 So I just got out of therapy like I mentioned in my first video my therapy sessions are usually on Thursdays at 6 p.m So when I get out of therapy is usually dark outside. It's just the last video I had to reschedule so it was actually on Saturday early in the day Excuse the light in but it's just night time and I rather record these I rather record these videos right after my therapy session so I can just say everything when it's fresh on my head and Not end up going home. I'm getting distracted with the chair and all that this one is gonna be really short I just want to share one thing that I brought up in therapy today I was telling my therapist that I am trying not to fall back into bad habits You know and she was like why like what bad habit are you referring to and I'm saying this without giving too much context Because I ain't trying to put people business out in the streets Okay, but um, which is actually my business, but other people are involved So I'm not gonna say too much, but I was saying that I have this Habit where like I would give something my all like I would exhaust every option. I Would try and try and try and I'll just give it my 150% 200% but when I'm done I'm done completely done and I was just telling her that like I Remember like I could just close my eyes and I remember the day I woke up and I was completely done With my last relationship like done in the sense of I didn't even want to be there anymore Because I had done mentally leave, but I was done in the essence of like I don't even want to try anymore I don't want to even stay for the children anymore. Like I was just done I remember I woke up one day and I like I didn't even want to be in his presence I didn't want to see his face. I didn't want him to touch me I just I was just done and that's because like I had done exhaust everything I tried and I tried and I tried and I finally came to the point where like I just knew nothing would change things are getting worse and at this point like I just need a way out but given the situation even in that moment of Knowing and acknowledging and feeling that I was completely done. I felt so stuck I felt so alone because I was like here. I am completely done ready to leave and I have nowhere to go I was just telling her that I don't want to feel that again I took that as a negative feeling but she Pointed out to me that listen, that's why you're here because you had that feeling. That's a good thing That's not a bad habit. You was able to find your way out of that you was you saved yourself Like you did what you had to do to leave. Don't be scared of ever having that feeling Getting that feeling is you realizing that this no longer serves you. It's time to close this chapter It's time to move on. That's a good thing And I was like, you know, she's so right. That is very true. If I never had that feeling I wouldn't be here right now in that moment I realized that maybe with this current situation that I'm navigating is not that I'm scared of that feeling is not that I'm scared of Experiencing that feeling again. Maybe I'm just maybe I just don't want to feel like that with this situation But if it do come this is what she said. She said if if it does get to that point where you feel like you're done Again, that's not a bad thing. It just means that you came to the realization that this doesn't serve you Right now and it might not even mean like it doesn't serve you ever ever again in life But maybe it just doesn't serve you right now and I don't feel like that right now about this situation I don't I'm not there, but I was just telling her that I didn't want to get to that point After today, I realized that if I do get to that point I'm going to embrace it because it just means like she said that it doesn't serve me right now and Every night I pray that everything that no longer serve me can be revealed to me So that I could release it if this happens to be one of those things and I will just have to release it and Sometimes it's a painful experience Healing is painful if you don't feel everything you're feeling while you're healing then you're not truly healing It's been a long journey But I must admit that every time I have a therapy session and I come out with clarity It takes me three four five steps further in my healing journey Which is why I even decided to start this because therapy has been helping me so much That I really just want to encourage everybody to go to therapy Everybody man woman and child my son is in therapy my four-year-old Of course is not designed in the way that my therapy is because he's very young But he's in therapy and he's gonna grow up knowing that therapy is not something to be ashamed of or To be scared to go to because we all need it in some way shape or form I'm grateful for that clarity that I received today and going forward what I want to do instead of thinking about how something may end or how I want it to end or How I wanted to continue or not end whatever the case may be I'm just going to Every time I feel my mind Wondering off in that direction I'm just gonna reel it back in and focus on me because I do a lot during the day Like if I even tell y'all half the amount of stuff I did today and yesterday y'all would probably be like what? But I also make time for the people that I care about I expect that to be reciprocated Instead of focusing on all of that. I'm gonna focus on me and just focus on what I know I want to manifest my life to be and Continue working on that and I'm just gonna let everything else fall into place where they need to fall and Go from there and I'm just gonna embrace it. I'm gonna embrace it. I'm going to Even if it feels uncomfortable in the moment, even if it feels painful in the moment I'm gonna embrace it. I'm gonna allow me I'm gonna allow myself to feel all those emotions and then I'm gonna release it because if it's one thing My journey has taught me so far is that everything happens for a reason and I know that sounds so cliche But it does it literally does so That's it for this therapy Thursday. I know I didn't give too much context This time, but some days I'm gonna share a lot and some days. I'm not it's just depending on what I discuss and The level of it just depends on what I discuss You know, I'll decide how much I can share without putting other people business out because I share a lot, but there is really like There's a lot y'all know and there's a lot that you all me never know But I just go based on how I feel in the moment if I feel like oversharing in the moment I will but if I don't I'm gonna keep that personal and today what I discuss I'm gonna keep personal, but I did share pretty much my takeaway from this session and It was good. Anyways, that's it for this therapy Thursday If you are not in therapy, but have been thinking about going to therapy Let this be your sign to start Okay, to all my melanated women protect your womb by any means necessary and to everybody watching protect your peace By any means necessary. I wish you all love light and prosperity And you will see me in my next video You