 CHAPTER 93 Say that you forgive me. On the following day, again early in the morning, Mrs. Trevalian and Stanbury were driven out to Kosolunga. The country people along the road knew the carriage well, and the lady who occupied it, and would say that the English wife was going to see her mad husband. Mrs. Trevalian knew that these words were common in the people's mouths, and explained to her companion how necessary it would be to use these rumours to aid her in putting some restraint over her husband even in this country, should they fail in their effort to take him to England. She saw the doctor in Sienna constantly, and had learned from him how such steps might be taken. The measure proposed would be slow, difficult, inefficient, and very hard to set aside if once taken, but still it might be indispensable that something should be done. He would be so much worse off here than he would be at home, she said, if we could only make him understand that it would be so. Then Stanbury asked about the wine. It seemed that of late Trevalian had taken to drink freely but only of the wine of the country. But the wine of the country in these parts is sufficiently stimulating, and Mrs. Trevalian acknowledged that hence had arisen a further cause of fear. They walked up the hill together, and Mrs. Trevalian, now well-knowing the ways of the place, went round at once to the front terrace. There he was, seated in his armchair, dressed in the same way as yesterday, dirty, dishevelled, and gaudy with various colours. But Stanbury could see at once that his mood had greatly changed. He rose slowly, dragging himself up out of his chair as they came up to him, but showing as he did so, and perhaps somewhat assuming, the impotency of querulous sickness. His wife went to him, and took him by the hand, and placed him back in his chair. He was weak, he said, and had not slept, and suffered from the heat, and then he begged her to give him wine. This she did, half-filling for him a tumbler, of which he swallowed the contents greedily. You see me very poorly, Stanbury, very poorly, he said, seeming to ignore all that had taken place on the previous day. You want change of climate, old fellow, said Stanbury. Change of everything. I want change of everything, he said, if I could have a new body and a new mind and a new soul. The mind and soul, dear, will do well enough if you will let us look after the body, said his wife, seating herself on a stool near his feet. Stanbury, who had settled beforehand how he would conduct himself, took out a cigar and lighted it, and then they sat together silent, or nearly silent, for half an hour. She had said that if Hugh would do so, Trevelyan would soon become used to the presence of his old friend, and it seemed that he had already done so. More than once, when he coughed, his wife fetched him some drink in a cup, which he took from her without a word, and Stanbury the while went on smoking in silence. You have heard, Louis, she said at last, that after all Nora and Mr. Stanbury are going to be married. Ah, yes, I think I was told of it. I hope you may be happy, Stanbury, happier than I have been. This was unfortunate, but neither of the visitors winced or said a word. It will be a pity that papa and mama cannot be present at the wedding, said Mrs. Trevelyan. If I had to do it again, I should not regret your father's absence. I must say that. He has been my enemy. Yes, Stanbury, my enemy. I don't care who hears me say so. I am obliged to stay here, because that man would swear every shilling I have away from me if I were in England. He would strive to do so, and the struggle in my state of health would be too much for me. But Sir Marmaduke sails from Southampton this very week, said Stanbury. I don't know. He is always sailing and always coming back again. I never asked him for a shilling in my life, and yet he has treated me as though I were his bitterest enemy. He will trouble you no more now, Louis, said Mrs. Trevelyan. He cannot trouble you again. He will have left England before you can possibly reach it. He will have left other traitors behind him, though none as bad as himself, said Trevelyan. Stanbury, when his cigar was finished, rose and left the husband and wife together on the terrace. There was little enough to be seen at Casa Lunga, but he strolled about looking at the place. He went into the huge granary, and then down among the olive trees, and up into the sheds which had been built for beasts. He stood and teased the lizards and listened to the hum of the insects, and wiped away the perspiration which rose to his brow even as he was standing, and all the while he was thinking what he would do next, or what say next, with the view of getting Trevelyan away from the place. Hitherto he had been very tender with him, contradicting him in nothing, taking from him good-humoredly any absurd insult which he chose to offer, pressing upon him none of the evil which he had himself occasioned, saying to him no word that could hurt either his pride or his comfort. But he could not see that this would be efficacious for the purpose desired. He had come thither to help Nora's sister in her terrible distress, and he must take upon himself to make some plan for giving this aid. When he had thought of all this and made his plan, he sauntered back round the house onto the terrace. She was still there, sitting at her husband's feet, and holding one of his hands in hers. It was well that the wife should be tender, but he doubted whether tenderness would suffice. Trevelyan, he said, you know why I have come over here. I suppose she told you to come, said Trevelyan. Well, yes, she did tell me. I came to try and get you back to England. If you remain here, the climate and solitude together will kill you. As for the climate, I like it, and as for solitude I have got used even to that. And then there is another thing, said Stanbury. What is that? asked Trevelyan, starting. You are not safe here. How not safe? She could not tell you, but I must. His wife was still holding his hand, and he did not at once attempt to withdraw it, but he raised himself in his chair and fixed his eyes fiercely on Stanbury. They will not let you remain here quietly, said Stanbury. Who will not? The Italians. They are already saying that you are not fit to be alone, and if once they get you into their hands, under some Italian medical board, perhaps into some Italian asylum, it might be years before you could get out. If ever, I have come to tell you what the danger is. I do not know whether you will believe me. Is it so, he said, turning to his wife? I believe it is, Lewis. And who has told them? Who has been putting them up to it? Now his hand had been withdrawn. My God, am I to be followed here, too, with such persecution as this? Nobody has told them, but people have eyes. Liar, traitor, fiend, it is you, he said, turning upon his wife. Lewis, as I hoped for mercy, I have not said a word to anyone that could injure you. Trevelyan, do not be so unjust and so foolish, said Stanbury. It is not her doing. Do you suppose that you can live here like this and give rise to no remarks? Do you think that people's eyes are not open and that their tongues will not speak? I tell you, you are in danger here. What am I to do? Where am I to go? Can not they let me stay till I die? Whom am I hurting here? She may have all my money if she wants it. She has got my child. I want nothing, Lewis, but to take you where you may be safe and well. Why are you afraid of going to England? Stanbury asked. Because they have threatened to put me in a madhouse. Nobody ever thought of so treating you, said his wife. Your father did, and your mother. They told me so. Look here, Trevelyan. Sir Marmaduke and Lady Rowley are gone. They will have sailed at least before we can reach England. Whatever may have been either their wishes or their power, they can do nothing now. Here something would be done. Very soon you may take my word for that. If you will return with me and your wife, you shall choose your own place of abode. Is not that so, Emily? He shall choose everything. His boy will be with him and I will be with him, and he shall be contradicted in nothing, if he only knew my heart towards him. You hear what she says, Trevelyan? Yes, I hear her. And you believe her? I'm not so sure of that. Stanbury, how should you like to be locked up in a madhouse, and grin through the bars till your heart was broken? It would not take long with me, I know. You shall never be locked up, never be touched, said his wife. I am very harmless here, he said, almost crying, very harmless. I do not think anybody here will touch me, he added afterwards. And there are other places. There are other places. My God, that I should be driven about the world like this! The conference was ended by his saying that he would take two days to think of it, and by his then desiring that they would both leave him. They did so, and descended the hill together, knowing that he was watching them, that he would watch them till they were out of sight from the gate. For, as Mrs. Trevelyan said, he never came down the hill now, knowing that the labour of ascending it was too much for him. When they were at the carriage they were met by one of the women of the house, and strict instructions were given to her by Mrs. Trevelyan to send on word to Sienna if the Signore should prepare to move. He cannot go far without my knowing it, said she, because he draws his money in Sienna, and lately I have taken to him what he wants. He has not enough with him for a long journey. For, Stanbury had suggested that he might be off to seek another residence in another country, and that they would find Casalunga vacant when they reached it on the following Tuesday. But he told himself almost immediately, not caring to express such an opinion to Emily, that Trevelyan would hardly have strength even to prepare for such a journey by himself. On the intervening day, the Monday, Stanbury had no occupation whatever, and he thought that since he was born no day had ever been so long. Sienna contains many monuments of interest, and much that is valuable in art, having had a school of painting of its own, and still retaining in its public gallery specimens of its school, of which as a city it is justly proud. There are palaces there to be beaten for gloomy majesty by none in Italy. There is a cathedral which was to have been the largest in the world, and then which few are more worthy of prolonged inspection. The town is old and quaint and picturesque and dirty and attractive, as it becomes a town in Italy to be. But in July all such charms are thrown away. In July Italy is not a land of charms to an Englishman. Poor Stanbury did wander into the cathedral, and finding it the coolest place in the town, went to sleep on a stone step. He was awoke by the voice of the priests as they began to chant the Vespers. The good-natured Italians had let him sleep, and would have let him sleep till the doors were closed for the night. At five he dined with Mrs. Trevelyan, and then endeavored to while away the evening thinking of Nora with a pipe in his mouth. He was standing in this way at the Hotel Gateway, when, on a sudden, all Sienna was made alive by the clatter of an open carriage in four on its way through the town to the railway. On looking up, Stanbury saw Lord Peterborough in the carriage, with a lady whom he did not doubt to be Lord Peterborough's wife. He himself had not been recognized, but he slowly followed the carriage to the railway station. After the Italian fashion, the arrival was three-quarters of an hour before the proper time, and Stanbury had full opportunity of learning their news and telling his own. They were coming up from Rome, and thought it preferable to take the route by Sienna than to use the railway through the Marema, and they intended to reach Florence that night. And do you think he is really mad? asked Lady Peterborough. He is undoubtedly so mad as to be unfit to manage anything for himself, but he is not in such a condition that anyone would wish to see him put into confinement. If he were raving mad there would be less difficulty, though there might be more distress. A great deal was said about Nora, and both Lord Peterborough and his wife insisted that the marriage should take place at Moncoms. We shall be home now in less than three weeks, said Caroline, and she must come to us at once, but I will write to her from Florence, and tell her how we saw you smoking your pipe under the archway, not that my husband knew you in the least. Upon my word no, said the husband, one didn't expect to find you here. Goodbye. I hope you may succeed in getting him home. I went to him once, but could do very little. Then the train started, and Stanbury went back to Mrs. Trevelyan. On the next day, Stanbury went out to Casalunga alone. He had calculated, on leaving England, that if any good might be done at Sienna it could be done in three days, and that he would have been able to start on his return on the Wednesday morning, or on Wednesday evening at the latest. But now there did not seem to be any chance of that, and he hardly knew how to guess when he might get away. He had sent a telegram to Lady Rowley after his first visit, in which he had simply said that things were not at all changed at Casalunga, and he had written to Nora each day since his arrival. His stay was prolonged at great expense and inconvenience to himself, and yet it was impossible that he should go and leave his work half finished. As he walked up the hill to the house, he felt very angry with Trevelyan, and prepared himself to use hard words and dreadful threats. But at the very moment of his entrance on the terrace, Trevelyan professed himself ready to go to England. That's right, old fellow, said Hugh, I am so glad. But in expressing his joy, he had hardly noticed Trevelyan's voice and appearance. I might as well go, he said. It matters little where I am, or whether they say that I am mad or sane. When we have you over there, nobody shall say a word that is disagreeable. I only hope that you may not have the trouble of burying me on the road. You don't know, Stanbury, how ill I am. I cannot eat. If I were at the bottom of that hill, I could no more walk up it than I could fly. I cannot sleep, and at night my bed is wet through with perspiration. I can remember nothing, nothing but what I ought to forget. We'll put you on to your legs again when we get you to your own climate. I shall be a poor traveller, a poor traveller, but I will do my best. When would he start? That was the next question. Trevelyan asked for a week, and Stanbury brought him down at last, to three days. They would go to Florence by the evening train on Friday, and sleep there. Emily should come out and assist him to arrange his things on the morrow. Having finished so much of his business, Stanbury returned to Sienna. They both feared that he might be found on the next day to have departed from his intention, but no such idea seemed to have occurred to him. He gave instructions as to the notice to be served on the agent from the hospital as to his house, and allowed Emily to go among his things and make preparations for the journey. He did not say much to her, and when she attempted, with a soft, half-uttered word, to assure him that the threat of Italian interference, which had come from Stanbury, had not reached Stanbury from her, he simply shook his head sadly. She could not understand whether he did not believe her, or whether he simply wished that the subject should be dropped. She could elicit no sign of affection from him, nor would he willingly accept such from her. But he allowed her to prepare for the journey, and never hinted that his purpose might again be liable to change. On the Friday, Emily with her child, and Hugh with all their baggage, travelled out on the road to Casalunga, thinking it better that there should be no halt in the town on their return. At Casalunga, Hugh went up the hill with the driver, leaving Mrs. Trevelyan in the carriage. He had been out at the house before in the morning, and had given all necessary orders, but still at the last moment he thought that there might be failure. But Trevelyan was ready, having dressed himself up with a laced shirt, and changed his dressing-gown for a blue frock coat, and his brocaded cap for a Paris hat, very pointed before and behind, and closely turned up at the sides. But Stanbury did not in the least care for his friend's dress. Take my arm, he said, and we will go down fair and easy. Emily would not come up because of the heat. He suffered himself to be lead or almost carried down the hill, and three women, and the coachmen, and an old countryman who worked on the farm, followed with the luggage. It took about an hour and a half to pack the things, but at last they were all packed and corded and bound together with sticks, as though it were intended that they should travel in that form to Moscow. Trevelyan the meanwhile sat on a chair which had been brought out for him, from one of the cottages, and his wife stood beside him with her boy. Now then we are ready, said Stanbury, and in that way they bade farewell to Kosolunga. Trevelyan sat speechless in the carriage, and would not even notice the child. He seemed to be half-dreaming and to fix his eyes on vacancy. He appears to think of nothing now, Emily said that evening to Stanbury. But who can tell how busy and how troubled are the thoughts of a madman? They had now succeeded in their object of inducing their patient to return with them to England. But what were they to do with him when they had reached home with him? They rested only a night at Florence, but they found their fellow travellers so weary that they were unable to get beyond Bologna on the second day. Many questions were asked of him as to where he himself would wish to take up his residence in England, but it was found almost impossible to get an answer. Once he suggested that he would like to go back to Mrs Fuller's cottage at Willsden. From whence they concluded that he would wish to live somewhere out of London. On his first day's journey he was moody and silent, willfully assuming the heirs of a much-injured person. He spoke hardly at all, and would notice nothing that was said to him by his wife. He declared once that he regarded Stanbury as his keeper, and endeavored to be disagreeable and sullenly combative, but on the second day he was too weak for this, and accepted, without remonstrance, the attentions that were paid to him. At Bologna they rested a day, and from thence both Stanbury and Mrs Trevelyan wrote to Nora. They did not know where she might be now staying, but the letters by agreement were addressed to Greg's hotel. It was suggested that lodgings, or if possible a small furnished house, should be taken in the neighborhood of Mortlake, Richmond, or Teddington, and that a telegram as well as a letter should be sent to them at the Paris Hotel. As they could not travel quick, there might be time enough for them in this way, to know whether they should go on their reaching London. They stayed a day at Bologna, and then they went on again, to Turin over the mountains to Shamboury, thence to Dijon and on to Paris. At Shamboury they remained a couple of days, fancying that the air there was cool, and that the delay would be salutary to the sick man. At Turin finding that they wanted further assistance they had hired a courier, and at last Trevelyan allowed himself to be carried in and out of the carriages, and up and down the hotel stairs almost as though he were a child. The delay was terribly grievous to Stamboury, and Mrs. Trevelyan, perceiving this more than once, begged him to leave them, and to allow her to finish the journey with the aid of the courier. But this he could not do. He wrote letters to his friends at the DR office, explaining his position as well as he could, and suggesting that this and that able assistant should enlighten the British people on this and that subject, which would, in the course of nature, as arranged at the DR office, have fallen into his hands. He and Mrs. Trevelyan became as brother and sister to each other on their way home, as indeed it was natural that they should do. Were they doing right or wrong in this journey that they were taking? They could not conceal from themselves that the labour was almost more than the poor wretch could endure, and that it might be, as he himself had suggested, that they would be called on to bury him on the road. But that residence at Casalunga had been so terrible, the circumstances of it, including the solitude, sickness, madness, and habits of life of the wretched hermit, had been so dangerous, the probability of interference on the part of some native authority so great, and the chance of the house being left in Trevelyan's possession so small, that it had seemed to him that they had no other alternative. And yet, how would it be if they were killing him by the toil of travelling? From Shamburi they made the journey to Paris in two days, and during that time Trevelyan hardly opened his mouth. He slept much, and ate better than he had done in the hotter climate on the other side of the Alps. They found a telegram at Paris, which simply contained the promise of a letter for the next day. It had been sent by Nora before she had gone out on her search, but it contained one morsel of strange information. Lady Milbara is going with me. On the next day they got a letter, saying that a cottage had been taken, furnished, between Richmond and Twickenham. Lady Milbara had known of the cottage, and everything would be ready then. Nora would herself meet them at the station in London, if they would, as she proposed, stay a night at Dover. They were to address to her at Lady Milbara's house in Eccleston Square. In that case she would have a carriage for them at the Victoria Station, and would go down with them at once to the cottage. There were to be two days more of weary travelling, and then they were to be at home again. She and he would have a house together as husband and wife, and the curse of their separation would, at any rate, be over. Her mind towards him had changed altogether since the days in which she had been so indignant because he had set a policeman to watch over her. All feeling of anger was over with her now. There is nothing that a woman will not forgive a man when he is weaker than she is herself. The journey was made first to Dover and then to London. Once, as they were making their way through the Kentish hopfields, he put out his hand feebly and touched hers. They had the carriage to themselves, and she was down on her knees before him instantly. Oh, Lewis! Oh, Lewis! Say that you forgive me! What could a woman do more than that in her mercy to a man? Yes. Yes, yes, he said. But do not talk now. I am so tired. In the meantime the Rowleys were gone. On the Monday after the departure of Stanbury for Italy, Lady Rowley had begun to look the difficulty about Nora in the face, and to feel that she must do something towards providing the poor girl with a temporary home. Everybody had now agreed that she was to marry Hugh Stanbury as soon as Hugh Stanbury could be ready, and it was not to be thought of that she should be left out in the world as one in disgrace or under a cloud. But what was to be done? Sir Marmaduke was quite incapable of suggesting anything. He would make her an allowance and leave her a small sum of ready money, but as to residence he could only suggest again and again that she should be sent to Mrs. Outhouse. Now Lady Rowley was herself not very fond of Mrs. Outhouse, and she was aware that Nora herself was almost as averse to St. Diddolph's as she was to the Mandarin's. Nora already knew that she had the game in her own hands. Once when in her presence her father suggested the near relationship and prudent character and intense respectability of Mrs. Outhouse, Nora, who was sitting behind Sir Marmaduke, shook her head at her mother, and Lady Rowley knew that Nora would not go to St. Diddolph's. This was the last occasion on which that proposition was discussed. Throughout all the Trevelyan troubles Lady Milborough had continued to show a friendly anxiety on behalf of Emily Trevelyan. She had called once or twice on Lady Rowley, and Lady Rowley had of course returned the visits. She had been forward in expressing her belief that in truth the wife had been but little if at all to blame, and had won her way with Lady Rowley, though she had never been a favorite with either of Lady Rowley's daughters. Now in her difficulty Lady Rowley went to Lady Milborough and returned with an invitation that Nora should come to Eccleston Square, either till such time as she might think fit to go to Monkem's, or till Mrs. Trevelyan should have returned and should be desirous of having her sister with her. When Nora first heard of this she almost screamed with surprise, and if the truth must be told, with disappointment also. She never liked me, Mama. Then she is so much more good-natured. But I don't want to go to her merely because she is good-natured enough to receive a person she dislikes. I know she is very good. I know she would sacrifice herself for anything she thought right. But Mama, she is such a bore. But Lady Rowley would not be talked down, even by Nora in this fashion. Nora was somewhat touched with an idea that it would be a fine, independent thing to live alone, if it were only for a week or two, just because other young ladies never lived alone. Perhaps there was some half-formed notion in her mind that permission to do so was part of the reward due to her for having refused to marry a Lord. Stanbury was in some respects a Bohemian, and it would become her, she thought, to have a little practice herself in the Bohemian line. She had indeed declined a Bohemian marriage, feeling strongly averse to encounter the loud displeasure of her father and mother. But as long as everything was quite proper, as long as there should be no running away or subjection of her name to scandal, she considered that a little independence would be useful and agreeable. She had looked forward to sitting up at night alone by a singled hallow candle, to stretching a beefsteak so as to last her for two days' dinners, and perhaps to making her own bed. Now, there would not be the slightest touch of romance in a visit to Lady Milvara's house in Eccleston Square at the end of July. Lady Rowley, however, was of a different opinion and spoke her mind plainly. Nora, my dear, don't be a fool. A young lady like you can't go and live in lodgings by herself. All manner of things would be said. And this is such a very kind offer. You must accept it. For Hugh's sake, I have already said that you would accept it. But she will be going out of town. She will stay till you can go to Monkham's, if Emily is not back before then. She knows all about Emily's affairs, and if she does come back, which I doubt, poor thing, Lady Milvara and you will be able to judge whether you should go to her. So it was settled, and Nora's bohemian castle in the air fell into shatters. The few remaining days before the departure to Southampton passed quickly, but yet sadly. Sir Marmaduke had come to England expecting pleasure, and with that undefined idea which men so employed always have on their return home, that something will turn up which will make their going back to that same banishment unnecessary. What governor of Hong Kong, what minister to Bogota, what general of the forces at the Gold Coast, ever left the scene of his official or military labours without a hope, which was almost an expectation, that a grateful country would do something better for him before the period of his return should have arrived. But a grateful country was doing nothing better for Sir Marmaduke, and an ungrateful Secretary of State at the Colonial Office would not extend the term during which he could regard himself as absent on special service. How thankful he had been when first the tidings reached him that he was to come home at the expense of the Crown, and without diminution of his official income. He had now been in England for five months, with a per diem allowance, with his very cabs paid for him, and he was discontented, sullen, and with nothing to comfort him but his official grievance, because he could not be allowed to extend his period of special service more than two months beyond the time at which those special services were in truth ended. There had been a change of ministry in the last month, and he had thought that a conservative Secretary of State would have been kinder to him. The Duke says I can stay three months with leave of absence, and have half my pay stopped. I wonder whether it ever enters into his august mind that even a colonial Governor must eat and drink. It was thus he expressed his great grievance to his wife. The Duke, however, had been as inexorable as his predecessor, and Sir Rowley, with his large family, was too wise to remain to the detriment of his pocket. In the meantime the clerks in the office, who had groaned in spirit over the ignorance displayed in his evidence before the committee, were whispering among themselves that he ought not to be sent back to his seat of government at all. Lady Rowley also was disappointed and unhappy. She had expected so much pleasure from her visit to her daughter, and she had received so little. Emily's condition was very sad, but in her heart of hearts perhaps she groaned more bitterly over all that Nora had lost than she did over the real sorrows of her elder child, to have had the cup at her lip and then not to have tasted it. And she had the solace of no communion in this sorrow. She had accepted Hugh Stanbury as her son-in-law, and not for worlds would she now say a word against him to anyone. She had already taken him to her heart, and she loved him, but to have had it almost within her grasp to have had a lord, the owner of monkums for her son-in-law, poor Lady Rowley. Sophie and Lucy, too, were returning to their distant and dull banishment without any realization of their probable but unexpressed ambition. They made no complaint, but yet it was hard on them that their sister's misfortune should have prevented them from going, almost to a single dance. Poor Sophie and poor Lucy, they must go, and we shall hear no more about them. It was thought well that Nora should not go down with them to Southampton. What good would her going do? God bless you, my darling," said the mother, as she held her child in her arms. Good-bye, dear Mama. Give my best love to Hugh, and tell him that I pray him with my last word to be good to you. Even then she was thinking of Lord Peterborough, but the memory of what might have been was buried deep in her mind. Nora, tell me all about it, said Lucy. There will be nothing to tell, said Nora. Tell it all the same, said Lucy, and bring Hugh out to write a book of travels about the mandarins. Nobody has ever written a book about the mandarins. So they parted, and when Sir Marmaduke and his party were taken off in two cabs to the Waterloo Station, Nora was taken in one cab to Eccleston Square. It may be doubted whether any old lady since the world began ever did a more thoroughly Christian and friendly act than this which was now being done by Lady Milbara. It was the end of July, and she would already have been down in Dorsetshire, but for her devotion to this good deed. For in truth what she was doing was not occasioned by any express love for Nora Rowley. Nora Rowley was all very well, but Nora Rowley towards her had been flippant, impatient, and indeed not always so civil as a young lady should be to the elderly friends of her married sister. But to Lady Milbara it had seemed to be quite terrible that a young girl should be left alone in the world without anybody to take care of her. Young ladies, according to her views of life, were fragile plants that wanted much nursing before they could be allowed to be planted out in the gardens of the world as married women. When she heard from Lady Rowley that Nora was engaged to marry Hugh Stanbury, you know all about Lord Peterbara, Lady Milbara, but it is no use going back to that now, is it, and Mr. Stanbury has behaved so exceedingly well in regard to poor Louis. When Lady Milbara heard this, and heard also that Nora was talking of going to live by herself, in lodgings, she swore to herself, like a goodly Christian woman as she was, that such a thing must not be. Eccleston Square in July and August is not pleasant, unless it be to an inhabitant who is interested in the fag end of the parliamentary session. Lady Milbara had no interest in politics, had not much interest even in seeing the social season out to its dregs. She ordinarily remained in London till the beginning or middle of July, because the people with whom she lived were in the habit of doing so, but as soon as ever she had fixed the date of her departure, that day to her was a day of release. On this occasion the day had been fixed, and it was unfixed, and changed, and postponed, because it was manifest to Lady Milbara that she could do good by remaining for another fortnight. When she made the offer she said nothing of her previous arrangements. Lady Rowley let her come to me. As soon as her friend Lady Peterbara is at Moncombe's, she can go there. Thus it was that Nora found herself established in Eccleston Square. As she took her place in Lady Milbara's drawing-rooms, she remembered well the certain day, now two years ago, when she had first heard of the glories of Moncombe's in that very house. Lady Milbara, as good-natured then as she was now, had brought Mr. Glasscock and Nora together, simply because she had heard that the gentleman admired the young lady. Nora, in her pride, had resented this as interference, had felt that the thing had been done, and, though she had valued the admiration of the man, had ridiculed the action of the woman. As she thought of it now she was softened by gratitude. She had not, on that occasion, been suited with a husband, but she had gained a friend. My dear, said Lady Milbara, as at her request Nora took off her hat, I am afraid that the parties are mostly over, that is, those I go to, but we will drive out every day and the time won't be so very long. It won't be long for me, Lady Milbara, but I cannot but know how terribly I am putting you out. I am never put out, Miss Rowley, said the old lady, as long as I am made to think that what I do is taken in good part. Indeed, indeed it shall be taken in good part, said Nora, indeed it shall. And she swore a solemn, silent vow of friendship for the dear old woman. Then there came letters and telegrams from Chambry, Dijon, and Paris, and the joint expedition in search of the cottage was made to Twickenham. It was astonishing how enthusiastic and how loving the elder and the younger lady were together before the party from Italy had arrived in England. Nora had explained everything about herself, how impossible it had been for her not to love Hugh Stambry, how essential it had been for her happiness and self-esteem that she should refuse Mr. Glasscock, how terrible had been the tragedy of her sister's marriage. Lady Milbara spoke of the former subject with none of Lady Rowley's enthusiasm, but still with an evident partiality for her own rank, which almost aroused Nora to indignant eloquence. Lady Milbara was contented to acknowledge that Nora might be right, seeing that her heart was so firmly fixed, but she was clearly of opinion that Mr. Glasscock, being Mr. Glasscock, had possessed a better right to the prize in question than could have belonged to any man who had no recognized position in the world. Seeing that her heart had been given away, Nora was no doubt right not to separate her hand from her heart. But Lady Milbara was of opinion that young ladies ought to have their hearts under better control, so that the men entitled to the prizes should get them. It was for the welfare of England at large that the eldest sons of good families should marry the sweetest, prettiest, brightest, and most lovable girls of their age. It is a doctrine on behalf of which very much may be said. On that other matter, touching Emily Trevelyan, Lady Milbara frankly owned that she had seen early in the day that he was the one most in fault. I must say, my dear, she said, that I very greatly dislike your friend, Colonel Osborne. I am sure that he meant not the slightest harm, no more than she did. He was old enough and ought to have known better, and when the first hint of an uneasiness in the mind of Lewis was suggested to him, his feelings as a gentleman should have prompted him to remove himself. Let the suspicion have been ever so absurd he should have removed himself. Instead of that he went after her, into Devonshire. He went to see other friends, Lady Milbara. I hope it may have been so. I hope it may have been so. But he should have cut off his hand before he rang at the door of the house in which she was living. You will understand, my dear, that I acquit your sister altogether. I did so all through, and said the same to poor Lewis when he came to me. But Colonel Osborne should have known better. Why did he write to her? Why did he go to St. Diddalth's? Why did he let it be thought that—that she was especially his friend? Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear, I am afraid he is a very bad man. We had known him so long, Lady Milbara. I wish you had never known him at all. Poor Lewis, if he had only done what I told him at first, all might have been well. Go to Naples with your wife, I said. Go to Naples. If he had gone to Naples there would have been no journeys to Sienna, no living at Casalunga, no separation. But he didn't seem to see it in the same light. Poor dear Lewis, I wish he had gone to Naples when I told him. While they were going backwards and forwards, looking at the cottage at Twickenham, and trying to make things comfortable there for the sick man, Lady Milbara hinted to Nora that it might be distasteful to Trevelyan, in his present condition, to have even a sister-in-law staying in the house with him. There was a little chamber which Nora had appropriated to herself, and at first it seemed to be taken for granted that she should remain there at least till the tenth of August, on which day Lady Peterbara had signified that she and her husband would be ready to receive their visitor. But Lady Milbara slept on the suggestion, and on the next morning hinted her disapprobation. You shall take them down in the carriage and their luggage can follow in a cab, but the carriage can bring you back. You will see how things are then. Dear Lady Milbara, you would go out of town at once if I left you. And I shall not go out of town if you don't leave me. What difference does it make to an old woman like me? I have got no lover coming to look for me, and all I have to do is to tell my daughter-in-law that I shall not be there for another week or so. Augusta is very glad to have me, but she is the wisest woman in the world, and can get on very well without me. And as I am the silliest I cannot. You shall put it in that way if you like, my dear. Girls in your position often do want assistance. I dare say you think me very straightlaced, but I am quite sure Mr. Stanbury will be grateful to me. As you are to be married from Munkums, it will be quite well that you should pass thither through my house as an intermediate resting place, after leaving your father and mother. By all which Lady Milbara intended to express an opinion that the value of the article which Hugh Stanbury would receive at the altar would be enhanced by the distinguished purity of the hands through which it had passed before it came into his possession, in which opinion she was probably right, as regarded the price put upon the article by the world at large, though it may perhaps be doubted whether the recipient himself would be of the same opinion. I hope you know that I am grateful, whatever he may be," said Nora, after a pause. I think that you take it as it is meant, and that makes me quite comfortable. Lady Milbara, I shall love you for ever and ever. I don't think I ever knew anybody so good as you are, or so nice. Then I shall be more than comfortable, said Lady Milbara. After that there was an embrace, and the thing was settled. CHAPTER 95 Nora, with Lady Milbara's carriage and Lady Milbara's coach and footman, and with a cab ready for the luggage close behind the carriage, was waiting at the railway station when the party from Dover arrived. She soon saw Hugh upon the platform, and ran to him with her news. They had not a word to say to each other of themselves, so anxious were they both respecting Trevelyan. We got a bed carriage for him at Dover, said Hugh, and I think he has borne the journey pretty well, but he feels the heat almost as badly as in Italy. You will hardly know him when you see him. Then, when the rush of passengers was gone, Trevelyan was brought out by Hugh in the courier, and placed in Lady Milbara's carriage. He just smiled as his eye fell upon Nora, but he did not even put out his hands to greet her. I am to go in the carriage with him, said his wife. Of course you are, and so will I and Louis. I think there will be room. It is so large. There is a cab for all the things. Dear Emily, I am so glad to see you. Dearest Nora, I shall be able to speak to you by and by, but you must not be angry with me now. How good you have been. Has not she been good? I don't understand about the cottage. It belongs to some friend of hers, and I have not been able to say a word about the rent. It is so nice, and looks upon the river. I hope that he will like it. You will be with us. Not just at first. Lady Milbara thinks I had better not, that he will like it better. I will come down almost every day, and will stay if you think he will like it. These few words were said while the men were putting Trevalian into the carriage, and then another arrangement was made. Hugh hired a second cab, in which he and the courier made a part of the procession, and so they all went to twicken him together. Hugh had not yet learned that he would be rewarded by coming back alone with Nora in the carriage. The cottage by the river Thames, which, as far as the party knew, was nameless, was certainly very much better than the house on the top of the hill at Casalunga. And now, at last, the wife would sleep once more under the same roof with her husband, and the separation would be over. I suppose that is the Thames, said Trevalian, and they were nearly the only words he spoke in Nora's hearing that evening. Before she started on her return journey, the two sisters were together for a few minutes, and each told her own budget of news in short broken fragments. There was not much to tell. He is so weak, said Mrs. Trevalian, that he can do literally nothing. He can hardly speak. When we give him wine, he will say a few words, and his mind seems then to be less astray than it was. I have told him just simply that it was all my doing, that I have been in fault all through, and every now and then he will say a word, to show me that he remembers that I have confessed. My poor Emily! It was better so. What does it all matter? He had suffered so that I would have said worse than that to give him relief. The pride has gone out of me so that I do not regard what anybody may say. Of course it will be said that I went astray and that he forgave me. Nobody will say that, dearest. Nobody. Lady Milbara is quite aware how it all was. What does it signify? There are things in life worse even than a bad name. But he does not think it. Nora, his mind is a mystery to me. I do not know what is in it. Sometimes I fancy that all facts have been forgotten, and that he merely wants the childish gratification of being assured that he is the master. Then again there come moments, in which I feel sure that suspicion is lurking within him, that he is remembering the past and guarding against the future. When he came into this house a quarter of an hour ago, he was fearful lest there was a mad doctor lurking about to pounce on him. I can see in his eye that he had some such idea. He hardly notices Louis, though there was a time, even at Casalunga, when he would not let the child out of his sight. What will you do now? I will try to do my duty, that is all. But you will have a doctor? Of course. He was content to see one in Paris, though he would not let me be present. He saw the gentleman afterwards, and he seemed to think that the body was worse than the mind. Then Nora told her the name of a doctor whom Lady Milbara had suggested, and took her departure along with Hugh in the carriage. In spite of all the sorrow that they had witnessed and just left, their journey up to London was very pleasant. Perhaps there is no period so pleasant among all the pleasant periods of love-making, as that in which the intimacy between the lovers is so assured, and the coming event so near, as to produce and to endure conversation about the ordinary little matters of life. What can be done with the limited means at their mutual disposal? How that life shall be begun which they are to lead together? What idea each has of the other's duties? What each can do for the other? What each will renounce for the other? There was a true sense of the delight of intimacy in the girl who declared that she had never loved her lover so well as when she told him how many pairs of stockings she had got. It is very sweet to gaze at the stars together, and it is sweet to sit out among the hay-cocks. The reading of poetry together out of the same book, with brows all close and arms all mingled, is very sweet. The pouring out of the whole heart in written words, which the writer knows would be held to be ridiculous by any eyes and any ears and any sense, but the eyes and ears and sense of the dear one to whom they are sent, is very sweet. But for the girl who has made a shirt for the man that she loves, there has come a moment in the last stitch of it sweeter than any that stars, hay-cocks, poetry, or superlative epithets have produced. Nora Rowley had never as yet been thus useful on behalf of Hugh Stanbury. Had she done so, she might perhaps have been happier even than she was during this journey, but without the shirt it was one of the happiest moments of her life. There was nothing now to separate them but their own prudential scruples, and of them it must be acknowledged that Hugh Stanbury had very few. According to his showing, he was as well provided for matrimony as the gentleman in the song, who came out to woo his bride on a rainy night. In livestock he was not so well provided as the Irish gentleman to whom we allude, but in regard to all other provisions for comfortable married life he had, or at a moment's notice could have, all that was needed. Nora could live just where she pleased. Not exactly in Whitehall Gardens or Bellgrave Square, but the new road, Lupus Street, Montague Place, the North Bank, or Kennington Oval, with all their surrounding crescents, terraces, and rows, offered according to him, a choice so wide, either for lodgings or small houses, that their only embarrassment was in their riches. He had already insured his life for a thousand pounds, and after paying yearly for that, and providing a certain surplus for saving, five hundred a year was the income on which they were to commence the world. Of course I wish it were five thousand for your sake, he said, and I wish I were a cabinet minister, or a duke, or a brewer, but even in heaven you know all the angels can't be archangels. Nora assured him that she would be quite content with virtue simply angelic. I hope you like mutton chops and potatoes, I do, he said. Then she told him of her ambition about the beef steak, acknowledging that, as it must now be shared between two, the glorious idea of putting a part of it away in a cupboard must be abandoned. I don't believe in beef steaks, he said, a beef steak may mean anything. At our club, a beef steak is a sumptuous and expensive luxury. Now a mutton chop means something definite and must be economical. Then we will have the mutton chops at home, said Nora, and you shall go to your club for the beef steak. When they reached Eccleston Square, Nora insisted on taking Hugh Stanbury up to Lady Milborough. It was in vain that he pleaded that he had come all the way from Dover on a very dusty day, all the way from Dover, including a journey in a handsome cab to twicken him and back, without washing his hands and face. Nora insisted that Lady Milborough was such a dear, good, considerate creature that she would understand all that, and Hugh was taken into her presence. I am delighted to see you, Mr. Stanbury, said the old lady, and hope you will think that Nora is in good keeping. She has been telling me how very kind you have been to her. I do not know where she could have bestowed herself if you had not received her. There, Nora, I told you he would say so. I won't tell tales, Mr. Stanbury, but she had all manner of wild plans which I knew you wouldn't approve. But she is very amiable, and if she will only submit to you as well as she does to me. I don't mean to submit to him at all, Lady Milborough. Of course not. I am going to marry for liberty. My dear, what you say you say in joke. But a great many young women of the present day do, I really believe, go up to the altar and pronounce their marriage vows, with the simple idea that as soon as they have done so they are to have their own way in everything, and then people complain that young men won't marry. Who can wonder at it? I don't think the young men think much about the obedience, said Nora. Some marry for money and some for love, but I don't think they marry to get a slave. What do you say, Mr. Stanbury? asked the old lady. I can only assure you that I shan't marry for money, said he. Two or three days after this, Nora left her friend in Eccleston Square and domesticated herself for a while with her sister. Mrs. Trevelyan declared that such an arrangement would be comfortable for her, and that it was very desirable now, as Nora would so soon be beyond her reach. Then Lady Milborough was enabled to go to Dorsetshire, which she did not do, however, till she had presented Nora with the veil which she was to wear on the occasion of her wedding. Of course I cannot see it, my dear, as it is to take place at Moncombe's, but you must write and tell me the day, and I will think of you, and you, when you put on the veil, must think of me. So they parted, and Nora knew that she had made a friend for life. When she first took her place in the house at Twickenham, as a resident, Trevelyan did not take much notice of her. But after a while he would say a few words to her, especially when it might chance that she was with him in her sister's absence. He would speak of dear Emily and poor Emily, and shake his head slowly and talk of the pity of it. The pity of it, Iago, oh the pity of it, he said once. The allusion to her was so terrible that she almost burst out in anger, as she would have done formerly. She almost told him that he had been as wrong throughout as was the jealous husband in the play whose words he quoted, and that his jealousy, if continued, was likely to be as tragical. But she restrained herself, and kept close to her needle, making, let us hope, an auspicious garment for Hugh Stanbury. She has seen it now, he continued, she has seen it now. Still she went on with her hemming in silence. It certainly could not be her duty to upset at a word all that her sister had achieved. You know that she has confessed, he asked. Pray, pray do not talk about it, Lewis. I think you ought to know, he said. Then she rose from her seat and left the room. She could not stand it, even though he were mad, even though he were dying. She went to her sister and repeated what had been said. You had better not notice it, said Emily. It is only a proof of what I told you. There are times in which his mind is as active as ever it was, but it is active in so terrible a direction. I cannot sit and hear it. And what am I to say when he asks me a question as he did just now? He said that you had confessed. So I have. Do none confess but the guilty? What is all that we have read about the inquisition and the old tortures? I have had to learn that torturing has not gone out of the world. That is all. I must go away if he says the same thing to me so again. That is nonsense, Nora. If I can bear it, cannot you? Would you have me drive him into violence again by disputing with him upon such a subject? But he may recover, and then he will remember what you have said. If he recovers altogether he will suspect nothing. I must take my chance of that. You cannot suppose that I have not thought about it. I have often sworn to myself that though the world should fall around me, nothing should make me acknowledge that I had ever been untrue to my duty as a married woman, either indeed or word or thought. I have no doubt that the poor wretches who were tortured in their cells used to make the same resolutions as to their confessions. But yet when their nails were dragged out of them they would own to anything. My nails have been dragged out, and I have been willing to confess anything. When he talks of the pity of it, of course I know what he means. There has been something, some remainder of a feeling, which has still kept him from asking me that question. May God in his mercy continue to him that feeling. But you would answer truly? How can I say what I might answer when the torturer is at my nails? If you knew how great was the difficulty to get him away from that place in Italy and bring him here, and what it was to feel that one was bound to stay near him and that yet one was impotent, and to know that even that refuge must soon cease for him and that he might have gone out and died on the roadside, or have done anything which the momentary strength of madness might have dictated, if you could understand all this you would not be surprised at my submitting to any degradation which would help to bring him here. Stanbury was often down at the cottage, and Nora could discuss the matter better with him than with her sister. And Stanbury could learn more thoroughly from the physician who was now attending Trevelyan what was the state of the sick man than Emily could do. According to the doctor's idea there was more of ailment in the body than in the mind. He admitted that his patient's thoughts had been forced to dwell on one subject till they had become distorted, untrue, jaundiced, and perhaps monomaniacal. But he seemed to doubt whether there had ever been a time at which it could have been decided that Trevelyan was so mad as to make it necessary that the law should interfere to take care of him. A man, so argued the doctor, need not be mad because he is jealous, even though his jealousy be ever so absurd. And Trevelyan in his jealousy had done nothing cruel, nothing wasteful, nothing infamous. In all this Nora was very little inclined to agree with the doctor, and thought nothing could be more infamous than Trevelyan's conduct at the present moment. Unless indeed he could be screened from infamy by that plea of madness. But then there was more behind. Trevelyan had been so wasted by the kind of life which he had led, and possessed by nature stamina so insufficient to resist such stability, that it was very doubtful whether he would not sink altogether before he could be made to begin to rise. But one thing was clear, he should be contradicted in nothing. If he chose to say that the moon was made of green cheese, let it be conceded to him that the moon was made of green cheese. Should he make any other assertion equally removed from the truth, let it not be contradicted. Who would oppose a man with one foot in the grave? Then, Hugh, the sooner I am at Moncombe's the better, said Nora, who had again been subjected to innuendos which had been unendurable to her. This was on the 7th of August, and it still wanted three days to that on which the journey to Moncombe's was to be made. He never says anything to me on the subject, said Hugh. Because you have made him afraid of you, I almost think that Emily and the Doctor are wrong in their treatment, and that it would be better to stand up to him and tell him the truth. But the three days passed away, and Nora was not driven to any such vindication of her sister's character towards her sister's husband. On the 10th of August Nora Rowley left the cottage by the riverside at Twickenham and went down to Moncombe's. The reader need hardly be told that Hugh brought her up from Twickenham and sent her off in the railway carriage. They agreed that no day could be fixed for their marriage till something further should be known of Travellian State. While he was in his present condition, such a marriage could not have been other than very sad. Nora, when she left the cottage, was still very bitter against her brother-in-law, quoting the Doctor's opinion as to his sanity, and expressing her own as to his conduct under that supposition. She also believed that he would rally in health, and was therefore on that account less inclined to pity him than was his wife. Emily Travellian, of course, saw more of him than did her sister, and understood better how possible it was that a man might be in such a condition as to be neither mad nor sane. Not mad, so that all power over his own actions need be taken from him, nor sane, so that he must be held to be accountable for his words and thoughts. Travellian did nothing, and attempted to do nothing, that could injure his wife and child. He submitted himself to medical advice. He did not throw away his money. He had no basal now waiting at his heels. He was generally passive in his wife's hands as to all outward things. He was not violent in rebuke, nor did he often elude to their past unhappiness. But he still maintained, by a word spoken every now and then, that he had been right throughout in his contest with his wife, and that his wife had at last acknowledged that it was so. She never contradicted him, and he became bolder and bolder in his assertions, endeavouring on various occasions to obtain some expression of an assent from Nora. But Nora would not assent, and he would scowl at her, saying words both in her presence and behind her back, which implied that she was his enemy. Why not yield to him, her sister said the day before she went? I have yielded, and your doing so cannot make it worse. I can't do it. It would be false. It is better that I should go away. I cannot pretend to agree with him, when I know that his mind is working altogether under a delusion. When the hour for her departure came, and Hugh was waiting for her, she thought that it would be better that she should go without seeing Travellian. There will only be more anger, she pleaded. But her sister would not be contented that she should leave the house in this fashion, and urged at last, with tears running down her cheeks, that this might possibly be the last interview between them. Say a word to him in kindness before you leave us, said Mrs. Travellian. Then Nora went up to her brother-in-law's bedside, and told him that she was going, and expressed a hope that he might be stronger when she returned. And as she did so, she put her hand upon the bedside, intending to press his in token of affection. But his face was turned from her, and he seemed to take no notice of her. Louis, said his wife, Nora is going to Munkums. You will say goodbye to her before she goes. If she be not my enemy, I will, said he. I have never been your enemy, Louis, said Nora, and certainly I am not now. She had better go, he said. It is very little more that I expect of anyone in this world, but I will recognize no one as my friend who will not acknowledge that I have been sinned against during the last two years, sinned against cruelly and utterly. Emily, who was standing at the bedhead, shuddered as she heard this, but made no reply. Nor did Nora speak again, but crept silently out of the room, and in half a minute her sister followed her. I feared how it would be, said Nora. We can only do our best, God knows that I try to do mine. I do not think you will ever see him again, said Hugh to her in the train. Would you have had me act otherwise? It is not that it would have been a lie. I would not have minded that to ease the shattered feelings of one so infirm and suffering as he, in dealing with mad people I suppose one must be false, but I should have been accusing her, and it may be that he will get well, and it might be that he would then remember what I had said. At the station near Munkums she was met by Lady Peterborough in the carriage. A tall footman in livery came on to the platform to show her the way and to look after her luggage, and she could not fail to remember that the man might have been her own servant, instead of being the servant of her who now sat in Lord Peterborough's carriage. And when she saw the carriage, and her ladyship's great bay horses, and the glittering harness, and the respectively responsible coachman, and the arms on the panel, she smiled to herself at the sight of these first outward manifestations of the rank and wealth of the men who had once been her lover. There are men who look as though they were the owners of bay horses and responsible coachmen and family blazons, from whose outward personal appearance, demeanor and tone of voice, one would expect a following of liveries and a magnificence of belongings, but Mr. Glasscock had by no means been such a man. It had suited his taste to keep these things in abeyance, and to place his pride in the oaks and elms of his park, rather than in any of those appennages of grandeur which a man may carry about with him. He could talk of his breed of sheep on an occasion, but he never talked of his horses, and though he knew his position and all its glories as well as any nobleman in England, he was ever inclined to hang back a little in going out of a room, and to bear himself as though he were a small personage in the world. Some perception of all this came across Nora's mind as she saw the equipage, and tried to reflect, at a moment's notice, whether the case might have been different with her, had Mr. Glasscock worn a little of his tinsel outside when she first met him. Of course she told herself that had he worn it all on the outside, and carried it ever so gracefully, it could have made no difference. It was very plain, however, that though Mr. Glasscock did not like bright feathers for himself, he chose that his wife should wear them. Nothing could be prettier than the way in which Caroline Spalding, whom we first saw as she was about to be stuck into the interior of the diligence at St. Michelle, now filled her carriage as Lady Peterborough. The greeting between them was very affectionate, and there was a kiss in the carriage, even though the two pretty hats, perhaps, suffered something. We are so glad to have you at last, said Lady Peterborough. Of course we are very quiet, but you won't mind that. Nora declared that no house could be too quiet for her, and then said something of the melancholy scene which she had just left. And no time is fixed for your own marriage? But of course it has not been possible, and why should you be in a hurry? We quite understand that this is to be your home until everything has arranged itself. There was a drive of four or five miles before they reached the park gates, and nothing could be kinder or more friendly than was the new Pyrrhus, but Nora told herself that there was no forgetting that her friend was a Pyrrhus. She would not be so ill-conditioned as to suggest to herself that her friend patronized her, and indeed had she done so the suggestion would have been false, but she could not rid herself of a certain sensation of external inferiority, and of a feeling that the superiority ought to be on her side, as all this might have been hers, only that she had not thought it worth her while to accept it. As these ideas came into her mind, she hated herself for entertaining them, and yet, come they would. While she was talking about her emblematic beef-stake with Hugh, she had no regret, no uneasiness, no conception that any state of life could be better for her than that state in which an emblematic beef-stake was of vital importance, but she could not bring her mind to the same condition of unalloyed purity while sitting with Lady Peterborough in Lord Peterborough's carriage, and for her default in this respect she hated herself. This is the beginning of the park, said her friend. And where is the house? You can't see the house forever so far yet. It is two miles off. There is about a mile before you come to the gates and over a mile afterwards. One has a sort of feeling when one is in that one can't get out, it is so big. In so speaking it was Lady Peterborough's special endeavor to state without a boast facts which were indifferent but which must be stated. It is very magnificent, said Nora. There was in her voice the slightest touch of sarcasm which she would have given the world not to have uttered, but it had been irrepressible. Lady Peterborough understood it instantly and forgave it, not attributing to it more than its true meaning, acknowledging to herself that it was natural. Dear Nora, she said, not knowing what to say, blushing as she spoke. The magnificence is nothing, but the man's love is everything. Nora shook herself and determined that she would behave well. The effort should be made and the required result should be produced by it. The magnificence as an adjunct is a great deal, she said, and for his sake I hope that you enjoy it. Of course I enjoy it. Wallachia's teachings and preachings have all been thrown to the wind, I hope. Not quite all, poor dear Wally. I got a letter from her the other day, which she began by saying that she would attune her correspondence to my changed condition in life. I understood the reproach so thoroughly, and when she told me little details of individual men and women, and of things she had seen, and said not a word about the rights of women, or even of politics generally, I felt that I was a degraded creature in her sight. But though you laugh at her she did me good, and will do good to others. Here we are inside Monkham's, and now you must look at the avenue. Nora was now rather proud of herself. She had made the effort, and it had been successful, and she felt that she could speak naturally and express her thoughts honestly. I remember his telling me about the avenue the first time I ever saw him, and here it is. I did not think then that I should ever live to see the glories of Monkham's. Does it go all the way like this to the house? Not quite. Where you see the light at the end, the road turns to the right, and the house is just before you. There are great iron gates and terraces, and wondrous paraphernalia before you get up to the door. I can tell you Monkham's is quite a wonder. I have to shut myself up every Wednesday morning, and hand the house over to Mrs. Crutch, the housekeeper, who comes out in a miraculous brown silk gown to show it to visitors. On other days you'll find Mrs. Crutch quite civil and useful, but on Wednesday she is majestic. Charles always goes off among his sheep on that day, and I shut myself up with a pile of books in a little room. You will have to be imprisoned with me. I do so long to peep at the visitors. And I dare say they want to peep at you. I proposed at first to show them round myself, but Charles wouldn't let me. It would have broken Mrs. Crutch's heart. That's what Charles said. He thinks that Mrs. Crutch tells them that I'm locked up somewhere, and that that gives a zest to the search. Some people from Nottingham once did break into Old Lady Peterborough's room, and the show was stopped for a year. There was such a row about it. It prevented Charles coming up for the county, but he wouldn't have got in, and therefore it was lucky and saved money. By this time Nora was quite at her ease, but still there was before her the other difficulty of meeting Lord Peterborough. They were driven out of the avenue and round to the right, and through the iron gate and up to the huge front door. There, upon the top step, was standing Lord Peterborough, with a billy cock hat and a very old shooting coat, and Nan Keen trousers, which were considerably too short for him. It was one of the happinesses of his life to dress just as he pleased as he went about his own place, and it certainly was his pleasure to wear older clothes than anyone else in his establishment. Miss Rowley, he said, coming forward to give her a hand out of the carriage, I am delighted that you should see Moncoms at last. You see I have kept you to your promise. Caroline has been telling me everything about it, but she is not quite a complete guide as yet. She does not know where the Seven Oaks are. Do you remember telling me of the Seven Oaks? Of course I do. They are five miles off, at Clatton Farm, Kerry. I don't think you have been near Clatton yet. We will ride there tomorrow. And thus Nora Rowley was made at home at Moncoms. She was made at home, and after a week or two she was very happy. She soon perceived that her host was a perfect gentleman, and as such a man to be much loved. She had probably never questioned the fact, whether Mr. Glasscock was a gentleman or not, and now she did not analyze it. It probably never occurred to her, even at the present time, to say to herself that he was certainly that thing so impossible of definition and so capable of recognition. But she knew that she had to do with one whose presence was always pleasant to her, whose words and acts toward her extorted her approbation, whose thoughts seemed to her to be always good and manly. Of course she had not loved him because she had previously known Hugh Stanbury. There could be no comparison between the two men. There was a brightness about Hugh which Lord Peterborough could not rival. Otherwise, except for this reason, it seemed to her to be impossible that any young woman should fail to love Lord Peterborough when asked to do so. About the middle of September there came a very happy time for her, when Hugh was asked down to shoot partridges, in the doing of which, however, all his brightness did not bring him near in excellence to his host. Lord Peterborough had been shooting partridges all his life, and shot them with a precision which excited Hugh's envy. To own the truth Stanbury did not shoot well, and was treated rather with scorn by the gamekeeper, but in other respects he spent three or four of the happiest days of his life. He had his work to do, and after the second day over the stubbles, declared that the exigencies of the D.R. were too severe to enable him to go out with his gun again, but those rambles about the park with Nora, for which, among the exigencies of the D.R. he did find opportunity, were never to be forgotten. Of course I remember that it might have been mine, she said, sitting with him under an old, hollow, withered, sloping stump of an oak, which still, however, had sufficient of a head growing from one edge of the trunk to give them the shade they wanted, and if you wish me to own to regrets I will. It would kill me, I think, if you did, and yet I cannot get it out of my head, that if it had not been for me your rank and position in life might have been so, so suitable to you. No, Hugh, there you're wrong. I have thought about it a good deal, and I know very well that the cold beef steak in the cupboard is the thing for me. Caroline will do very well here. She looks like a peerus, and bears her honors grandly, but they will never harden her. I too could have been magnificent with fine feathers. Most birds are equal to so much as that. I fancy that I could have looked the part of the fine English lady, and could have patronized clergyman's wives in the country, could have held my own among my peers in London, and could have kept Mrs. Crutch in order, but it would have hardened me, and I should have learned to think that to be a lady of fashion was everything. I do not believe a bit of it. It is better as it is, Hugh, for me at least. I had always a sort of conviction that it would be better, though I had a longing to play the other part. Then you came, and you have saved me. Nevertheless it is very nice, Hugh, to have the oaks to sit under. Stanbury declared that it was very nice. But still nothing was settled about the wedding. Trevelyan's condition was so uncertain that it was very difficult to settle anything. Though nothing was said on the subject between Stanbury and Mrs. Trevelyan, and nothing written between Nora and her sister, it could not but be remembered that, should Trevelyan die, his widow would require a home with them. They were deterred from choosing a house by this reflection, and were deterred from naming a day also, by the consideration that were they to do so, Trevelyan's state might still probably prevent it. But this was arranged that if Trevelyan lived through the winter, or even if he should not live, their marriage should not be postponed beyond the end of March. Till that time Lord Peterborough would remain at Mungums, and it was understood that Nora's invitation extended to that period. If my wife does not get tired of you, I shall not, Lord Peterborough said to Nora. The thing is that when you do go, we shall miss you so terribly. In September, too, there happened another event which took Stanbury to Exeter, and all needful particulars as to that event shall be narrated in the next chapter. It may be doubted whether there was a happier young woman in England than Dorothy Stanbury when that September came which was to make her the wife of Mr. Brooke Burgess, the new partner in the firm of Cropper and Burgess. Her early aspirations in life had been so low, and of late there had come upon her such a succession of soft showers of success, mingled now and then with slight threatenings of storms which had passed away, that the close at Exeter seemed to her to have become a very paradise. Her aunt's temper had sometimes been to her as the threat of a storm, and there had been the Gibson marriage treaty, and the short-lived opposition to the other marriage treaty which had seemed to her to be so very preferable, but everything had gone at last as though she had been Fortune's favourite, and now had come this beautiful arrangement about Cropper and Burgess which would save her from being carried away to live among strangers in London. When she first became known to us on her coming to Exeter in compliance with her aunt's suggestion, she was timid, silent, and altogether without self-reliance. Even they who knew her best had never guessed that she possessed a keen sense of humour, a nice appreciation of character, and a quiet, reticent wit of her own under that staid and frightened demeanor. Since her engagement with Brooke Burgess, it seemed to those who watched her that her character had become changed, as does that of a flower when it opens itself in its growth. The sweet gifts of nature within became visible, the petals sprang to view, and the leaves spread themselves, and the sweet scent was felt upon the air. Had she remained at Nuncombe, it is probable that Nunn would ever have known her but her sister. It was necessary to this flower that it should be warmed by the sun of life, and strengthened by the breezes of opposition, and filled by the showers of companionship, before it could become aware of its own loveliness. Dorothy was one who, had she remained ever unseen in the retirement of her mother's village cottage, would have lived and died ignorant of even her own capabilities for enjoyment. She had not dreamed that she could win a man's love, had hardly dreamed till she had lived at Exeter that she had love of her own to give back in return. She had not known that she could be firm in her own opinion, that she could laugh herself and cause others to laugh, that she could be a lady and know that other women were not so, that she had good looks of her own, and could be very happy when told of them by lips that she loved. The flower that blows the quickest is never the sweetest. The fruit that ripens tardily has ever the finest flavor. It is often the same with men and women. The lad who talks at twenty, as men should talk at thirty, has seldom much to say worth the hearing when he is forty, and the girl who at eighteen can shine in society with composure has generally given overshining before she is a full grown woman. With Dorothy the scent and beauty of the flower and the flavor of the fruit had come late, but the fruit will keep, and the flower will not fall to pieces with the heat of an evening. How marvellously your bride has changed since she has been here, said Mrs. McHugh to Miss Stanbury. We thought she couldn't say boo to a goose at first, but she holds her own now among the best of them. Of course she does. Why shouldn't she? I never knew a Stanbury yet that was a fool. They are a wonderful family, of course, said Mrs. McHugh, but I think that of all of them she is the most wonderful. Old Barty said something to her at my house yesterday that wasn't intended to be kind. When did he ever intend to be kind? But he got no change out of her. The burgesses have been in Exeter a long time, she said, and I don't see why we should not get on at any rate as well as those before us. Barty grunted and growled and slunk away. He thought she would shake in her shoes when he spoke to her. He has never been able to make a Stanbury shake in her shoes yet, said the old lady. Early in September Dorothy went to Nuncomputney to spend a week with her mother and sister at the cottage. She had insisted on this, though Priscilla had hinted, somewhat unnecessarily, that Dorothy, with her past comforts and her future prospects, would find the accommodation at the cottage very limited. I suppose you and I, Pris, can sleep in the same bed as we always did, she said with a tear in each eye. Then Priscilla had felt ashamed of herself and had bade her come. The truth is, Dolly, said the elder sister, that we feel so unlike marrying and giving in marriage at Nuncom, that I'm afraid you'll lose your brightness and become dowdy and grim and misanthropic as we are. When Mamma and I sit down to what we call dinner, I always feel that there is a grace hovering in the air different to that which she says. And what is it, Pris? Pray God, don't quite starve us and let everybody else have indigestion. We don't say it out loud, but there it is, and the spirit of it might damp the orange blossoms. She went, of course, and the orange blossoms were not damped. She had long walks with her sister round by Niddon and Ridley, and even as far distant as Cock Chaffington, where much was said about that wicked colonel as they stood looking at the porch of the church. I shall be so happy, said Dorothy, when you and mother come to us, it will be such a joy to me that you should be my guests. But we shall not come. Why not, Pris? I know it will be so. Mamma will not care for going if I do not go. And why should you not come? For a hundred reasons all of which you know, Dolly, I am stiff, impracticable, ill-conditioned, and very bad at going about visiting. I am always thinking that other people ought to have indigestion, and perhaps I might come to have some such feeling about you and Brooke. I should not be at all afraid of that. I know that my place in the world is here at Nuncomputney. I have a pride about myself, and think that I never did wrong but once, when I let Mamma go into that odious clockhouse. It is a bad pride, and yet I am proud of it. I haven't got a gown fit to go and stay with you when you become a grand lady in Exeter. I don't doubt you'd give me any sort of gown I wanted. Of course I would. Ain't we sisters, Pris? I shall not be so much your sister as he will be your husband. Besides, I hate to take things. When Hugh sends money and for Mamma's sake it is accepted, I always feel uneasy while it lasts, and think that that plague of an indigestion ought to come upon me also. Do you remember the lamb that came when you went away? It made me so sick. But Priscilla isn't that morbid? Of course it is. You don't suppose I really think it grand. I am morbid, but I am strong enough to live on and not get killed by the morbidity. Heaven knows how much more there may be of it. Forty years perhaps, and probably the greater portion of that absolutely alone. No, you'll be with us then, if it should come. I think not, Dolly. Not to have a whole of my own would be intolerable to me. But as I was saying I shall not be unhappy. To enjoy life, as you do, is I suppose out of the question for me. But I have a satisfaction when I get to the end of the quarter, and find that there is not half a crown due to anyone. Things get dearer and dearer, but I have a comfort even in that. I have a feeling that I should like to bring myself to the straw a day. Of course there were offers made of aid, offers which were rather prayers, and plans suggested of what might be done between Brooke and Hugh, but Priscilla declared that all such plans were odious to her. Why should you be unhappy about us? She continued. We will come and see you, at least I will, perhaps once in six months, and you shall pay for the railway ticket, only I won't stay because of the gown. Is not that nonsense, Priss? Just at present it is, because Mamma and I have both got new gowns for the wedding. Hugh sent them, and ever so much money, to buy bonnets and gloves. He is to be married himself soon, down at a place called Munkums. Nora is staying there. Yes, with a lord, said Priscilla, we shan't have to go there at any rate. You liked Nora when she was here? Very much, though I thought herself willed, but she is not worldly, and she is conscientious. She might have married that lord herself if she would. I do like her. When she comes to you at Exeter, if the wedding gown isn't quite worn out, I shall come and see her. I knew she liked him when she was here, but she never said so. She is very pretty, is she not? He sent me her photograph. She is handsome, rather than pretty. I wonder why it is that you two should be married, and so grandly married, and that I shall never, never have anyone to love. Oh, Priscilla, do not say that. If I have a child, will you not love it? It will be your child, not mine. Do not suppose that I complain. I know that it is right. I know that you ought to be married, and I ought not. I know that there is not a man in Devonshire who would take me, or a man in Devonshire whom I would accept. I know that I am quite unfit for any other kind of life than this. I should make any man wretched, and any man would make me wretched. But why is it so? I believe that you would make any man happy. I hope to make Brooke happy. Of course you will, and therefore you deserve it. We'll go home now, dear, and get Mama's things ready for the great day. On the afternoon before the great day all the visitors were to come, and during the forenoon old Miss Stanbury was in a great fidget. Luckily for Dorothy, her own preparations were already made, so that she could give her time to her aunt without injury to herself. Miss Stanbury had come to think of herself as though all the reality of her life had passed away from her. Every resolution that she had formed had been broken. She had had the great enemy of her life, Barty Burgess, in the house with her upon terms that were intended to be amicable, and had arranged with him a plan for the division of the family property. Her sister-in-law, whom in the heyday of her strength she had chosen to regard as her enemy, and with whom even as yet there had been no reconciliation, was about to become her guest, as was also Priscilla, whom she had ever disliked almost as much as she had respected. She had quarreled utterly with Hugh in such a manner as to leave no possible chance of a reconciliation, and he also was about to be her guest. And then, as to her chosen heir, she was now assisting him in doing the only thing as to which she had declared that if he did do it he should not be her heir. As she went about the house, under an idea that such a multiplicity of persons could not be housed and fed without superhuman exertion, she thought of all this, and could not help confessing to herself that her life had been very vain. It was only when her eyes rested on Dorothy, and she saw how supremely happy was the one person whom she had taken most closely to her heart that she could feel that she had done anything that should not have been left undone. I think I'll sit down now, Dorothy, she said, or I shan't be able to be with you tomorrow. Do, Aunt! Everything is already, and nobody will be here for an hour yet. Nothing can be nicer than the rooms, and nothing ever was done so well before. I'm only thinking how lonely you'll be when we're gone. It'll be only for six weeks. But six weeks is such a long time. What would it have been if he had taken you up to London, my pet? Are you sure your mother wouldn't like a fire in her room, Dorothy? A fire in September, Aunt? People live so differently, one never knows. They never have but one fire at Nuncombe, Aunt, summer or winter. That's no reason they shouldn't be comfortable here. However, she did not insist on having the fire lighted. Miss Stanbury and Priscilla came first, and the meeting was certainly very uncomfortable. Poor Mrs. Stanbury was shy and could hardly speak a word. Miss Stanbury thought that her visitor was haughty, and though she endeavored to be gracious, did it with a struggle. They called each other ma'am which made Dorothy uneasy. Each of them was so dear to her that it was a pity that they should glower at each other like enemies. Priscilla was not at all shy, but she was combative, and, as her aunt said of her afterwards, would not keep her prickles in. I hope, Priscilla, you like weddings, said Miss Stanbury to her, not knowing where to find a subject for conversation. In the abstract I like them, said Priscilla. Miss Stanbury did not know what her niece meant by liking weddings in the abstract, and was angry. I suppose you do have weddings at Nuncombe Putney sometimes, she said. I hope they do, said Priscilla, but I never saw one. Tomorrow will be my first experience. Your own will come next, my dear, said Miss Stanbury. I think not, said Priscilla. It is quite as likely to be yours, Aunt. This Miss Stanbury thought was almost an insult, and she said nothing more on the occasion. Then came Hugh and the bridegroom. The bridegroom, as a matter of course, was not accommodated in the house, but he was allowed to come there for his tea. He and Hugh had come together, and for Hugh a bedroom had been provided. His aunt had not seen him since he had been turned out of the house, because of his bad practices, and Dorothy had anticipated the meeting between them with alarm. It was, however, much more pleasant than had been that between the ladies. Hugh, she said stiffly, I am glad to see you on such an occasion as this. Aunt, he said, I am glad of any occasion that can get me an entrance once more into the dear old house. I am so pleased to see you. She allowed her hand to remain in his a few moments, and murmured something which was intended to signify her satisfaction. I must tell you that I am going to be married myself to one of the dearest, sweetest, and loveliest girls that ever were seen, and you must congratulate me. I do, I do, and I hope you may be happy. We mean to try to be, and some day you must let me bring her to you and show her. I shall not be satisfied if you do not know my wife. She told Martha afterwards that she hoped Mr. Hugh had sewn his wild oats, and that matrimony would sober him. When, however, Martha remarked that she believed Mr. Hugh to be as hardworking a young man as any in London, Miss Stanbury shook her head sorrowfully. Things were being very much changed with her, but not even yet was she to be brought to a prove of work done on behalf of a penny newspaper. On the following morning, at ten o'clock, there was a procession from Miss Stanbury's house into the cathedral, which was made entirely on foot. Indeed, no assistance could have been given by any carriage, for there is a back entrance to the cathedral, near to the Lady Chapel, exactly opposite Miss Stanbury's house. There were many of the inhabitants of the close there to see the procession, and the cathedral bells rang out their peals very merrily. Brooke, the bridegroom, gave his arm to Miss Stanbury, which was no doubt very improper, as he should have appeared in the church as coming from quite some different part of the world. Then came the bride hanging on her brother, then two bridesmaids, friends of Dorothy's living in the town, and lastly Priscilla with her mother, for nothing would induce Priscilla to take the part of a bridesmaid. You might as well ask an owl to sing to you, she said, and then all the frippery would be thrown away upon me. But she stood close to Dorothy, and when the ceremony had been performed was the first, after Brooke, to kiss her. Everybody acknowledged that the bride was a winsome bride. Mrs. McHugh was at the breakfast, and declared afterwards that Dorothy Burgess, as she then was pleased to call her, was a girl very hard to be understood. She came here, said Mrs. McHugh, two years ago, a plain, silent, shy, dowdy young woman, and we all said that Miss Stanbury would be tired of her in a week. There has never come a time in which there was any visible difference in her, and now she is one of our city beauties, with plenty to say to everybody, with a fortune in one pocket and her aunt in the other, and everybody is saying what a fortunate fellow Brooke Burgess is to get her. In a year or two she'll be at the top of everything in the city, and will make her way in the county, too. The compiler of this history begs to add his opinion to that of everybody, as quoted above by Mrs. McHugh. He thinks that Brooke Burgess was a very fortunate fellow to get his wife. Chapter ninety-eight of He Knew He Was Right. This LibriVox recording is in the public domain. He Knew He Was Right by Anthony Trollop. Chapter ninety-eight. Acquitted. During this time, while Hugh was sitting with his love under the oak trees and monkums, and Dorothy was being converted into Mrs. Brooke Burgess in Exeter Cathedral, Mrs. Trevelyan was living with her husband in the cottage at Twickenham. Her life was dreary enough, and there was but very little of hope in it to make its dreariness supportable. As often happens in periods of sickness, the single friend who could now be of service to the one or to the other was the doctor. He came daily to them, and with that quick growth of confidence which medical kindness always inspires, Trevelyan told to this gentleman all the history of his married life, and all that Trevelyan told to him he repeated to Trevelyan's wife. It may therefore be understood that Trevelyan, between them, was treated like a child. Dr. Neville had soon been able to tell Mrs. Trevelyan that her husband's health had been so shattered as to make it improbable that he should ever again be strong either in body or in mind. He would not admit, even when treating his patient like a child, that he had ever been mad, and spoke of Sir Marmaduke's threat as unfortunate. But what could papa have done? asked the wife. It is often, no doubt, difficult to know what to do, but threats are seldom of avail to bring a man back to reason. Your father was angry with him, and yet declared that he was mad, that in itself was hardly rational. One does not become angry with a madman. One does not become angry with a madman, but while a man has power in his hands over others, and when he misuses that power grossly and cruelly, who is there that will not be angry? The misery of the insane more thoroughly excites our pity than any other suffering to which humanity is subject. But it is necessary that the madness should be acknowledged to be madness before the pity can be felt. One can forgive, or at any rate make excuses for any injury when it is done, but it is almost beyond human nature to forgive an injury when it is a doing. Let the condition of the doer be what it may. Emily Trevelyan at this time suffered infinitely. She was still willing to yield in all things possible because her husband was ill, because perhaps he was dying, but she could no longer satisfy herself with thinking all that she admitted, all that she was still ready to admit, had been conceded in order that her concessions might tend to soften the afflictions of one whose reason was gone. Dr. Neville said that her husband was not mad, and indeed Trevelyan seemed now to be so clear in his mind that she could not doubt what the doctor said to her. She could not think that he was mad, and yet he spoke of the last two years as though he had suffered from her almost all that a husband could suffer from a wife's misconduct. She was in doubt about his health. He may recover, the doctor said, but he is so weak that the slightest additional ailment would take him off. At this time Trevelyan could not raise himself from his bed, and was carried, like a child, from one room to another. He could eat nothing solid, and believed himself to be dying. In spite of his weakness, and of his savage memories in regard to the past, he treated his wife on all ordinary subjects with consideration. He spoke much of his money, telling her that he had not altered and would not alter the will that he had made immediately on his marriage. Under that will all his property would be hers for her life, and would go to their child when she was dead. To her this will was more than just. It was generous in the confidence which it placed in her, and he told his lawyer in her presence that to the best of his judgment he need not change it. But still there passed hardly a day in which he did not make some allusion to the great wrong which he had endured, throwing in her teeth the confessions which she had made, and almost accusing her of that which she certainly never had confessed, even when, in the extremity of her misery at Casa Lunga, she had thought that it little mattered what she said, so that for the moment he might be appeased. If he died, was he to die in this belief? If he lived, was he to live in this belief? And if he did so believe, was it possible that he should still trust her with his money and with his child? Emily, he said one day, it has been a terrible tragedy, has it not? She did not answer his question, sitting silent as it was her custom to do when he addressed her after such fashion as this. At such times she would not answer him, but she knew that he would press her for an answer. I blame him more than I do you, continued Trevelyan, infinitely more. He was a serpent intending to sting me from the first, not knowing perhaps how deep the sting would go. There was no question in this, and the assertion was one which had been made so often that she could let it pass. You are young, Emily, and it may be that you will marry again. Never, she said, with a shudder. It seems to her then that marriage was so fearful a thing, that certainly she could never venture upon it again. All I ask of you is, that should you do so, you will be more careful of your husband's honor. Lewis, she said, getting up and standing close to him, tell me what it is that you mean. It was now his turn to remain silent, and hers to demand an answer. I have borne much, she continued, because I would not vex you in your illness. You have borne much. Indeed, and indeed, yes, what woman has ever borne more. And I, said he, Dear Lewis, let us understand each other at last. Of what do you accuse me? Let us at any rate know each other's thoughts on this matter, of which each of us is ever thinking. I make no new accusation. I must protest then against your using words which seem to convey accusation. Since marriages were first known upon earth, no woman has ever been truer to her husband than I have been to you. Were you lying to me, then, at Casa Lunga, when you acknowledged that you had been false to your duties? If I acknowledged that I did lie, I never said that, but yet I did lie, believing it to be best for you that I should do so. For your honor's sake, for the child's sake, weak as you are, Lewis, I must protest that it was so. I never injured you by deed or thought. And yet you have lied to me. Is a lie no injury, and such a lie. Emily, why did you lie to me? You will tell me to-morrow that you never lied and never owned that you had lied. Though it should kill him, she must tell him the truth now. You were very ill at Casa Lunga, she said, after a pause. But not so ill as I am now. I could breathe that air. I could live there. Had I remained, I should have been well now. But what of that? Lewis, you were dying there. Pray, pray, listen to me. We thought that you were dying, and we knew also that you would be taken from that house. That was my affair. Do you mean that I could not keep a house over my head? At this moment he was half lying, half sitting, in a large easy chair in the little drawing-room of their cottage, to which he had been carried from the adjoining bedroom. When not excited he would sit for hours without moving, gazing through the open window, sometimes with some pretext of a book lying within reach of his hand, but almost without strength to lift it, and certainly without power to read it. But now he had worked himself up to so much energy, that he almost raised himself up in his chair as he turned towards his wife. Had I not the worlds before me to choose a house in, they would have put you somewhere and I could not have reached you. In a mad house you mean, yes, if you had told them. Will you listen, dear Lewis? We knew that it was our duty to bring you home, and as you would not let me come to you and serve you, and assist you to come here where you are safe, unless I owned that you had been right, I said that you had been right. And it was a lie, you say now. All that is nothing. I cannot go through it, nor should you. There is the only question. You do not think that I have been—I need not say the thing, you do not think that? As she asked the question she knelt beside him, and took his hand in hers and kissed it. Say that you do not think that, and I will never trouble you further about the past. Yes, that is it, you will never trouble me. She glanced up into his face, and saw there the old look which he used to wear when he was at Willsden and at Casa Lunga, and there had come again the old tone in which he had spoken to her in the bitterness of his wrath, the look and the tone which had made her sure that he was a madman. The craft and subtlety of women passes everything, he said, and so at last I am to tell you that from the beginning it has been my doing. I will never say so, though I should die in refusing to do it. After that there was no possibility of further conversation, for there came upon him a fit of coughing, and then he swooned, and in half an hour he was in bed, and Dr. Neville was by his side. You must not speak to him at all on this matter, said the doctor. But if he speaks to me, she asked. Let it pass, said the doctor, let the subject be got rid of with as much ease as you can. He is very ill now, and even this might have killed him. Nevertheless, though this seemed to be stern, Dr. Neville was very kind to her, declaring that the hallucination in her husband's mind did not really consist of a belief in her infidelity, but arose from an obstinate determination to yield nothing. He does not believe it, but he feels that were he to say as much, his hands would be weakened and yours strengthened. Can he then be in his sane mind? In one sense all misconduct is proof of insanity, said the doctor. In his case the weakness of the mind has been consequent upon the weakness of the body. Three days after that, Nora visited Twickenham from Munkham's, in obedience to a telegram from her sister. Louis, she said, had become so much weaker that she hardly dared to be alone with him. Would Nora come to her? Nora came, of course, and Hugh met her at the station and brought her with him to the cottage. He asked whether he might see Trevelyan, but was told that it would be better that he should not. He had been almost continually silent since the last dispute which he had had with his wife, but he had given little signs that he was always thinking of the manner in which he had been brought home by her from Italy, and of the story she had told him of her mode of inducing him to come. Hugh Stanbury had been her partner in that struggle, and would probably be received, if not with sullen silence, then with some attempt at rebuke. But Hugh did see Dr. Neville, and learned from him that it was hardly possible that Trevelyan should live many hours. He has warned himself out, said the doctor, and there is nothing left in him by which he can lay hold of life again. Of Nora her brother-in-law took but little notice, and never again referred in her hearing to the great trouble of his life. He said to her a word or two about Munkums, and asked a question now and again as to Lord Peterborough, whom, however, he always called Mr. Glasscock, but Hugh Stanbury's name was never mentioned by him. There was a feeling in his mind that at the very last he had been duped in being brought to England, and that Stanbury had assisted in the deception. To his wife he would whisper little petulant regrets for the loss of the comforts of Castellunga, and would speak of the air of Italy and of Italian skies and of the Italian sun, as though he had enjoyed at his Sienese villa all the luxuries which climate can give, and would have enjoyed them still had he been allowed to remain there. To all this she would say nothing. She knew now that he was failing quickly, and there was only one subject on which she either feared or hoped to hear him speak. Before he left her for ever and ever, would he tell her that he had not doubted her faith? She had long discussions with Nora on the matter, as though all the future of her life depended on it. It was in vain that Nora tried to make her understand that if hereafter the spirit of her husband could know anything of the troubles of his mortal life could ever look back to the things which he had done in the flesh, then would he certainly know the truth, and all suspicion would be at an end. And if not, if there was to be no such retrospect, what did it matter now, for these few last hours before the coil should be shaken off, and all doubt and all sorrow should be at an end? But the wife, who was soon to be a widow, yearned to be acquitted in this world by him to whom her guilt or her innocence had been matter of such vital importance. He has never thought it, said Nora. But if he would say so, if he would only look it, it will be all in all to me as long as I live in this world. And then, though they had determined between themselves in spoken words, never to regard him again as one who had been mad, in all their thoughts and actions towards him, they treated him as though he were less responsible than an infant. And he was mad, mad, though every doctor in England had called him sane. Had he not been mad, he must have been a fiend, or he could not have tortured, as he had done, the woman to whom he owed the closest protection which one human being can give to another. During these last days and nights she never left him. She had done her duty to him well, at any rate since the time when she had been enabled to come near him in Italy. It may be that in the first days of their quarrel she had not been regarded as she should have been of a husband's will, that she might have escaped this tragedy by submitting herself to the man's wishes, as she had always been ready to submit herself to his words. Had she been able always to keep her neck in the dust under his foot, their married life might have been passed without outward calamity, and it is possible that he might still have lived. But if she aired, surely she had been scourged for her error with scorpions. As she sat by his bedside watching him, she thought of her wasted youth, of her faded beauty, of her shattered happiness, of her fallen hopes. She had still her child. But she felt towards him that she herself was so sad a creature, so somber, so dark, so necessarily wretched from this time forth till the day of her death, that it would be better for the boy that she should never be with him. There could be nothing left for her but garments dark with woe, eyes red with weeping, hours sad from solitude, thoughts weary with memory. And even yet, if he would only now say that he did not believe her to have been guilty, how great would be the change in her future life! There came an evening in which he seemed to be somewhat stronger than he had been. He had taken some refreshment that had been prepared for him, and, stimulated by its strength, had spoken a word or two both to Nora and to his wife. His words had been of no special interest, alluding to some small detail of his own condition, such as are generally the chosen topics of conversation with invalids. But he had been pronounced to be better, and Nora spoke to him cheerfully, when he was taken into the next room by the man who was always at hand to move him. His wife followed him, and soon afterwards returned and bade Nora good night. She would sit by her husband, and Nora was to go to the room below, that she might receive her lover there. He was expected out that evening, but Mrs. Trevalian said that she would not see him. Hugh came and went, and Nora took herself to her chamber. The hours of the night went on, and Mrs. Trevalian was still sitting by her husband's bed. It was still September, and the weather was very warm. But the windows had been all closed since an hour before sunset. She was sitting there thinking, thinking, thinking. Dr. Neville had told her that the time now was very near. She was not thinking now how very near it might be, but whether there might yet be time for him to say that one word to her. Emily, he said, in the lowest whisper. Darling, she answered, turning round and touching him with her hand. My feet are cold. There are no clothes on them. She took a thick shawl and spread it double across the bottom of the bed, and put her hand upon his arm. Though it was clammy with perspiration, it was chill, and she brought the warm clothes up close round his shoulders. I can't sleep, he said. If I could sleep, I shouldn't mind. Then he was silent again, and her thoughts went harping on, still on the same subject. She told herself that if ever that act of justice were to be done for her, it must be done that night. After a while she turned round over him ever so gently, and saw that his large eyes were open and fixed upon the wall. She was kneeling now on the chair close by the bed-head, and her hand was on the rail of the bed-stead supporting her. Louis, she said ever so softly. Well, can you say one word for your wife, dear, dear, dearest husband? What word? I have not been a harlot to you, have I? What name is that? But what a thing, Louis! Kiss my hand, Louis, if you believe me. And very gently she laid the tips of her fingers on his lips. For a moment or two she waited, and the kiss did not come. Would he spare her in this the last moment left to him either for justice or for mercy? For a moment or two the bitterness of her despair was almost unendurable. She had time to think that where she wants to withdraw her hand she would be condemned forever, and that it must be withdrawn. But at length the lips moved, and with struggling ear she could hear the sound of the tongue within, and the verdict of the dying man had been given in her favor. He never spoke a word more, either to annull it or to enforce it. Some time after that she crept into Nora's room. Nora, she said, waking the sleeping girl. It is all over. Is he dead? It is all over. Mrs. Richards is there. It is better than an hour since now. Let me come in. She got into her sister's bed, and there she told the tale of her tardy triumph. He declared to me at last that he trusted me, she said, almost believing that real words had come from his lips to that effect. Then she fell into a flood of tears, and after a while she also slept. At last the maniac was dead, and in his last moments he had made such reparation as was in his power for the evil that he had done. With that slight touch of his dry-fevered lips he had made the assertion on which was to depend the future peace and comfort of the woman whom he had so cruelly misused. To her mind the acquittal was perfect, but she never explained to human ears, not even to those of her sister, the manner in which it had been given. Her life, as far as we are concerned with it, has been told. For the rest it cannot be but that it should be better than that which was past. If there be any retribution for such sufferings in money, liberty, and outward comfort, such retribution she possessed, for all that had been his was now hers. He had once suggested what she should do were she ever to be married again, and she felt that of such a career there could be no possibility—anything but that. We all know that widow's practices in this matter do not always tally with wives' vows. But as regards Mrs. Trevelyan we are disposed to think that the promise will be kept. She has her child, and he will give her sufficient interest to make life worth having. Early in the following spring Hugh Stanbury was married to Nora Rowley in the parish church of Moncombe's. At which place by that time Nora found herself to be almost as much at home as she might have been under other circumstances. They had prayed that the marriage might be very private, but when the day arrived there was no very close privacy. The parish church was quite full, there were half a dozen bridesmaids, there was a great breakfast, Mrs. Crutch had a new brown silk gown given to her, there was a long article in the county gazette, and there were short paragraphs in various metropolitan newspapers. It was generally thought among his compiers that Hugh Stanbury had married into the aristocracy, and that the fact was a triumph for the profession to which he belonged. It showed what a Bohemian could do, and that men of the press in England might gradually hope to force their way almost anywhere. So great was the name of Moncombe's. He and his wife took for themselves a very small house near the regents' park, at which they intend to remain until Hugh shall have enabled himself to earn an additional two hundred a year. Mrs. Trevelyan did not come to live with them, but kept the cottage near the river at Twickenham. Hugh Stanbury was very averse to any protracted connection with comforts to be obtained from poor Trevelyan's income, and told Nora that he must hold her to her promise about the beef steak in the cupboard. It is our opinion that Mr. and Mrs. Hugh Stanbury will never want for a beef steak and all comfortable additions until the inhabitants of London shall cease to require newspapers on their breakfast tables. Brooke and Mrs. Brooke established themselves in the house in the close on their return from their wedding tour, and Brooke at once put himself into intimate relations with the Messers' croppers, taking his fair share of the bank work. Dorothy was absolutely installed as mistress in her aunt's house, with many wonderful ceremonies, with the unlocking of cupboards, the outpouring of stores, the giving up of keys, and with many speeches made to Martha. This was all very painful to Dorothy, who could not bring herself to suppose it possible that she should be the mistress of that house during her aunt's life. Miss Stanbury, however, of course persevered, speaking of herself as a worn-out old woman with one foot in the grave, who would soon be carried away and put out of sight. But in a very few days things got back into their places, and Aunt Stanbury had the keys again. I knew how it would be, Miss, said Martha to her young mistress, and I didn't say nothing, because you understand her so well. Mrs. Stanbury and Priscilla still live at the cottage, which, however, to Priscilla's great disgust, has been considerably improved and prettily furnished. This was done under the auspices of Hugh, but with funds chiefly supplied from the house of Brooke, Dorothy, and Co. Priscilla comes into Exeter to see her sister, perhaps every other week, but will never sleep away from home, and very rarely will eat or drink at her sister's table. I don't know why I don't, she said to Dorothy, but somehow it puts me out. It delays me in my efforts to come to the straw a day. Nevertheless the sisters are dear friends. I fear that in some previous number a half promise was made that a husband should be found for Camilla French. That half promise cannot be treated in the manner in which any whole promise certainly would have been handled. There is no husband ready for Cammie French. The reader, however, will be delighted to know that she made up her quarrel with her sister and Mr. Gibson, and is now rather fond of being a guest at Mr. Gibson's house. On her first return to Exeter, after the Gibson's had come back from their little cornish rustication, Camilla declared that she could not and would not bring herself to endure a certain dress of which Bella was very fond. And as this dress had been bought for Camilla, with special reference to the glories of her anticipated married life, this objection was almost natural. But Bella treated it as absurd, and Camilla at last gave way. It need only further be said that though Giles Hickbody and Martha are not actually married as yet, men and women in their class of life always moving towards marriage with great precaution, it is quite understood that the young people are engaged and are to be made happy together at some future time.