 Bridget, welcome to Sunday Morning Coffee with Bridget. I have no idea how my sound is going to be. This is a live stream and I got up this morning. It feels really, it's early here. It's Sunday morning and I am in a suburb of Seattle. Actually, I'm not really in the suburb. I'm like 10 minutes from Seattle and a different city in an adjacent city. That is a very bustling place. And so this morning I walked two blocks and got some Starbucks. You may have seen on Above Life channel that I shared a small video of me visiting Pike's place yesterday. It's down by the pier and it's just this, it's the place that you've seen them throw fish in documentaries and stuff right in Seattle. And I went there yesterday on Saturday and went to the original Starbucks location. So I mean, it's everywhere here. Starbucks is everywhere. So got walked for my Starbucks this morning. I did a live, a live stream walk on Bridget-inspired Instagram. So you can do that early Sunday morning walk with me if you want to do that. It's not very long because I was like, wait, I think I'm in the wrong place because there's like two Starbucks within two blocks of her place. And I went to the wrong one or the one I wasn't thinking I was going to. So, but that's how I'm Bridget-inspired on my Instagram. So I'm going to wait a little bit to see if you guys all pop in here. My Starbucks drink is a caramel macchiato this morning with an extra pump of vanilla. That's what I chose to have. I also actually have tea, some kind of back and forth between my tea and just a basic tea this morning, early, early this morning when I woke up because I'm so screwed up on the time zones. So now I'm in Pacific time. And so I'm on the West Coast, right? And so from where I live in central time, it's two hours behind. So hi, Tucker. So when I woke up this morning and it was like, I think actually it was later today. It was almost six o'clock when I woke up because I went to bed late last night. And six o'clock this time, Pacific time, which would have been like eight o'clock my time, which is very, very late for me. And so for my friends on the East Coast, it's like three hours times on difference. And it's really messing with me that two hours alone is already messing with me. So I'm just trying to catch up now. So I've been driving. Let me give you a backstory before we talk about our topic today. The topic is, it's the drive. Like Miley Cyrus, you know, her song, The Climb. Do you remember that? Google it. If you don't know it, if you're not a fan, it's okay. Just it's the climb and the climb, right? Climb. And that's what I feel like with the drive. It's the drive. That's how it feels. Hey, I see some of you guys popping in here. Let me know if you can hear my audio. Okay. Because I'm using this and I want to make sure you can use it. Otherwise, I will pop this out and just use the actual phone. Is the audio okay? Can you let me know? Can you do that? So our topic today is it's the drive for Sunday morning coffee with Bridget. And right now I'm in my sister's new apartment and my niece came. I'm going to tell you the story. So we left on Sunday morning at 6am from the Midwest. Thank you. From Minnesota and on Wednesday morning on the 2nd of March. And we started to drive with a U-Haul and a Honda Accord. Now, you have heard me mention, if you watch me for a while on Fairy Grasshopper, my YouTube channel, that I don't like to drive. Me, Bridget? Not a driver. Not a rider either. And do you know why I'm not a rider? Because motion sickness. And if you are an empath or have energy awareness, you will find that you may get motion sickness or what feels like motion sickness when actually it's energetic sickness. However, this quite clearly was both double layered. I got a double layer Oreo cookie with not the good stuff in between on this experience that I had in the drive. It took us three days to get to our destination. The first day we drove about 14 hours. I drove the car almost the entire time except for the last hour and a half. I had some great time by myself in the car where I listened to audio books. I had some so much fun with my niece who came with us. It was my sister, my niece and guy. And my niece is 26. So she's not an old little kid. And she has, she took out such a cool personality. She has just this great view of the world. She's very creative, but she's smart and can just figure things out. She's got a great kind of personality like laid back, but also fun. And she and I had some fun times in the car because she kind of was my sister really wanted to make sure she drove the U-Haul because we went through mountain passes. Okay. We drove through Minnesota, through North Dakota, the entire state of North Dakota on Wednesday. 14 hours later, we arrived in Billings, Montana. We went into and stayed the night in Montana on Wednesday night. Yes, that is correct. I drove from Minnesota to Billings, Montana. I drove all of it except for an hour and a half. And I can't believe it because I am not a driver. But I didn't want to ride because in Montana it is scary. The mountains are scary. The roads are narrow and it's all like this for hours. It's crazy. It's just, oh my gosh, but it's the most beautiful place I've ever been. I got my Montana shirt on. I would go back to Montana on a heartbeat. It was beautiful there. It was gorgeous. I'm not a skier, but I know they have mountains, obviously. It was beautiful. It was beautiful. I don't know how my sister, my little sister, by the way, I'm the oldest of three kids, my little sister. She's only like a year and a half younger than me. She's not tiny. She's not little like 10 years. She's like a year and a half. But she is badass. Like she's driving this freaking you-all through these mountain passes and I could barely keep up with her in the Honda Accord that is like a 2020 or 2019 vehicle. And it is awesome to drive, easy to drive. And I'm like, of course, the heights thing I have an issue with. And I discovered that I've known that about myself, but I didn't know it would affect me driving. But it does, apparently. So we stayed overnight in Billings, Montana. It was cool. Apparently they had this stuff called Huckleberry. It's like a flavoring. It's kind of like a combination of blueberry grape kind of vibe. We stopped at this one place, I can't remember the name of it, where I got this shirt. I can't remember the name of it. It was such a cool place. Such a cool place. I cannot think of the name of it. We were on I-90. We were on 90. Just if anybody knows it. It's in Montana on 90. It's like this big, you don't think it's like this big fabulous place, but this big fabulous place inside. Like gift shop galore, but not trinket-y stuff. Like really nice stuff. Like I got this great shirt, you guys. This great shirt. It says Montana on it. And the back has a thing too. Let me show you the back. Let me show you the back. Okay, wait. Let me show you the back. Sorry. Oh, it's just a minute. Just a minute. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. I'm back. I'm back. I'm back. Let me see. Did I screw this up? I'm upside down. Just a minute. Just a minute. This is like the story of my experience. So I get up thinking I'm not attached. I'm going to show you the back. And now I'm not attached. Scared the crap out of the dogs. I need, I'm going to do this anyway. Look at this shirt, you guys. Look at this shirt. You see it? I don't need to pull this up here. Let's pull this down. There we go. See it? You see it? Montana. Okay. Okay. I'm so sorry. Okay. That's basically the experience I've had. Elevations mess with your energy and your give you headaches and driving for several hours, just staring at the road gives you a weird effect that I did not expect. So we went to the cool place. Okay. So this, I scared the crap out of Tucker. Here's Tucker. This is one of my sisters dogs. Smile for the people. Are you sweet boy? This is Tucker. He's seven. I don't know what kind of dog. He's a poodle. Something. He's tiny. Look at how handsome Tucker is. Tuck tucks. Look, smile for the people. He's so cute. He's so cute. Okay. There's another dog, a Maltese mix that is laying next to me. He's, he is, I'm very tired. He's Sam. He's Max. He's very, very, very old. Max is the one. He's a white Maltese. You've probably seen him in pictures on Instagram. I did document my drive and my experiences, the scenic stuff on Instagram when I could. And Max rode with me in the car. So when I was flying solo, I was, let me just read this to make sure I can. Oh, hi. All right. I just want to make sure, can you hear me okay? Because I had to plug this back in after I knocked you guys over. Sorry. I'm clumsy like that. So we traveled with the two dogs too. Did I fail to mention that? Yeah, two dogs. So my sister, badass that she is, was driving this freaking new haul through these passes and stuff. So we stopped at this great place, my niece Googled and found like this, saw this cool place where she wanted to try Huckleberry, a Huckleberry shake or something, or Huckleberry ice cream or something. So we stopped there and it was cool. I loved the place. Beautiful art inside, like cool art, very eclectic and just not eclectic, it's not the word, but what are you doing? You see the dog? And it's just been such a drive. It's not about the destination. Sometimes you'll learn the most on the drive, right? And we were just so focused trying to get here, trying to get here. And it was hard and it's stressful because literally, I'm going to tell you the story about that after, but it's the drive. Let's focus on the drive. That's what Sunday Night Coffee is about, right today. And we were, so we stopped in Montana, then we stayed overnight in Billings. And then the next day on Thursday, we ended up driving crazy mountain passes again. I'm like, oh my God. And then it started to snow, lightly snow, and then kind of rainy snow. And then we passed into Montana was the most beautiful state, you guys. I listened to a book on audio. I told you that. I talked on the phone a little bit and I just, and I had, I often on, I had a writing buddy, my niece usually was the one. My sister and I wrote together a little bit the first night for like an hour, two hours, two hours maybe, I think. And that was it. And she drove. That was the only time I rode the entire trip. I drove the whole way, which was great for me because motion sick. And I was already messed up. Like, by the time we got to Billings, Montana, I was just like, what? So tired. So I slept. We all slept. And then we got up early the next day and headed out right away. And then driving and curvy were swervy. And it was like stressful driving. And the worst of it, I think was the second day between Montana, Idaho, and into Washington because we pushed and stayed at a place called Moses Lake. And we stayed there in Washington. So it was only like a two and a half, three hour drive to her location after that, the next morning. And then we were going to meet the movers and we were going to move stuff and whatever at her place. And so they were going to help unload and all that. And so we were driving on Thursday. And again, started out, I was totally content driving by myself and on my own. Because I didn't want to drive to U-Haul. That was my thing. I told her, I said, I'm not driving to U-Haul. Because when I signed up to help her move, there was no U-Haul involved. And I'm like, yeah, I thought I was just doing a road trip. Turns out that this was a better way for me because if I was doing a road trip with my sister, she would be driving and I would be car sick. Just because I get motion sick. And if we were whipping around, oh my God, she's driving like 7080 in a U-Haul. I'm like, oh. So it's a good thing I was driving a car and I was solo and I had like control over my environment a little bit. That was really good. I just had Max. He was in the back seat filled with pillows and blankets. And he just chilled. He slept like most of the time anyway. And when he was kind of uncomfortable, I call my sister and say, Hey, you know, and then we'd stop anyway. We were stopping because they had Tucker, this little one in the U-Haul because he needs to be by my sister because he's like really attached to her. So they were driving to U-Haul, my sister and my niece. And then they switched out driving. And then sometimes my niece drove with me and then, but my sister always was in the U-Haul and it's uncomfortable in the U-Haul if you've ever done that. I didn't have to ride in it, which is good. I guess it's noisy, bumpy and the seats really suck. And it's, there was no cruise control in the U-Haul. No cruise control. So my sister, she said it was stuff to get used to that. So by the second day when we stopped in Moses, like I was so kind, all kinds of messed up, like mentally and my body from not moving. I haven't hadn't walked. I had been sitting for 11 hours. Got, we know, we took a couple stops. We probably stopped twice that whole time, but we do three hour chunks and we stopped to go to the bathroom or whatever. But three hour chunks was our goal is trying to do three hour chunks. Sometimes it didn't work out because we had to go to the bathroom where the dogs did. But otherwise three hour chunks, boom, boom, boom, you know. And man, I can't believe that. I did that. And then so we got there and I was like, okay, I can totally do the next morning three hours. No problem. I can do it. I didn't know that that was going to be the most treacherous as far as like heights wise and guardrails in the home of God. And, but the roads were way better. By far the worst roads were in Idaho and the weather was crappy. It was rainy. It was slippery. It was like then snowy. It was beautiful. Oh my gosh, the lands beautiful, beautiful scenery. But I really felt like it was very private. The road that I was on almost, it almost felt like Idaho's vibe was kind of private. And like, there's only parts of you I'm going to let you see. Montana was like big heart is what it felt like big heart. And I felt like when I was driving in the mountains in Montana, oh my God, I have never felt so close to God in my life that I felt there. I felt so good in Montana. I did not expect that at all. I thought Seattle Washington would be more my vibe. But I literally felt like I was inside. There were points when it was open, but there were mountains and I felt like the mountains and they were farther away and then close by and farther away. And it was like they gave me space and room to breathe. But they protected me. They were like warriors or or bouncers, guards, guards or guardians. That's a better way. Around the edges and then I felt like low in the belly. And it's probably too because like in the belly of the mother in the womb of the divine mother of earth, I felt that there. And it's probably also because I was listening to The Alchemist. That's the book I listened to the entire book and one and a half times. On audio, I listened to podcasts and stuff too. That's why I listened to it like one and a half times. And it was just and so it's probably that to a very philosophical kind of but it was just so beautiful and it was I couldn't think of a better combo. It was the coolest thing. And I spent a lot of time by myself in the car during that leg of the journey and it was just really beautiful for me. And so when we got to Moses Lake in Washington State, I was just all kinds of messed up. I'd never driven that far in my life two days in a row, like well over 10 hour days, both days. And I just was like, again, I'm glad that I drove by myself. And like I drove the whole way. I'm glad that I drove most of the way except for like two hours because I needed that I needed that feeling of kind of control, that feeling of choices, that feeling of not car sickness. And I still got car sick. I was so car sick or so sick. When we stopped in Moses Lake, I did not know which end was up. I felt like I had been on a cruise ship that was going through a hurricane. I was so motion sick because of all the roads and the stress and the ups and downs and the left and right and elevation change. Oh my gosh, I never felt so sick. I was so sick. I was sick for hours. I kept feeling like I was moving. I felt like I was moving. And so it was just that was so much on my body. I had no idea. I've never experienced that before, but I've never done long drives like that. It's been years. I mean, the last time I did a drive like this, I was with the same two people. My niece was like two or three years old. And my sister had was just moving from Minnesota down to Mississippi. So we went south to Mississippi to be with her husband, her new husband at the time, because he was in the military and he was stationed there in Biloxi, Mississippi, or Gulfport, Gulfport. Yeah, it was Gulfport. And so we did that drive with the same people. We didn't have a U-Haul though. We just packed the car into it. And so there's that. And then now this experience, but this experience is way different and way older and very psychic this time for me. And so it was so there's so many pieces here that are so profound if I think about it. But my physical body could not handle it. Like if it was up to me, there's no way I would have been driving. I would have stopped. I would have slept somewhere. I would have taken at least three days, probably three days to get here. That would have been way better for me, but I wasn't on my timeline. It wasn't about my time. I was just there to support my sister. So I had to do whatever she needed to do, you know. And so we had to get there. We had a time frame, a deadline. So we got here. So the next morning, I was so sick though that I got my own hotel room and I just laid in quiet. I couldn't even sleep because I was so motion sick and I had to take half a dramamine to sleep. That's how bad it was. Like I was so not feeling good. I just needed my own space. I needed not to be moving. It was really tough for my physical body. I'm so sensitive. And I knew I was, but I didn't realize how much still. I thought, oh, it's no big deal. That's a big deal. So it's the drive for sure. So then the last morning, woke up, got up and headed out and arrived here and I was sick. I was still sick. I was sick when I got in the car in the morning. I was sick when I got, I wasn't as bad, but I was still sick. And it's weird when you know you're driving and you have to take a dramamine. It's so weird and you're tired and it's just, it's a crazy time. I never felt like I was going to fall asleep though. Never did that. I had a lot of coffee to keep me awake. Every time we stopped, I'm like, coffee, I need coffee. But yeah, I was so sick that when we got here, I had such a bad like headache and motion sick. My whole body was rebelling against me that I laid on this hard, this hard, concrete floor and laid with the dogs running around while my sister and my niece were loading and unloading the box, some of the boxes from the U-Haul, the fragile stuff before the movers came because I was, I was so sick. And then I just looked at my sister, she's just like, what's wrong with you? I'm like, oh my God, I'm dying. Like I'm dying right now that if I was at home, I would be locked in my bedroom for at least two days. I am so sick right now. I'm very sick. But there's like, you know, stuff has to get done. So they're just doing it. I'm literally laying on the floor on a pillow, the dog's pillow, what the dog is running around me going, oh yeah, try not to let the dogs run off the door every time they opened it. It was like hell. I never want to be in that situation again. I thought I was going to die. I wanted to die. It's such a bad headache, you guys, like bad headache. It wasn't a migraine. It was like a travel headache thing, like my neck was, it was awful. I know I'm complaining and venting, venting, venting, but it was bad. I've never felt, and I've been pregnant where I've been so nauseated and morning sick. This was not that. I have been seasick on a boat during a hurricane. This was not that. I have been car sick before on trips. This was not that. It was all of these things combined into one cocktail. And when I stopped moving physically, I couldn't even, I just, I looked weird. I couldn't stand up. I felt dizzy. I felt super lightheaded. And apparently the elevation thing really affects me. I've been to Colorado before and I know how the oxygen and stuff definitely affects me. It took me about two days to get used to it there when I was in Denver for a conference years ago, like seven years ago. And I knew that would affect me, but I didn't realize how much it would affect me on top of all this other. I was so sick, you guys, for a couple of hours. And then finally all of a sudden I'm like, it must have been probably three hours later. I'm like, okay, now I feel like a human. Now I feel like I can try to help because I couldn't even put words together. I couldn't, stuff did not make sense in my mind. It almost felt like maybe what you feel like when you have a stroke or something, like I could not, I just couldn't, my mind wasn't working. It was crazy. And I felt bad because I couldn't help the two of them move. And they were obviously stressed and frustrated because I, you know, it's a very stressful scenario. And I would look at them and I'm like, you don't understand. I can't, can't even move right now. So we had movers and they helped. And then eventually I felt better. And then in the afternoon on Friday, I was actually able to meet a friend from British Columbia. She drove down. We met at dinner. And it was amazing. So it like changed everything for me. It helped me remember like my eye on the prize. Like I knew we were going to be able to meet up. There was a strong likelihood I'd be able to see her. I've never met her. It's been eight years. We've been such good friends. She's such a close, close person in my life. She's been so helpful for me and all the stuff I've been going through this last year. And, and before that for years, just somebody I could always reach out to if I hadn't talked to her for two months. And we just pick up right where we left off and, and supported each other. We've supported each other professionally. We've coached each other. We've received each other's healing services. We've been friends. We just are, she's just very important to me. And I got to meet her. It was awesome. It was the best. Like I feel emotional. It was the best. It was the best. It's a beautiful, beautiful gift. So it's great. Some of you know her too. I'm not going to say her name because I don't, I'm like, if you're, if you're in the priestess or divine feminine world connected to like priestess presence or rosamistica temples or anything like that, you know, or you totally won't know. So, but our friendship is our personal private friendship. And I don't want it to be like this, like professional connection thing. I just want it to be our friendship. So anyway, that's a long story. I've been talking for a long time, you guys. Sorry. This is boring. I hope this isn't boring. So the driving piece. So I'm going to tell you what I learned from driving. Let me just chat with you guys here. I'm doing this live, you guys. It is Sunday morning, chilling my, so here's an emotional piece, right? It's the drive, the journey, right? We hear that all the time. It's about the journey. Life is about the journey, not the destination. Well, we're in such a hurry to get to the destination. Sometimes like, he's so funny. He's like listening to all the new songs. We're in such a hurry to get to the destination. Sometimes that we totally are a mess about the journey or disrespect it. Let me tell you, I was respecting the I want to swear so bad. I want to respect the f and journey. Oh my God, the drive, respect the drive. This can be used in a lot of different ways. So the title of this Sunday morning coffee is the drive, my personal story and the drive. So the drive within us, what motivates us, what's the vehicle that's carrying us from one place to another. There's so many layers that we could talk about pieces here. So let's talk, right? The drive, the journey. There are things I would like to do different. There are things I knew embarking on it that they was going to be challenging and stressful because of how it was set up. This happened fast in the last two weeks. My sister got a job offer. She was one of those COVID casualties, right? And she had a very high level job at an airline and was let loose set free from that. And so then had to kind of figure things out. And as a single woman, it's like, it's all her, her household is her, you know, and she has two like college days kids, but they're still starting out, especially her youngest is still just starting out. So she's helping her, her youngest, you know, emotionally and and cosigning student loans, stuff like that, you know what I mean? Because her youngest is also getting her master's and stuff. So I mean, there's a whole bunch of stuff. And, and she just got engaged. And so there's a lot, right? So two weeks, she got it. She got the job. It was probably 10 days that she flew out to Seattle, looked around for a place to live, found a place. Magically, this exact apartment opened up, which is actually it's like a, it's like a studio. It's not technically a one bedroom, but it's set up like a one bedroom. It just doesn't have like the slider doors or anything. And so they can't call it that. So it's a totally more affordable and it's a beautiful view like you've seen it. And I can, I can post a picture just looking out. I don't want to like reveal too much about her private life or where she's at, but beautiful views and it's a corner unit. It's like gorgeous. It's plenty for her as a one person with two little dogs, plenty. Plus she's really close to so many amenities and things like walking distance, everything like right across the street, food everywhere. It's the coolest place. It's totally walkable. Everything's walkable, which is great. And it feels really safe. It's a safe area and lots of security in the building and stuff. So it's good. But two weeks, not even like 10, nine or 10 days, and she had to move. And so she had to coordinate everything and figure everything out and pack her entire life and decide what she was going to do with the dogs. And there's all sorts of things moving from state to state. And she had to make sure that the dogs were licensed. And then she had to make sure that she had her deposits done and she had to coordinate movers. And she, she had so much to do and a short amount of time. And I'm like, of course, I'm going to, I offered right away to help her. I'm like, of course I'll help you. If you're going to, if you're going to take this job, I'll help you move. I'll drive with you. But I didn't know it was going to be a whole thing. I thought she was going to have him over and moving company or do a pod or something, but that's not, it was expensive to do that. And she's like, no, I want my stuff, which I totally get that. I want my stuff too. She wanted to feel home because we arrived here on Friday and she starts work on Monday. So my niece is going to fly back today on Sunday. And that's sad. It's really hard. So I told my sister this morning, go and I walked to Starbucks. I already did that. I got my Starbucks this morning. And I had plenty of tea this morning too before I had Starbucks. And I said to her, you two go, just go have lunch or go hang out, do whatever you need to do together, just spend time together because it's really sad. My, my sister's really close with her kids. She was a single mom forever and they all live by each other and they're really tight and they're constantly FaceTiming even when they lived by each other. I mean, so she's got a really good bond with her kids. But now it's her opportunity for her life to enjoy the drive, you know, the experience of learning what's next on this adventure. It's totally an adventure. And my niece kept saying that this is an adventure. And I said, yeah, my niece and I went and we went to go get some sushi and like poke bowls. And last night and my sister just chilled with the dogs, just kind of by herself had some time to kind of think about energy here by herself, which is good because she hadn't had that yet. So she did that. We left and walked and got food and brought it back. And we were walking, we were talking about how this is like a hard time for my sister for sure. It's a hard time for her kids, her family to have the separation, but it's also a perfect time for growth. And it's a safe way for all of them to experience life in a new way now, because like my sister, she gets this opportunity to have her life as this independent career woman, which she's always been. But, but adult person with her own life, like, like, I want her to meet people and make friends and have a fun freaking life because she had her kids young and she really has never been lived on her own aside from now. She has a house and I mean, like a town house and stuff, but, but her kids for most part have always lived with her. Even when they were at college, they come home and visit and they live with her when they're moving home and all that, you know, like, so she's always been home based. So she's never really just had her own space. That's just hers and her own life. That's just hers. And I know for, for a lot of people, that's really scary, but it's also this incredible, brilliant, beautiful time for her to grow and expand. And I think there's places in your life and my life that we want that too and need that. And I'm sure she's having tons of mixed feelings because I can feel it. And I'm an empath and I'm a psychic person. And I'm literally, like her room is right here. And I can hear the TV and it's like, it's like a pass through a kind of apartment. It's a long skinny apartment. And it's like an efficiency, but it's not, it's like a studio, but it's not, it's different. It's kind of weird, hard to describe it. It kind of reminds me of an apartment in New York. The way it's set up, it's kind of different, but it's great. It feels really good energetically. It feels great for her. It feels great for me, but there's a lot of mixed energy here. And her and my niece were sleeping in that other room and I was sleeping on the couch here. And I can feel all the, the, the turning over, the churning of the soil, you know, and it's a lot. And so for you and I, the drive, it's not about forcing or pushing change. It's about allowing it and allowing life to mess with us because it messed with me. I was so sick and I'm like, no, this isn't the time. I want to help. I can help. I'm strong. I got big muscles. I can do this. I can do that. And, but I had hit the wall so hard and totally was putting other people's needs or demands or the situation's demands above my own over and over and over again for like a couple of days because I was just stopping when they needed to stop, unless I really had to go to the back and then I would say something. So, because I really wanted to respect that it wasn't, I wasn't the one that started us out on this journey and I wanted to stay in someone else's and I wanted to stay in the wake of the boat when I was driving behind that U-Haul. You know what I mean? I wanted to really stay, I didn't want to have to worry about me at all. I just wanted to kind of hold up the caboose, you know, but that kind of pressure for me was way too much based upon what we were already dealing with. With my big kids, my three big kids, their dad just having his chemo last week for the first time and then yesterday, after being here for a day, got word that their dog died at their dad's house, which they knew the dog was kind of sick and stuff but they thought he'd have a couple months to live and he died yesterday so that was a thing and that's a whole story but anyway there's been a lot for me. I have a lot of pressure. I have a kid that doesn't want to go to school and then my big kid that lives with me is his dad's caregiver and he has a lot of stress and pressure and there's a lot of stuff you guys. I have a lot of stuff so I felt really bad and guilty. I felt guilty for leaving my family during that time but I also needed my sister's also my family and I have to help her too like I was so pulled, right? So then when I went on this journey I was like okay I gotta be there for her. I gotta be there for her and I didn't realize that part of the drive was the experience for me and so I began to start to see as I was thinking about this drive and the boring straight land of North Dakota, the entire freaking state driving through, that I needed to like carpe diem like seize this day and make some choices in this process while the drive is happening, while the journey is unfolding, I needed to make some conscious choices in this process to support me. So I did kept my anointing oils out in my little bag so that I could grab them in my passenger seat. So I had them with me and I actually anointed at one of the rest stops because I was like it was hard. I used my honor oil. This is emerald temple honor oil. It smells so good. Actually I love it. I love it so much. It's very solar plexus. I also had my rosomistica oil that I used and I used my priestessing oil again emerald temple diana du boral. I also used my sacred oil that I have which is blue lotus and I'm trying to find the priestessing oil and I don't see it so it's I know it's in here but so I did that and then I also turned on the alchemist at the book that was the only and I actually had the alchemist and the atlas of the heart which I started to listen to parts of atlas of the heart bernie brown that new one but it was so much in my brain I could not have it. The alchemist was brilliant for me. I had never read that book. I know it's going to surprise many of you. I had never read it. It was great. It was so perfect and it was so cathartic during that experience and then the mountains in Montana when I got in there you guys I got to tell you I felt I never felt so good in my life. So good. I felt so good with the mountains. I didn't think I would because I liked the ocean. I've been to both coasts and the ocean and stuff and the Gulf of Mexico and stuff like that and I've even been to the Caribbean you know the western Caribbean and beautiful waters love the water but I just love those mountains. I've been to the desert too in California, deserted California area. This was something I'm never going to forget. Mama Montana. South feels to me. Mama Montana. Montana feels very androgynous both masculine and feminine energies. That's what it feels like to be there. Like when I was down in some of those beautiful mountains and there was all this there was water and greenery and farms in between and it wasn't crowded or cramped or like some of the other places like that you go through in the mountains and like stuff like Boise like I said or not Boise did not go through Boise but Idaho feel felt very like protective and private and just here's different parts of me I'm all going to show you different pieces till I know you then I'm gonna let you in like very only the people who know me the locals can be here kind of like and so it felt very different in fairness though it was rainy it was slippery it was cold it was scary roads and buried lots of potholes oh my gosh I don't know how that you all did not just I seriously and my sister is like either psycho or incredibly strong she's probably a little bit of both we probably both crazy and strong yeah probably we probably a little bit both but I'm like damn she's badass anyway I should get her bumper sticker that says that wouldn't be funny I should get her a little sticker just to say hey badass like I made it I survived the trip from here to here to here we should get t-shirts made I survived the drive I survived the drive hey that would be a good merch for me I survived the drive a great metaphor for life right sure has been something you guys let me just tell you sure has been something now I feel mellow and chill today because I'm by myself I'm used to having a long time and I only meditated like twice two or three twice once in the hotel room no twice in the hotel room when I was alone and then once here yesterday morning I had to and then now I just had this one time some talk in you which is great I should probably just chill in journal which I'm going to do next so it's the drive not the force of the change but what you do with the processes and the places you find yourself in what to do with the energy that's around you and to acknowledge your energy you don't have to try to make yourself fit somewhere you have to understand what this somewhere has for you that's a gift what it can give to you what it can breathe into you or whisper to you and when I think about Montana I'm thinking about that because when we came into Washington state it didn't really do anything for me it really didn't and I've been here before I've been to Seattle again I'm visiting my sister when she her husband was stationed here at one point I've been to Seattle a couple of times two or three times I think to visit her probably three and so I've been here I've been to Pike's place I've been downtown Seattle you know that was in like the what late 90s probably I think late 90s yeah yeah late 90s yeah and so I've been here and I like it it's fine it's it's pretty and the gloominess doesn't even really bother me that much it's like the pressuring stuff though the foggy stuff is like kind of messes with me a little bit I think it's pretty the mountains are pretty the trees are pretty but the foliage and the way it looks the greenery looks like Duluth Minnesota to me it looks like up north in Minnesota it looks like this is gorgeous except we have way more birch trees that's what I would say and it's beautiful it looks like that it looks like this so it's not that different and I'm not a skier so I need to go to the mountains or anything but but the drive in here I mean it was pretty it was really pretty because we stopped in an overlook I have that on Bridget inspired on my Instagram stopped in an overlook and I got to do like a video for you and pictures and stuff it was pretty but it was like the guardrail was like oh and then there's some eyes like right next to you and they're like squishing you and you're like oh my gosh I do not want to do that again no thank you once is enough check that box I would drive to Montana again I would totally do that I would totally do that kind of thing by myself I seriously would I would totally do it I think I need hiking boots too I'm thinking that because there's so many beautiful places now that have mountains that I would like to climb on to not like mountain climb but do trails and stuff and I don't do that and in Minnesota we have river bluffs and things like that and I could totally do that there and I just never have and think and I want to try that I want to start doing that I don't even have hiking boots or anything I mean I don't trail shoes I think I need that for sure yeah so thank you so much for hanging in with this Sunday morning coffee with Bridget I know it's a long one I really love talking to you guys you guys are therapeutic for me as well thank you for joining me on Sunday March 6th 2022 from I'm going to say near about Seattle Washington I just want to take a peek and see and see some of you oh you guys are sweet let's see if I can see here I'm not sure how to read well there we go I can read some of your comments let me do that if I can oh that's me I would be emotional yeah I got motion sickness too yeah I can vent all you guys are sweet altitude sickness yeah is that a thing that must be a thing I moved from Wisconsin to Washington wow your experience is similar to mine wow that's cool the open road one of my favorite places wow interesting car trips are so healing interesting I just read the book Bridget the alchemist yeah hey nice to see you thanks for showing up lucky love my troops okay all right you guys so I'm going to wrap up this episode of Sunday morning coffee with Bridget I'm grateful that if you stuck in here with me I finally feel like I can relax a little bit today at least right now in this moment very much I'm not sure what I'm gonna do now I probably should have a little breakfast I haven't eaten anything my schedule my eating schedule is all screwed up but I did go and buy when I went to the grocery store I did go and buy some brush veggies so I'm gonna eat that with the hummus I have leftover from yesterday from the great falafel Greek Greek shop across the street I got falafel oh so good yellow rice it was really good and hummus was really good so I had hummus so I kept it I'm like oh keep this and I get some veggies and dip it in so I have that I think I got some soup which is good and I have a salad I can eat so I think I'm gonna have that for breakfast salad so I hope you're doing well on this Sunday this has been my adventure I am not going to be home until Wednesday so I will do a probably another live stream or two on Instagram and or on fairy grasshopper my youtube channel so we'll see I don't know for above-life channel if I'm gonna actually do a channeling session tomorrow or not I'm not sure if I do it might have to be live so we'll see I'm not sure timing wise I think I can actually I will have time during the day by myself my sister will be at work and if the dogs are mellow like they are right now I could totally do a channeling I'm not sure what channel I wish there's somebody around Washington state that'd be interesting we'll see thank you so much for being here I hope I've inspired your spirit today filled you with some hope with my personal story of the road trip that I just went upon and encouraged you encouraged you to live your life even if you're on a road trip and you get car sick or out the dude's sick or whatever the heck it is I hope that I've encouraged you to live your life you guys it's the drive it is the opportunities and the circumstances that we're presented with and the situations that we're in where we can make our subtle choices we can choose ourselves love ourselves through that process we cannot we can take advantage of the opportunities we have to show up it's not even showing up like pushing or forcing it's not like an adversarial thing it's like a opportunity to work with whatever's showing up for us like the stuff what can I make with this what is this how can this how can this scenario or situation or life circumstance or or event actually be good for me how can this help me how can this help me right here right now how can this help me how can this enhance my life even if it's heavy crappy I hate driving even if it's that even if it's intense emotionally major separation from the family or the dog dies or you name it let me just tell you I've probably been through it already that's not something you need to find strength in the point is is when the circumstances or situations show up and arise for you it's how you engage or relate to that it's not about how you react and I think a lot of people that says well it's all about how you react you can control how you react well how about we stop controlling things and just show up and be real and authentic with things as things are unfolding and say what is the circumstances or situation what does it got for me because it's got something it might be to clear your stress so you can get angry and blow up and let off some steam that might be the purpose of that bad driver or that crappy situation or the motion sick might be the experience to slow your body down and feel the body my body is such an oracle it's been my journey so all the stuff that happened to my body and the way my body physically reacted gave me information about myself the more sensitive I am it doesn't mean I'm weak or vulnerable it means I am authentic and I'm going to honor the authenticity that my body is brave enough to express and share with me and that is my driving journey that is mine what is your you know plenty of opportunities my friend trust I knew that sending you so much love from a little bit of a dreary Washington today but it's Malo here and I kind of I really fit the vibe let me tell you I fit the vibe pretty well so have a good day thanks for watching