 And I love it So I'll talk quickly about this song I didn't know what song to sing today, but last night in the kitchen I I got home and my wife was like you're gonna sing in the gutter like a poet and So I Was I had recently got well this whole gods was like prior to 2020 so recently four years ago I had gotten back from tour and you know, you spend three months booking a tour and then you wait six months to go on the tour and After I paid the musicians and slept on couches and ate Gas station food for for weeks. I had made seven dollars in my business And Do you remember that old Shania Twain song where she says did I shave my legs for this? It always resonates did I quit my job for this and And I was feeling really sorry for myself and which is part of my process. I don't know if y'all go through it, too It's like you throw your own pity party and no one's invited But I I was thinking about you know at ground poll of all people and How how he he was so prolific during his life and nobody really at the time He wasn't famous and he passed out in a gutter and in Baltimore and and Ultimately died thereafter and it was until after his death that he became a well-renowned poet And I don't want that future. I'm but I was thinking of that and and how much effort we we put into our work People say a lot of times. They're like you're so talented and I hate when people say that to me I mean, it's fine if you say that to me. I'm not gonna hold it against you I Don't tell it. Yeah, I just don't feel like I don't feel like I think we could all agree It's not something that felt super intrinsic like we put in so much work and we practice so much and we we learn and we Perfect and we throw things away and we cry and we doubt ourselves and you know And so anyway, I was revisiting Albert Camus's paper the myth of Sisyphus Because I'm a masochist and I reread that sometimes And and in it he says in Background on Sisyphus. He smited the gods and was damned to eternity to roll this boulder up a mountain and and then it'll Chases it down and then he does it over and over again and In in his his paper Albert Camus says one must imagine Sisyphus happy and it really resonated with me I'm like, oh my god. That's me. I am Sisyphus But without muscles and So anyway, I wrote this song. It's called in the gutter like a poet and it basically it's you know Kind of like and and I I'm sure this Expands to folks beyond you know the art artists realm But you know, we are our worst enemies. We are our biggest critics We are our biggest doubters and if anybody learns how to pat themselves on the back or give me some Lizzo energy. I would really appreciate it But anyway without further ado I'm actually move this over so I can hear myself saying it's for your protection