 I stalked too. I stalked Josh. I've never stalked since then. That was the only reason I've stalked. You literally were like, sitting in front of her house. Yes. I've never admitted that, by the way. I pay their lovers and friends. Joined by my lover, my friend, Mr. Jared Brady. And Shan Boudram. And we are your host of Lovers and Friends. I'm sorry. I do have a podcast coming out called Lovers and Friends. You do, and I'm on there sometimes. And you are kind of low key the host of that. One of my favorite pieces of content on Audible is Esther Perrell's podcast, Where Should We Begin? And Where Should We Begin? Listen, and I loved it and ate it up. Actually, listened to it twice. She's incredible. So she actually put out a game that is based on this. And I bought the game right away and I started playing it at home and we had a lot of fun with it. And I thought we should do a video about this for our Audible video this month. Yeah. So Jared and I sat down and we were playing the game together and we kept realizing that we were sharing stories we've already told. Yeah, I think it would be a great thing to pull this out first date. It is such good conversation starters. And I find that people don't talk about it on the first date and they feel like they didn't get to know the person. And I think instead, if you were just more mindful and intentional about what you talk about, even if you don't have any chemistry, you're still going to have a good time and learn something new. Any of yourself. Yeah. Because you're gonna get questions that you may have never asked yourself before. So because we wanted to show you how this could be a really good tool on a first date, we decided to go on first mock dates with people that we have worked with in the past that we had compatibility with. Yeah. We had good energy with these people. Yeah. So you brought... Sarah. I'm not saying I was playing with you, I'm just saying. It's okay if you were. It's okay. I just wanted to point it out that something happened. This would be the game to really play with somebody that really went inward on themselves a lot. And she displayed that on the podcast. I was like, this is gonna be great. Nothing to do with how she looks. That's not why you asked her. It's all because of the inside. Of course, yes, she's a good-looking woman so it wouldn't be bad to have someone that's looking great across from me. Why did you choose Josh? Because Josh's hands up. No, I chose Josh because he and I worked together on the Trojan Condoms project, which was like a pivotal project for me. Yeah, I give it a little smack sometimes. Don't... I smack it. I haven't actually connected with him or seen him again since, so when I was thinking about somebody that I wanted to catch up with and know how they're doing more intimately, Josh came to my mind. Hey, Josh, Leva. What's up, girl? I haven't seen you in a long ass time. It's been too long, but I feel connected with you because of social media. Is that weird? No, it's not weird. Yeah. It's completely valid. Yeah, yeah. I could have never seen you again. Right. And if somebody asked me, I'd be like, me and Josh are very close. We're besties. He's doing awesome. I know all about his life, yeah. Finally, I don't even know what had to just happen in order for you to just settle. They don't even know. They don't appreciate it. I have no idea. Oh, cheers. Oh, cheers, yes, thank you. So we're on this date with the camera and a mic. Hey! And it was my first reel. This little bit of effort. It took a long time, girl. Don't come at me like that. The outfit changes. The angling, all that stuff. The editing. Do you know what I'm happy to see? You liked your own reel. Of course. We're gonna go through these cards. Let's do it. Okay, should I be worried? Are they like really personal or? I don't know. I don't know. Maybe you should be worried. We're gonna find out. What's going on, lovers and friends? I just want to take a quick second to shout out Audible, who is the sponsor of this video. Audible is the leading provider of spoken word entertainment from best sellers, new releases, celebrity memoirs, languages, business, motivation, and so much more. Plus you could find the game of desire on there. It's my wife's audio book, read by her. Shoot, if you love audio, you'll love Audible. So if you haven't checked them out by now, give the 30-day free trial a try. Visit Audible.com slash Shambudy to start listening now, or if you're in the U.S., you can text Shambudy to 500-500 again, that's Audible.com slash Shambudy, or text Shambudy to 500-500. What's on it? All right, I'm gonna ask you first then. Okay. Since you sound all brave. Let's do it. Boy, it's getting deep in there. No one understands my relationship too. Okay, that's easy. My relationship too. How is it easy for John to blink? I know. I finally have some clarity about. It is so hard for me in the moment to admit or to accept what this other person is telling me. I do say, I will say that on the flip side of that, I do have a gift that if you give me five minutes to just think about our conversation, I usually will come back with a more reasonable response. Clarity, the first thing that I thought of was clarity on the fact that, and it ties into talking about the people that betrayed me and stuff. I took a part in it, even the times and the situations where I was like, I did nothing to deserve that. There was some way that I was moving at that time in my life that I don't want to say I deserved anything, but I can see how I contributed. Family gatherings bring up. Can you go first? Because I answered first last time. Okay, good. I think for me, family gatherings bring up the old version of me, which is fun and nostalgic in some ways because the old version of me is like a gong show, a mess, doesn't know how to do anything incapable, unreliable. So I'm kind of like the like, that's just Shannon. Like that's my family personality, I feel like. That's so crazy. I never, I would have never guessed that. Do you see me as the pinnacle of being poor? Perfection? Yes. The pinnacle of perfection. The pinnacle of Leva. Come on, fam. What's your answer? Kind of similar to that, I would say my past relationships. It's not something that gets brought up a lot, but it is something that stands out to me when I'm hanging out with them. I'm like, why are we talking about this? Like, I'm in a new point in my life now. Why is there a necessity to bring up something from my past? I've always wondered if it's normal to. What is normal? What you got? I've always wondered, and I'm gonna get spicy here. So. Is it gonna get weird? It's gonna get weird. Okay. A little bit. I like that. I've always wondered if I was the only guy who likes his nipples to be licked. You're definitely not. Okay. I feel normal now. What about you? You gotta answer their question. What's normal or what's not normal? So it's something that I've actually inquired with women about, right? So that it might just be too personal, but a woman washing her vagina, okay? I've always wondered if the way that I wash my vagina is normal because I ask girls and they say, they don't do that, but I just feel like it's the right way to do it. So I think that girls just wash it over and I go in. No, I mean, I don't have a vagina, so I don't know. You don't? No. I mean, here's the thing. There's a lot of women who follow this channel so they will probably answer and they'll be like, yeah. Okay. They're gonna go in there. So we can have them let us know if it's normal. You can't really answer. I can't, yeah. There's nothing I can do for you. All I know is that you can use. I need to let go of. Uh, can you go first? Okay. This is a tough question. Yes, this is a tough question. Gosh, you know what it is? Because every answer that I'm thinking of, I know I shouldn't share. Because the whole thing with I need to let go of, it's something that you're ashamed to be holding onto. So I'm like- And I don't want people to use it on me. I don't want it to be used on me. Yeah, family. Yeah. I think that's probably the perfect answer. But I do have, like, I need to make peace with, definitely, I think mom guilt. You know, even me being here right, doing anything, not like playing with my baby makes me feel like, why did you do this? Oh, mom guilt, like you being a mom. I thought you were talking about like your personal, like your own mom. Like your personal mom. You know what? Actually, I did let go of that this year. Oh, you had some like resentment or guilt or- Definitely, I had some resentment towards my mom. She's like, wait a minute, she's like- And now I genuinely see me and my mom have a good relationship. Wow. But she came- Have you guys had this conversation? I'm sure. Kind of sort of. Oh, interesting. Mine's similar. I have a resentment towards like my father that I feel like I need to let go of. Yeah. Because like, I really don't need to have it, you know? And it's just, I'm just kind of holding on to it because it, this is weird to admit, but it kind of feels good to like just kind of, I feel like I have something over him right now that I can kind of use as leverage. I realized that we are very similar and I have my own issues and stuff. And he's only, he's just been trying to be human just like me. And nothing has ever been like purposely, purposely malicious and maliciousful. Like it was never an attack towards me. Like he never really did anything to hurt me. He did towards my mother and I took that personally, but nothing was ever done towards me, you know? And I kind of just took that personally. So- Does he care about you? Yes, he does. Yeah, I think so. I think so. Yeah. I lose all willpower when it comes to- Hey. This is not that controversial, but I lose all willpower when it comes to bread. Like I love- Like baked warm bread. Yeah, I love- I love bread. I lose all willpower when, there's this thing that I really like that men do like on my back. Is it like a crush? Is it like a- It's more like a light mouth kissing while you're hitting it from behind. Oh. So too much. No. I lose it. That's much. Like I have, I swear I go until like my back starts looking like I'm breaking it. Yeah, yeah. So it's like a gentle kissing. Yeah. So it's not like a full doggy style. Like it's almost like we're flat on each other. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. And if you go to my neck and my back, it's like I lose it. Like my body is like jello. Yeah. The only time that my body is like full jello. That's it. So how was it, babe? Welcome back. It was cool. It was a vibe. All right. Well, thank you very much for tuning this exercise and for always being down to be a part of my crazy ideas. Yes. 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