 Good morning, my beautiful internet friends and welcome back. We are not sipping wine at 10 30 in the morning We are gonna be doing the I walk giveaway at the end of this video. I apologize that this is 24 hours late Yesterday, I was on the couch over there all day with a massive migraine Which is why you were about to see as I continue to fold paper slips with your guys's names on them and put them in My drawing glass a video from yesterday at the end of yesterday when I was like slightly more cognizant though I mean I'm still kind of out of it where I talk about two things that I don't think are discussed enough When it comes to like chronic pains and migraines and illness and things like that So let's hop into that video and then make sure you stick around to the end of that video see who wins real quick before we dive In I would love it if you would hit subscribe on my channel I'm shooting for a hundred thousand subscribers sometime in the near future because I think that would be cool So if you want to be a part of that hit subscribe and now let's talk about some migraines and guilt and brain fog I guess let me know what you think it is I've been laying on this couch here from 6 30 this morning until oh It's a literally 6 34 right now 6 34 at night when I woke up this morning Kiss Brian by my first thought was like oh crap. This is gonna be a bad one Like I there was already a migraine starting up and it was just nasty And so I've been laying down all day trying to make it go away Taking meds doing whatever I can and I want to talk about two issues I don't think I've addressed before specifically when it comes to like chronic pain illness and migraines that I don't know if you Guys face, but this is something that comes up for me just about every time if I seem a little bit out of it I'm not a hundred percent just yet, but it's definitely a lot better also side note I don't know if you guys know Gus Johnson. He's hilarious and a total sweetheart here on YouTube Got some of his his merch ordered it like two months ago And it just came in the mail so shout out to you Gus Johnson not that he needs a shout out for me He's like a million followers, but whatever something I don't think a lot of people talk about something that I don't think a lot of people talk about is that like one of migraine hits Or when you're in a lot of pain You don't think straight like you don't really have access to all your brain cells like you're You can't think well when you're in a lot of pain, right? And so I found myself Often like when it's bad days when things really hurt like today I don't even remember what helps and that sounds Stupid because I've been living with chronic migraines for 15 years now like I know what helps I know what doesn't I know what to do on days when they're like Manageable I'll put that in quotes. I know like the steps to go through but when I'm in a lot of pain I get like panicked because I'm like I don't even like what what even helps like I don't even know what helps I've done this before but I don't actually know where the list is But like I'm gonna write down like a list of like these are the things to do Like these are the things that you need to do to help yourself when you're in a lot of pain because Even though I've dealt with this for literally more than half my life. I Cannot think straight enough To figure out what the next step is to figure out that like you need to eat something you haven't eaten anything in six Hours that's gonna make your migraine worse and know it hurts to get up But you have to get up you have to eat something kind of thing I mean this is not a scientific fact But I feel like my my brain function is reduced to like 10% capacity and I am just like in haze where nothing makes sense And I'm like barely functioning and so I think it's important to have things in place Before they hit So I'm gonna remake a list tomorrow that I know where it is because I've had two really really bad migraine the last seven days Where I got to like that state, you know where I just I didn't even know what would help even though I know what helps but secondly Guilt I feel like it's my fault every time I always get this Like sense of like like I'm not doing something like I'm just being lazy or I'm Not doing the thing that would actually help or I'm obviously bringing this on myself in some way And it's gotten a lot better over the years as I've worked through different, you know mental issues I've had and I've pieced apart different things But still pops up especially when things get really bad Like when the pain gets really bad, I feel like it's my fault and I had like this nagging sense that like You did something you did something wrong or like you you did you didn't like you didn't get enough sleep So it's your fault even though I did or you know, maybe something on a larger scale I usually feel like I'm forgetting to do something like I'm bringing on myself like like I must want this to happen because it happened so often and that's a very This is what happens like I can't think of words. It's a very You know, it's a broken thought pattern like that's not accurate thinking But there's so much guilt for me that comes along with being in pain And the thing is is that there's nothing that I should feel guilty for But I'll be laying down and like trying to rest and I'll have this nagging sense like in the back of my mind That like you should be doing the thing you should be doing the other thing and I'm like But but what's what's the other thing like what's the other thing that I'm doing that like makes this my fault and there's nothing there It's just like that that broken thought pattern, you know that unhealthy way of thinking I just want to take a moment to share that with you guys I am really curious if you guys have experienced either of those things whether it's migraines or chronic pain or illness or just being a Person I would love to hear your thoughts in the comment section down below Three two one All right, so this is everybody who entered the I walk giveaway I wanted to do this the fairest way possible and I figured that putting all the names on pieces of paper and throwing them in a Wine glass was gonna be a simplest way to do this I wish that I had an I walk to give away to everybody They are really really helpful tools if you are not today's winner for not you can still get an I walk there for sale on Amazon up the link down the description and hopefully in the future I would love to be able to do a giveaway again, so let's go ahead and hop in to see who wins Also, I realized I say hop a lot like hop over to my YouTube channel like let's hop in and see who wins That's not supposed to be a joke a lot of people have pointed out that like I kind of constantly say that I do love hopping in my Real life as well as you know And our winner is Lewis. Congratulations. Whoops Lewis. Congratulations. I've sent you an email I should be waiting for your inbox for further instructions as well a huge Thank you to everyone who entered and to I walk for providing us with this I walk to give away Thank you for spending a few minutes with me here today guys Make sure you hit like on this video and subscribe if you're interested in all this channel Which I mean I certainly hope you are if you've stayed to the end of this video. I love you guys I'm thinking of you and I'll talk to you soon. Bye guys