 Come be in the video. Come be in the video. That's my guy. That's my guy right there. That was a lot. 2020 has come to an end. Boy oh boy, what a year it's been. I'm in my living room just because I felt like filming in here. I was filming a different video and so I had lights here and so I was like, ah why not? Let's film the New Year's video right here. Right here. Live. 2020 was such a weird one dude. It was such a weird one and such a horrible one. For kind of everybody to be completely honest. There were definitely highlights. There were parts of 2020 for me personally that were great. That were fantastic where I felt really good about myself and I felt inspired and I felt like I was doing the right things and I was proud of myself and then there were other parts of 2020 where I felt alone and I felt depressed and I felt just shitty. Just shitty. What about you, Spencer? You feel good all the time don't you? Yeah. I think that as a whole I feel so casual right now. I'm just sitting and lounging on my couch. It is casual though isn't it Spencer? It is casual. Yeah we're trying to be casual around here. I think overall we can all agree that 2020 was a bad year. It was a really really bad year. I mean what can you say about it? What can you say about it? We're in a there's so much that happened this year. So much like pandemic aside obviously that's the you know that's really what stole the show in 2020 was the global pandemic that we went through and are still going through and hopefully you know there's a glimmer of hope on the horizon with vaccines and everything so hopefully we are on the tail end of it. I fucking hope so because Jesus I want to see my friends again but just like I was I was listening to a podcast the other day. I was listening to Phineas and Claudia's podcast called We Bought a House. We bought a house. We bought a home. We bought a house and they were saying what were they saying? What was I just about to talk about? Anyway moving on from that. I don't know what I was gonna say but just for everybody like oh what they were saying is 2020 might be the worst year like on paper the worst year that the modern world like our generation will see possibly ever maybe ever so that's kind of crazy and that's kind of it's nice in a way thinking about it like that being like hey maybe the worst of it is over and maybe every year after this will be kick ass because 2020 was so bad. There was so much that happened there was the global pandemic there were wildfires in so many places there was politically it was a catastrophe this year especially in the United States there was just so so much that happened 2020 was an exhausting year all around for everybody it was an exhausting year and it was a year that I think really made us reflect on what's important at least for me I sort of learned what's important for me and I learned to not take things for granted I hope I hope that I don't you know once this is all over I hope that I don't go back to just being like ah yeah going out and being with friends like yeah it's whatever I think I really it really put into perspective how important my friends are and how important my family is and like especially around the holidays like the holidays this year which just passed obviously they really sucked and I hope that they were good for you or I hope that you learn something or something like that um because for me just speaking candidly like the it sucked Christmas sucked so bad I was completely alone on Christmas like I talked to my family on the phone and stuff of course but that's not the same um and it it sucked and like I think that there was a lot of people that were in the same position of for the safety of myself and my family and the good of the realm will say you know I got to stay home and I got to be alone would I would I have loved to travel home and take that risk like theoretically yeah I would have loved to have gone home but I'm not going to put myself at risk I'm not going to put my family at risk I'm not going to put my friends at list at risk and really sucked being completely alone on Christmas it was something that I've never dealt with before and I think that the holidays this year were something that most people haven't dealt with because you're used to being for the most part people are used to being around their friends and their family for the holidays and I think that this year the holidays just felt really lonely and it was really isolating you're just really going everywhere huh bud but it made me reflect a lot and it made me think about okay like my friends and my family are really really important to me 2020 made me realize how much of an extrovert I actually am because I work from home and I I'm kind of a homebody but oh my god I thrive on being around other people so much so so so much and that was something that like was difficult for me at the beginning when when quarantine and everything started was I usually try and get out of the house like once a day whether it's like going for a drive or meeting up with a friend or grabbing a coffee or giving myself an excuse to go to a random store just to get out of the house and not doing that just maybe realize how how much my friends and how much being around other people is important for me Spencer you might be in the shot right now and I know that everybody just wants to see you and and I want to just see you thank you so much but it was a weird one dude it was a real real weird one and there were a lot of highs obviously unisonous it was so insane seeing the reaction that people had to unisonous like the videos day to day in general but also the end of it and how people dealt with that and I'm so incredibly lucky and so grateful that I got to do that and that I got to not only be a part of that in general but to be able to do it with the people that I did it with I I said it in my like unisonous post-mortem video like I don't think that there's a a crew of people that could have done it better than me, Mark and Amy and I I truly believe that and I'm so grateful that I got to make stuff with them all year it was so much fun and I miss it a lot and you know we'll continue to create stuff together in the future but it's not going to be unisonous unisonous was a special little special little beast that being said I'm really glad that it's done because it was a lot and like day to day it was a big like mental strain it was like physically really demanding like being on kind of all the time is just very exhausting it's so exhausting um but it gave me again a lot of perspective on my own stuff and thinking like hey I don't just have to do gaming stuff all the time like I can branch out and do other things and that's something that I've been trying to do more and I can't wait to do more of it once the normal world hopefully comes back soon so I can like go out and do cool experiences and stuff but like even just getting the tattoo machine the other day uh and I filmed this different video that you'll that you'll see soon and they're dumb ideas but it's something different and it's something fun and it pushes me out of my comfort zone and it's doing something different and so I'm really excited to do more different stuff this next year um and just step out of my comfort zone a little bit it's interesting thinking about like it doesn't even feel like the new year at all it doesn't feel like New Year's Eve normally because I'm around people you know I go to New Year's Eve parties I watch the ball drop with my friends and I'm gonna be alone and I know that nothing is gonna change tomorrow you know like we're 2021 is I think in my mind the glimmer of hope to hopefully get back to back to the start you know especially in the US with politically things changing fucking thank god you know it's sort of like a new beginning and I hope that we can get back to a new normal where we can be with our friends and our family again and you know do the things that we want to do and not feel isolated not feel sort of held down or whatever but I know that that's not gonna change overnight it's not gonna magically tomorrow be oh everything's fixed like it's gonna take time but at least there's some there's some hope and 2020 felt like the year that there was like no hope because it was just thing after thing getting thrown at the world it wasn't even on a personal level it was literally the whole world just like getting hit time and time and time again like fucking the pandemic and wildfires and murder hornets and like so much stuff and it's time was so weird this year when we did the live stream at hyper studios when we when we did karaoke for koalas that was in 2020 that literally to me feels like years ago that feels like years ago and that was in February like doing the hope for hope from home stream where I shaved my head my hair is now long and I don't know what to do with it that was back in April like the only the only measure of time that I have anymore is the length of my hair also speaking of my hair I know a lot of people have been asking because we did some amazing stuff for charity this year one of the biggest things and like the most proud I've been of this community is the recent charity stream that we did for thank miss because we raised over half a million dollars which was so insane and like I didn't listen I didn't doubt you guys but there was so many people streaming that I thought that it was really going to get spread out and the fact that this community raised over half a million dollars was absolutely insane and so for that I'm going to dye my hair white but I'm not going to do it yet um dyeing your hair white if you don't know what you're doing you can really mess up your hair because you have to bleach it so much so I'm going to dye it once I can go to an actual hair salon and get it done professionally because I don't want to mess it up so it's going to be a bit I'll uh it'll happen at some point um but it's probably going to be probably a few months um might not happen for a while but I promise I will get it done once I'm able to do it safely. Spencer what did you do this year? Hmm you were really cute this whole year yeah you were really really cute you made some cool dogs this year you spent a lot of time with Henry and Chica that was really fun that was special right that was nice. Going forward though I just want to I just want to do more and I definitely do feel really motivated to create new stuff and just again step out of my comfort zone there's a lot of bigger stuff in the works that I don't know when is going to happen because of the state of the world but stuff that I'm working on that I'm really excited about um and I'm I'm really excited to uh I don't know just have this next year be me focusing on me because UNISON has just took up a lot of a lot of the year to be completely on it and again I loved doing it but it was my own channel was put on the back burner for it and so I'm excited to just get into my my own stuff and that doesn't necessarily mean that there's going to be more stuff because I'm not going to say hey I'm going to post every day because I want I want to make more stuff that I'm proud of and not like the quality over quantity kind of thing I don't want to make more stuff what's the point of making more stuff I want to make more stuff that I'm proud of um and so that's something that I'm that I want to do more this year I'm not going to say hey there's going to be videos every day because there's not going to be because I want to make more things that I'm proud of and more things that I'm having fun making and more things that challenge me um I would like to be more consistent but I'm not going to make any promises because what's the what's the point what's the point of just making more stuff if you're not if you're not proud of it yeah I didn't really have a plan for this video I kind of just wanted to talk about the year and and what's to come um I want to do more stuff for me on a personal level that you guys won't see and I want to make an effort to make sure you don't see it like I want to want it safe to do so obviously I want to go on a vacation for me and I don't want to share any of it I live so much of my life online and so much of my life and like this is kind of a joke and a meme but like my life is just content it's like I mean that in a joking way but also seriously that I feel this need to share everything that I do constantly all the time and so I want to I want to have a bit more separation between Ethan Nester and Crank Game Place I want to take myself on a vacation and not post about it I want to do more things for myself like I've continued to go to therapy every week and that's been really great for me I want to do more stuff for myself I want to get into cooking more I really I really like cooking and that's something that I I want to get better at not so I can make a video of it not so I can post about it on Instagram but because I want to do it for me and I think that's the that's the biggest thing that I that I want to take care of is to make sure that I'm at a really good place and that I'm happy with myself and that I feel fulfilled in what I'm doing both in my career and just on a personal level because I think a lot of youtubers and I I literally just had a conversation about this with somebody like 15 minutes ago and this is something that I'm kind of proud of because of the work ethic I guess but it also sucks but being a youtuber or a streamer it's not a job it's a lifestyle and it truly is there's the there's that saying and I've said this a lot if you do what you love you'll never work a day in your life that's so untrue that's such an untrue statement because it's more of if you do what you love you're kind of always working which is a wonderful thing but it's a double edged sword because on one hand you get to do what you love every day non-stop but then on the other hand you there's not a separation there's not you come home from work and then you get to live your normal life it's it's constantly on your mind and it can be really really stressful so I want to make an effort to make more of a separation and and give myself that space and do things for myself without the idea of oh I can make this into a video or oh I can post about this somewhere I want to do more stuff for me so that I personally am happier and I hope that my it's funny because my goal for that still connects to making videos because my goal for that is that if I feel more fulfilled in my personal life and I feel happier and stuff in my in my normal life that that will translate over to videos and I'll have more fun making videos and I'll make cooler stuff and I'll feel more inspired and creative and I'll I'll push myself more so that's kind of funny but that's what I want to do I want to I want to take care of me a little bit more anyway I've been rambling I've been chilling on this couch I've got dog fur all over me I hope that you learned something in 2020 I hope that there were good moments because I'm not going to say hey hope you had a great year because I think for most of us 2020 was just a rough one and I think that it's totally okay to to recognize that and I think it's it's good and it's healthy to be like yo this was a shit show this year um but I hope that there were good moments and I hope that 2021 is filled with way more good moments um don't take the things that you have in life for granted and I hope that 2021 brings in more time with the people that you love so anyway thank you guys so much for supporting the thing that I do um you guys have been so insane on the channel recently on twitch and and just everything um and so this was a weird video to film like I feel like this entire time I had a much different cadence than I normally have in my videos but I don't know I'm just sitting being real frank with you thank you guys so much for everything goodbye 2020 hey 2021 be a little cute maybe happy new year I love you guys bye