 haven't slept a wink and I caught some bug on the way back here I guess we still have to use masks in crowded settings I feel like I'm having a near-death experience and D and this is the topic of today's video and I want you to know I will not let death interfere with my daily schedule I will release videos for your edification and entertainment even post-mortem death and such other trifles will not prevent me from fulfilling my duty to humanity because I'm pro-social and communal and bloody sick if you ask me okay Shoshanim let's delve right into someone else's near-death experience a few days ago there was a fascinating study published mind you there were only four people involved but even saw the results were nothing less than startling these people were having a cardiac arrest followed by essentially death they died and they died while being connected to an electroencephalogram EEG machine machine that records the various types of waves in the brain and in two of these four people there was a burst of gamma wave activity gamma wave is a very interesting wave actually possibly the most important way gamma wave or gamma rhythm it's a kind of neural oscillation it's a frequency between 25 and 140 hills and gamma waves are correlated with what is called large-scale brain network activity also known as cognitive phenomena such as working memory attention perceptual grouping and consciousness yes gamma waves are the waves of consciousness and that's why we can modulate gamma waves via meditation or neuro stimulation we also observe an alteration in gamma wave activity in mood disorders cognitive disorders such as dementia alzheimer's epilepsy and schizophrenia so gamma wave seem to be super crucial when these people were dying as they were dying their heartbeat picked up and then their brain erupted with gamma waves it's as if they have regained consciousness at the very second of departing this world now reports of near-death experiences and I refer you to the two books by moody reports of near-death experiences have been around for like eternity these are people who clinically died whether their heart stopped the brain stopped they were pronounced dead and then suddenly returned from the dead to us to tell us about their experiences and the experiences were uniform and almost monolithic all over the world different cultures different societies different periods in history people reported the same having died and resuscitated or reborn or whatever you want to call it all of them describe or most of them described a white light visits from departed loved ones or meeting long deceased people people who passed away a long time before hearing voices and floor floating above one's body looking down as if from the ceiling looking down upon the medical proceedings the attempts at resuscitation the panic the urgency the emergency the blipping machines the IV drips the sweaty doctors the nurses they were it's as if it's a kind of astral voyage if you wish as if these people have abandoned their bodies down there and then soared to the ceiling and contemplated the whole scene in a kind of this interested way as if they were watching a movie there were no emotional reactions these this is the classic near-death experience a tunnel leading to white light meeting deceased or dead significant others floating above one's body hearing voices some of these voices carry messages messages of encouragement and so the new study was published in the proceedings of the National Academy of Science and it's I think the best of my knowledge is the first study to provide evidence of a surgical activity correlated with consciousness in a dying brain there were various scientists involved Bojijin and others and so Mashaur and others so if you want to look it up you can find it easily online now signatures of gamma activation were recorded before in the in the dying brains of animals and in people who suffered hypoxia a loss of oxygen following cardiac arrest Mashaur says how vivid experience can emerge from a dysfunctional brain during the post process of dying is a neuroscientific paradox dr. Bojijin has led an important study that helps shed light on the underlying neurophysiologic mechanisms says Mashaur I want to compare this nerd near-death experience to the experience of being a narcissist and may I remind you this is a first-hand account the narcissist is in a constant state of near-death experience constant he never emerges he is never resuscitated he is never reborn he's never resurrected he's in a limbo area between life and death about to die but not yet zombified but functional and so this constant state of NDE near-death experience is perceived by the narcissist as life itself the narcissist has no other experience of reality of life and of the world he inhabits an inner landscape of internal objects it's a kind of frozen nightmare he is absent from reality in contrast borderlines are in constant state of near-death experience as well but they are not absent from the world they're absent from their inner world so they're like mirror images and no wonder borderlines and narcissists fit well together it's like a lock and key so to summarize the narcissist inhabits an inner landscape and is divorced from reality borderline inhabits reality and is divorced from her inner landscape and both are in a state of kind of suspended suspended mental animation the abused and traumatized children who become later narcissists and borderlines were not allowed to become they were not allowed to self actualize these children were not allowed to separate to individuate to set boundaries to recognize the distinction between themselves and the world the indivisible so these children remain stuck in a phase that is partly symbiotic partly merged and fused and meshed usually with a maternal figure and partly emergent partly about to enter the world about to explore reality about to attempt to become distinct and yet they never make it abused and children abused and traumatized children who later become narcissists and psychopaths and sorry borderlines in adulthood never make it into becoming persons they don't acquire personhoods they do not develop develop an integrated self narcissists have no ego that's the irony look it up on my channel I have several videos about this issue narcissists have no ego no self same with borderlines and in this state of suspended mental animation borderlines and narcissists are already dead their bodies have to catch up with the psychological reality but psychologically they're dead they're dead inside it's a state of emptiness as Otto Kernberg had observed it's a state of an empty schizoid core as Jeffrey Seinfeld country Winnecott and many others he looks at at the core of the narcissist and at the core of this of the borderline there is no core there's no identity there's nobody there it's totally vacated it's a void it's deep space it's a black hole and so whenever the narcissists or the borderline experience themselves they go through a near death experience they are near death because they are death reified the introjects in the narcissist mind represent significant figures the same way the typical near death experience patient meets up with deceased relatives the narcissist constantly interacts with internal objects and introjects that represent long departed significant others healthy people do it also it's the same happens with normal people but they also interact with external objects the narcissist is confined limited to interacting only with internal objects which represent dead departed object people that abandon him so the narcissist mind is a giant graveyard it's a cemetery of people who have passed through his life who passed through his life and then died or just walked up walked off walked away the narcissist's introjects and internal objects are his only reality and he wanders among them and he interacts with them as if they were alive but they're not alive of course they're figments they're fiction in other words they're all dead and he wanders dead among the dead dead talking to the dead a kind of psychic in his own world a medium and he tries to revive and resuscitate and resurrect these internal objects he tries to imbue them with life but he has no life to give because he is not the narcissist was not allowed to become there's nobody there there's no person there so there's nothing he can give sometimes the narcissist wants to give desperately attempts to give but there's no giver borderlines on the other hand depersonalized depersonalization is a dissociative mechanism it's the feeling that you're not inside your body it's as if your body does not belong to you it's an alien estranged entity borderlines go through this experience of depersonalization in sex very often borderlines depersonalized whenever they're stressed whenever they're anxious whenever they anticipate rejection humiliation and abandonment borderlines dissociation depersonalization derealization and amnesia resembles very much the way near-death experience typical patient hooverers above her body and observes the resuscitation attempts the near-death experience patient even mentally healthy one divorces her body exits her body floats above her body observes her body that's precisely what the borderline does does borderline clinically is in the state of near-death experience whenever she's stressed whenever she's attacked whenever she's anxious whenever she catastrophizes near-death experience is the most common experience of the narcissist and the psychopath and the borderline i don't know what's happening to me today with the psychopath maybe because borderline is a secondary cycle but okay near-death experience is the most common experience of the narcissist and the borderline both the borderline and the narcissist hear voices the same way a near-death experience patient does but the borderline and the narcissist do not misidentify or misconstrue their sources of the voices as external in other ways it's not a psychotic element it's not hyperreflexivity the near-death experience patient is actually clinically psychotic at the moment of death because he believes the voices are coming from the outside at least these are the reports given to us by people who have returned from the dead so there is an element of psychosis in near-death experience that is absent in narcissism and in borderline except in extremis except in extreme situations extreme situations the borderline and the narcissist become psychotic they have what we call psychotic micro episodes and there they converge with the typical near-death experience patient and they hear voices the same way he does all in all the narcissist experience of life itself is an experience of death the borderline's experience of life itself is an experience of death and they as opposed to classic near-death experience patients they never come back they never have hope to be revived or resuscitated or resurrected in borderline the prognosis is pretty good after age 45 the disorder itself can no longer be diagnosed but dysfunctional behavior patterns persist lifelong still borderline is a lot more optimistic as personality disorders go than narcissism the narcissist is utterly beyond hope and beyond redemption