 Bed is way higher. You don't even understand how high it is. I can't reach the floor from it, so... Don't let me drive! Hey what's up you guys, welcome back to my channel. If you're new here, hi, hello, my name's Lydia and I am a mental health video hearer on YouTube pretty much every single day. And today I'm going to be talking about the different kinds of antidepressants and my experience of antidepressant. I'm not professional nor am I qualified to give advice. I'm simply someone with lived experience and he was currently going through mental health issues herself. I'm not trained into Wikipedia. I'm not trained to be professional. I have no intention of becoming a professional. This is my unprofessional opinion slash what I've been through in my life. Don't take this as professional advice and if you are, drop a link please. Go speak to your regular doctor or mental health team as they are qualified. But before I get into that, I want to put a little disclaimer here. Just because medication hasn't worked for me doesn't mean that I want it for you. This doesn't mean you should go for medication instead of therapy. You have your own life. I simply share my experience. Antidepressants, there's a wide variety of them. And I've been on a few. I have not every single one, but I've been on all the ones that I can pay. And I'm on like the last, I'm on a combination at the moment of them. And I want to say that just because all the others haven't worked for me doesn't mean they won't work for you. It just means that you have no hope. And I don't want you in any way to perform to compare yourself to me just because I'm on this antidepressant. You're on that one. It means nothing. Like I said, medications work differently for different people. The first antidepressant I went on was fluoroxidine. This is often the first antidepressant any people can go on. Mainly because it is only technically, it's technically the only licensed antidepressant for under 18. With the UK guidelines, some antidepressants aren't licensed to treatment in younger people unless they're under supervision. So for example, in patients, fluoroxidine for me wasn't good. When I started it, it made me really shaky, jumpy. I couldn't go out. I couldn't do anything because I was shaking. I remember speaking to one of my teachers about it and I was just shaking and she was like, Oh, stop doing that. I can't help it. Like this is beyond my control. And the staff were very not understanding. I ended up having two weeks out and then cams told me to stop taking it because of how badly I was reacting to it. Another thing to put out there is I was taking the liquid form on the lowest of the low dose because I was under 18. Then stop taking antidepressants for a while because I was afraid to go on them after the reaction I'd already had. I'm not going to make my mental health story here. That's, that is in another video. So the next antidepressant I tried was the ptallopram. Ptallopram was an interesting one. So the lowest dose of 10 milligrams didn't work for me. So it got increased to 20. And when I was on 20 milligrams, when I was taking ptallopram, like it induced my neck. It induced me into a very, very manic state. I just received an inheritance money from my great-grandad. And honestly, I spent about £6,000 in a week. And I honestly can't remember what I got. I hate saying that. I just spent so much money. And I literally can't remember what I spent it on. And that was because I was just, I didn't care. I wasn't thinking. I was like, oh, I want this. I want to get it. I, I'd crush streets and not look for cars. I was just, I just wanted to do stuff all the time. I was busy. I was going at that thing. I was, I was, I was depressed. But I was also, and I took this for about six months. My GP stopped it. And we had the two week period. And then we switched on to Searcherlean. Searcherlean and me. Ooh, I reacted very badly. Again, it was one of the ones I only lastly done for a short period of time before the reaction got too bad. It made me very suicidal. And that is a common side effect of most anti-depressants. It was the first anti-depressant that I actually took an overdose on. It wasn't, it didn't work for me. Again, it got stopped after I suicided down. So the next medication that I tried to the best medical collection was Amitriplein. Now, Amitriplein isn't used very often to treat depression. It's mainly used as pain relief, but there is an anti-depressant. It's a tricycle anti-depressant, which is one of the oldest forms of anti-depressant. So I went on to Amitriplein at 50 milligrams. I had a very severe early reaction to it. And this is where it got to get serious. And it was serious. Like, I had one dose of this medication. No more than one. With a one tablet. And I ended up in resource. I don't know what ingredient it was to it. And I can't remember. They did say, I just basically tricycle anti-depressants. Me or a no-no. So the way they were, my body just didn't react well to it. So now we move on to what I'm currently taking. Oh no, sorry. No, no, no, no. We missed one. Metazepine. Right, metazepine. I went on, I was on that for eight months, I want to say. I was on it for a very long period of time because to begin with, it worked. I was put on it to help my depression also to help me sleep. And it really helped because it did. And I eventually went up to the full dose doc for me, which was 45 milligrams. It just didn't do anything. That's what got me to where I am now, which is I take two anti-depressants. I take tracidone and venous vaccine extended release. So tracidone was added after the venous vaccine. So let's start on the venous vaccine. When it comes to venous vaccine, it's an old medication. I take the extended release version. I'm on 75 milligrams in the morning and 75 at night. This medication works well for me. It does, and it does increase my mood. What you have to remember with anti-depressants is there are different kinds. There were SSRIs and MSRIs and the dopamine ones. I think that's right. I know the venous vaccine focuses more on dopamine. So that works quite well. I was then starting tracidone because I can't go upon a higher dose on venous vaccine now because my body just reacts really badly when it goes above like the dose on one now. I just, I can't, I've tried. So they added tracidone just to have a little more boost to try and help increase my mood a little bit. And I've got to say what I want at the moment and when it comes to feeling depressed, yes, I still have my bad days. Anti-depressants aren't secure. And I know people like, oh, you're anti-therapy and I'm not. I'm not doing therapy at the moment. I really want to. Medication works well for me at the moment and I'm pretty stable at the moment, which is what I want. My overall experience of anti-depressants has been this. But even with any medication, it's a matter of trial and error. Like what worked for some people won't work for other people. It's a game of hit and miss. My nan took your oxygen and it worked well for her. My granddad takes metasapine and that worked well for him. I have friends who take venous vaccine networks and I have friends who take surgery and it works. Like medication works differently for different people and I think that's what I want to put as the overall message. For me, it really has been a game of hit and miss quite massively when it comes to the amateurthly and the whole resource thing. It's just like, you know, one tablet. Not even like the full air, but one tablet and it did that. I just want to say that medication isn't the only option for mental health. There is therapy, there is self-care and there's medication. For me, medication works well for other people. Therapy works well. It is just trial and error for people. Personally, I find medication very helpful and that's why I talk about it a lot because in my recovery has helped me enormously. That's not me saying don't try therapy by all means, try it. And I really do hope it works for you because, you know, taking medication every day, it's horrible but sometimes you have to do things that you don't want to do. And with that, I am ending this video here. Thank you for watching. Thank you for supporting me and if you are new here, make sure you hit the subscribe button. If you have any questions or video ideas, please leave them in the comments down below along with any advice. If you have any advice for future videos or you want advice, let me know in the comments down below and I will see you guys tomorrow with a new video. I can't hit it because, like, you're really far away. I just have to zoom in. Oh, no, I felt it was my foot.