 Um, things haven't been right for a long time. Um, just a feeling of uncertainty, feeling unsure of myself. It's hard to describe. So for a long time? Yeah. Um, I can sort of pinpoint it back to secondary school, especially in Year 9 when my best mate moved, and I just sort of didn't mix in, and I just sort of retreated to the library and threw myself into books and study. I guess that's why I did so well academically. Um, yeah. So what's happened since then? Um, just the same. Only getting worse. You know, I avoid people as much as I can in the hospital. Looking at case notes, you know, looking busy. I take the stairs all the time, trying to avoid sharing the lift with others. I know it sounds ridiculous. I just, um, I just feel so anxious all the time. You know, it's just, I don't like the thought of people sort of critiquing me, and I just, you know, it's not good for a doctor, is it? Yeah, yeah. How do you actually manage to avoid the people in the hospital? At least that possible. I just do. I keep to myself, I stand at the back of rounds, and look at CT scans, and look at x-rays, dreading the thought of someone speaking to me. You know, I get all sweaty, and yeah, so good. Have you had a panic attack before? You understand what I mean by that? Yeah, I do. Yeah, I had one yesterday, actually. I got picked on round to do a case press, and, um, I just froze. It was really awful. It was awful. I just, I said, I feel like I'm going to be sick, and I had to excuse myself. And what about your family? So your mother, your father, is there anyone with anxiety, mood problems? Yeah, yeah. Your mother or your father? Yeah, mom. Your mother. Mom is really obsessive, and she is like an absolute warrior. She's worries. And she's one of those parents who thinks the world's a really, you know, she goes, you know, don't do that, you owe yourself sort of thing, and she thinks the world's a scary place. And dad died when I was 11. He died of a road accident. Oh, okay. Yeah. Sorry to hear that. Thank you. What about your mood in the last few weeks? How has that been? It's been okay. Like I'm not sad or suicidal or anything like that. It's just, it's such an effort, you know, it's such an effort to get through now. I don't want to quit. I just, I, um, I don't know. I don't know. Okay.