 Okay true love. Dessert is coming up. We're going into dessert and that's a little hint, true love. Oh Nellie, oh Nellie. Here we go. Diving right in into the studio. Hope you're doing well and thank you all for chiming into yesterday where I kind of went on a little rant about listening to like I just want to make sure we clear the air that on the Houston marathon yesterday we're really going to clear the air on the Houston marathon right now in or out, out or in. I'll get you the answer here in a second. But yesterday I was just talking about how I have to listen to my own training philosophy and listen to obviously to my own body. Remember the question of the day yesterday was do you, do you feel like you have a grasp on your own personal pain scale? Like how much can your body handle? How much mentally can you handle when you're dealing with a niggle, an ache, a pain, maybe even like a lack of sleep which can then impact our mental state. So there's a lot that goes into that personal pain scale and I think I do have a pretty good grasp on my own pain scale and on my own personal talent level. So I'm not a, I'm not a high school kid that was recruited, I wasn't recruited out of high school to go run in college. I had to walk on to the University of Colorado Cross Country and track team my sophomore year of college because in high school like I was, I was decent but I definitely, I wasn't near the top in state cross country or state track. I had to fight for it and I feel like in high school I did it for those that have been watching you've heard me share this story before like I had to, I feel like my talent was there but it wasn't fully extracted or pulled out of me in high school and it was inside me to believe like I think there's more there to give and I'm now applying those lessons of high school into college into this attempt to run an Olympic trials qualifying time of 219 which is why yesterday I ran 21 miles because I know that for my talent level, talent level, my fitness needs to be at a certain level in order to reach that 219 because I can't just snap my fingers like Bernard Lagotte a 45 year old and go crank out I wanted to run this year a 212 something there it is on your screen right now so he's going to be in Atlanta running the Olympic trials for the marathon which is amazing as a 45 year old but I can't just snap my finger like that so on that's one reason first reason I ran 21 miles yesterday at 630 a mile but the second reason is I was seeking an answer to the question Houston in or out out or in because I knew 21 miles would basically tell me the knee is going to hold up or the knee is not going to hold up okay so I did the 21 miles three miles where the pain was three or four 18 miles essentially pain-free pretty exciting stuff right but I also knew I needed to go to bed last night and then wake up today and see how it felt and so the answer to the question in or out is very clear alright again the pain scale and knowing what it's going to take to not only maintain my fitness which is pretty high right now but also to sharpen a little bit okay I need to you know sharpen a little bit where I can you know go get that turnover going um so my decision and I appreciate everyone's opinions and thoughts and support and cheering me on all over the place but I'm out I'm out of the Houston marathon I'm out of the Olympic trials um it's a hard decision it's a lifelong dream to race the Olympics the Olympics meaning I eat my personal Olympics the Olympic trials I cannot it's not going to work it's just it's not it's the knee is saying no no no no no no no no no it's too too much it uh and I don't think it would be long-term damage to the knee if I push through um in fact I'll just say a little anecdote if I had if I was getting ready for the Olympics in Tokyo if I had made the Olympic marathon team I would obviously I would push through you know that's like that's I would you know that is a whole another discussion I'm trying to qualify for the Olympic trials which frankly I'll just say right now I think there's going to be more opportunities down the road Paris 2024 I like I'm already thinking long-term so I don't think it would be long-term damage but I know remember what I said like I'm not going to Houston to run two hours and 30 minutes it's not it just doesn't make it's not logical and I'll also add 2020 is going to be so much more enjoyable so much sweeter if I can rest up now get completely healthy now and then come back stronger and I have oh man I have a thought I was thinking about inside but come back stronger um for one spring marathon and one fall marathon so this is how you race marathons this year obviously Amsterdam was my first attempt at the otq and then I did new york for my mom uh but traditionally what you need to do as a marathon runner is one in the spring and one in the fall okay that is the that's the smart way to to race marathons so that's now on the table like that's part instead of let's say running houston and even let's say I did I let's say I ran two 1830 then I would run another marathon five or six weeks later but yeah about five weeks later in Atlanta which would be so exciting a lifelong dream but by not pushing through this pain it allows it allows a lot of doors to open for 2020 and one last point that I thought about inside is chasing fitness versus embracing fitness a little tip of the day when you're chasing fitness you're rushing the training block right rather than embracing the fitness where you're taking that patience approach and the fitness that is building up inside of you through patience and not rushing the volume build up not rushing the intensity of the workouts um it's more of a natural way where your body is adapting to what you're putting it through in the training rather than okay overreaching like if you follow me on strava you can sense like the last eight weeks it was all a little rushed and I knew it would be and I wasn't afraid of it but at the end of the day the body gets the last word and the body is saying no more whereas whereas looking to the future I'm not afraid to say like Paris 2024 um I believe the window opens up I think it I think it's a three-year window that marathon runners have for USA track and field athletes to qualify for the Olympic trials so again that's obviously down the road it's going to be fun to chase it again down the road um and not do it in an overreaching manner okay overreaching manner and now I have the experience of Amsterdam of New York and of future marathons this spring and then new york city next fall once again where I can just continue to dial in the marathon training and racing experience all right so cool all right we are uh true love and I we're off to date night let's go tell true love together um she uh you know we've been all yeah let's just go tell true love we've been contemplating and talking and discerning together like what's this knee injury look like and how are we going to work through this together so come on now let's go oh go let her know here we go there she is Friday night oh my we never go out on Friday night here we go oh my my hun here we go it's cold I'm not saying my car is warmed up oh no no it's okay we're good otherwise known as liquid gold otherwise known as liquid gold to the break to the break cheers true love does not know the houston marathon update yet we'll get that to you in a minute it's a little loud in the restaurant so we might do that okay at the dessert place oh yeah how's that sound how's that sound true love she didn't like her dinner at all no no dice no okay true love dessert is coming up we're going into dessert and that's a little hint true love as to my decision for the houston marathon yes we're going to call it we're calling it okay because of the knee everybody you know the story it just uh any even sitting in the restaurant just now yeah it's killing it's hurting 21 miles yesterday it just hurts so we're going to give it a we're going to give it a rest and going to give it a rest yeah we've got to give it a rest and give it a rest and 2020 will be that much sweeter by taking a rest now you know what i mean no that's true that's true that's good perspective you know it just and babe you're just getting started you're going to qualify for the next two olympics i think olympic trials i meant you know well well oh wow watch out hey paris we will see you wow so anyway we're calling it that's a hard decision it's a hard decision but it's the right decision because the pain scale that we've been talking about you just got to know your body yeah and listen to it that's it that's yeah you're home and hey you know what we did everything we we really gave it the our best shot physical therapy yeah the massage massage therapy heating rest for four days but at the end of the day yeah that's not meant to be not meant to be this time this time we're going to keep fighting but it's just going to be a longer fight than we anticipated so thank you for sticking with us through amsterdam new york and even well before that yeah so in a sense it yeah with all of this i'm proud of you honey marathon marathon business yeah all right we're gonna toss it back everyone too i think when the knee injury kind of first arrived on the right just to give you the full perspective of what we've been through and then on the left we'll toss it back to um what should we toss it back to oh gosh Amsterdam Amsterdam where it all started where it all started Amsterdam all right everyone see beauty work hard and love each other we'll see you tomorrow see you tomorrow i love you