 Hi everyone and welcome back to another vlog. I just wanted to do a catch-up vlog because it's been a while since I broke up from uni, since we had our final modules, it's been a few weeks, so I just want to do a little catch-up what I've been up to and what's next for me. So far I have picked up bankshifts, but those of you that don't know what bankshifts are, those are extra shifts that I work within the NHS to get actual physical real money to pay my bills with because my students were broke, we have to work unfortunately. So yes, I do my shifts in sexual health and family planning if you don't already know. I've just picked up all the shifts I can because we've got all this time off now until the first week of September when our placement starts. So I need to get as many shifts as possible now in while I can, ready to start placement in September so I don't have to do any shifts when I'm out there on placement. So this is how I manage, this is how I cope. And so far it's worked for me but it might not work for everybody and it's exhausting, it's not fair and it's exhausting but it's so so worth it, it's going to be worth it to get my pin at the end of this degree. Other than that I've been doing my ACP dissertation, not dissertation, keep saying this and to be honest I've made a good start. So I was doing my data extraction tables for those of you that don't know what ACP dissertation is, it's my dissertation, not dissertation, it's a 4,000 words integrated review so I have to pick 10 articles to answer the question that I've come up with myself and then I critically appraise them and then I present it all in some sort of research type, style, assignment-based thing. I don't know what to call it, I'm sorry. An integrated review, that's what it's called. But I know if someone said that to me and I'd never heard it before I wouldn't have a clue, I still am pretty not clued upon it but I'm getting there. So so far I have done a bit of everything. My ACP assignment is a bit all over the place right now and I don't like it because that's not me, I like organisation and I like everything to flow and you just can't with this unfortunately. So I have got my 10 articles, I've critically appraised my 10 articles for the strengths and weaknesses in every single one. I've put those strengths and weaknesses in 10 data extraction tables which is taking me forever. It just drained my soul. I'm not gonna lie to you, this drains your soul and the thing is, okay, scrap what I've just said, it's only because I'm so used to being organised so I like to, when it's launched I do it, it's done. I don't need things to last minute, I don't need things to the night before. I like it done but with this you can't do it and it's really stressing me out because I can't just do it, I can't just get on with it. It's a really long-winded process so I'm tearing my hair out with it and that's purely the only reason why. Other than that I've really really enjoyed this, I've really enjoyed getting all the information and looking at the strengths and weaknesses and looking at the results because I was really, that's what I'm interested in. I'm interested in the results of my question because this is a question that I genuinely wanted to know the answer to and the results have shocked me so far. It's not been what I thought which has been amazing. So yeah it's been really good, sorry I'm going off topic now, it's going to go on forever so yes get back to it. So 10 data extraction tables have done and then I went on to my 10 theming tables because there's a sort of order that you do things in and so I am trying to follow that order. I've done my 10 theming tables which is by far everybody is the easiest, it is the easiest part. Once those data extraction tables, hours of grueling hard work has been done it's got easy. It took me about an hour to do my theming tables last night but the only thing is there's a couple of, I just I don't know if I'm doing it right and it's stressing me out because I've done it and I've been like yeah this is easy I've done it but then I'm questioning myself and I'm doubting myself and I'm like actually have I done that right? So I need to go to uni and I need to get some sort of approval from someone and just make sure I'm on track with those and then I'll be happy and then I've started my abstract. So I've done the title bit. I have done the started sort of introduction and methods sort of section left the results section out and the conclusion out because I haven't got to that part fully properly yet and I have started a proper introduction but you know where you just you write something you think am I allowed to say that? Are you allowed to put your own thoughts and opinions into this because the question for my induction on the guide is saying why are you conducting this research? Why have you chosen to do this? So I'm putting in my own thoughts and feelings about something and I'm not 100% sure that's the right thing to do and I think I'm going to have to question it and ask somebody about it because I'm a little bit like oh we'll see hopefully I'm on the right track so that's where I'm at at the minute now I just have to write it up I've got 4,000 words to write up and hopefully it's going to go okay hopefully it's going to go smoothly hopefully I can do this because I'm giving myself a timeline by the end of August before I start my management placement I want this done I want it out the way done ready to submit our submission date isn't until October I think the end of October but I want that good time frame so that if there's any last niggling things that I need to add or edit or change I want that time to do it and I'll be happy so fingers crossed pray for me guys the next thing I've been doing which actually was the easiest and quickest of them all was my poster presentation so I wrote my transcript from a poster presentation in it was a day I literally just sat and I wrote it and I was like it's done how did that happen it was literally not even a day I don't think it even does probably took half a day and I'm really worried now that I've really gone wrong because that was too easy so I need to go over it finalize it make sure it's okay and then my next step for that is to practice it make sure I know what I'm saying for the day and get my powerpoint presentation together because I haven't done that part yet I've just done the transcript on what I'm going to say but the rest should be easy from now on for that so I'm not too worried about that thank god there's one thing that's just not worrying me and then so post-presentation ACPE's pretty much a really good start now oh maths exam so we had our maths exam last week on the Monday the 29th of July we had our maths exam and I wasn't worried about this maths isn't a worry of mine unfortunately I'm sorry if you do worry and if you do um have any dyslexia calcut dyslexia is that what it's called calcut dyslexia around maths and you really struggle with maths I'm really sorry just make sure you practice there's a load of free websites to look on the RCN I've got maths drug calculations you can go on bbc byte size bbc byte size and what's the other one I'm sure there's another one I'll put the links below anyway for you to have a look at if you really struggle with maths and you can have a look and practice but bbc byte size is more sort of gcse level and it's more fractions division and all that there's no drug calculations on there so if you just want decimals fractions division multiplication all of that go to that and weight conversions I think some there as well measurements have a look at that but yeah my maths exam we sat down and I did feel really nervous even though I knew I was going to smash it I felt really nervous for some reason so I sat down I was like okay really nervous now it's always that exam conditions isn't it so it makes you more nervous and sat down and I was like right let's go and then I literally did all my exam in six minutes I looked at the clock and I was like six minutes okay I'm gonna have to check my answers so I went through I checked all of my answers I did all of the equations again to make sure that my answer was correct and then just on my final check I went and made sure made sure that all of the measurements was in so we get a question wrong even though if we put the answer right the number like let's just say 65 millilitres so if we put 65 but we don't physically write millilitres after it we get that question wrong even if the 65 part is right so I checked it three or four times and I'm happy I'm I'm gonna I'm gonna say 99% confident I'm not gonna go 100% but I'm 99% confident that I have got 10 out of 10 for that but we'll see I'll let you know when the results come in but I'm leaving that little one percent because I just you never know like what I think's right might not be right I might have got it completely wrong but in my head I've got every single one of those questions right I've got 10 out of 10 I hope I need nine out of 10 to pass so I'm hoping I've got them all right but I'm I'm sure I felt really confident when I was doing it I felt really confident checking my answers two or three times that I've done everything right and it's gonna be okay fingers crossed so that is what I've been up to so far dissertation poster mass exam so my next steps are the next couple of weeks I've picked up more shifts like I said I'm off until September so I've got shifts coming in I'm going to finish my dissertation I'm going to finalize my poster presentation ready for that in September I can't remember the date of our post presentation I think it's the 16th of September 16th or 18th that week somewhere in between I've opted to go first because I said I just want it over and done with so mine's literally the first post presentation of the day because we've got to pick our own times and things like that so I did that I said I need to go first I want to over with because if I'm sat there listening to other people and I'm thinking oh my god oh my god there's this amazing mine is rubbish rubbish mine is rubbish but then I suppose on the flip side I'm going to do my poster presentation and then I'm going to sit down and then I'm going to go oh my god they're all amazing and I've just given this rubbish so either way probably gonna dump myself on the day but I think I'll do enough to pass this is the main thing I just want to pass I am not aiming for my first anymore I was so you know I just really wanted that first throughout the first half of this degree I was aiming for a first I was like yes I'm gonna get first and I was so focused on that so I've let it go and I'm happy that I'm going to get a 2-1 grade and that's okay doesn't make me less of an doesn't make me a better nurse of a god of first um either way I know I'm not going to get first now there's no way to get to you one's amazing so anyone that gets less than a first you're amazing don't worry about it don't stress you're going to be an amazing nurse it doesn't matter as long as you practice safely and you're confident on what you're doing and confident that's all that matters patient safety at the end of the day a grade doesn't make that so don't worry but I know everyone has their own personal goals and it is it's going to be amazing getting a first if you are that person getting a first I'll be chuffed if I got a first I know I'm not going to get a first and I'm okay with that so that's it from me guys thank you so much for tuning in as always I will post another vlog this week I'm going to post another one Wednesday I think if you've got the notifications you'll get a notification when I post a video that video is just going to be my sponsored video which I do I do a sponsored video every month for nurses.co.uk which is amazing so this one is going to be based around what I wish I knew before I started nursing and if there's any actually if there's anyone out there there's a student nurse now and you want to answer this please comment below what do you wish that you knew before you started this degree what would you tell yourself before starting this degree let me know and I'm going to include it in the video and yeah hopefully we'll get some really good things because it's nice to have different opinions I think rather than just my opinion because my opinion is completely different I think to a lot of people's because I'm so motivated and happy and I just love life some people say I'm not human which is fine that's fine but I am just a genuinely happy motivated person I will get down and and stress sometimes but I recover like that really really quickly it'll be really really nice to get different people's opinions so if you've got anything please inbox me please comment below however you want to do it just message me tell me so again that's it from me let me know how you're doing in your course let me know how you're getting on what stage you're at what you've got coming up do you need any help with anything let me know comment below let's help each other out guys and I hope your course if you started your journey already I hope your course is going amazing I hope you're smashing it I know there's loads of you out there smashing it because I've been following you on Instagram and it's been amazing to see and I know there's people that have just got all of the access course certificates as well which I've been seeing on Instagram which is amazing and have been congratulating you it's been fantastic it's been so nice to see I love seeing people do well and I'm just so proud even though I haven't met any of you I just I feel really proud for other people it's amazing and we should be rooting for each other because it's teamwork and yeah so yeah so comment below how are you getting on are you struggling with anything are you doing really well with anything let me know let's celebrate let's help each other out and I'm going on for way too long so I'm going to go now and I shall see you all as well see you all probably Wednesday for the next vlog if not I'll see you sunday