 I'm not with a safe person, someone who I've perhaps had a meltdown around before and they've, you know, constantly pressured me for questions, they've made things really difficult for me, they've, I don't know, they've shouted at me, they've made fun of me or, you know, anything like that in a public situation. I'm going to hold it back and I'm going to do that temporary control and it's going to be a lot more intense once I'm actually in a place I feel safe. It's really weird because like, I kind of have such, you know, stronger versions to people when I'm in those states because I can't really communicate well. And with all that anxiety and paranoia on my brain just going haywire and not being able to communicate, it's kind of, it's kind of a state where if people do things wrong, I'm going to try and get away from them. I'm going to push them away.