 I'm tired and I've got an appointment in just over an hour. I guess that means I've got to get ready. Hey what's up you guys, welcome back to my channel if you're new here, hi hello my name's Lydia and today I'm doing a Get Ready With Me while also discussing my subject of blaming other people. Now this has been a highly requested subject since I put the feeler and recommendation and suggestion out there which was about a month ago. Now when I say blaming other people I don't mean how to bake her out of any reasons why, I don't mean that. And what I'm talking about is people use trolls and abusers play some responsibility in how we feel. Do they have a place of blame within the situation? Just be blunt and get my opinion straight out there? Yes. I'm not saying they are the ones physically making us kill ourselves or trying to kill ourselves or sell harm. Do their malicious comments play a role in how we feel? Yes they're there to be malicious and they're knowing that they are causing harm. If you are knowingly causing harm and knowingly making someone ill you have a responsibility and you have a place of blame within that group. So as you guys know this year got off to a very rocky start. I was being harassed, bullied and followed on a phenomenal scale and I couldn't cope with it. And it got to an anniversary of my ex-partner's suicide and the trolling got worse. It was like oh it didn't happen and then I got some messages excruciating detail like oh did you hear the crunch, the bones, the GTC, the blood and all around triggering messages. So these people are going out of their way knowing that it was going to make me worse. Do they then play a role in the fact that I then made an attempt on my life? Yes they do and that's exactly how the police saw it when they took to hospital. As a whole do I think it's okay to blame people? Absolutely. If someone plays a role in you making an attempt on your life they have to take responsibility. Like yes me as a person, yes I tried to kill myself, I tried to hang myself, yes that was my actions. But did I make myself feel that way? Hell no. I do everything with my power to avoid feeling like that and let me take in medication, practicing some skills that I have, sleeping. No matter what my coping skills are it's irrelevant. If someone is then maliciously messaging me with the intention of triggering me they play a role in the fact that I then made an attempt on my life. People say it's not right to blame people. So when I have flashbacks of an incident that's my fault. It's not the fault of the person who say attacked me, raped me, you know. It's not the responsibility of the person who caused the damage. Not blaming other people is categorically, it just doesn't make sense. Like there's always going to be a responsible person like yes we are the ones physically self-harming and acting on our suicide of thoughts. But it's those who push us every other year apart from this year while I've been dealing with this trauma. I've never made an attempt on my life. That day I got pushed over the edge to a point where I don't think it would have mattered who was here, what was going on. I was going to kill myself. That was my intention. That was as a consequence of you know months and months of harassment. There's no difference between harassment and bullying people. Harassment is just more persistent bullying. It's never okay and it's never right and I will advocate for that forever. Because I have a firm belief that while I'm the one who acted on a thought I wouldn't have been pushed to even thinking about it. Had people not been bullying me. And I have a very simple policy. If you don't like me, don't watch. The whole bullying thing with me, it played a huge role in my suicide attempt. It really did and the people who were behind that knew the effect they were having on me because it was all public. It's not like I hit my phone down my head and it's not like I hit it from anybody. Everyone knew what was going on and I made it public knowledge. It's my alarm telling me that I need to start getting ready to go out. Genuinely but then I just can't believe it. People think that it's okay to bully people and take no responsibility. Like hello if you make someone's life hell they're going to think they're living in hell. You can't nicely harass someone. You can't nicely bully someone. That whole thing is a little crap. And I know people will say trolling is just part of the internet. You know you put your life out there. Yeah I've put my life out there. I don't put it out there for people to fucking bully me over or trigger me over. Like that's just cruel and anyone who believes that? Seriously? If you think that me putting my life out there invites you to give you some kind of permission to comment on my own choices like example here, my medication. A lot of people have felt that they have the authority to comment on whether or not I take certain medications. When people was commenting on my medication there was like oh my gosh it's just an addict. Mate I forget to take my medication more than I remember to. You know like this has been my life so long now that taking medication yeah I take it when it helps. You know I'm not going to sit in struggle and I know I can take a tablet and take away the feeling. You know I'm not going to just sit in struggle when I have to. But you know I'm not alone in that. And just because I choose to take burns at Iazapines does not make me an addict. Yes they have an addiction factor. So does pregabalin. So does most pain medication. So does tramadol. So does guvapentin. So does pregabalin. Pregabalin is the one thing I have flat out refused to take because it actually has been proven. Proven here. Scientifically proven that it is more addictive than men's Iazapines. But on the subject of blaming others. I was made to feel like crap. I was told you know your traumas your past experiences aren't valid because they're not as bad as this. Although not that you know I had it worse. That doesn't mean my trauma is invalid. Like yeah sorry you went through that. But my trauma is still my trauma. It still traumatized me in a way. And to have that invalidated it's fucking horrible you know it's like no one has the right to do that at all. Is it okay to bully people online? No. I don't care if you don't like what they do. At all I don't. Like can I say this like if you don't like someone. You do not have to watch what they do and like the post or follow them even. Because that was a big thing. People were like well she puts her life online so it's okay for us to bully her. No. If you put a malicious comment on someone's post. You are therefore taking responsibility for how that person feels. Because hating on people has never led to a positive outcome. Hating on people has never led them to become some. It's never contributed any positive. You know it's always always always being a contributing factor to someone's depression. Or super excited. Or when people are like you know she can't put blame on people. Yes I can. If you've made a comment that's like you're an addict. You know you're not worthy of help. She's just wasting resources. How do you think that's going to make someone feel? Because you said that that contributed to that person feeling that way. So yes I do think there is a place where we can blame people. And I think it is perfectly acceptable to place blame on other people. Given people will disagree with what I say. That's fine. You know free world. As soon as you make a comment on someone's life. You are therefore contributing to that person. You are adding something to their life. Whether it's negative or positive. And you have to take responsibility for that. I will never excuse people for leaving negative comments. Like if you don't like someone. All you have to do is unfollow or unsubscribe. You know you don't have to go on to fucking radio and start a thread. Like this person said this this this and this this. I don't like this about her. She's lying about this. She can't be honest. This is wrong. Unless you're my psychiatrist. You have no right to comment on my treatment. My channels are very honest and blunt platform. I don't sugarcoat things. I don't say things that I don't believe. And if I've had a bad experience or something. I'm damn well going to say. I'm not against therapy. I'm not anti-therapy. It's anyone who doesn't know. I'm actually on a waiting list for trauma therapy. But that's completely besides the point. There's any sense I can say about this subject. Like I've rambled on for like over half an hour. And I'm literally thinking it's like 10 seconds of it. But oh well. I hope I got my opinion across and my thoughts across. And kind of explain where I've been. That's me. Yeah. Bye guys.