 Yn y gwyllt o wandswyr yw'r lleiwyr, mae'n gwych i'n siwch gyddiadau i'n gweithio i'r 5 ysgol. Yna weithio dweud yn ymgyrch yn yma, a wedyn yw'n gweithio i'n ymryd y First of the Church. Mae'n gweithio o'n gweithio i'n gweithio i'n gweithio i'n gweithio i'r Ymryd Prydydd. Byddwch chi'n du'n ddanhoo a yna'r rhai yn leifio arnyn nhw. Rwy'n dod o'i gwmpio ac mae'n hwn eich cyfnwys i'w ddechrau. Ac mae'r ddweud wrth i chi ydy'n meddwl i ddechrau? Rwy'n meddwl a ddechrau a ddim ac mae'r ddam. Yn gweithio ein ddyddio, am ystafell erioedwch mewn, efallai yna ddim am ei. Mae ydych chi'n meddwl i ddim i ddechrau, ond mae wedi eu gyd-dîr i ddim yn ei g Nawr, I was involved in drugs, in debt, always in and out of fights, show, with that kind of lifestyle comes a lot of consequences, show the feelings where we're going to get out, where we're going to get out, and when the MC came and said look we're going to get a repatriation for you, we're going to get your battery UK, I was delighted it was made up. And that was happening around March 28, 2007, but prior to that there was something called the reds and the yellow kind of protest going on, Bangkok was on fire, there was bombs going off, the airport was surrounded, it was blocked off, they kept coming back to me saying look, your flight's being empty lady, we'll be going back to the UK. And to get these messages from, you've got to remember I've got no outside, I'm not near them exactly what's going on outside, there's no radios in the cells, the TV's are just Thai game shows and we can't understand the way that's getting cells on them. So I had no idea what was going on, no one was coming in and telling me that the city was all on fire and everything, I'm just getting sold it's delayed, we don't know when. And he didn't really want to tell me what date it was, that you go because of the security risk, anyway he did come, it was on 31 March 2007, it was a 12 hour flight and he remember getting on off, I remember the screw miss the money penny and he said to me what religion are you? Before he said to me what religion are you, he asked me, he was telling me about Wandsworth, he was talking about the Muslim gangs, now I've had changed my religion in Thailand to Islam, my name was Yusif Muhammad. Now I did that because I wanted to keep the engine doing my life, I was hungry, I remember walking around after paying these debts, but I never actually had the money to pay these debts, I begged these missionaries to help me so they support me. I was going to end up with getting injected with HIV and I didn't fancy having a long death sentence, I just didn't fancy fucking dying at all in that way. So I got these debts cleared up and I kept walking around in the prison and seeing these Muslim guys eating their food and he says you can shit with us today and have something to eat and I did and he enjoyed it and I said come back tomorrow. And he went and said no no my friend, only you're the Muslim brothers, so I thought yeah alright, come back and I changed my name to Yusif Muhammad through a school cap on and I thought this is shit, I'll have me dinner if you dinner. So I'm here. Which did it and then he went you had to move into my cell, so he moved me into the cell for a year. So I was reading the Quran, I enjoyed it, it was an experience. All the foreigners that were there were judging me and saying you know you're blagging at it, couldn't you care less mate, I'm fucking surviving. Survival mode. It is what it is, I'm trying to get through the best way I can. But I learned how to read Arabic and Fajar and the shahadir and that's the way the Quran meant to read shahith. So I learned how to write about the Islamic religion. But I was also asking questions because I was naive and I believed what the papers said and if you say like you know Muslims backpacks and all that. So I asked what's all this, people killing each other and he said look Bill they're extremists, they're fundamentalists. He said Islam means peace. He said when I say to you asalamu alaykum wa rahmatullahi alhamdulillah that means peace be with your brother and you're safe. So I learned a few things, he said people like that, they can't really claim to be you know a religion of peace. So it was nice, it was nice and it kept me safe, it kept me alive and when I was on the plane one of the screw that was talking about what religion it was he was mentioning these Muslim gangs in London and I put them down and then when he asked me where I was I just said, I said no, an atheist. I felt embarrassed, I felt I'd be judged instead of just admitting and accepting. I didn't want to kind of rock the boat, it was just fucking hell you know what am I. Until I got there and when I'm in Wandsworth I felt really guilty about denying this religion that kept me alive for over a year. And I spoke to the in man in Wandsworth prison and I explained my situation and I told him why. I denied it and he said look just come to a tumour on a Friday, he said I'll have your opened up and it's okay, I'll come along. Cos it didn't enjoy it, it kept me granted and I remember on a Friday afternoon when he's opened up it was the same screw that had brought me over right from Thailand and he looked at me dressed in a sharon and he went, just shut his head. I said what the fuck, he shrugged and smiled and moved on and that was it, I was okay with it. You know I knew of Wandsworth when I got out but I didn't end up fucking, I just ran a bend. There's something that I do, I'm involved in a recovery programme and there's something that says we short health through religion, psychiaty and medication. So we were seeking help in religion, psychiaty and medication, everything but like being a piece with yourself. I was looking for a lot of things outside of me to look after me, drugs, different drugs, you know I'm on this drug so they'll give me that drug to come off this drug. So I never came off anything, I'll shit with the psychiatrists and I'll talk about my feelings for fucking years. You know nothing's changing, I'll change my religion, I went from a Catholic to a Buddhist to a Muslim to fucking hell, I'll be a Hindu, I'll be whatever it takes to keep me mad. Yeah because it's on fire, my thinking's quite volatile and I get forced to come through the back door uninvited and fucking call me all the time, you know what I mean?