 I wasn't selected for London 2012 at the home games. At the time it was without doubt one of the lowest moments in my career. I'd been in the squad, I'd been in the mix right till the end. I was young though, I was a very young goalkeeper but I was playing well, I was really pushing the other two all the way and in my head I was like I think I might have done enough to at least well to be the reserve keeper at the number two which for me at that age 24 would have been huge. At the time it was horrendous but looking back it was definitely the right goal because I was young and I was undercooked. I think that kind of disappointment only made me go on to kind of be the keeper that I am today with a bit more determination and a lot more experience. I was actually very fortunate that myself and Susanna Townsend got to be part of the BOA Ambition Programme but then it was an opportunity for young potential Olympians, future potential Olympians to experience the games. So you got almost like your own kit, not the same kit but you're in different types of kit and you got to basically go see the village, go meet other teams, watch some sports, kind of got the Olympic experience without actually being an Olympian. The crowd was huge, I'd never seen a hockey crowd like it. I didn't realise how much I wanted to be an Olympian or go to Olympic games then I certainly did in that moment. It was just something beyond special. For the final it was, for starters, it had everything. It was an unbelievable advert for hockey and for women's sport in particular from the first game to the very last game. We had a story and it wasn't just the story that was at the games, it was the story that got us there. It was so fascinating I think the people to hear where we come from and where we came in and how we did it and yeah essentially that's creative history that will take some beating like a final like that. The way it went, you know the drama, the atmosphere, the shootout, everything like it'll take some topping and I'm not sure it'll ever be done anytime soon in that way but I feel very lucky to be in part of it. When I watched the footage back I'm like were we actually there? Like was it actually part of this like madness? So it's very very cool. The opportunity to play in a home major tournament does not come around often. As soon as I knew we were gonna be hosting it was like I had to get myself on that team show and I have to be the number one. I want to play every single game now and I want to soak up the atmosphere of every single opportunity because again I will never play in a home world cup ever again. To have that opportunity and to have those memories I feel very fortunate to have experienced that. It wasn't quite you know the dream tournament that we wanted but it was still something that I'll look back on with super fun memories.