 Hey, hi bitches. My name is freaking stressed right now because yesterday I recorded a video It was the same type of video. I cooked a pumpkin pie banana bread Mashed potatoes the whole Thanksgiving meal and I forgot to turn that mic on that thing right there that thing that makes audio Real wasn't there and as much as I want to do a voiceover because I'm home I didn't bring my mic with me and I didn't realize airpod microphones are actually Terrible Apple you should work on that, but I had a choice either I Freak out be sad like last week and not upload because I was too dramatic or I make another version get this video later And have it be better So we're gonna be making some chocolate chip cookies But first I'm going to cover my head because I got a haircut and I'm insecure about it And second I just want to say if you want to support me make sure to buy my Christmas merch because it's still currently on sale And it's gonna stop being on sale tomorrow get it while you can because it's 15% off right now And some things are 30% off and it's a good way to support creators also hit the notification But because only 4% of y'all are getting notifications that ain't right I see you not clicking the bell button right now go click it click it All right now let's start I have made chocolate cookies for about two years now and they've always been vegan because I Would want to die so I thought why not make some chocolate chip cookies today for my family before I leave and so I can Bring some home back to college, but also because chocolate chip cookies are just like the best comfort food in my opinion I mean you see the title. I know a lot of us are going through that time of year I mean November has never been my year and we can talk about it. This is gonna be a talk show today I'm giving you food network quality. Okay. Hi. I'm read Roman welcome to my cooking show We're all I do is make fatty things with butter in them. Okay, so I'm gonna take this original recipe. It's the family tradition It's on the back of a Wegmans chocolate chip bag. This should take one hour I would I want one hour to do this, okay? Because yesterday took six and I'm tired of that baking soda. No, this is not okay My mom just likes these cups no extract salt secret ingredient maple syrup some butter coconut oil spray two large eggs white sugar brown sugar Where my mom put the flour I mean why my mom has the flour in a plastic bag Oh to plastic bags actually measuring things Liquid cup measure to large mixing bowls silicone thing in an electric hand mixer. All right first step I'm gonna warm up the butter as she's a little Solid right now just just five seconds Let's do ten seconds. Oh How can I forget my trusty chopsticks, right? So get your bowl. We're going to put in one cup of butter. Oh, this is like half melted butter half Think of butter. It's so much fat. Holy shit My hands are now moisturized next you're gonna put in two large eggs watch. It's very easy one hit Correct. Don't squeeze it over the freaking bowl like a maniac. There's a level of poise to my cooking. Welcome to my cooking show This is my food number to sponsor me and then you're gonna put in the sugar So one cup brown sugar firmly pack it by the way, you don't know what that means. You just want to literally pack it in And next up we're gonna get one cup of granulated sugar wagmons. You might as well sponsor me too because this is from your store So while I'm here, let's talk about why I'm Going through my seasonal depression right now November has not is not and will never be my month I realized let me know if you can relate. I think my November crisis has started since sophomore year I was dating someone who wasn't good for me at the time come junior year I was dating someone who wasn't good for me at the time and then senior year. I got broken up with and now I'm suddenly not liking the idea of being single again Maybe it's a pattern. I don't know ever think about that for a drink. Nope another thing that's happened to me in November I always got insecure about my YouTube that's like every other day So I can't really blame that on November, but I find it's so weird that Every year my boy troubles start in November and they end by January so this year I'm just thinking you know what I'm gonna wait it out. I don't want to deal with this shit I just need to not let it get to my head because every other time it has Oh, by the way last year in November was also the time when I was not completely over my ex I mean he was like my first real boyfriend So I'm still not over him or on good terms, but there's always the first love problems You know, okay, there are chunks of butter in here that I cannot seem to fix you're gonna add one teaspoon of vanilla extract Oh, this is maple syrup Well, you're gonna add like two teaspoons of maple syrup because that's a secret ingredient I like teaspoon of vanilla extract maybe some more maple syrup It's a little more because this says use two tablespoons of water and you know what I don't believe in that I think you need like one tablespoon And now it smells like alcohol and sugar like can you get drunk off of don't do this by the way There's 41% alcohol in here. You could easily die from drinking too much of that All right, so now you're gonna beat this until it's well incorporated because the butter is being stupid And it's starting to this word coagulate turn solid again emulsify You know what? I don't know the word but if you ever feel like the silicone spatula isn't enough just go hardcore And push the sides back in Oh, that tastes good. Oh So once you feel like it's mixed enough hit the eject button Probably gonna need that again actually Whatever now in another mixing bowl, you're gonna start putting your dry ingredients in not the sugar because you need that to be inside The butter those butter dissolves sugar some science So two and a half cups of all-purpose flour one teaspoon baking soda One teaspoon of salt and this should be all of the ingredients now You're just gonna whisk this together using chopsticks, of course are doing this. Let's just talk about other things I've been going on in my life. I'm pretty sure you've all seen my podcast video Thank you by the way for the immense support in that video I didn't honestly did not expect that many people to be so accepting and understanding of it I just want to clarify. I did not do that video purposely to make people feel bad for not watching me It is not your fault for not wanting to watch me or not having the time you do not need to be sorry about that It's all on me like it's just my interpretation of The numbers so don't feel bad. Please. I don't want people to feel bad Okay, once that's done, you're gonna slowly start incorporating it into here. I've been watching gossip girl. Love that show I know it's so surprising. I of all people have not watched it It kind of triggers me because some of the stuff I really too too easily my favorite character is Eric by the way I think we all know why other than that though if anyone is going through their own seasonal depression right now It'll pass it's seasonal for a reason and I really wasn't a believer in it until You know researching more into it taking psychology as a class and realizing that this is very common I try not to admit it's a thing in my life though because I don't want it to be an excuse I don't want to use it as an excuse for being sad or like Lashing out on people and being upset because as long as I'm aware of it personally I know that I can be more aware of my feelings. I don't care how you deal with it I'm just telling you how I deal with it if I could give high school advice to anyone right now because I feel like a lot Of you in the same boat if you're a senior plan for college literally, it's fine Like don't worry about the college essay too much. Do not fear your SAT scores. A number does not define you It depends on you as a person, okay? I currently go to NYU and like some of my friends we all have different SAT scores And guess what none of us talk about it because it doesn't matter where we came from it matters Who we are now and I definitely was part of that group that was like really You know Anxious about my SAT. I wish I had someone who could just straight up tell me Frederick Don't worry about it And I know you have friends who are in your same grade who always try to say that but like they're in the same grade They they haven't gone to college yet. They can't tell you that I'm telling you right now I got into one college with a 1540 SAT calm down Okay, I did only apply to six though So that is another reason why and they were all IVs. Yeah, that's the reason that is because I was stupid I didn't apply to more because I didn't really care and if you care about your education I highly suggest you apply to ten colleges just to be safe It's much more than that being said I want everyone to apply to NYU because NYU is my favorite school The city is my campus. No, it's a good school. If you like New York City Okay, I'll clean that up later. It's snowing already you guys and yes I've been doing this for about like ten minutes now because I'm such a slow meticulous mixer I have to make sure every piece every molecule of flour has been fully incorporated into this freaking Mixture it's my cookies mean everything to me. By the way, we are gonna be putting in the dark chocolate morsels This is 70% by the way if I really want to be fancy right now I would mix my candy cane her she kisses with this I'm too lazy to get those or I can mix kick hats. I do have those No, I don't feel like chopping up kick hats. Okay. That's all the mixture in man I don't know if I should put kick hats or not. This is really confusing now. Okay, fine I'll put in some kick hats. You've convinced me hope everyone's Thanksgiving was okay I really wish I could show you guys the pumpkin pie video But that can be another project Asian kitchen because it was pretty hectic I mean I cooked three things in one video my mashed potatoes were bomb I'm basically marriage quality at this point. So once it gets about this texture I'd say if you can hold it and not have it like instantly slip off like that is staying on pretty well You're good now. We're gonna add these chocolate chips the whole bag all of it And that's when you got a really just get in there mix It looks like a lot, but trust me. It'll be fine in the end I'm sure there's not gonna be any room for kick hats in this, but am I still gonna do it? Of course, I am I got a whole bag because no one showed it to her doorstep for Halloween Ah, got your cutting board. I think I'm gonna use Eight kick hats ten kick hats. Oh my god. It's gonna take so long. You know what? I'm just gonna time-lapse this All right So because I have a brain now in order to not create a mess I'm gonna put them in this cup and I'm just gonna mash it from this cup Change of plans as I have a brain now We're gonna put in a Ziploc bag crush it in the bag and then put it This is how you let out everything that's been hurting you lately guys ready. This is for my great This is for the essay that I got a beat plus on don't worry. I got an a after this is for my beat plus on my midterm Even though I completely deserved it. This is for being single This is for that guy broke up with me the other guy who broke up with me and the one I broke up with I actually need a hammer 200 IQ this is an amazing idea and why you this is what you got okay? Like aren't you proud? We're so lucky to have a genius like me in the kitchen Okay, so some pieces are flying everywhere because I know I popped a hole in some point Yeah All right, so once they're like basically crumbs one splash of water just a little this smells Delectable like absolutely delicious. Holy crap. These are gonna taste amazing. I just know it already guys This is that positive mindset for 2020. All right, so because I'm a clean freak take two disposable gloves I'll empty out your oven first. See look. There's always there's always stuff in here. Oh Shit, I threw it away. I don't know the instructions now Bake 12 to 15 minutes Preheat to What 375? I never understood the point of preheating if anyone wants it You're hungry. My chocolate chip cookies are not done Oh, yeah, sure. They're gonna see you though. I don't My sister everyone No maker. No maker. You don't need makeup. Oh, yeah These are probably gonna turn into squares What'd you do? What'd you do? Spoon Oh, I didn't spray it Oh, I don't think I need to right now. This is so much butter and I put kick hats in here The white men's bag This set makes 36 cookies and I made 20 and once you're done, you take off your gloves like the medicine away And I'm just gonna wait for this to preheat much later Whoo, it's ready And then bake to 12 minutes Yeah, 12 minutes or 15 if you want them crunchy, which no one no one likes crunchy I gotta clean everything up now much much later cookies are done Now wait for them to cool down first Yeah, these look a little square. I'm the best chef in the world I am the Asian Golden Ramsay if anyone wants the recipes in the scripture So this is the end of video I'm not gonna read a coming out story because I keep forgetting to do them as always I keep these anonymous But these are just to inspire you so I think it all started in sixth grade when I liked two people Which their names are gonna be Bob and Patricia I sat near both of them and had the biggest crush on them at the time I was too scared to tell them flash forward to the end of sixth grade to when I finally asked my friend What it meant to like both girls and boys. He told me it was bisexual I questioned what he meant at first and then I realized I was right or he was right But I left out the bullying I got because of personal reasons, but there are a lot of anti-LGBTQ people in my school Let's just say what has happened to me has made me more sensitive and insecure about myself But thank you for being inspiration to me and everything does listen three well To this person. I'm sorry that happened to you, but thank you for sharing your story And I love you make some cookies. They make you feel better. Did you come? Okay, that's gonna be the end of the video if you enjoyed give it a like comment and subscribe for more videos every week I love you guys. Oh I love you guys and everything is less than three. They are included like that. What? No, I am