it proved, we thought? Who never would have done that? There was a generous friend of mine once. More a father to me than a friend, said Edward, who never would have judged me, or any other man unheard. You were he, so I am certain you will hear me now. The carrier, with a troubled glance at Dot, who still kept far away from him, replied, Well, that's but fair, I will. You must know that when I left here a boy, said Edward, I was in love, and my love was returned. She was a very young girl, who perhaps, you may tell me, didn't know her own mind, but I knew mine, and I had a passion for her. You had, exclaimed the carrier, you! Indeed I had, returned the other, and she returned it. I have ever since believed she did, and now I am sure she did. Heaven help me, said the carrier, this is worse than all. Constant to her, said Edward, and returning full of hope after my hardships and perils to redeem my part of our old contract, I heard twenty miles away that she was false to me, that she had forgotten me, and bestowed herself upon another and a richer man. I had no mind to reproach her, but I wished to see her, and prove beyond dispute that this was true. I hoped she might have been forced into it against her own desire and recollection. It would be small comfort, but it would be some, I thought, and on I came, that I might have the truth, the real truth, observing freely for myself and judging for myself, without obstruction on the one hand, or presenting my own influence, if I had any, before her on the other. I dressed myself unlike myself. You know how, and waited on the road, you know where. You had no suspicion of me, neither had had she, pointing to Dot, until I whispered in her ear at that fireside, and she so nearly betrayed me. But when she knew that Edward was alive and had come back, sobbed Dot, now speaking for herself, as she had burned to do all through this narrative, and when she knew his purpose, she advised him by all means to keep his secret close, for his old friend John Peary Bingo was much too open in his nature, and to clumsy in all artifice, being a clumsy man in general, said Dot, half laughing and half crying, to keep it for him. And when she, that's me, John, sobbed the little woman, told him all, and how his sweetheart had believed him to be dead, and how she had at last been over persuaded by her mother into a marriage with the silly, dear old thing called advantageous, and when she, that's me, again, John, told him that they were not yet married, though close upon it, and that it would be nothing but a sacrifice if it went on, for there was no love on her side. And when he went nearly mad with joy to hear it, then she, that's me again, said she would go between them, as she had often done before in old times, John, and would sound his sweetheart. And be sure that what she, me again, John, said and thought was right, and it was right, John, and they were brought together, John, and they were married, John, an hour ago, and here's the bride, and gruff and tackleton may die a bachelor, and I'm a happy little woman, may God bless you. She was an irresistible little woman, if that be anything to the purpose, and never so completely irresistible as in her present transports. There never were congratulations so endearing and delicious as though she lavished upon herself and on the bride. Amid the tumult of emotions in his breast, the honest carrier had stood confounded. Nothing now towards her thought stretched out her hand to stop him and retreated as before. No, John, no, hear all, don't love me any more, John, till you've heard every word I have to say. It was wrong to have a secret from you, John, I'm very sorry. I didn't think at any harm till I came and sat down by you on the little stool last night. But when I knew, but what was written in your face, that you would see me walking in the gallery with Edward, and when I knew what you had thought, I felt how giddy and how wrong it was. But oh, dear John, how could you? Could you think so? Little woman, how she sobbed again, John Pearybingle, would have caught her in his arms, but no, she wouldn't let him. Don't love me yet, please, John, not for a long time yet. When I was sad about this intended marriage, dear, it was because I remembered May and Edward such young lovers, and I knew that her heart was far away from Tackleton. You believe that now, don't you, John? John was going to make another rush at this appeal, but she stopped him again. No, keep there, please, John, when I laugh at you, as I sometimes do, John, and call you clumsy and a dear old goose in names of that sort, it's because I love you, John, so well, and take such pleasure in your ways, and wouldn't see you altered in the least respect to have you made a king tomorrow. Harroir, said Caleb with unusual vigor, my opinion, and when I speak of people being middle-aged and steady, John, and pretend that we are a humdrum couple going on in a jog trot sort of way, it's only because I'm such a silly little thing, John, that I like sometimes to act as a kind of play with baby and all that, and make believe. She saw that he was coming and stopped him again, but she was very nearly too late. No, don't love me for another minute or two, John, if you please, wait. What I want most to tell you, I have kept to the last. My dear, good, generous John, when we were talking the other night about the cricket, I had it on my lips to say that at first I did not love you quite so dearly as I do now. When I first came home here, I was half afraid that I might learn to love you every bit as well as I had hoped and prayed I might, being so very young, John. But dear John, every day and hour I loved you more and more, and if I could have loved you better than I do, the noble words I heard you say this morning would have made me. But I can't. All the affection that I had, it was a great deal, John, I gave you, as you well deserve, long, long ago, and I have no more left to give. Now, my dear husband, take me to your heart again. That's my home, John, and never, never think of sending me to any other. You will never derive so much delight from seeing a glorious little woman in the arms of a third party as you would have felt if you had seen Dot run into the carrier's embrace. It was the most complete, unmitigated, soul-fraught little piece of earnestness that you ever beheld in all your days. You may be sure the carrier was in a state of perfect rapture, and you may be sure that Dot was likewise, and you may be sure they all were, inclusive of Miss Slowboy, who wept copiously for joy, and wishing to include her young charge in the general interchange of congratulations handed round the baby to everybody in succession, as if it were something to drink. But now the sound of wheels was heard again outside the door, and somebody exclaimed that gruff and tackleton was coming back, speedily that worthy gentleman appeared, looking warm and flustered. Why, what the devil's this, John Perrybingle, said tackleton, there's some mistake. I appointed Mrs. Tackleton to meet me at the church, and thou swear I passed her on the road on the way here. Oh, here she is. I beg your pardon, sir. I have the pleasure of knowing you, but if you can do me the favor to spare this young lady, she has a rather particular engagement this morning. But I can't spare her, returned Edward. I couldn't think of it. What do you mean, you vagabond, said Tackleton? I mean that, as I can make allowance for your being vexed, returned the other with a smile, I am as deft to the harsh discourse this morning as I was to all discourse last night, the look that Tackleton bestowed upon him, and the start he gave. I am sorry, sir, said Edward, holding out May's left hand, and especially the third finger. But the lady can't accompany you to church, but as she has been there once this morning, perhaps she'll excuse her. Tackleton looked hard at the third finger, and took a little piece of silver paper, apparently containing a ring from his waistcoat pocket. Miss Slow Boy, said Tackleton, we have the kindness to throw that in the fire. Thank you. It was a previous engagement, quite an old engagement, that prevented my wife from keeping her appointment with you. I assure you, said Edward. Mr. Tackleton will do me the justice to acknowledge that I revealed it to him faithfully, and that I told him many times I never could forget it, said May blushing. Oh, certainly, said Tackleton. Oh, to be sure. Oh, that's all right. It's quite correct. Mrs. Edward Plummer, I infer. That's the name, returned to the bridegroom. Ah, I shouldn't have known you, sir, said Tackleton, scrutinizing his face narrowly, and making a low bow. I give you joy, sir. Thank you. Mrs. Peary Bingle, said Tackleton, turning suddenly to where she stood with her husband. I'm sorry. You haven't done me a very great kindness, but upon my life I am sorry. You are better than I thought you. John Peary Bingle, I am sorry. You understand me. That's enough. It's quite correct, ladies and gentlemen all, and perfectly satisfactory. Good morning. With these words he carried it off and carried himself too, merely stopping at the door to take the flowers and favors from his horse's head, and to kick that animal once in the ribs, as a means of informing him that there was a screw loose in his arrangements. Of course it became a serious duty now to make such a day of it as should mark these events for the high feast and festival in the Peary Bingle calendar for evermore. Accordingly, Dot went to work to produce such an entertainment as should reflect undying honor on the house and on everyone concerned. And, in a very short space of time, she was up to her dimpled elbows and flower, and whitening the carrier's coat every time he came near her by stopping to give him a kiss. That good fellow washed the greens and peeled the turnips and broke the plates and upset iron pots full of cold water on the fire, and made himself useful in all sorts of ways, while a couple of professional assistants hastily called in from somewhere in the neighborhood, as on a point of life or death, ran against each other in all the doorways and round the corners, and everybody tumbled over tilly slow boy and the baby everywhere, till he never came out in such force before, who ubiquity it was a theme of general admiration. She was a stumbling block in the passage at five and twenty minutes past two, a man trap in the kitchen at half past two precisely, and a pitfall in the garret at twenty-five minutes to three. The baby's head was, as it were, a test and touchstone for every description of matter, animal, vegetable, and mineral. Nothing was in use that day that didn't come, at some time or other, in close acquaintance with it. Then there was a great expedition set on foot to go to find Mrs. Fielding and to be dismally penitent to the excellent gentleman, and to bring her back by force if needed to be happy and forgiving. And when the expedition first discovered her, she would listen to no terms at all but said, an unspeakable number of times, that ever should she have lived to see the day, and couldn't be got to say anything else except, now carry me to the grave which seemed absurd on account of her not being dead or anything at all like it. After a time she lapped into a state of dreadful calmness, and observed that when that unfortunate train of circumstances had occurred in the indigo trade, she had foreseen that she would be exposed during her whole life to every species of insult incontumely, and that she was glad to find it was the case, and begged they wouldn't trouble themselves about her for what she would hold to her nobody, but would forget that such a being lived and would take their course in life without her. From this bitterly sarcastic mood she passed into an angry one, in which she gave vent to the remarkable expression that the worm would turn if trodden on, and after that she yielded to a soft regret and said, if they had only given her their confidence, what might she not have had it in her power to suggest? Taking advantage of this crisis and her feelings, the expedition embraced her, and she very soon had her gloves on, and was on her way to John Peary Bingles in a state of unimpeachable gentility, with a paper parcel at her side containing a cap of state almost as tall and quite as stiff as a miter. Then there were Dot's father and mother to come in another little chaise, and they were behind their time, and fears were entertained, and there was much looking out for them down the road, and Mrs. Fielding always would look in the wrong and morally impossible direction, and, being apprised thereof, hoped she might take the liberty of looking where she pleased. At last they came, a chubby little couple, jogging along in a snug and comfortable little way that quite belonged to the Dot family, and Dot and her mother, side by side, were wonderful to see, they were so like each other. Then Dot's mother had to renew her acquaintance with May's mother, and May's mother always stood on her gentility, and Dot's mother never stood on anything but her active little feet. An old Dot, so to call Dot's father, I forgot it wasn't his right name, but never mind, took liberties and shook hands at first sight, and seemed to think a cap but so much starch and muslin, and didn't defer himself at all to the indigo trade, but said there was no help for it now, and, in Mrs. Fielding's summing up, was a good-natured kind of man, but coarse, my dear. I wouldn't have missed Dot, doing the honors in her wedding-gown, my benison on her bright face, for any money. No, nor the good carrier, so jovial and so ruddy, at the bottom of the table, nor the brown, fresh sailor fellow and his handsome wife, nor any one among them, to have missed the dinner would have been to miss as jolly and stout a meal as a man'd need eat, and to have missed the overflowing cups in which they drank the wedding-day would have been the greatest miss of all. After dinner, Caleb sang the song about the sparkling bowl, as I'm a living man, hoping to keep so for a year or two, he sang it through. And by the by the most unlooked-for incident occurred, just as he finished the last verse. There was a tap at the door, and a man came staggering in without saying with your leave, or by your leave, with something heavy on his head. Setting this down in the middle of the table, symmetrically in the center of the nuts and apples, he said, Mr. Tackleton's compliments, and as he hasn't got no use for the cake himself, perhaps you'll eat it. And with those words he walked off. There was some surprise among the company, as you may imagine. Mrs. Fielding, being a lady of infinite discernment, suggested that the cake was poisoned, and related a narrative of a cake which, within her knowledge, had turned a seminary for young ladies blue, but she was overruled by acclamation, and the cake was cut by May with much ceremony and rejoicing. I don't think anyone had tasted it when there came another tap at the door, and the same man appeared again, having under his arm a vast brown paper parcel. Mr. Tackleton's compliments, and he's sent a few toys for the babby, they ain't ugly. After the delivery of which expressions, he retired again. The whole party would have experienced great difficulty in finding words for their astonishment, even if they had had ample time to seek them. But they had none at all, for the messenger had scarcely shut the door behind him when there came another tap, and Tackleton himself walked in. Mrs. Peary Binkle, said the toy merchant, hat in hand. I'm sorry. I'm more sorry than I was this morning. I've had time to think of it. John Peary Binkle, I am sour by disposition, but I can't help being sweetened more or less by coming face to face with such a man as you. Caleb, this unconscious little nurse gave me a broken hint last night, of which I have found the thread. I blushed to think how easily I might have bound you and your daughter to me, and what a miserable idiot I was when I took her for one. Friends, one and all, my house is very lonely tonight. I have not so much as a cricket on my hearth. I have scared them all away. Be gracious to me. Let me join this happy party. He was at home in five minutes. You never saw such a fellow. What had he been doing with himself all his life, never to have known before his great capacity of being jovial? Or what had the fairies been doing with him to have affected such a change? John, you won't send me home this evening, will you, whispered Dot? He had been very near it, though. There wanted but one living treacher to make the party complete, and in the twinkling of an eye there he was, very thirsty, with hard running and engaged in hopeless endeavors to squeeze his head into a narrow pitcher. He had gone with the cart to its journey's end, very much disgusted with the absence of his master, and stupendously rebellious to the deputy. After lingering about the stable for some little time, vainly attempting to incite the old horse to the mutinous act of returning on his own account, he had walked into the tap room and laid himself down before the fire. But suddenly yielding to the conviction that the deputy was a humbug and must be abandoned, he had got up again, turned tail, and come home. There was a dance in the evening, with which general mention of that recreation I should have left it alone, if I had not some reason to suppose that it was quite an original dance, and one of a most uncommon figure. It was formed in an odd way, in this way. Edward, the sailor fellow, a good free dashing sort of fellow he was, had been telling them various marvels concerning parrots and mines and Mexicans and gold dust, and all at once he took it in his head to jump up from his seat and propose a dance. For Bertha's harp was there, and she is such a hand upon it as you seldom hear. Dot sly little piece of affection when she chose said her dancing days were over, I think because the carrier was smoking his pipe and she liked sitting by him best. Mrs. Fielding had no choice, of course, but to say her dancing days were over. After that, and everybody said the same except May, May was ready. So May and Edward get up, amid great applause, to dance alone, and Bertha plays her liveliest tune. Well, if you'll believe me, they had not been dancing for five minutes when suddenly the carrier flings his pipe away, takes Dot round the waist, dashes out into the room and starts off with her, toe and heel, quite wonderfully. Tackleton no sooner sees this than he skims across to Mrs. Fielding, takes her round the race and follows suit. Old Dot no sooner sees this than up he is, all alive, whisks off Mrs. Dot into the middle of the dance and is foremost there. Caleb no sooner sees this than he clutches tilly Miss Slowboy by both hands and goes off at score. Miss Slowboy, firm in the belief that diving hotly in among other couples and affecting any number of concussions with them is your only principle of footing it. Hark! How the cricket joins the music with its chirp, chirp, chirp! And how the kettle hums. But what is this? Even as I listen to them blithely and turn towards Dot for one last glimpse of a little figure, very pleasant to me, she and the rest have vanished into air and I am left alone. A cricket sings upon the hearth. A broken child's toy lies upon the ground. And nothing else remains. End of Section 9.