 Oh, my red shirt is so very red. It's very red. I'm neatly dumb. Anybody around that wants to talk about their program this week and a little affliction that I'm having right now? I'm having an affliction. There's something wrong. I have to tell you the name of it before Oliver gets home. He's going to be walking in the door soon. He'll be walking in. Hi, Tracy. How are you today? House tricks. Hi, Roberta. Hi, Sue. Oh, I had to get in here and talk to you guys. I am, let me tell you that I have my new computer that I love and I will learn. But I am that girl. I am that person that... Hi, Barbara. I hope you can hang out for a few now. I have to tell you guys something before Oliver gets home. He walks home by himself. Hi, Ruth. Hi, everybody. Hello, everybody. I have to tell you two reasons why... three reasons why I'm here before... first thing before Oliver gets in here, okay? There is the tree. Okay, for those of you who don't remember from last year, I'm super OCD and I have a thing called ornophobia. It's in the medical books. You can look it up. If you look up ornophobia, there's going to be a big old picture of me that looks like a mugshot. I cannot look at my tree. I can't look at it because every time I look at it, I'm getting up and moving things around because, okay, first of all, this tree... this tree right here. See these lights right here? Ding, ding, ding, ding. Those are the three... every time an angel gets a wings, they ring a bell. Well, our tree... these three lights go off. Remember when Clarence, when they first show them going to heaven to get to Clarence for... why can't I think of his name? Why can't I think... why can't he give me Jimmy's name in the movie? Oh my gosh, how could... that's like not knowing Steve's name. Anyway, so you see the heavens and they have those stars that are bright. Okay, those are they right there. We can't get them fixed. Every year Steve says, this is the last year we're going to use this tree. It's still here. Okay, well, Mr. Oliver put all the ornaments in one spot here. Most of them are silver Lenox ones. And when we went to bed last night, Steve said, and I quote, if you hear a loud thud tonight, do not be alarmed. It's just the tree falling over from the weight of all the ornaments being on the front of the tree. Oh my gosh. Oh, over which area, Barbara? Down here? And that's the other thing that's horrible about this tree. The top of that tree, we have bought numerous stars, numerous tree toppers, you name it. We have purchased it. It's not a bad idea. And nothing will stay on there, which is why that hat is up there, but the minute Oliver gets home, he's going to need that hat to plop on his happy head. Because oh my gosh, it's that time of year. It's Christmas. It's his birthday. And he's one happy, very juvenated child. But this, I can't look at my tree. He's so cute. Man, Barbara, okay. So you guys have seen how big he's gotten. I'm telling you, ornophobia, I can't even barely look at it in my monitor. Everything needs to be spread out. And also what Steve doesn't understand, he last night stands back and he looks at it and he goes, look, I'm the tree is so full. Usually the tree isn't this full of ornaments. And I said, that's because every year after Christmas, we buy new ornaments that are on sale. My friend, we have more ornaments. So I can't look at my tree. So I thought, I'll come over here and look at you guys instead. I want to talk about the program too. I want to talk about something else. Oh, my new computer. Okay, I'm that girl. I know Apple gives lessons. I'll go have a lesson. I'm that girl that needs to turn something on and know how to do it. That's what I'm going to do. That's what I'm going to do, Barbara, because that's going to cover that up and that's what I did last year. You're on to me, lady. But I put too much on last year. I'm going to let Steve do it this year. Besides if I did it this year, I wouldn't be able to do it. So I'm going to do this where I sit down and talk about the topic that's on my mind, load it up here, and load it onto YouTube. And there's a huge learning curve with my Mac. I've had a Mac many before and know how to use them. It's just remembering how to do it. And it's also way more complicated than my little phone or my iPad. And I had to set it aside for a while, because I know today's vlogmas was so exciting that I'm sure I put whoever watched it to sleep. Whoever watched it probably had a lovely nap today. I know I did. But I just had set it aside and poor Steve keeps going, if you don't like it, we can take it back. And I'm like, no, it's not a matter of not liking it. It's a matter that I have the patience of a nap. I've just got to relax and learn how to do it. And I'm getting there. I just need to take my time. I'm not afraid of not being able to talk to you guys about the program. So here I am again, live. Somebody's going to hate it. The last live outdid the live before that with dislikes. It's like I'm going for a new record. I know Barbara. I know, I know, I know. And I watched him decorate it. I didn't say Oliver don't do that. And I even told Steve, as you saw if you watch my video today, I always give him this big poach pep talk. Now he's nine. It's his birthday. He's excited. Let him decorate the tree. It's just a Christmas tree. He's not going to be nine forever. And then here I am with ornophobia the next day. I'm getting hives and stuff. It's crazy. It's a real affliction. I'm telling you guys. I'm so... I want to see my shirt. So I know it's only Tuesday. But I want to come on and talk about the program because I haven't talked to anybody about the program because it's done computer stuff and Thanksgiving and all that. And I want to start off by asking you see, I'm not... I got to get back in my groove. Do you guys have your water? Because if you don't, you need to go get your water while we chit chat. I'm just waiting for him to storm in. He walks home, he walks to school and I could throw a rock and hit the school. So he's going to come bursting in here in a minute. He's going to be behind me going And I'm Thanks, Suze. Hi, Suze. So far, so good. I'm taking my program day by day. And as all of you guys know and I want to start off by telling my swells, you guys who listen to everything I say. Whenever I get on here and I'm honest about the fact that my weight comes because I enjoy a glass of wine or ten cocktails at a time. I'm always worried somebody is going to get on their high horse and message me or say something here, you know. And none of you guys do that. And I want to thank you for that because I don't need it. I don't need it and I don't need to explain myself to anybody. I just want to be honest about where my weight comes from. And I told you guys that during the holidays oh man, there's nothing better. And it's going to rain. I don't know if you can see up well but it looks like the sun but it's glare. It's going to start raining tonight and tell me the idea of sitting and enjoying it and putting on some Lou Rawls, you know, or some Ramsey Lewis. That's the kind of Christmas music I listen to with my dad. And having a snort is my idea of like a totally stress-free here he comes, here he comes. Oh, okay. It'll all end in a minute. Kitty, it's just Oliver. He's got to slam the door. Oliver, love. Why do you have to slam the door every time? You shouldn't. You do slam the door. And I did overtime when I worked at school so I had like two problems to do. Oh, that's fabulous. Yep. I'm on live just so you know. So don't cuss, light up a cigarette or you know, anything like that because it wouldn't be appreciated by anyone else. Nine-year-old knows my humor. You don't have to do it right now. I'm letting you off the hook. Oh, good job, my man. Go for it. You want to come over and say it? If you want me to take your offer, I just want to know why you're letting me off the hook. Because I'm on live and I'm talking to my friends and I'll distract you. You can't do your homework at the table without me distracting it. Okay, well they'll come over and knock them out and they'll come down. Oh, you've only been live for 10 minutes. Oh my gosh, you know how fast to do that. They're saying hi to you out there. Hi. 17, I have 17 whole people in the whole wide world. Wow, I know. Everybody's saying hi to you. Three people. But if I ever got... I get a lot of people if I got about three people on a stream but if I have nobody on the stream I'm like, oh that guy has nobody I'm not going to watch him. That guy. Barbara wants to know, come in here. Amy is saying hello and Cheryl, Barbara wants to know if you're ready for Christmas. Are you ready for Christmas? Yeah, I actually cannot believe it's already Christmas. Yeah, I keep saying that. Because it only happens once a year so it's like when it happens you're like I can't believe it's happening. And this is your 9th Christmas. This is my 57th Christmas. No, my 10th Christmas. This year because you're going to be 10 on this. Oh, you're right. It will be your 10th Christmas. My mistake. So yeah, your big 10 year old Christmas double digits baby. You want a lot of Star Wars stuff? Yeah, a lot of mostly stuff on my list is on Star Wars. And then I only put like I put a lot of stuff on the list. Obviously that was birthday and Christmas. So for Christmas I just Star Wars stuff. Alright, sit down and knock that out. I'm very proud of you. Get a thing out so that you don't get in the crack of the table, okay? Get a placemat out. And your pencil and your multiplication paper are on the bench over there. My boy now. Okay, so you're going to your workshop now. We're burning good luck. Hi, lady. So my teacher wasn't lucky so I just pulled out a pencil and did all the problems. Suzanne says hi, she's going to pick up her grandson in February. You're one month older than him. I have a lot of friends who are one month older than me. Yes. Oh, you have lipstick on your cheek. Yes, you do because I just kissed you. Oh. Alright, you do that. Let me finish. Personal mirror. I need to talk to my friends while they're here. Okay, so back to the question at hand. So I have not had any and I have made the conscious decision because I'm really you guys have heard me say before that I won't I don't have a lot of good things to say about myself but when there's some when there's some characteristic or something I can do that's good I will mention it and if I make a decision to do or in my case not to do something I'm pretty good at it. But I have to make that initial decision. I have to have that conversation with myself. Do you want to celebrate over the holidays? Is it worth it to you to keep looking in the mirror and having that pudge over your pants and all the things I see but is that stuff going to go away because you're getting older and it's not going to go away and I just I made the decision and it is hard at this time here especially when my husband's kicking back, you know Margaret is already his thing but I'm going to do it because come on over let's see. Okay. I want to get okay. There we go. Okay. Give me the red one. It matches my shirt. Did you see the shirt I'm wearing? Oh yeah, we're all Christmasy up in here. Yeah. Those are for grandpa. These? Whichever ones. Alright, so go do your homework. Let me talk. Or else my friends are going to leave and not here to watch us decorate ourselves. Okay. What was my point? So I've done well yesterday. I stayed exactly in my points at the end of the day. I had six miles in because I went to the park and walked but boy did I feel it today. This weather just kicks my arthritis into gear and my hips you know the pain was like okay but I'm going to keep going until I can't go anymore. My buddy Davina called she always calls me on her drive to work and we chit chat and I've talked about all this but I want to talk about it again because I want it to bring it to anybody's attention who may be going through it and they're not like acknowledging it. My back hurts my hips hurt. My body hurts. And you know when it stopped hurting last time when I took off at least 35 pounds I'm okay bub. I'm not like sick or anything. It's okay. I'm talking about old people hurt. So you know what I'm saying? You know what I'm saying burn? I'm not sick or anything. See you're not going to be able to do your homework with me talking over here. If you want to play for a while first you can but it's your choice. So I have to make this decision. Do I want to be able to go up my stairs comfortably and help Steve bring the boxes in and out or do I want to make him do it all himself because I'll tell you what when I was at my initial largest loss I was moving around a lot better and I am the only person who can do anything about that. I go to a doctor and get some pills and I can go get some lidocaine and lidocrine and hit some Ben gay and smell up the joint. But why not just take the weight off and do what I know works. I felt so good and so I'm just going to get back there. 10 pounds is so much Barbara and I don't have I don't have knee problems but when I have the weight on my knees they don't work as well as they should but my hips at the park yesterday when I was walking I mean I was like oh man and luckily I was on the phone with Divina and we just kept talking and I just kept walking and by the time the phone ran out of juice it was like okay in my car and home I have not walked yet today because this weather I know it looks like that's the sun but it's not it's glare it's going to start dumping rain on us tonight and I repeat myself so much and I apologize but with my sorry I have to go right I said also make me tired I was moving along so well this morning Oliver and I got up at I got up at five I got him up at six thirty we were grooving along doing our thing I haven't even had lunch I don't that's another thing I want to talk about so anyways let me pop in here I have not seen who's even here to say hi to apologize but if I don't get out when I'm here to talk about then I'll never talk about it because I could talk to you guys oh Ellie's at the gym right on good for you lady that's a good job hi Jessica Kim Shuge Kim she weighed in today lost two pounds very good and you were so worried after Thanksgiving because you were so uncomfortable with what you ate that's awesome lady I'm telling you you're ambassador material that's fantastic Amy Ann redheaded nurse you're here are you still here or did you just pop in and leave give me the secret sign I hope you're here we were talking about the ornophobia I was messaging you about water okay Jessica's got her water you're right I am a grown woman and it is my decision and you know what when people say things Barbara I know that they totally mean well and they mean well or they have people in their families that you know suffer from I'm gonna have to go into code mode okay girls code mode put on your listening ears as judge Judy would say have problems with such things and so they mean well and they say won't you but it's not the case with me I just like it and um thank you for respecting that I am an adult and as long as I'm not hurting myself my husband my grandson I mean I'm not looking in anybody's window saying you shouldn't do that right but sadly if I want to lose the weight it's out and that means okay so for me this is where you guys can help me um I'll be this week it'll be fine I'll be okay Friday night is when it's hard because Mr. Johnson comes home and it's Friday and he knows that I can be easily swayed and he'll say let's go to hi Katie in the UK oh thank you Sue oh he's gonna go about Friday night and say let's go to Don Cougos because Don Cougos is our go to on Friday night and uh I always have see and it's so it's so what's the word when when your things you're doing one thing that's so good but you're doing another thing that's not so good what's somebody give me the word for that where's my loo where's my dictionary you guys are the best um counterproductive counterproductive because I eat a piece of grilled chicken I do have to have guacamole now though because I can't have tomatoes anymore because of my hands interesting side note sidebar everybody sidebar since I've cut it tomatoes and built bars my hands are not as bad I know they don't look good but they're nowhere near as bad since I haven't had one single built bar franken food good tasting franken food but franken food nonetheless so we'll go to Don Cougos I'll get a piece of grilled chicken I'll have one chip just to knock the taste out of my mouth I'm not a big chip eater anyways I'll have one bite of his salad with the blue cheese and I'll have I don't know Barbara I've had it the hard way I've done some of them in my downstairs refrigerator and every time I eat one I get a flare up and then okay so I have this nice piece of grilled chicken little side of guacamole take a little bite from you know I'm doing so good Nita you're such a good white watcher you're such a good white watcher lady okay can I have the biggest long island ice tea no tequila extra vodka that you've got back there please it's like you know but when I do it look at me sitting here oh did Amy leave see me ma chips I'm lucky and I always have to preference the chips of any kind chips at the Mexican restaurant chips in my cupboard because I had I still I had teeth issues when I was younger with my back teeth so eating anything hard and crunchy just wasn't you know it wasn't doable almond butter flair is up almond butter flare up my inflammation and tomatoes oh almond better that's interesting to know Charlene I've never had it but that's good to know okay so Friday night okay so I'll have my chicken and I'll have my guacamole and I'll have my let's just say 20 point adult beverage well then Saturday night Steve's like well you already have one last night tonight and I'm very easily swayed so I just need to have a talk with him and maybe you know I don't know if you guys saw the other day where he and I were looking for old Christmas pictures because we have so much chit we could remember where everything went so we're like let's just look for the pictures and place the dang stuff where we had it last year and he said look how skinny you were and I was like oh I was wasn't I so I want to get back there not as skinny I don't want to get as skinny it was I looked a little I looked a little like I don't know somebody that I don't care for that I could say her name but none of you guys know who she is so my sister I believe is anorexic and she just looks like Fire Marshall Bill I don't want to look like Fire Marshall Bill I'm happy with just chips and chocolate let's see and that's the thing that I love about our community that everybody seems to respect that we all have our triggers we all have our things and mine is that chips for whoever the chips are I'm super lucky I'm super lucky with the chips in the soda because I was I was never a soda drinker when I have a stomach ache I'll have a 7up if somebody hands me a bottle of sea grooms I'll drink some 7 but I don't drink it daily I'm happy with my water are you guys having your water so anybody else how's everybody else doing this week self-sabotage so hard to battle and I never truly you know Barbara have you had a chance to try the Clio bar yet we're even interested I can't remember Oliver and I went to the start the story yesterday and dropped a bunch water and hand doing great so far good job Sue you can yes I had mine for the day but I still need to have lunch okay 0.4 that's awesome Lou now for a small snack and she got this and we got we ate we each ate a peanut butter one while we were shopping didn't we bub and it was so funny because we put the empty boxes in with those boxes and the cashier picked them up and she looked at him and she was truly perplexed she truly was like I said we ate them and and she said other five points on the purple and they're five points on the green plan to open on the purple plan you guys have so much less points absolutely right what are bill bars on the purple plan I have not heard that yet are they still three points 16 points you definitely want to watch your points it's been no it's like vanilla cheesecake so she picks up the boxes and she's looking at them and I said we ate them while we were shopping she goes do you want to save the boxes I said no you can throw them away I just wanted to make sure we paid for them so um yeah I don't know three points bill bars Jessica on the purple plan and is that something you'll take and you know it all depends on it all depends on what your bag is right and how many points you're going to take for something I'll take 20 points for an alcoholic beverage why you guys would be like are you out of your mind lady you know I use my weeklies I know I would never use my dailies but it's a matter of preference thank you Katie you know we don't have everything up yet and then I'm going to make one whole video of everything we're going to try to finish tonight it'll more likely be tomorrow night because my poor hubby has to do all the work I'm on green Bonnie I'm back to good old green which was always my favorite I lost 50 pounds on smart points when green was smart points and now smart points is green good Katie I hope so I've showed everybody my kitchen 500 million times but I love going in there in fact doing good now but we were tailgating over the weekend and the chips went out I saw that you were out there having fun at that game but you had a good time me ma and you know what we just got it it's so hard to make that decision isn't it on I'm going to take a breath I'm going to enjoy who I'm with I'm going to enjoy the game I might have a game but yeah it's just a matter of making that decision I'm trying purple right now it is so hard to track and plan I bet it is Bonnie have you done green before my app says built bar mix bar you can you Lou can you read out lab for the class apparently the teacher can't do it three points and directly under that it says chocolate PMB is for right it my app says built bar mixed box all flavors are three points oh yeah yeah that's right so all Lou all the bill bars are three points except for the chocolate which is for which is what you just told me so I'm just reiterating it because why not I enjoy the bill bars they're tasty I love the coconut it's been a long time since I had the regular ones I liked the brownie ones when everybody was like oh wow we're the fat burners I enjoy them very much fortunately my body does not and you know maybe that turned out to be a good thing for me no I've never done green I joined Weight Watchers of February so I've been on freestyle all this time okay got you okay never had a bill bar so I was confused well I'm here to help my friend I'm here to help Bonnie they're great they're awesome Mima they're really good they're super delicious and you know what I spent all this time on my last video talking about it so I won't do it this time but I did want to tell you that I found that I had a reaction to them which is a drag because three points is pretty good for something when you need a sweet so I've been getting just regular things at the market like the lucky charm rice crispy bars are four four points the Reese's do we have any of them in there bevelu the Reese's bar for Bonnie the peanut butter built or yeah you know they're okay I mean those three lights Barbara they're gonna get me oh my god um but yeah you know I'm just gonna take it day by day okay thanks Bonnie how's everybody else doing also I have to reiterate not only the chips and the soda but I don't bake cheese and cakes and everything for other people I have all of that going for me so when I see people struggling with all the norm of the holiday oh oh they're good Bonnie and for four points for me you know I have all those things going for me so I need to take advantage of that I need to take advantage that the norm of what lets folks struggle with I don't struggle with and just get a grip on what I do struggle with my favorite built is pumpkin only have one left oh I don't think I even knew they made pumpkin quest bars are no no for me too me mom but you know that I've told my story they're well just not good for the digestive system if you enjoy using the Lou on a daily basis they just for me they're like eating a brick and they sit right there and they keep anything else from passing Bonnie you're not alone you're not alone my friend lives over at 23 points a day she struggles with the dang sweets and her job sadly she's in a place where you guys are in offices in different places in the holidays especially in the healthcare business when the pharmaceutical reps come in and the people from everywhere and they're bringing in boat loads of seas candy and Russell Stover's and they bring in tons and tons of that stuff believe me when I was in pharmacy two three of the pharmacies I worked in were in medical buildings and every Christmas our pharmacy was just loaded with candies and cookies and cakes and everything and it's hard when you're at work to have that all sitting in front of you you know how good it tastes I have found let me know you guys if you're anything like this I have found that if I just tell if I just am like no I'm not having it I'm okay I'm not gonna have I'm not gonna just have a little piece of Disneyland track it move on I just can't have it at all I have to be that all or nothing out now I know somebody's gonna save but that's not what White Watchers is all about me to White Watchers about eating anything that you want don't cut out the things you enjoy I have to for me personally I made remember that time I made the four little mini pumpkin breads Barbara you might remember and I made the four mini pumpkin breads and I was like I can't find them and then I turned on the oven the next day and they were all still in there if I have bread I'll eat it all you know if I make a cake that cake mix and the pumpkin and it's so delicious I can't just eat one piece I so I can't have it in the house so that's my choice sometimes I get a little frustrated when I hear everybody has their views on things and for me if I know that's how I'm gonna be successful I'm happy with that I don't feel like I'm missing out on everything in the world if I don't have what you guys are saying for a minute because I'm just yakity yak yak in a way because of the ornophobia it's got me anxious Katie says that her downfall is savory snacks once I start I can't stop yeah that's hard it's hard and Lou girl says I would be screwed if I worked in an office and had that fashion on their goodies it's super hard man Mima says by the way Anita you mentioned gummy probiotics months ago I swear by those now don't go anywhere without them or I won't go so glad to know they helped somebody else besides myself and Katie you know if that's what works for us that's what works for us I have mad respect for the Weight Watchers Crip I look crap I love it all shoes says but I can do it it's a mindset shift that's exactly right and my mindset is if I'm gonna have any sugar not long at all no it took you two hours yesterday Jessica today you go boy Jessica says I'm great until the first bite have to say no to if we could all Barbara I think you should just be the queen of the world I dub the the queen of the world I work at home luckily stop stop stop I'm reading I work at home luckily but I live with my 11 year old and take care of my elder and mom good for you Bonnie and they both like the sweets and stuff and I don't need in the house I'm gonna touch on that in a second I know what you meant darling the truth Barbara hi Andrea minus 1.2 let's all give Andrea green two points today I'm telling you I mean everybody seems to be doing so great on all the programs Oliver do me a favor I want everybody to get a full shot of you stand watch out letting in the scoot scoot to the side okay stand back and let him see I guess it's kind of hard huh they see he's a he's a he's a big kid okay thank you I just wanted them to see how big you're getting since you're a big boy now watch out okay now I want to talk about what you can stand here and read if you want but that's what we're talking about okay you're welcome to stay here as long as you like um oh oh I was gonna talk about the sweets you know when I have them again code girls code code code when I have them in the house everybody knows and they're asking for them oh it's it's a video game Barbara Lipschyn you know what she was talking about that's pretty good if I don't have them in the house nobody says a word now the only thing that I will say about that is Steve has to have ice cream every night Oliver has a little bit with him I won't want you to distract in every video okay cause then they'll go oh we want an adult conversation but you're welcome to stay you can stay come here you can stay just don't be doing the floss hahaha um um um um how many times have I said um drinking game um anyways I wanted to go back to the all or nothing thing I know what works for me and that one week where I just was like screw it I'm gonna have whatever I want whenever I want every time I went to ride aid I stopped at the candy I picked up a Reese's thank you Bonnie um it was like okay I already had a Reese's I'm gonna have something else well I'm already that far I'm gonna have something I mean I was getting stuff that I don't normally even think of it was like okay I'm already let's go off go off go big and I just can't I can't be that way watcher that enjoys everything and lives life happily ever after it would be nice if I could but I can and it works beautifully for me for two years for two years I didn't have any what can you say I have two kids and as long as the fruit bowl is full of bananas apples they're happy just never have junk in the house as I can't resist it and Katie you know what I grew up in a house my mom never had any stuff in the house anything ever you know what Oliver said yesterday that was kind of funny all or nothing I have to do it for real ice cream there you go when we were looking at if you guys saw that picture I posted on Instagram of those gross ding dongs with the mint centers I think I'm gonna buy a box and do a video and give one to grandpa and I think what will taste him just to see how bad they are just for fun anybody wants to give me a thumbs up I'll take it I hate asking but somebody told me recently I'm supposed to ask but that's not why I'm here I'm here to talk and have friends so there I will always need to be vigilant my mom is from Uruguay and we never had junk as you couldn't buy it there and not an option and my mom was a heart nurse and she just didn't buy it we were lucky if we got like on Friday night was the big night we would get because her and my dad you know we're in the other family room having a snort so they would get us something from Jack in the Box and then for a treat we'd get like a ho ho remember the ho ho is you guys and that was it we did not have cookies in our lunch and that's okay and that's what I'm trying to do with this guy I try I did give him fruit I give him I'm kind of indulgent but I every morning Fig Newtons oh see Barbara I would love to have Fig Newtons in the house but I would eat them all oh they have one right now curses Barbara pass curses on you a pox upon your I don't know what to put a pox upon now I want a Fig Newton for eating Cheerios I was looking at him going those look yummy how could the food police get you for eating Cheerios Cheerios run simply feeling Cheerios are harmless excuse me for rubbing my nose out the guys oh they were good one thing you could do is share your baked goods with neighbors or Oliver's teacher I don't have any baked goods oh my gosh that's ridiculous Amy you know what I need to touch on this for a minute because it seems like the food police like to come after you and I don't know if it's always the same people but you can win because there's nothing wrong with a Cheerio it's it's not like you're sitting in there it is crazy that just bothers me I'm sorry because it's Fig Newtons are loaded with sugar they're still good though I know I bought some Fig bars at Costco think I scan everything I don't know what I thought but it was having them in the house I can't have them in the house I gotta get some Fig Newtons you guys hang on gosh Amy can you give us a little insight as to what I'm just curious what they particularly found wrong with eating Cheerios I know aren't they the best hmm I think I'm gonna get that box of winter green ding dong and just have a fun little video to see what kind of face everybody makes yeah let's all go over to Amy's Instagram and shame her on Cheerios that would be a good time it's just I'm sorry I'm not trying to be judgmental but it's stupid I do not care for the food police I do not care for the food police they said what about my goals and shouldn't I eat an apple and drink water instead well shouldn't you huh huh bye Sue thanks for popping in great evening you know what I am not a goal person you know me you guys all know me we've been friends for a super long time now you've never seen me sit in Eagle the thing is I had an apple you know I'm just glad you have thick skin well you don't always have thick skin but that's not worth getting upset over I hope you're not because that's just kind of food police oh I can't stand the food police when I talk about foods like when I talk about built bars I'm only talking about myself because you guys have seen my last year and the hell see I've got to learn how to do that you need to teach me how to do that stay in their own lane Barbara I like to tell them stay in your own lane you do if it's working for you have at it man but again I love the built bars and when I'm talking about them in a negative connotation it's only for myself oh gosh okay we gotta make Amy feel better okay Amy you know what at least you weren't eating cocoa puffs lucky charms you weren't eating lucky charms maybe you should tomorrow I'll be a block them oh me ma oh I'm sorry no we don't deserve anything for being online okay so now you're making me take a serious turn we're putting ourselves out there a lot of what we're doing is helpful to other people or so they tell us they tell us that we motivate them ideas um that doesn't mean more fair game to be shamed or have unkind things said to us there's no need for that and I exactly Bonnie that is the beauty of WWE but some people just can't stay in their own lane and they hang on to things like I'll say something like I don't know I can't think that fast because I like alcohol I'll say something like I am not having any alcohol for a week and then you know you can eat anything just not everything but in some cases that's hard like going back to the sweets I can't eat any of them or else I'll eat all of them I don't know and track it I track every single thing that goes in my mouth I don't know going back to the online thing just because we choose to do this it doesn't mean we deserve to be treated poorly that's all I'm saying because it's so easy not to watch us if they don't agree with something we're eating or not eating or you know there's no excuse especially when it's you and you're so unoffensive it's just kind of those lights here I know I'm just going to sit like this from now on cheerios are great but I'm simply feeling Amy did you pour chocolate milk over your cheerios because that I would have a problem with Barbara there's people out there that pick on all of us you'd be amazed at some of the messages you shouldn't we all enjoy your videos too I hope you're not stopping this you know and I think this is the most unoffensive community there is you shouldn't see where the poor Disneyland people go through people are so people are just judgmental period and it's too bad and it's a shame and now I want now I want to drown my sorrows and some fig mutin oh my teeth why didn't you guys tell me am I out of there this whole time that's rude I'm sorry I'm out of water oh good editing the dreaded editing I gotta figure out a way to do this now Molly was telling me like I do that she'll like do it on her phone bounce it to her MacBook bounce it on her iPad until she's finally somewhere she's comfortable and I might have to do that you know what Amy I don't mind the editing so much it's just this learning on this new computer what's editing remember when I started I didn't edit anything anything and you know what it's too bad that we can't get together because I could help you with your camera you could help me with my computer I think you have a MacBook aren't you because the camera is easy you just need to cut the wifi and the bluetooth put the dial on the video boom and you're ready to go no you're welcome can Asher or Judah Asher or Judah or Dakota help you over the holidays maybe I love my camera and with my hands it's easier to hold oh meanwhile you have a MacBook do you do you edit on your MacBook oh my gosh what I would what I would do to be able to get in Star Trek and just zap down to one of your guys's couches with my MacBook so you could help me I'm getting there I just need to be more patient and I don't have any patients but I did figure something out today also as long as I have the 23 of you here that are here if you choose to watch any of my vlogmas stuff 99% of it is me trying to figure out the editing so it's not okay I have done all my editing Mima on I movie on my phone and on my iPad whizzed through it loved it but I'm having a heck of a time on my MacBook and I don't know if it's because now I'm using a mouse and clicking and I keep forgetting to drag and because I've only had Apple products I've never had other kind but I just need to be patient I love an edited video Katie oh man you should have seen me back when I started I would just sit and be like Ferdinand in the bull sitting in my field and I just doze off for seconds at a time people are sitting there going tic-tac hahaha but Lou I don't want to get like all serious and stuff but it just makes me feel stupid I was in tears yesterday um Mima says my husband uses Adobe Premiere Elements on his MacBook you know if I had a husband who even did anything other than text and could help me that might help but yesterday I kept trying to do things just the simplest of things I was just trying to import my pictures and just cut some parts out that's all I was trying to do I wasn't trying to get fancy I wasn't trying to do music and I was I was in tears I messaged Shari I motivated Muffins and I was just bawling and I'm like I'm so stupid I can't do this and then Steve sees me like then he's like well do you want to take it back and then I get mad and I'm like no I need to learn how to do this but I just I need to give myself some grace I know but it's it's hard when you get so excited to get something so you can do some fun decent editing just so you're super sweet there's no crying in YouTube that's what I've been doing Barbara there's this one guy and I've watched his video over and over and over again so I was able to figure out some stuff but it's very you know okay here's the problem I'm having with me mom Barbara maybe you guys can help me my doc is up at the bottom right and so the little scroll thing that goes like this so that my video when I'm editing I don't know how to get rid of my doc so that I it's not sitting there when I'm trying to edit it I know it's probably the simplest of things but anyways we're losing people talking about this you guys nobody wants to talk about my computer woes I just want to get creative that's what it boils down to sitting here turning on my computer talking to you live there's nothing creative about it feels my heart makes me feel good I love seeing you guys and talking about everything that's going on but you my videos are the only way I can try to get creative I know Lou I'm afraid though I'm gonna lose people in the process but how do you move it me mom I don't know how to move it I wish I could get one of the Apple people that just come to my house that would be so much easier than going to the dang Apple store because the one in our town closed I don't know I need to go get my eyebrows and my mustache taken care of and my legs my poor legs but I can't shave them so anyways that's it does anybody want to see the final result of my kitchen since I finally decided on the how it's gonna go oh I don't think I oh I can turn you around does anybody want to see it you'll make me the happiest camper if one person says yes Nina we'll look at it again because you've only showed it to us five hundred and fifty times uh oh hang on you're plugged in okay thanks Katie the lights aren't on though that's it's much better with the lights on thank you Amy I love you guys I should have wish I had the lights on okay let's start here I love you guys you make me feel better here is the coffee area we have a coffee mug for everybody except Oliver do you guys know that we can't find an oh anywhere so here we have that and then we got oh our skinny serfs down there I'm just waiting for all the pantywackers to show up I know I showed this to you guys a million times but you are the best I love you so much because I don't have anybody that visits me in person to show so this is why I do it for you guys are over so here's this little area oh I got it my nose itches Amy reach over and rub my nose for me will ya the lemon juice stays out at all times no matter what oh here's Lou if you're still here here's a couple of my Victorians for ya just all my Santa stuff and then this cake plate oh my gosh I saw this cake plate at home goods a couple years ago absolutely loved it so I just kind of do that with it I need to get some lights for that tree back there this actually you guys is my favorite thing in the world and I have too and that's I don't have to explain it my sister thinks that he is a cookie jar but he's not and then it's wonderful having let me just stand back and show you guys having this nice big window and enjoying it and then I got my bulbs up there and this ornament needs to be lit up hold on I got to rub my nose and I got my soaps over here over now we're trying to figure this one out it's hand soap and it says be naughty save Santa the extra trip we can't figure out what that means oh be naughty so he doesn't have to come to your house but what does that have to do with hand soap okay there's my big Santa book and then these guys are in there they're sitting by the fire see the fire burning in there they're all in there enjoying the weather and then here's I love love love these oversized bulbs we found them at the end of last year and the cookie jar and another Santa and Merry Christmas if you can't tell the vintage Santa oh we're missing a towel look at what Oliver did he used it and didn't put it back that's grounds for grounding and then these guys and then that's it for now and then tonight hopefully we're gonna put up all the ceramic Christmas trees alright now I can sit down and rub my nose I gotta remember I have these ears on before I go out if I go anywhere and then there's my shirt for you guys they haven't seen it that be that I guess it's three o'clock maybe I just you know what here's one more thing I want to talk about that I forgot excuse me I'm not picking my nose I'm just itching it I have figured out that I'm not gonna eat when I'm not hungry I have a habit since I am a stay at home grandmother that oh ding dong I'm up I can have breakfast oh it's 10 o'clock I can have a snack okay it's 10 o'clock I can have a snack oh it's 12 15 let's eat lunch it's three let's have a snack it's six let's have dinner I'm not gonna do that anymore if I'm not hungry which like for instance I haven't been today I'm just not gonna eat okay here's Oliver's dad it's going good I'm doing it live with my ww buddies we're talking about weight-watching if you'd like to join us you're more than welcome to what time are you coming over for dinner question mark so I can't and then when I after I do my trees after we get the trees up my ceramic trees for those of you who weren't here last year then I'll do another video of the whole house it's overkill I always show you guys 20,000 times like look at Sandy over there has got the right idea she's got hers already she's got it on premiere she's gonna show you everything in one fell swoop so you don't have to see it 2,500 times like you do when you're with me but like I said maybe somebody's here that hasn't been here before and why go through all the trouble to do it if I'm not gonna show it to anybody right thanks you guys see that's why you keep you around you're always a gag have to run off for a concert grandson sings in the choir Barbara have fun that sounds so nice wow he sings in the choir I wish we had a choir to put Oliver in love you have a great time thanks Aimee oh my goodness thank you you know what Aimee I don't know if you're gonna be splitting soon and I'm probably not gonna be on that much longer but I'm just gonna make you a moderator in case something happens and not even I don't even get any trolls I don't get enough people to get a troll high school choir oh how delightful oh it's gonna sound beautiful it's gonna give you goosebumps but yeah I'm learning to not eat when I'm not hungry I'm paying attention do I really need to eat good night Katie 11 o'clock I mean good go get a man go get him I don't even know how to do that so anything anybody else want to talk about you know I go on the well I don't really go on the only lives I really watch who doesn't besides me is you about five sound good cool if I bring Jessica hold the line please it's great and thanks for letting me know because I only had three pork chops we'll make a change in the menu but that sounds good yeah we'll see you then period oh good Oliver he's gonna be here he's so happy like the happiest kid in the world um we may not be seeing his mother over the holidays that's a whole other opera um so I don't know are you leaving him so now I'm trying to decide if I should just wait and have dinner or if I should just eat now and I'm hungry and then when dinner comes if I'm not hungry don't have dinner and then have an apple go to bed and not use all my points I'm gonna have a loss this week if it's the last thing I do I just have to get past Friday you guys have to help you have to come in on Friday after weigh in you guys have to come in and uh because I'm gonna have a loss I guarantee you I'll have a loss if I don't I'll be super surprised you need to come in and remind me why I'm doing what I'm doing my hands itch so that's it all right six o'clock where most of you guys are which is dinner time so I guess I should just let you all go I just want to pop in I'm just gonna keep working on my videos please don't give up on me you guys and if you could give them you know you don't even have to watch them if you give them a thumbs up just so that I don't lose whatever little clout that I've gained you know it's I try not to focus on the subscribers and for the most part I don't but thank you I can't wait for you to see the trees thank you Catherine thank you Brenda oh my gosh thank you you guys because I'm gonna keep on trucking and you'll look at my videos and you'll be like oh boy she is having trouble but there's gonna be a day when one pops up and angels will sing and everybody I'll be so excited because I'll get the hang of it eventually I don't give up easily okay so sometimes I do but I'm not going through on this this whole thing is too important for me I'll make a comment after you are through and explain how to move the dock thank you so much what are you making shoot now I have to figure out I'd be lost without you too Suzy I think I dreamt about you this morning thank you Catherine I want to be an inspiration and and I'm I want to be an inspiration and I want to be motivating I should go for a walk on Instagram but Oliver would be here by himself I can never get that kid out Catherine thank you so much oh my gosh thank you so much thank you so much chicken, carrots, butternut squash and rice they're awesome because I don't know what I do that's inspirational but honestly I try to be inspirational and you know what I do is I get and I mention this in another YouTube or another video I found that when I get start feeling bad about myself and my friends here on YouTube I have to minimize how much I watch other YouTubers especially people who are on maintenance hahahaha hmm because then I start feeling bad about myself but I'm honest and I'm doing my thing in my life and I have a lot of things going on and as good as a Weight Watcher as I am I'm not perfect and I don't know if I'll ever get to you know what Susan know because he's an android guy gosh it's a total bummer it's a total bummer man can you dig it hahahaha sometimes I say things and Oliver goes what hahahaha radio hahahaha but I want to be inspirational see I'm talking ok ok you know what and you guys are inspirational to me by telling me that I'm gonna go I'm gonna figure out something for dinner Susan cracking me up you know what I have to order a pizza for these yahoo's for dinner that way they can eat while they're eating their pizza I'll go for a nice long walk even though I'm afraid it's gonna start raining but I'm gonna get my walk you know yes yes yes I will and that's that on day two I'm almost at the end of day two of two perfect days and yay no I don't strive for perfection in my whole life because you know it's never gonna happen and that's no fun it's my opinion it's no fun being perfect sometimes you just have to slip up and do things you're not supposed to we're all works in progress my friend but you are such a I mean you've got to go you know it's just hurry Jessica I would totally like be peace out kids shut you guys down right now if I could go for a walk but the kid he's in his room you know what chances are if I were to go for a walk he probably would not even notice me gone should I leave my my reindeer ears on when I go for my walk they'll be like look at that festive lady out doing the right thing wouldn't be nice if that's how life worked there you guys I'm so excited whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa almost knocked you off and can we talk about how Oliver had that he had all of our stockings shoved to one end of the mantle because he wanted us all close together now I need to figure out should I get a stocking for Jessica you guys yeah help me out here let's talk let's talk personal stuff for a few minutes Suze, Lou, Jessica, Brenda okay so here's the story normally Christmas Eve Casey spends the night here with his boy and then it's always the four of us oh I'm gonna get some pictures and show you from last year because my little unconventional family is so wonderful but Jessica's here this year should I get it should I get it you guys I have a stocking for Casey up there should I get one for her too and that would probably make I don't know what to do and she gets spent the night here but I don't think all of them oh include everyone I aspire when you don't need to oh none of them are expensive Jessica trust me I'm trying to think Oliver's is the only one that's personalized mine which you can't see let me show you I just realized we didn't get one this year mine have I have all the Viva Navidad because the three Caballeros are my favorites so I have all the pins from the Viva Navidad from the last few years but we didn't get one let's see 15 looks like I'm gonna have to hit eBay 14 from different years I'm gonna have to get some more but this is my favorite this nice big one and I could still get this one but you know how much these suckers are they're anywhere from 35 to 50 dollars but I still need to fill my stocking up uh oh low batteries always always getting annoying chit-chatting hey there this mama loves how you doing Suze what do you think I don't know I don't know I need to do something special for Steve because he does all the work if she's going to be there I don't know if she's gonna be here that's the problem maybe I'll just pick one up save the receipt stick it aside be prepared nothing because if you're if you don't plan you plan to fail you fail to plan you fail to plan if you just plan everything okay plan it all I know you are I don't know all you know what I'll do is when they're over tonight I'll fill them out say so what's going on Christmas Eve who's gonna be where what's gonna be what and then I'll make a breakfast casserole like Jessica Parker does in um the family stone you get when you will feel better if you do yeah I'll get when I'm put it aside I had to have a talk with Steve last night about our unconventional family because I finally asked him okay I finally asked him why do you get oh my gosh okay no okay if you guys could see what I'm looking at it's good night thank you so oh I wasn't even aware that you were in such a group and I'm sorry to hear that you have to be go and I what do I say to that enjoy isn't the word right get what you need and um maybe just the fellowship alone bye mima enjoy your evening I don't know how to say it what do you say enjoy your evening maybe I'll ask Oliver if he wants to pick one out for her I don't know I don't the thing is is I don't want to step on his toes okay then that's awesome you and I should talk about that one sometime I have a lot of experience in that unfortunately January the 17th 2000 2000 to be exact I'm out of water does anybody need any help with anything from the rest of us who know everything about everything oh Oliver's always okay well I'm afraid though he's going to say X-nay on the awking stay anana he doesn't want her here shoot I wish I could go for a walk right now I guess you guys are you're all talked out all 28 of us if anybody has anything they want to talk about personal or non personal or anything like that we will be looking for it for sure he will not go Susie he will not budge I can't even get him I could tell him we're going to go to Toys R Us and I'm going to buy you every toy in the store and he'll say I don't want to go Nana he hates leaving the house to get him in the car I have to trick him half the time yesterday I had to go to the market pick up some things for dinner usually he walks home from school and I was there in my car picking him up it's like pulling teeth and I don't I don't know why he's like that but drives me nuts I should like the fireplace that's what I should do is like the fireplace but I really would like to go for a walk he is okay if I were to leave him in there and just do one round around the block your son's that way too Catherine oh it's the biggest pain in the bazoo man squirrel squirrel I ordered Steve's Christmas present you want to know what I ordered him because I'm so darn sneaky we were watching QVC the other night and they had the bows on there and they were talking about just the different things I love a bows my dad raised me on bows my dad was he's not dead but he doesn't listen to music anymore just music man so he kept saying oh that looks like a good idea that looks like a deal blah blah blah and I just let it go and then yesterday we were talking about Christmas and I'm like well I have no idea what to get you and he goes well you know I was talking about the bows and I said yeah but I need to know what I can get you that I can afford so I ordered one for him and it's coming but I also kind of ordered something for myself I ordered the bows one word rhymes with one word rhymes with earphones headphones thanks Lou the wireless ones the bows and I'm so excited for them so I'm going to get them and I'm going to wrap them up and I'm going to put aren't they the best I had bows speakers on my last desktop I had bows speakers growing up I had bows speakers in my first life yeah they're wonderful I love them anyways so I'm going to wrap my earphones up and I'm going to sign them from grandpa and Oliver and then when I open them oh I have some bluetooth headphones and they're bluetooth I'm so excited it'll be so much better to use those when I walk in earbuds I don't like the earbuds I'm always losing them the bows Brenda it was my first life and it was a doozy the other day Oliver says to me I said something about my first husband he goes Bill right now and I'm like how do you even know what his name is I feel like I've had nine lives I do between I have I've had a million in one lives okay the lights are bugging me and this is only the second time I've done white waters I did it once before in 1999-2000 and you guys you know what I was so so thin and I couldn't get below 171 I could not get any lower and I was extremely thin I wish I could I have one picture I have a picture of me teaching at the YMCA water aerobics but I'm in the water so you can't really tell how big or little I am and then I have one I had just gotten out of the hospital I'm sitting on the couch with my cousins and my sister and I'm teeny tiny and I remember I had got out of the hospital and the first thing I said was I want to go way in interesting I'm sure they do that's interesting Brenda so I'm going to get back down there right I'm going to get back down right now and there's just so much to look at there you know what okay I'm sorry but their weight range is unachievable for many of us completely unachievable and that was when I was younger too that was when at my age now forget about it I have a doctor I'll get to where my doctor says it's okay but who was I looking at the other day it was a YouTuber who I hang out with and I thought man she's so thin and she's still going I apologize I can't remember I don't mean it in a negative way but I believe she was talking about the goal that Weight Watchers has set for her and I was like I wish I could tell her that you know it's okay not to go because Weight Watchers is business they want to keep it there as long as they can or else they're not going to make any money right my doctor did too Jessica and he also you know he brought up the whole I love it I'm getting oh Freddie I haven't mentioned it for anybody who hasn't seen Molly classically Molly her video today she is back on Weight Watchers and as fellow YouTubers who love her so much are thrilled beyond belief because we just adore her and she's back she's starting on the green program if you don't follow her already go check out classically Molly she's fun she's sweet she's positive she's easy on the eyes and she's a good friend so check her out I'm sure you guys all know who she is anyways but she went to Noom for a bit and now she's back on Weight Watchers so that's exciting news she ain't my Disney buddy I'm like I have all these daughters on YouTube her and Cherie I talk nonstop about them they probably think I'm a stalker but I'm not well maybe I'm a little bit I just love them now Mindy girl do you guys follow Mindy at C Mindy mom she's a wonderful channel too if you're new here and you have not heard of her it's C Mindy mom verb Cherie is the best Lou I can't even tell you I missed like I said I messaged her yesterday when I was crying I messenger you know at different times she always responds she always has a kind word and I just adore her you know Cherie and Molly and Mindy and Amy Carrie I don't know where Carrie is I'm kind of worried that Carrie hasn't been around Sandy the people who really whenever I'm feeling like oh maybe I shouldn't do this YouTube thing and I think of them and the friendships I have forged it's like oh yeah I'm staying here I'm not going anywhere because I just adore them and isn't it amazing in this time of technology how much you can get to know somebody it's just I know for a fact and Celia too even though Celia doesn't have her channel anymore we've been friends and how your friends are Cherie without Celia I know for a fact that I could have them over for a week they could come stay with me and we would talk and laugh and scratch that whole week even though there's a 30 year age difference and isn't that wonderful there's some wonderfulness to be had right there oh Lou no you wouldn't no we wouldn't it's fun though all right well I'm going to just let you guys go because I've just talked for far too long even though the longer I talk the more dislikes I'll get I'm going to do a cook with me tomorrow maybe that'll be my vlog this day 4 no because we're going to decorate tonight that'll be vlogmas day 4 what dot vlogmas day are we on? what the vlogmas day are we at? I kinda like that all right I'm going to get myself something to eat and figure out dinner for out oh it's only 3 maybe I'll just go for a walk I'm gone for 40 minutes he knows my route I think he will be fine all right you guys thanks for jumping in here and joining me again hang in there with me in my videos please maybe you'll see hopefully things get better yesterday's video was so choppy and we're jumping from one thing to another but if you notice Steve's sitting in him now and he's not objecting too much Steve my sweet wonderful man if we hung out I'd be the happiest dang camper in the Pacific Northwest that's what I'd be oh my gosh my buddy Cindy texted me this morning and she said that her daughter bought her an instapot for her birthday hi Connie oh my gosh can I just keep talking for another hour I wish you guys would pop in and tell me something you want to talk about because I would totally stay put because I'd never shut up drinks would be had if we could hang out oh Lou why do you think I've been avoiding you we would have been together a long time ago except for that little caveat okay so here I go tonight is going to be a drink kind of a night because this weather and the fireplace is going to be on and everybody's going to be decorating and I'm going to be sitting here with my water but that's okay I've got to focus on the gut and the spreading of the butt they gotta go I'll cut you all some slack thanks for hanging out with me thank you so very much I'm going to record tonight see I keep saying goodbye and then I come back okay think of something for me to come back wouldn't it be nice if I could get on a plane and go surprise my friend it'd be a bigger surprise for me it is cold outside and tomorrow is going to rain it's supposed to start tonight you know what I'm going to do tomorrow oh my gosh I'm going to have my fireplace on and my living room is going to be all comfy cozy and it's going to be cold speaking of going out I need to take my poor dog out I don't think I've taken her out in a couple of hours alright I'm going to answer Miss Mindy she too is excited that Molly's back we're all excited hey hey the gang's all here you know what's the old saying when everybody's back together what am I thinking of what am I ever thinking of someday all my thoughts are going to go and come together and thank you for hanging out with me it's really appreciated bye y'all there's stuff stuck in my teeth sorry yes Lou I don't know if you can hear me but yes