 so i'm recording all kind of footage and i have yet to upload anything but y'all gonna see this when y'all see it i just got out of my acupuncture appointment hence the line in my forehead but um why come i here to do or see uh i don't remember y'all like my earrings these are so gorgeous um what did i come in here to say oh okay so here's the thing right i have a lot of footage to edit and upload so y'all are probably going to see this video before i upload anything in fact i actually have two videos i believe a therapy thursday and another video from like last year that i still gonna edit edit and upload as well it's just that through christmas season and then january i was traveling and i even have that i have a video from that too january was traveling and then a fair like everything was just back to back to back so youtube definitely took a back burner in my life because i had other things i had to put my energy into as well as you know taking care of little children and keeping myself up and going so i'm going i'm getting back you know in the swing of things i'm starting to pour my energy into other areas now and youtube is going to be one of them so for now i actually while i'm editing those videos because i'm i my plan is to like designate a date where i just go in on just editing all my videos and then schedule all of them to upload so that i'll be back on track and y'all will see things that are more current versus old things but there's still videos there's still things that happen it's still content that i want to and need to upload so i'm gonna do it regardless however i have some videos right from 2022 of like right when i gave birth and after i gave birth is uploaded to youtube as unlisted so nobody can see them because these videos were more like there were more vulnerable videos you could say or videos that i i initially thought that i would make create a patreon and have it there but all of that scratch all of that i am actually thinking about making those videos public because i'm at a point in my life now that like like it don't even matter like i don't know how to put it but like i am definitely thinking to just put those videos public yeah i don't know so while i'm uploading the current videos and getting my life organized and getting back on track putting myself on a better schedule for youtube and all of that i think i'm going to make those videos public it's like i one of the videos is actually like more some footage of when i actually gave birth um i don't know if i could upload i don't know if i could make that one public because there's some nudity in it and i don't want youtube to flag my videos um but i'm thinking i gotta go back and watch it to see if i could make that public i don't know if i could blur out anything but it's some of the footage is is of me actually in labor so um there's that one and then there's one of me naming the baby there's another one of i have like three postpartum blues videos of me just venting and explaining about just stuff that was going on in the moment that i was struggling with and so forth so i would say there's probably maybe five or six videos that are unlisted that i can make public and i think i'm gonna do that because they're there they're they're literally already edited they're already uploaded nobody just can't see them right now so i'm going to post this video first and then y'all will see and i'm gonna put dates on the upcoming videos the ones that i'm going to be editing right now so y'all know you know when it was when that was taking place but yeah i just came out of my um acupuncture appointment and i was talking to my acupuncturist like we be having these conversations because he's big in chinese medicine so i'd be asking him all kind of question because i just i love learning about the things i'm passionate about and holistic health wound wellness fertility all of that that is where my passion lies so we we had a whole long conversation today um while he was poking those needles in me it was good though um he gave me some this book recommendation that i i'm really really excited to buy and start reading or start listening to because i'd be listening to the audiobooks these days i'd still buy the physical book buy to listen to the audiobook because your girl is busy but um i'm excited just about everything that i have in store i'm a that's not for this video right now but i have a lot going on that i'm excited about and i can't wait to just blossom in that this year however for now i am recovering from the fear fear was amazing so amazing by the way today is thursday so this would have been a therapy thursday video but i didn't have therapy today so i guess i think i'm so accustomed to just filming on a thursday that this just happened but um i digress so i'm still recovering from fear it was so amazing i had a great i did so well so well like i have no complaints and although i was still like in the back and not on the main attraction stretch i still did so well like i did really good um i did more than i made more than twice what i made last year okay fear for me last year was not it but this year it was extremely good like and my energy was different too so that has a lot to do with it in terms of just how i um how i went about doing things so i'm excited i'm recovering right now i just which is why i did acupuncture today i have a 90 minute massage on saturday and i have a reiki session the following saturday if there's one thing i'm gonna do is take care of myself okay i'm gonna look 16 forever because it takes more than you know eating healthy and drinking herbs to really keep your body in balance and that's why i like to focus on the whole so i do my acupuncture i do my chiropractor adjustments i get my massages like i do not play um there's so much things out there that's against our health eating is a big one is like one of the biggest things that's against our health but like just your environment you know the daily stress of just having to go to work and you know not me but like going to work every day and um dealing with people and different energies and the stressors of bills and i have obligations and responsibilities like you have to take care of yourself so i make sure i get my self-care in and my self-care is definitely um acupuncture chiropractor adjustments massages you only steaming you know wool massages just things that's really going to keep my belly my body healthy and in balance but anyways i don't want this to be a crazy long video so i'm gonna end it here so stay tuned for the videos that i'm about to publish on my channel know that they are old videos i don't want nobody thinking that i just gave birth today because that is old okay and enjoy those until i get the other footage up all right so yeah i cannot i'm so obsessed with these earrings i am so obsessed with these earrings anyways um to all my melanated woman watching protect your womb by any means necessary and to everybody watching protect your peace by any means necessary i wish you all love light and prosperity and you will see me in my next video peace