 You know, I just feel like what the Holy Spirit keeps saying is just be here. Just be here and The last few days have been real Hectic for me, and I've just been kind of pulling back and spending some alone time And after class today, I went to the park and just walked around for an hour It's like I just needed to like connect to the Holy Spirit. I feel like I've been in such a mode of doing doing doing And I and that really brings up question for me it certainly in my in my mind seems like it would be the simple thing to do to just Become very focused on the course like get out of nursing And I have to deal with all these outside things and just focus when I'm when I'm just doing the course It seems relatively easy and I know that I use the outside things and it probably wouldn't matter if I was out of nursing or not That I would still find something to run interference with the whole spirit right now because of my fear But I do notice that There it seems like And I know this is because I'm in it in my wrong mind that there's conflict going on if I can't Quote do life unquote and get the course that what I'd like to do is just be able to sit down and Not deal with anything else Yeah, it came in my life that it was kind of like If there's two directions, you know Jesus at one point says you may have noticed how different the goals This course are advocating from the goals who held before it's like, huh. Tell me about an understatement I mean, that's that's putting it mildly. I mean, it's they are totally Diometrically in opposite directions and we've talked about that whole thing of trying to see two worlds, you know I would say of just like you said if I still value the old goal Then I'll value the world that proceeds from The old goal, you know, I'll perceive it as a threat if I even think I have to let go of That old world because I still value the old goal and to me as we keep coming together We just want to get clear on the goals or the purposes in the mind because then it just starts to bring a clarity the ego's goal is death and In all of the different forms it seems to take even the ones that seem attractive to the mind on the surface They're still that and we just want to kind of keep moving towards the center of its thought systems Just to see the insanity of it to let it go Would it be appropriate to read the branching of the road on page 444 it's like about I Think we could but I really think right now we could just go into it and let the spirit move among among us and You know, I am the branching of the road It's not in that book. I Offered right now and to go into it and it's scary. I know because we don't even have a book To shield to go into but I think that can be We the thing we want to do is we want to just try to follow this in as we can't it's much as we can to try to get Some real clarity on it and everything Is these things relating? What was it the issues that you were? I wanted to make sure everybody had a chance to bring up There are issues. I'm sure they all relate There is only one problem and one solution I Just noticed thoughts that I have had coming up today and even yesterday again, it seems like the teaching device is the car and Yesterday it was actually Christa's car and today it has to do with the car. I was driving and I Mean what happens is if not happen is a no consequence really but I the feelings or the perceptions or the thoughts that I had had to do with Feeling like someone else had the upper hand And that I was being taken or had that it was my word against theirs That I was being unfairly treated or misunderstood. I would think all that goes back to the authority problem And I I did I mean I I had a sense of how that might have felt because Because I was kind of identifying With how I would have felt Maybe in the same or have have felt. I don't know Have felt at least in the past when that kind of thing would go on and I just it feels to me like it's a Since it's still in my thoughts. It feels like it's it's something that I want to go into more and get clearer about So that that I cease having those thoughts And just run through them again being taken advantage of being taken advantage of Someone else having the upper hand being had my word against theirs Being unfairly treated being misunderstood But I think the big things are being taken being had my word against theirs and and in the end basically That they have the upper hand that I'm kind of at their mercy this victimization again you have this perceptual world now and There seems to be If we could really get beneath everything that's been raised today, you know, we can start to see that everything rest on Duality in the world it would be no point in talking about a struggle I was feeling when I was talking with Kathy or being taken her head at a from a car taking my car in or Any anything that we've talked about I mean all the things that have been discussed presume a duality in the world Being taken advantage by another my word against their word You can hear it doesn't matter all the different forms, but the underlying thing is that there's duality So we could really boil it down to the most simple terms and say gee all of those are predicated on my belief that there is duality in this world and What we need to start to do is to start another way we could come out is to say points of view There seem to be so many points of view my view their view My friend's view my husband's view what so-and-so is going through how would you what was you do? Would you leave your? Daughter behind you know all these things are predicated on duality. I mean duality is assumed to be Reality and it doesn't matter whether you've studied the course or whether you've studied Hinduism or all the different religions that the core of all the religions point to unity and Even philosophers who have gone into this still come to the point where Okay, so there doesn't seem so that there's nothing apart from mind where did the duality come in and how do you? How did the duality come about and how does it so seem to be so real if unity is the fact of it? So that's where we have to get to this whole thing of is the duality real or Am I projecting a? Conflict that's in my mind out into the world and seeing it is if it's between persons institutions schools of thought you know Forces of nature on and on and on out there in a dualistic world because What I'm going to propose is and what the course teaching is that is as long as we believe in the in a real factual World of duality that is outside our minds and outside our persons That has a reality that as long as we believe that that there is no Alleviation of the pain there is no escape from the conflict until We're really to ready really question everything which is the underpinnings of everything This is not something that comes up usually in casual conversation This is really deep down if my if the fundamental mental way that I've been seeing is Is messed up and distorted then it's no wonder then that I would perceive all these Problems and so-called daily life and that they would seem to recur over and over and over without a seeming end at hand so It's that thing that the fundamental belief to have the world of duality would be that ideas can leave their source I mean where in the world? So figure out where would this world of duality come from? It seems to Be out of control At times it seems to have have a life of its own it just seems to be self Perpetuating we back up for just a moment. How does having a belief that ideas can leave their source create a dual world? I lost you there. Okay? if if ideas can leave their source then There seems to be a way that this Tunis can come about in other words something seems to have left the mind and To have a reality of itself mean duality and conflict is a belief in the mind And if it seems to have a reality out on outside of the mind Then it would have to leave its source another thing is if we relate it back to a more abstract thing of heaven is that God is spirit the son is spirit that The son is an idea in the mind of God and therefore there is no duality or separation in that view so That's basically the premise that ideas cannot leave their source and Christ has not left his father's mind If if ideas can leave their source then that's the whole that's the whole basis of the making of the world I sometimes think of it in terms of breaking apart If ideas can leave their source then they break apart and then you have two things you have ideas here And you have the source here, and that's the duality. That's the Tunis So there's me and my thoughts break away so that those go out in the world and so then it seems like the world against me That kind of thing Like what once the mind accepts that there has been the breaking apart That there is too, you know, there's the idea Broken away from the source to things idea and source then the way that gets played out is the duality And and is perceiving, you know me against them This against that This versus that the other there's always there's always the Tunis and they're always like You know, they're they're not harmony. They don't reflect the oneness. They reflect the conflict that that is inherent in breaking apart and separating Well, it's still seeing me against him his word against my word Which is There seems to be this strong conflict between persons I mean it seems as if in the world that You know, you're given so much time to live on this earth and Sometime or other everyone seems to conflict. I mean even the special loved ones Seem to have be rubbing up and like grating on this Person like the person's like give me a break. Give me some space and there's such a friction that goes on there And the the idea that ideas leave their source is is the belief that that I'm not Whole and eternal, you know, I have left my source in heaven I mean that's the basis of the belief in separation is that I have left heaven So I have left my source there and in only that is that all of these are all the figures in the dream are Apart from the little I now this I'm a little person Sleeping now I'm a little person in the dream world and all of these other persons have separate realities With private minds and private thoughts completely apart from my little mind private You can see where that's a belief that ideas can leave their source because there is that separateness and that duality and also Whenever I have an upset do I in the sleeping sense? Do I think oh, it's just my perceptual problem I can I could forgive and see pieces that of this or Do I want hold on to the reality that this is another person this person at this car dealership or this mechanic is taking advantage of me Or this this friend is attacking me or any of the different things you can see what's beneath that is a belief that I'm not just viewing my ideas like like this whole world this and all these people and everything are just my ideas There would be no threat in that but is but if I believe ideas have left their source and that these people are Have nothing to do with me now It's like there have nothing did all to do that man saying that to me when I was getting my car My friend saying that then you can see where the friction is inevitable from that person