 when she was diagnosed it tore you because as a man you're trained to take care of your family and you felt helpless. Talk to me about that because that that touched me more than anything. What did that what was that like for you? Well it's miserable. It's miserable. As a father and husband you're supposed to protect your family and and what made it even worse was my was my past with managing my brother who was always in trouble seemed like in the business and I could always work out his problems. Now for the first time I'm facing a situation.