 I think you'd ask me about why autistic people might be drawn to philosophy. I'm just curious. Yeah, yeah, yeah, sure. Because I think when we were chatting, I mean, you know, I mean, for me, I think the rock and of these, I think we came up with like three different separate things like the rituals around it. Oh, yes. You know, having the routine, the rituals. Certainty and framework, you know, going through life. It's very important for us to understand things and the things that are not so easily definable and certain like social interaction, understanding people and emotions tend to be a bit harder for us. And then, you know, last I think we were saying about like the interest or like the special interests of understanding like the complexity of life and stuff. So which one would you want to talk on? Maybe, let's see, the first was rituals, the second was Certainty and framework. The framework is interesting to me too. And then what was the third again? The interest in the complexity of life. Yeah, the last two, I guess. Yeah. Last two. Go for it. Oh, for me first. Okay. Well, I mean, I guess I could just speak to me personally. And my brother is also on the spectrum. I think my father might have been as well. Those genetic, genetic ties. Yeah, I asked him actually, my brother and I both asked him, we're like, would you ever go get tested? And he just smiled at me and he was like, no. Like, okay. I'm still working on it with my dad. He's kind of, he's open with it at this point. But that's great. He's not got any like drive to go get a diagnosis. He's, you know, he's in his 50s and he feels quite stable in his life. He doesn't really have any issues. So it's understandable, I guess. That makes sense. Just one thing I will say that connects with, I guess personally, my brother and I both have a ability or a way to see or to form patterns and connections between things that maybe other people might not see an inherent pattern. You relate to that. Yeah, it's the whole pattern, pattern recognition stuff around autism. It's very interesting. So that lateral thinking, I think. Some people define it as like, thinking laterally between different concepts and things and making connections and all that. Interesting. There's a lot that I'll have to ask you for references because I'm certainly interested in reading and learning more about it. I think that and then also just making sense of the world as much as we can, having my own dedicated personal philosophy or ethos. I mean, I think Thomas Jefferson did this. I forget who it was, but I've thought, I think he rewrote the Bible and took out all the magical bits or the New Testament or something. Yeah, right? To apply just the basic moral ethics of it. The Judeo-Christian values. And I guess I seek to do the same in my own way to take different truths that I've learned from different belief systems and my own experiences and things like that and kind of put together my own format for what it means to live a good life, be a good person, make an impact in the world, that kind of thing. And oh, wow. Yeah, I think maybe I'm forgetting. Sorry. I think I have to have it in front of me. Oh, here we go. Yeah, the complexity of life. Yeah, so that, I guess, I just answered my own question on the second one about certainty and framework is like, I want to have my own framework that's individual and that goes back to being an existentialist is that I'm personally responsible for my own views too. And so it's like making it my own as a creative person, creating my own ethos or my own doctrine, so to speak, in a way, or philosophical views taking from different people that I've been influenced by over the years. And I just want to mention like Eric Fromm, his reflections on love. I really recommend his book, The Art of Loving. If you get a chance to read it, it's great. I think he's an atheist and a socialist. Michael Foucault, Michelle Foucault is dissection of power structures has been influenced in my life. Henry David Thoreau and J.S.Mill on personal freedom and liberty and then transcendentalists like Walt Whitman, the inherent goodness of the individual, the wonder of nature. And that's had a profound impact on my views on the natural world and I guess our relationship to it as humans. And then William Blake, his poetry, his exploration of themes like innocence or good and evil, humans' relationship with the divine. And lastly, Hilda Gard of Benjen. She was like a Christian mystic, but she was also a poet, healer. What else did she do? Composer, philosopher, mystic, visionary, medical writer and practitioner during the Middle Ages. So anyway, there's a lot of info dumping. No, no, no. It's interesting because when you go back in history and time and stuff, it's the lines between science and religion and spirituality and things like alchemy and stuff are very like one in the same to a certain extent. It's interesting. Yeah. That would be my life's work, sorry. Yeah. I think philosophy for me, it definitely came out of my experiences. Now, as you said, trying to understand the world, why things what happening to me and other people that weren't good, going into philosophy or at least just thinking about life in solitary on my own. It was important for me because I felt very much like I was out in the water. I didn't really feel like there was any rhyme or reason to anything and it was very, very difficult to, I guess, withstand the negatives that were happening in my life without having some kind of guided understanding of things or certainty around certain things. So that's definitely why I guess gravitated towards philosophy. I don't have any particular rituals that I do. I know that the whole idea of autism and routine, sometimes having rituals allows you to have a set time in the day to, I guess, think or feel or do a certain thing which is positive for your mental health. I'm just thinking about it now. I think I probably do have some rituals that I do which are not like, I had something in my head which is just completely flown away. Do you have any nighttime rituals or anything or morning rituals? I think particularly when I'm struggling with something that is to do with experience, like my recent kind of breakup with my long-term partner was obviously quite impactful to a certain extent. For me, my rituals come in where I put my emotional energy, like when and where. I give myself time to think about certain things. So I set a time, particular times in the day or sometimes when I'm going through a lot of emotional turmoil where I'm sort of dividing my thoughts or my feelings. The idea of processing things and processing events and emotions and stuff is very important and it's something that you need to do. But at the same time, processing all of it all the time throughout the day all the time is equally not good for maintaining your life and your productivity and actually living, not just just living in negative feelings. And so for me, setting time aside where I am allowing myself to think and feel about that stuff and then closing off that for the rest of the day or something, it's important for me. That kind of draws on the idea of alexifamia because for me, emotions are not easily recognized or identified. It used to be a lot worse. Nowadays, it's a bit easier. But actually leaning into possible feelings or thoughts that I have helps me be aware of what I'm feeling and helps me connect my feelings to certain events or thoughts which I find very, very helpful. I might play some emotional music which is related to it. I think that could probably be some level of a ritual with things and it's been very helpful for me. Sounds like a good ritual. And in terms of philosophy or philosophy, I think the idea of positive nihilism resonates with me probably the most of anything I do very much like all the existential stuff. And obviously, freedom in each other, the father of nihilism is quite a big impact on me. I've read a few books. I'm very bad with names and people and describing what people have done and what people have said to their names. But I have read a few books and there was one called like the existentialist cafe, which was quite interesting for me. It's kind of getting all of these philosophies together and having them discuss things. It was really really really interesting.