 To the outside world, my mum was a doting parent, but behind four walls I'm afraid it was nothing like that. I was abused in every shape and form. And I didn't know in them days, I just thought that was life. That was the life that we all have, you know what I mean? And then she, sometimes used to touch me inappropriately apart from the beatings. And everything was mental torture. I got told a lot of times you shouldn't be here and should be, that was my sister who died. I was told a lot of times, we don't want you. And I think that it all added up in the end. And to be fair, I think that I've done well. I come out of it as good as I have done, considering what it was like. And I can only describe it, looking back now, hell, I had loads of good people around me. And to be fair, like I've said, not every one of them was a fighter, but they all had amazing bottle. And they would never leave me, like I would never leave them. There's no one on this planet can say I ever left a man down. If a man went down, I picked him up. Who's the strongest family you've ever come up against? I think Millwall. I think Millwall and a couple of them games we played. How many people? Oh, more than 300 a side, you know what I mean? But they had a lot, when we went over there, they used to all turn out. Like I said, the two things that I regret is not keeping in touch with my daughter and the other one would be being born. They're the two things I regret and I couldn't change. You know, I didn't ask to come into this world. If I was given a choice, I wouldn't. Simple. And people say, yeah, all that and never got done. No, no. Find somebody who says they did me. Yeah, that's the challenge. I put out all you people are listening. Find someone. Find someone who give me a good eye, then.