 Part 2, Sections 1 and 2 of the Song of the Lark. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Shih Ping Ling. The Song of the Lark by Willard Cybert Cather. Part 2, Sections 1 and 2. Thea and Dr. Archie had been gone from Moonstone for days. On the afternoon of the 19th of October, they were in a streetcar riding through the depressing unkept waste of North Chicago on their way to call upon the Reverend Lars Larsen, a friend to whom Mr. Kronberg had written. Thea was still staying at the rooms of the Young Women's Christian Association and was miserable and homesick there. The housekeeper watched her in a way that made her uncomfortable. Things had not gone very well so far. The noise and confusion of a big city tires and disheartened her. She had not had her trunk sent to the Christian Association rooms because she did not want to double cottage charges, and now she was running up a bill for storage on it. The contents of a great telescope were becoming untidy, and it seems impossible to keep one's face and hands clean in Chicago. She felt as if she was still on the train, traveling without enough clothes to keep clean. She wanted another nightgown, and it did not occur to her that she could buy one. There were other clothes in her trunk that she needed very much, and she seemed no nearer a place to stay than when she arrived in the rain on that first disillusioning morning. Dr. Archie had gone at once to his friend Hartley Evans, the throat specialist, and had asked him to tell him of a good piano teacher and direct him to a good boarding house. Dr. Evans said he could easily tell him who was the best piano teacher in Chicago by that most students' boarding houses were abominable places where girls got poor food for body and mind. He gave Dr. Archie several addresses, however, and the doctor went to look the places over. He left Thea in her room, for she seemed tired and was not at all like herself. His inspection of boarding houses was not encouraging. The only place they seemed to him at all desirable was full, and the mistress of the house could not give Thea a room in which she could have a piano. She said Thea might use the piano in her parlor, but when Dr. Archie went to look at the parlor, he found a girl talking to a young man on one of the corner sofas, learning that the boarders received all their callers there. He gave up that house, too, as hopeless. So when they set out to make the acquaintance of Mr. Lawson on the afternoon he had appointed, the question of a lodging was still undecided. The Swedish Reformed Church was in a slewy, weedy district near a group of factories. The church itself was a very neat little building. The parsonage next door looked clean and comfortable, and there was a well-kept yard bounded with a picket fence. Thea saw several little children playing under a swing, and wondered why ministers always had so many. When they rang at the parsonage door, a capable-looking Swedish servant girl answered the bell and told them that Mr. Lawson's study was in the church and that he was waiting for them there. Mr. Lawson received them very cordially. The furniture in his study was so new and the pictures were so heavily framed that Thea thought it looked more like the waiting-room of the fashionable Denver dentist to whom Dr. Archie had taken her that summer than like a preacher's study. There were even flowers in the glass vase on the desk. Mr. Lawson was a small, plump man with a short, yellow beard, very white teeth, and a little turned-up nose on which he wore gold-rimmed eyeglasses. He looked about thirty-five, but he was growing bold, and his thin hair was parted above his left ear and brought up over the bare spot on the top of his head. He looked cheerful and agreeable. He wore a blue coat and no cuffs. After Dr. Archie and Thea sat down on a slippery leather couch, the minister asked for an outline of Thea's plans. Dr. Archie explained that she meant to study piano with Andor Hasani, that they had already seen him, that Thea had played for him, and he said he would be glad to teach her. Mr. Lawson lifted his pale eyebrows and rubbed his plump white hands together. But he is a concert pianist already. He will be very expensive. That's why Ms. Kronborg wants to get a church position if possible. She has not money enough to see her through the winter. There's no use her coming all the way from Colorado and study with a second-rate teacher. My friends here tell me Hasani is the best. Oh, very likely. I have heard him play with Thomas. Every Western people do things on a big scale. There are half a dozen teachers that I should think, however, you know what you want. Mr. Lawson showed his contempt for such extravagant standards by a shrug. He felt that Dr. Archie was trying to impress him. He had succeeded indeed in bringing out the doctor's steve's manner. Mr. Lawson went on to explain that he managed the music in his church himself and drilled his choir, though the tenor was the official choir master. Unfortunately, there were no vacancies in his choir just now. He had his four voices, very good ones. He looked away from Dr. Archie and glanced at Thea. She looked troubled, even a little frightened when he said this, and drew in her lower lip. She certainly was not pretentious if her protector was. He continued to study her. She was sitting on the lounge, her knees far apart, her gloved hands lying stiffly in her lap like a country girl. Her turban, which seemed a little too big for her, had got tilted in the wind. It was always windy in that part of Chicago, and she looked tired. She wore no veil, and her hair, too, was the worst for the wind and dust. When he said he had all the voices he required, he noticed that her gloved hands shut tightly. Mr. Lawson reflected that she was not, after all, responsible for the lofty manner of her father's physician, that she was not even responsible for her father, whom he remembered as a tiresome fellow. As he watched her tired, worried face, he felt sorry for her. All the same, I would like to try your voice, he said, turning pointedly away from her companion. I'm interested in voices. Can you sing to the violin? I guess so, Thea replied dolly. I don't know, I never tried. Mr. Lawson took his violin out of the case and began to tighten the keys. We might go into the lecture room and see how it goes. I can't tell much about a voice by the organ. The violin is really the proper instrument to try a voice. He opened the door at the back of his study, pushed Thea gently through it, and looking over his shoulder to Dr. Archie said, excuse us sir, we'll be back soon. Dr. Archie chuckled. All preachers were alike, officious and on their dignity, like to deal with women and girls, but not with men. He took up a thin volume from the minister's desk. To his amusement he proved to be a book of devotional and kindred poems by Mrs. Aurelia S. Lawson. He looked them over, thinking that the world changed very little. He could remember when the wife of his father's minister had published a volume of verses which all the church members had to buy and all the children were encouraged to read. His grandfather had made a face at the book and said, pure body. Both ladies seemed to have chosen the same subjects too. J. Fath's daughter, Rispah, Davis, LeMann for Epsilon, et cetera. The doctor found the book very amusing. The reverend Lars Lawson was a reactionary sweet. His father came to Iowa in the sixties, married a Swedish girl who was ambitious like himself and they moved to Kansas and took up land under the Homestead Act. After that they bought land and leased it from the government, acquired land in every possible way. They worked like horses, both of them. Indeed they would never have used any horse flash they owned as they used themselves. They reared a large family and worked their sons and daughters as mercilessly as they worked themselves, all of them but Lars. Lars was the fourth son and he was born lazy. He seemed to bear the mark of over-strained on the part of his parents. Even in his cradle he was an example of physical inertia, anything to lie still. When he was a growing boy his mother had to drag him out of bed every morning and he had to be driven to his chores. At school he had a model attendance record because he found getting his lessons easier than farm work. He was the only one of the family who went through the high school and by the time he graduated he had already made up his mind to study for the ministry because it seemed to him the least laborious of all callings. In so far as he could see it was the only business in which there was practically no competition in which a man was not all the time pitted against another man who were willing to work themselves to death. His father stubbornly opposed Lars' plan. But after keeping the boy at home for a year and finding how useless he was on the farm he sent him to a theological seminary as much to conceal his laziness from the neighbors as because he did not know what else to do with him. Larsen, like Peter Kronborg, got on well in the ministry because he got on well with the women. His English was no worse than that of most young preachers of American parentage and he made the most of his skill with the violin. He was supposed to exert a very desirable inference over young people and to stimulate their interest in church work. He married an American girl and when his father died he got his share of the property which was very considerable. He invested his money carefully and was that rare thing a preacher of independent means. His white well-capped hands were his result, the evidence that he had worked out his life successfully in the way that pleased him. His cancerous brothers hated the sight of his hands. Larsen liked all the softer things of life insofar as he knew about them. He slept late in the morning, was fuzzy about his food and read a great many novels preferring sentimental ones. He did not smoke but he ate a great deal of candy for his throat and always kept a box of chocolate drops in the upper right-hand drawer of his desk. He always bought season tickets for the symphony concerts and he played his violin for women's culture clubs. He did not wear a cuffs except on Sunday because he believed that a free wrist facilitated his violin practice. When he drilled his choir he always held his hand with the little and index fingers curved higher than the other two like a noted German conductor he had seen. On the whole the Reverend Larsen was not an insincere man. He merely spent his life resting and playing to make up for the time his forebears had wasted grubbing in the earth. He was simple-hearted and kind. He enjoyed his candy and his children and his sacred cantatas. He could work energetically at almost any form of play. Dr. Archie was deep in the lament of Mary Magdalene when Mr. Larsen and Thea came back to the study. From the minister's expression he judged that Thea had succeeded in interesting him. Mr. Larsen seemed to have gotten his hostility toward him and addressed him frankly as soon as he entered. He stood holding his violin and as Thea sat down he pointed to her with his bow. I have just been telling Miss Cromborg that though I cannot promise her anything permanent I might give her something for the next few months. My soprano is a young married woman and is temporarily indisposed. She would be glad to be excused from her duties for a while. I like Miss Cromborg's singing very much and I think she would benefit by the instruction in my choir. Singing here might very well lead to something else. We pay our soprano only $8 a Sunday but she always gets $10 for singing at funerals. Miss Cromborg has a sympathetic voice and I think there will be a good deal of demand for her at funerals. Several American churches applied to me for a solo list on such occasions and I could help her to pick up quite a little money that way. This sounded lugubrious to Dr. Archie who had a physician's dislike of funerals but he tried to accept the suggestions cordially. Miss Cromborg tells me she is having some trouble getting located. Mr. Larsen went on with animation, still holding his violin. I would advise her to keep away from boarding houses altogether. Among my parishioners there are two German women, a mother and daughter. The daughter is a sweet by marriage and cleansed to the Swedish church. They live near here and they rent some of their rooms. They have now a large room vacant and have asked me to recommend someone. They have never taken borders but Mrs. Locke, the mother, is a good cook, at least I'm always glad to take supper with her and I think I could persuade her to let this young woman partake of the family table. The daughter, Mrs. Anderson, is musical too and sings in the Mozart Society. I think they might like to have a music student in the house. You speak German, I suppose, he turned to Thea. Oh no, a few words. I don't know the grammar, she murmured. Dr. Archie noticed that her eyes looked alive again, not frozen as they had looked all morning. If this fellow can help her, it's not for me to be standoffish, he said to himself. Do you think you would like to stay in such a quiet place with old-fashioned people, Mr. Larsen asked? I shouldn't think you could find a better place to work if that's what you want. I think mother would like to have me with people like that, Thea replied, and I'll be glad to settle down most anywhere. I'm losing time. Very well, there's no time like the present. Let us go to see Mrs. Locke and Mrs. Anderson. The minister put his violin in his case and caught up a black and white-checked traveling cap that he wore when he rode his high Columbia wheel. The three left the church together. Section 2 So Thea did not go to a boarding house after all. When Dr. Archie left Chicago, she was comfortably settled with Mrs. Locke and her happy reunion with her trunk somewhat consoled her for his departure. Mrs. Locke and her daughter lived half a mile from the Swedish Reformed Church in an old square-frame house with a porch supported by frail pillows set in the damp yard full of big lilac bushes. The house, which had been left over from country times, needed paint badly and looked gloomy and despondent among its smart queen and neighbors. There was a big backyard with two rows of apple trees and a grape arbor, and a warped walk two planks wide which led to the coal bins at the back of the lot. Thea's room was on the second floor, overlooking this backyard, and she understood that in the winter she must carry up her own coal and kindling from the bin. There was no furnace in the house, no running water except in the kitchen, and that was why the room rent was small. All the rooms were heated by stoves, and the lodgers pumped the water they needed from the cistern under the porch or from the well at the entrance of the grape arbor. Oh Mrs. Locke could never bring herself to have costly improvements made in her house. Indeed she had very little money. She preferred to keep the house just as her husband built it, and she thought her weight of living good enough for plain people. This room was large enough to emit a rented upright piano without crowding. It was, the widow's daughter said, a double room that had always before been occupied by two gentlemen. The piano now took the place of a second occupant. There was an ingrained carpet on the floor, green ivy leaves on a red ground, and clumsy old fashioned walnut furniture. The bed was very wide, and the mattresss thin and hard. Over the fat pillows were shams embroidered in turkey red, each with a flowering scroll, one with gut nacht, the other with gut mogen. The dresser was so big that Thea wondered how it had ever been got into the house and up the narrow stairs. As an old horsehair armchair there were two low plush spring rockers against the massive pedestals of which one was always stumbling in the dark. Thea said in the dark a good deal those first weeks, and sometimes a painful bump against one of those brutally immovable pedestals roused her temper and pulled her out of a heavy hour. The wallpaper was brownish-yellow with blue flowers. When it was put on the carpet certainly had not been consulted. There was only one picture on the wall when Thea moved in, a large colored print of a brightly lighted church in a snowstorm on Christmas Eve, with greens hanging about the stone doorway and arch windows. There was something warm and home-like about this picture, and Thea grew fond of it. One day on her way into town to take her lesson, she stopped at a bookstore and bought a photograph of the Naples bust of Julius Caesar, this she had framed and hung it on the big bear wall behind her stove. It was a curious choice, but she was at the age when people do inexplicable things. She had been interested in Caesar's commentaries when she left school to begin teaching, and she loved to read about great generals. But these facts would scarcely explain her wanting that green bald head to share her daily existence. It seemed a strange freak when she bought so few things, and when she had, as Mrs. Anderson said to Mrs. Locke, no pictures of the composers at all. Both the widows were kind to her, but Thea liked the mother better. Oh, Mrs. Locke was fat and jolly, with a red face, always shining as if she had just come from the stove, bright little eyes and hair of several colors. Her own hair was one cast of iron gray, her switch another, and her false front still another. The clothes always smelled of savory cooking, except when she was dressed for church or cafe clutch, and then she smelled of bay rum or of the lemon verbena sprig which she tucked inside her puffy black-kicked gloves. Her cooking justified all that Mr. Lawson had said of it, and Thea had never been so well-nourished before. The daughter, Mrs. Anderson, Irene, her mother called her, was a different sort of woman altogether. She was perhaps forty years old, angular, big-boned, with large thin features, light blue eyes and dry yellow hair, the bang tightly frizzed. She was pale, anemic, and sentimental. She had married the youngest son of a rich, arrogant Swedish family who were lumber merchants in St. Paul. There she dwelt during her married life. Asuka Anderson was a strong, full-blooded fellow who had counted on a long life and had been rather careless about his business affairs. He was killed by the explosion of a steam boiler in the mills, and his brothers managed to prove that he had very little stock in the big business. They had strongly disproved of his marriage, and they agreed among themselves that they were entirely justified in defrauding his widow, who, they said, would only marry again and give some fellow a good thing of it. Mrs. Anderson would not go to law with a family that had always snubbed and wounded her. She felt the humiliation of being thrust out more than she felt her impoverishment. So she went back to Chicago to live with her widowed mother on an income of 500 a year. This experience had given her sentimental nature and incurable hurt, something withered away in her. Her head had a downward droop. Her step was soft and apologetic, even in her mother's house, and her smile had a sickly, uncertain flicker that so often comes from a secret humiliation. She was efferable and yet shrinking, like one who has come down in the world, who has known better clothes, better carpets, better people, brighter hopes. Her husband was buried in the Anderson lot in St. Paul with a locked iron fence around it. She had to go to his eldest brother for the key when she went to say goodbye to his grave. She clung to the Swedish church because it had been her husband's church. As her mother had no room for her household belongings, Mrs. Anderson had brought home with her only her bedroom set, which now furnished her own room and Mrs. Locked. There she spent most of her time doing fancy work or writing letters to sympathizing German friends in St. Paul, surrounded by keepsakes and photographs of the burly Oscar Anderson. Thea, when she was admitted to this room and shown these photographs, found herself wondering, like the Anderson family, why such a lusty, gay-looking fellow ever thought he wanted this pallid, long-cheeked woman whose manner was always that of withdrawing and who must have been rather thin-blooded even as a girl. Mrs. Anderson was certainly a depressing person. They sometimes annoyed Thea very much to hear her insinulating knock on the door, her flurried explanation of why she had come as she back toward the stairs. Mrs. Anderson admired Thea greatly. She thought it a distinction to be even a temporary soprano. Thea called herself so quite seriously in the Swedish church. She also thought it distinguished to be a pupil of Hassanis. She considered Thea very handsome, very Swedish, very talented. She fluttered about the upper floor when Thea was practicing. In short, she tried to make a heroine of her, just as Tilly Kronborg had always done, and Thea was conscious of something of the sort. When she was working and heard Mrs. Anderson tiptoeing past her door, she used to shrug her shoulders and wonder whether she was always to have a Tilly diving furtively about her in some disguise or other. At the dressmakers, Mrs. Anderson recalled Tilly even more painfully. After her first Sunday in Mr. Larson's choir, Thea thought that she must have a proper dress for morning service. Her moonstone party dress might do to wear in the evening, but she must have one frock that could stand the light of day. She of course knew nothing about Chicago dressmakers, so she let Mrs. Anderson take her to a German woman whom she recommended warmly. The German dressmaker was excitable and dramatic. Concert dresses, she said, were her specialty. In her fitting room, there were photographs of singers in the dresses she had made them for this or that Zangefest. She and Mrs. Anderson together achieved a costume which would have warmed Tilly Kronborg's heart. It was clearly intended for a woman of forty with violent tastes. There seemed to be a piece of every known fabric in it somewhere. When it came home and was spread out on her huge bed, Thea looked it over and told herself candidly that it was a horror. However, her money was gone, and there was nothing to do but make the best of the dress. She never wore it except, as she said, to Sinyin, as if it were an unbecoming uniform. When Mrs. Locke and Irene told her that she looked like a little bird of paradise in it, Thea shut her teeth and repeated to herself words she had learned from Joe Giddy and Spanish Johnny. In these two good women, Thea found faithful friends, and in their house, she found the quiet and peace which helped her to support the great experiences of that winter. End of Part 2, Sections 1 and 2, Recording by Shierping Ling. Part 2, Section 3 of the Song of the Lark. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Shierping Ling. The Song of the Lark by Willa Cyber Cather. Part 2, Section 3. Andor Hassani had never had a pupil in the least like Thea Kromborg. He had never had one more intelligent, and he had never had one so ignorant. When Thea sat down to take her first lesson from him, she had never heard a work by Beethoven or a composition by Chopin. She knew their names vaguely. Wunch had been a musician once, long before he wandered into Moonstone, but when Thea awoke his interest, there was not much left of him. From him, Thea had learned something about the works of Gluck and Bach. And he used to play her some of the compositions of Schumann. In his trunk he had a mutilated score of the F-sharp minor sonata which he had heard Clara Schumann play at a festival in Leipzig. Though his powers of execution were at such a low app, he used to play at this sonata for his pupil and managed to give her some idea of his beauty. When Wunch was a young man, it was still daring to like Schumann. Enthusiasm for his work was considered an expression of youthful weight-wardness. Perhaps that was why Wunch remembered him best. Thea studied some of the Kindersachen with him, as well as some little sonatas by Mozart and Clementi. But for the most part, Wunch stuck to Zerny and Humel. Arsani found in Thea a pupil with sure strong hands, one who read rapidly and intelligently, who had, he felt, a richly gifted nature. But she had been given no direction, and her ardor was unawakened. She had never heard a symphony orchestra. The literature of the piano was an undiscovered world to her. He wondered how she had been able to work so hard when she knew so little of what she was working toward. She had been taught according to the old Stuttgart method, stiff back, stiff elbows, a very formal position of the hands. The best thing about her preparation was that she had developed an unusual power of work. He noticed at once her weight of charging at difficulties. She ran to meet them as if they were foes she had long been seeking. Seize them as if they were destined for her and she for them. Whatever she did well, she took for granted. Her eagerness aroused all the young Hungarians shivery. Instinctively, Wunch went to the rescue of a creature who had so much to overcome, and who struggled so hard. He used to tell his wife that Miss Cromborg's hour took more out of him than half a dozen other lessons. He usually kept her long over time. He changed her lessons about so that he could do so, and often gave her time at the end of the day when he could talk to her afterward and play for her a little from what he happened to be studying. It was always interesting to play for her. Sometimes she was so silent that he wondered when she'd left him whether she had got anything out of it. But a week later, two weeks later, she would give back his idea again in a way that set him vibrating. All this was very well for Hassani, an interesting variation in the routine of teaching. But for Thea Cromborg, that winter was almost beyond enduring. She always remembered it as the happiest, the wildest, and saddest of her life. Things came too fast for her. She had not had enough preparation. There were times when she came home from her lesson and lay upon her bed hating Wunch and her family, hating a world that had let her grow up so ignorant. When she wished that she could die then and there and be born over again to begin anew, she said something of this kind once to her teacher in the midst of a bitter struggle. Hassani turned the light of his wonderful eye upon her. Her fellow, he had about one, though that was set in such a handsome head, and said slowly, every artist makes himself born. It is very much harder than the other time, and longer. Your mother did not bring anything into the world to play piano. That you must bring into the world yourself. This comforted Thea temporarily, for it seemed to give her a chance. But a great deal of the time she was comfortless. Her letters to Dr. Archie were brief and business-like. She was not apt to chatter much, even in the stimulating company of people she liked, and to chatter on paper was simply impossible for her. If she tried to write him anything definite about her work, she immediately scratched out as being only partially true, or not true at all. Something that she could say about her studies seemed unqualifiedly true once she put it down on paper. Late one afternoon when she was thoroughly tired and wanted to struggle on into the dusk, Hassani, tired too, threw up his hands and laughed at her. Not today, Ms. Cromborg, that sonata will keep. It won't run away, even if you and I should not waken up tomorrow, it will be there. Thea turned to him fiercely. No, it isn't here unless I have it. Not for me, she cried passionately. Only what I hold in my two hands is there for me. Hassani made no reply. He took a deep breath and sat down again. The second movement now, quietly, with the shoulders relaxed. There were hours too of great exaltation when she was at her best and became a part of what she was doing and ceased to exist in any other sense. There were other times when she was so shattered by ideas that she could do nothing worthwhile, when they trampled over her like an army and she felt as if she were bleeding to death under them. She sometimes came home from a late lesson so exhausted that she could eat no supper. If she tried to eat, she was ill afterward. She used to throw herself upon the bed and lie there in the dark, not thinking, not feeling, but evaporating. That same night perhaps she would waken up, rested and calm, and as she went over her work in her mind, the passages seemed to become something of themselves to take a sort of pattern in the darkness. She had never learned to work away from the piano until she came to Hassani, and it helped her more than anything had ever helped her before. She almost never worked now with the sunny, happy, contentment that had filled the hours when she worked with a bunch, like a fat horse turning a sorghum mill, she said bitterly to herself. Then, by sticking to it, she could always do what she set out to do. Now, everything that she really wanted was impossible. A cantabile, like Hassani's, for instance, instead of her own cloudy tone. No use telling her she might have it in ten years. She wanted now. She wondered how she had ever found other things interesting, books, Anna Karenina, all that seemed so unreal and on the outside of things. She was not born a musician, she decided. There was no other way of explaining it. She got so nervous at the piano that she left it and snatched up her head and cape went out and walked, hurrying through the streets like Christian fleeing from the city of destruction. And while she walked, she cried. There was scarcely a street in the neighborhood that she had not cried up and down before that winter was over. The thing that used to lie under her cheek that sat so warmly over her heart when she glided away from the sand hills that autumn morning was far from her. She had come to Chicago to be with it and it had deserted her, leaving in its place a painful longing and unresigned despair. Hassani knew that his interesting pupil, the savage blonde, one of his male students called her, was sometimes very unhappy. He saw in her discontent a curious definition of character. He would have said that a girl with so much musical feeling, so intelligent, with good training of eye and hand, would, when thus suddenly introduced to the great literature of the piano, have found boundless happiness. But he soon learned that she was not able to forget her own poverty in the richness of the world he opened to her. Often, when he played to her, her face was the picture of restless misery. She would sit crouching forward, her elbows on her knees, her brows drawn together, and her gray-green eyes smaller than ever reduced to mere pinpoints of cold piercing light. Sometimes while she listened, she would swallow hard two or three times and look nervously from left to right, drawing her shoulders together exactly he thought as if she were being watched, or as if she were naked and heard someone coming. On the other hand, when she came several times to see Mrs. Hassani and the two babies, she was like a little girl, jolly and gay and eager to play with the children who loved her. The little daughter, Tanya, liked to touch Miss Crombroke's yellow hair and patted saying, dolly, dolly, because it was of a color much oftener seen on dolls than on people. But if Hassani opened the piano and sat down to play, Miss Crombroke gradually drew away from the children, retreated to a corner, and became sullen or troubled. Mrs. Hassani noticed this also and thought it very strange behavior. Another thing that puzzled Hassani was Thea's apparent lack of curiosity. Several times he offered to give her tickets to Kansas, but she said she was too tired or that it knocked her out to be up late. Hassani did not know that she was singing in a choir and had often to sing at funerals. Neither did he realize how much her work with him stirred her and exhausted her. Because just as she was leaving his studio, he called her back and told her he could give her some tickets that had been sent him for Emma York that evening. Thea fingered the black wool on the edge of her plush cape and replied, Oh thank you, Mr. Hassani, but I have to wash my hair tonight. Mrs. Hassani liked Miss Crombroke thoroughly. She saw in her the making of a pupil who would reflect credit upon Hassani. She felt that the girl could be made to look strikingly handsome and that she had the kind of personality which takes hold of audiences. Moreover, Miss Crombroke was not in the least sentimental about her husband. Sometimes from the show pupils, one had to endure a great deal. I like that girl she used to say when Hassani told her of one of Thea's gosseries. She doesn't sigh every time the wind blows. With her, one swallow doesn't make a summer. Thea told them very little about herself. She was not naturally communicative and she found it hard to feel confidence in new people. She did not know why but she could not talk to Hassani as she could to Dr. Archie or to Johnny and Mrs. Telemonte. With Mr. Lawson, she fell more at home and when she was walking she sometimes stopped at his study to eat candy with him or to hear the plot of the novel he happened to be reading. One evening toward the middle of December, Thea was to dine with Hassanis. She arrived early to have time to play with the children before they went to bed. Hassani took her into her own room and helped her take off her country fascinator and her clumsy plush cape. Thea had bought this cape at a big department store and had paid $16.50 for it, as she had never paid more than $10 for a coat before that seemed to her a large price. It was very heavy and not very warm, ornamented with a showy pattern in black discs and trimmed around the collar and the edges with some kind of black wool that croaked badly in snow or rain. It was lined with a cotton stuff called farmer's statin. Mrs. Hassani was one woman in a thousand. As she lifted this cape from Thea's shoulders and laid it on her white bed, she wished that her husband did not have to charge pupils like this one for their lessons. Thea wore her moonstone party dress, wire or gandy made with a v-neck and elbow sleeves and a blue sash. She looked very pretty in it and around her throat she had a string of pink coral and tiny white shells that Ray once brought her from Los Angeles. Mrs. Hassani noticed that she wore high heavy shoes which needed blacking. The choir in Mr. Lawson's church stood behind a railing so Thea did not pay much attention to her shoes. You have nothing to do to your hair, Mrs. Hassani said kindly as Thea turned to the mirror. However it happens to lie, it's always pretty, I admire it as much as Tanya does. Thea glanced awkwardly away from her and looked stern, but Mrs. Hassani knew that she was pleased. They went into the living room behind the studio where the two children were playing on the big rug before the cold grate. On door, the boy was six, a sturdy handsome child and the little girl was four. She came tripping to meet Thea, looking like a little doll in her white net dress. Her mother made all her clothes, Thea picked her up and held her. Mrs. Hassani excused herself and went to the dining room. She kept only one maid and did a good deal of the housework herself, besides cooking her husband's favorite dishes for him. She was still under 30, a slender graceful woman, gracious, intelligent, and capable. She adapted herself to circumstances with a well-bred ease which solved many of her husband's difficulties, and kept him, as he said, from feeling cheap and down at the hill. No musician ever had a better wife. Unfortunately, her beauty was of a very frail and impressionable kind, and she was beginning to lose it. Her face was too thin now, and there were often dark circles under her eyes. Left along with the children, Thea sat down on Tanya's little chair. She would rather have sat on the floor but was afraid of rumpling her dress and helped them play cards with Andor's iron railway set. She showed him new ways to lay his tracks and how to make switches, set up his Noir's Ark village for stations, and packed the animals in the open coal cars to send them to the stockyards. They worked out their shipment so realistically that when Andor put the two reindeer into the stock car, Tanya snatched them out and began to cry, saying she wasn't going to have all their animals killed. Her son came in, jaded and tired, and asked Thea to go on with her game as she was not equal to talking much before dinner. He sat down and made pretence of glancing at the evening paper, but he soon dropped it. After the railroad began to grow tiresome, Thea went with the children to the lounge in the corner and played for them the game with which she used to amuse the thorn for hours together behind the parlor stove at home, making shadow pictures against the wall with her hands. Her fingers were very supple, and she could make a duck, and a cow, and a sheep, and a fox, and a rabbit, and even an elephant. Arsani, from his low chair, watched them smiling. The boy was on his knees, jumping up and down with the excitement of guessing the beasts, and Tanya sat with her feet tucked under her and clapped her frail little hands. Thea's profile in the lamp light teased his fancy. Where had he seen a head like it before? When dinner was announced, little Andor took Thea's hand and walked to the dining room with her. The children always had dinner with their parents and behaved very nicely at table. Mama said Andor seriously as he climbed into his chair and tucked his napkin into the collar of his blouse. Miss Crumborg's hands are every kind of animal there is. His father laughed, I wish somebody would say that about my hands, Andor. When Thea dined at the Arsani's before. She noticed that there was an intense suspense from the moment they took their places at the table until the master of the house had tasted the soup. He had a theory that if the soup went well, the dinner would go well. But if the soup was poor, all was lost. Tonight he tasted his soup and smiled, and Miss Arsani sat more easily in her chair and turned her attention to Thea. Thea loved their dinner table because it was lighted by candles in silver candlesticks and she had never seen a table so lighted anywhere else. There were always flowers too. Tonight there was a little orange tree with oranges on it that one of Arsani's pupils had sent him at Thanksgiving time. After Arsani had finished his soup in a glass of red Hungarian wine, he lost his fact look and became cordial and witty. He persuaded Thea to drink a little wine tonight. The first time she dined with them, when he urged her to taste a glass of sherry beside her plate, she acknowledged them by telling them that she never drank. Arsani was then a man of thirty-two. He was to have a very brilliant career, but he did not know it then. Dear Duel Thomas was perhaps the only man in Chicago who felt that Arsani might have a great future. Arsani belonged to the softer, slovic type, and was more like a pole than a Hungarian. He was tall, slender, active, with sloping graceful shoulders and long arms. His head was very fine, strongly and delicately modeled, and as Thea put it, so independent. A lock of his thick brown hair usually hung over his forehead. His eye was wonderful, full of light and fire when he was interested, soft and thoughtful when he was tired or melancholy. The meaning and power of two verifying eyes must all have gone into this one, the right one, fortunately, the one next to his audience when he played. He believed that the glass eye which gave one side of his face such a dull, blind look had ruined his career, or rather had made a career impossible for him. Arsani lost his eye when he was twelve years old in a Pennsylvania mining town where explosives happened to be kept too near the frame shanties in which the company packed newly arrived Hungarian families. His father was a musician and a good one, but he had cruelly overworked the boy, keeping him at the piano for six hours a day and making him play in cafes and dance halls for half the night. Andor ran away and crossed the ocean with an uncle who smuggled him through the port as one of his own many children. The explosion in which Andor was hurt killed a squirt of people and he was thought lucky to get off with an eye. He still had a clipping from a Pittsburgh paper giving a list of the dead and injured. He appeared as Arsani Andor left eye and slight injuries about the head. That was his first American notice and he kept it. He held no grudge against the coal company. He understood that the accident was merely one of the things that are bound to happen in a general scramble of American life where everyone comes to grab and takes his chance. While they were eating dessert, Thea asked Arsani if she could change her Tuesday lesson from afternoon to morning. I have to be at a choir rehearsal in the afternoon to get ready for the Christmas music and I expect it will last until late. Arsani put down his fork and looked up. A choir rehearsal? You're singing a church? Yes, a little Swedish church over on the north side. Why did you not tell us? Oh, I'm only a temporary. The regular soprano is not well. How long have you been singing there? Ever since I can. I had to get a position of some kind, Thea explained, flushing and the preacher took me on. He runs the choir himself. He knew my father and I guess he took me on to oblige. Arsani tapped the tablecloth with the ends of his fingers. But why did you never tell us? Why are you so reticent with us? Thea looked shyly at him from under her brows. Well, it's certainly not very interesting. It's only a little church. I only do it for business reasons. What do you mean? Don't you like to sing? Don't you sing well? I like it well enough. But of course, I don't know anything about singing. I guess that's why I never said anything about it. Anybody that's got a voice can sing in a little church like that. Arsani laughed softly, a little scornfully, Thea thought. So you have a voice, have you? Thea hesitated, looked intently at the candles and then at Arsani. Yes, she said firmly. I have got some, anyway. Good girl, said Mrs. Arsani, nodding and smiling at Thea. You must let us hear you sing after dinner. This remark seemingly closed the subject. And when the coffee was brought, they began to talk of other things. Arsani asked Thea how she happened to know so much about the way in which freight trains are operated. And she tried to give him some idea of how the people in little desert towns live by the railway and order their lives by the coming and going of the trains. When they left the dining room, the children were sent to bed and Mrs. Arsani took Thea into the studio. She and her husband usually sat there in the evening. Although their apartment seemed so elegant to Thea, it was small and cramped. The studio was the only spacious room. The Arsani's were poor and it was due to Mrs. Arsani's good management that their lives, even in hard times, moved along with dignity and order. She had long ago found out that bills or debts of any kind frightened her husband and crippled his working power. He said they were like bars on the windows and shut out the future. They meant that just so many hundred dollars worth of his life was debilitated and exhausted before he got to it. So Mrs. Arsani saw to it that they never owed anything. Arsani was not extravagant, though he was sometimes careless about money. Quiet and order and his wife's good taste were the things that meant most to him. After these, good food, good cigars, a little good wine. He wore his clothes until they were shabby, until his wife had to ask Thea to come to the house and measure him for new ones. His neckties she usually made herself and when she was in shops she always kept her eyes open for silks in very dull or pale shades. Greys and olives, warm blacks and browns. When they went into the studio Mrs. Arsani took up her embroidery and Thea sat down beside her on a low stool. Her hands clapped about her knees. While his wife and his pupil talked, Arsani sank into a chaise-là in which he sometimes snatched a few moments' rest between his lessons and smoked. He sat well out of the circle of the lamp-light, his feet to the fire. His feet were slender and well-shaped, always elegantly sharp. Much of the grace of his movements was due to the fact that his feet were almost as sure and flexible as his hands. He listened to the conversation with amusement. He admired his wife's tact and kindness with cruel young people. She taught them so much without seeming to be instructing. When the clock struck nine, Thea said she must be going home. Arsani rose and flung away his cigarette. Not yet. We have just begun the evening. Now you are going to sing for us. I have been waiting for you to recover from dinner. Come. What shall it be? He crossed to the piano. Thea laughed and shook her head, locking her elbow still tighter about her knees. Thank you, Mr. Arsani, but if you really make me sing, I'll accompany myself. You couldn't stand it to play the sort of things I have to sing. Arsani still pointed to the chair at the piano. She left her stooled and went to it while he returned to his chaise-là. Thea looked at the keyboard uneasily for a moment. When she began, calm, e-disconceled, the hymn-vunch had always liked to hear her sing. Mrs. Arsani glanced question-ly at her husband, but he was looking intently at the toes of his boots, shading his forehead with his long white hand. When Thea finished the hymn, she did not turn round, but immediately began, the ninety-nine and nine. Mrs. Arsani kept trying to catch her husband's eye, but his chin only sank lower on his collar. There were ninety and nine that safely lay in the shadow of the fold, but one was out on the hills away, far off from the gates of gold. Arsani looked at her, then back at the fire. Rejoice for the shepherd has found his sheep. Thea turned on the chair and greened. That's about enough, isn't it? That song got me my job. The preacher said it was sympathetic. She minced the word, remembering Mr. Lawson's manner. Arsani drew himself up in his chair, resting his elbows on the low arms. Yes, that is better suited to your voice. Your upper tones are good. Above G, I must teach you some songs. Don't you know anything pleasant? Thea shook her head rougherly. I'm afraid I don't. Let me see, perhaps. She turned to the piano and put her hands on the keys. I used to sing this for Mr. Wunch a long while ago. It was for contralto, but I'll try it. She frowned at the keyboard a moment, played a few introductory measures, and began. Ach, ich habe sie verloren. She had not sung it for a long time, and it came back like an old friendship. When she finished, Arsani sprang from his chair and dropped lightly upon his toes a kind of entrecha that he sometimes executed when he formed a sudden resolution, or when he was about to follow a pure intuition against reason. His wife said that when he gave that spring, he was shocked from the bow of his ancestors. And now when he left his chair in that manner, she knew he was intensely interested. He went quickly to the piano. Sing that again. There is nothing the matter with your low voice, my girl. I will play for you. Let your voice out. Without looking at her, he began the accompaniment. Here drew back her shoulders, relaxed them instinctively, and sang. When she finished the aria, Arsani baked on her nearer. Sing all for me, as I indicate. He kept his right hand on the keyboard and put his left to her throat, placing the tips of his delicate fingers over her larynx. Again, until your breath is gone, trill between the two tones. Always. Good. Again. Excellent. Now up. Stay there. E and F. Not so good, is it? F is always a hard one. Now try the a half tone. That's right. Nothing difficult about it. Now. Pianismo. Ah. Now. Swell it. Ah. Again. Follow my hand. Now carry it down. Anybody ever tell you anything about your breathing? Mr. Lawson says, I have an unusually long breath. Thea replied with spirit. Arsani smiled. So you have. So you have. That was what I meant. Now, once more, carry it up and then down. Ah. He put his hand back to her throat and sat with his head bent, his one eye closed. He loved to hear a big voice throb in a relaxed, natural throat, and he was thinking that no one had ever felt this voice vibrate before. It was like a wild bird that had flown into his studio on Middleton Street from goodness knew how far. No one knew that it had come, or even that it existed. These of all, the strange crew girl in whose throat it beat its passionate wings. What a simple thing it was, he reflected. Why had he never guessed it before? Everything about her indicated it. The big mouth, the wide jawed and chin, the strong white teeth, the deep laugh. The machine was so simple and strong, seemed to be so easily operated. She sang from the bottom of herself. Her breath came from down where her laugh came from. The deep laugh which Mrs. Arsani had once called the laugh of the people. A relaxed throat, a voice that lay on the breath that had never been forced off the breath. It rose and fell in the air column like the little balls which are put to shine in the jet of the fountain. The voice did not thin as it went up. The upper tones were as full and rich as the lower, produced in the same way and as unconsciously, only with deeper breath. Elas Arsani threw back his head and rose. He must be tired, Ms. Kronborg. When she replied, she startled him. He had forgotten how hard and full of words her speaking voice was. No, she said, singing never tires me. Arsani pushed back his hair with a nervous hand. I don't know much about the voice, but I shall take liberties and teach you some good songs. I think you have a very interesting voice. I'm glad if you like it. Good night, Mr. Arsani. Thea went with Mrs. Arsani to get her raps. When Mrs. Arsani came back to her husband, she found him walking restlessly up and down the room. Don't you think her voice wonderful, dear? She asked. I scarcely know what to think. All I really know about that girl is that she tires me to death. We must not have her often. If I did not have my living to make, then… He dropped into a chair and closed his eyes. How tired I am. What a voice. End of Part 2, Section 3, Recording by Shri Ping Lien. Part 2, Sections 4 and 5 of The Song of the Lark. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org, Recording by Shri Ping Lien. The Song of the Lark by Willa Cybert Cather. Part 2, Sections 4 and 5. Section 4. After that evening, Thea's work with Arsani changed somewhat. He insisted that she should study some songs with him, and after almost every lesson he gave up half an hour of his own time to practicing them with her. He did not pretend to know much about voice production, but so far he thought she had acquired no really injurious habits. A healthy and powerful organ had found its own method which was not a bad one. He wished to find out a good deal before he recommended a vocal teacher. He never told Thea what he thought about her voice, and made her general ignorance of anything worth singing his pretext for the trouble he took. That was in the beginning. After the first few lessons, his own pleasure and hers were pretexts enough. The singing came at the end of the lesson hour, and they both treated it as a form of relaxation. Arsani did not say much even to his wife about his discovery. He brooded upon it in a curious way. He found that these unscientific singing lessons stimulated him in his own study. After Miss Kronborg left him, he often lay down in his studio for an hour before dinner, with his head full of musical ideas, with an effervescence in his brain which he had sometimes lost for weeks together under the grind of teaching. He had never got so much back for himself from any pupil as he did from Miss Kronborg. From the first, she had stimulated him. Something in her personality invariably affected him. Now that he was feeling his way toward her voice, he found her more interesting than ever before. She lifted the tedium of the winter for him, gave him curious fancies and reveries. Musically, she was sympathetic to him. While all this was true, he never asked himself. He had learned that one must take where and when one can the mysterious mental irritant that rouses one's imagination, that it is not to be had by order. She often worried him, but she never bored him. Under her crudeness and brusque hardness, he felt there was a nature quite different of which he never got so much as a hint except when she was at the piano or when she sang. It was toward this hidden creature that he was trying, for his own pleasure to find his way. In short, Hasani looked forward to his hour with Thea for the same reason that poor Vunch had sometimes dreaded his, because she stirred him more than anything she did could adequately explain. One afternoon, Hasani, after the lesson, was standing by the window, putting some collodion on her cracked finger, and Thea was at the piano, trying over the lojali which he had given her last week to practice. It was scarcely a song which a singing master would have given her, but he had his own reasons. How she sang it mattered only to him and to her. He was playing his own game now, without interference. He suspected that he could not do so always. When she finished the song, she looked back over her shoulder at him and spoke thoughtfully. That wasn't right at the end, was it? No, that should be an open, flowing tone. Something like this. He waved his fingers rapidly in the air. You get the idea? No, I don't. Seems a queer ending after the rest. Hasani corked his little bottle and dropped it into the pocket of his velvet coat. Why so? Shipwrecks come and go, mochen come and go, but the river keeps right on. There you have your open, flowing tone. Thea looked intently at the music. I see, she said dolly. Oh, I see. She repeated quickly and turned to him a glowing countenance. It is the river. Oh yes, I get it now. She looked at him but long enough to catch his glance, then turned to the piano again. Hasani was never quite sure where the light came from when her face suddenly flashed out at him in that way. Her eyes were too small to account for it, though they glittered like green eyes in the sun. At such moments her hair was yellower, her skin whiter, her cheeks pinker, as if a lamp had suddenly been turned up inside of her. She went at the song again. Ich weiss nicht, was so er bedeuten, dass ich so traurig bin. A kind of happiness vibrated in her voice. Hasani noticed how much and how unhesitatingly she changed her delivery of the whole song, the first part as well as the last. Hasani had often noticed that she could not think a thing out in passages. Until she saw it as a whole, she wondered like a blind man surrounded by torments after she once had her revelation, after she got the idea that to her, not always to him, explained everything, then she went forward rapidly, but she was not always easy to help. She was sometimes impervious to suggestion. She would stare at him as if she were deaf and ignored everything he told her to do. Then all at once something would happen in her brain and she would begin to do all that he had been for weeks telling her to do, without realizing that he had ever told her. Tonight, Thea forgot Hasani and his finger. She finished the song only to begin it with fresh enthusiasm. She sat there singing it until the darkening room was so flooded with it that Hasani threw open a window. You really must stop it, Miss Cromborg. I shan't be able to get it out of my head tonight. Thea laughed tolerantly as she began to gather up her music. Why? I thought you had gone, Mr. Hasani. I like that song. That evening at dinner, Hasani sat looking intently into a glass of heavy yellow wine, boring into it, indeed, with his one eye when his face suddenly broke into a smile. What is it on door? His wife asked. He smiled again, this time at her, and took up the nutcrackers and the Brazil nut. Do you know? He said in the tone so intimate and confidential that he might have been speaking to himself. Do you know? I like to see Miss Cromborg get hold of an idea. In spite of being so talented, she's not quick. But when she does get an idea, it fills her up to the eyes. She had my room so reeking of a song this afternoon that I couldn't stay there. Mrs. Hasani looked up quickly. Dilohalai, you mean? One couldn't think of anything else anywhere in the house. I thought she was possessed. But don't you think her voice is wonderful sometimes? Hasani tasted his wine slowly. My dear, I've told you before that I don't know what I think about Miss Cromborg, except that I'm glad they're not two of her. I sometimes wonder whether she is not glad. As much as she is at it all, I've occasionally fancied that if she knew how, she would like to diminish. He moved his left hand out into the air as if he were suggesting a diminuendo to an orchestra. Section 5 By the 1st of February, Thea had been in Chicago almost four months, and she did not know much more about the city than if she had never quitted Moonstone. She was, as Hasani said, incurious. Her work took most of her time, and she found that she had to sleep a good deal. It had never before been so hard to get up in the morning. She had the bother of caring for her room, and she had to build her fire and bring up her coal. Her routine was frequently interrupted by a message from Mr. Larsson, summoning her to sing at a funeral. Every funeral took half a day, and the time had to be made up. But Mrs. Hasani asked her if it did not press her to sing at funerals. She replied that she had been brought up to go to funerals and didn't mind. Thea never went into shops unless she had to, and she felt no interest in them. Indeed, she shone them as places where one was sure to be parted from one's money in some way. She was nervous about counting her change, and she couldn't accustom herself to having her purchases sent to her address. She felt much safer with her bundles under her arm. During the first winter, Thea got no city consciousness. Chicago was simply a wilderness through which one had to find one's way. She felt no interest in the general briskness and zest of the crowds. The crash and scramble of that big, rich, epitome Western city, she did not take in at all, except to notice that the noise of the drays and streetcars tired her. The brilliant window displays, splendid furs and stuffs, the gorgeous flower shops, the gay candy shops, she scarcely noticed. At Christmas time, she did feel some curiosity about the toy stores, and she wished she held Thor's little mitten fist in her hand as she stood before the windows. The Jewelers' windows, too, had a strong attraction for her. She had always liked right stones. When she went into the city, she used to brave the biting lake winds and stand gazing in at the displays of diamonds and pearls and emeralds, the tiaras and necklaces and earrings on white velvet. These seemed very well worthwhile to her, things worth coveting. Mrs. Lough and Mrs. Anderson often told each other it was strange that Miss Cromborg had so little initiative about visiting points of interest. When Thea came to live with them, she had expressed a wish to see two places, Montgomery Ward and Company's big mail order store and the packing houses, to which all the hogs and cattle that went through Moonstone were bound. One of Mrs. Lough's lodgers worked in a packing house, and Mrs. Anderson brought Thea word that she had spoken to Mr. Ackman, and he would gladly take her to Packingtown. Ackman was a toughish young sweet, and he thought it would be something of a lark to take a pretty girl through the slaughterhouses, but he was disappointed. Thea neither grew famed nor a clown to the arm he kept offering her. She asked innumerable questions, and was impatient because he knew so little of what was going on outside of his own department. When they got off the streetcar and walked back to Mrs. Lough's house in the dusk, Ackman put her hand in his overcoat pocket. She had no muff, and kept squeezing it ardently until she said, Don't do that, my ring cuts me. That night he told his roommate that he could have kissed her as easy as rolling of a log, but she wasn't worth the trouble. As for Thea, she had enjoyed the afternoon very much, and wrote her father a brief but clear account of what she had seen. One night at supper, Mrs. Anderson was talking about the exhibit of students' work she had seen at the Art Institute that afternoon. Thea, who always felt that she was behind hand in courtesy to Mrs. Anderson, thought that here was an opportunity to show interest without committing herself to anything. Where is that, the Institute, she asked absolutely. Mrs. Anderson clasped her knackin' in both hands. The Art Institute? Our beautiful Art Institute on Michigan Avenue? Do you mean to say you have never visited it? Oh, is it the place with the big lions out in front? I remember. I saw it when I went to Montgomery wards. Yes, I thought the lions were beautiful. But the pictures, didn't you visit the galleries? No, the sign outside said it was a payday. I've always meant to go back, but I haven't happened to be down that way since. Mrs. Locke and Mrs. Anderson looked at each other. The old mother spoke, fixing her shining little eyes upon Thea across the table. Ah, but Mrs. Kronborg, there are old masters. Oh, many of them, such as you could not see anywhere out of Europe. Anchor Rose breathed Mrs. Anderson, tilting her head, feelingly, such examples of the Basi Zong School. This was meaningless to Thea, who did not read the art columns of the Sunday inter-ocean as Mrs. Anderson did. Oh, I'm going there someday, she reassured them. I like to look at oil paintings. One bleak date in February, when the wind was blowing clouds of dirt like a moonstone sandstorm, dirt that filled your eyes and ears and mouth. Thea fought her way across the unprotected space in front of the Art Institute and into the doors of the building. She did not come out again until the closing hour. In the street cart on the long, cold right home, when she sat staring at the waistcoat buttons of a fat strap hanger, she had a serious reckoning with herself. She seldom thought about her way of life, about what she ought or ought not to do. Usually there was but one obvious and important thing to be done. But that afternoon she remonstrated with herself severely. She told herself that she was missing a great deal, that she ought to be more willing to take advice and to go to see things. She was sorry that she had let months pass without going to the Art Institute after this she would go once a week. The Institute proved indeed a place of retreat, as the Sandhills or the Kohler's Garden used to be, a place where she could forget Mrs. Anderson's tiresome overtures of friendship, the stout contralto in the choir whom she so unreasonably hated and even, for a little while, the torment of her work. That building was a place in which she could relax and play and she could hardly ever play now. On the whole she spent more time with the castes than with the pictures. They were at once more simple and more perplexing. In some way they seemed more important, harder to overlook. It never occurred to her to buy a catalog, so she called most of the castes by names she made up for them. Some of them she knew. The dying gladiator she had read about in Child Harold almost as long ago as she could remember. He was strongly associated with Dr. Archie and Childish illnesses. The Venus de Milo puzzled her. She could not see why people thought her so beautiful. She told herself over and over that she did not think the Apollo Belvedere at all handsome. Better than anything else she liked a great equestrian statue of an evil crew looking general with an unpronounceable name. She used to walk round and round this terrible man and his terrible horse frowning at him, brooding upon him as if she had to make some momentous decision about him. The castes, when she lingered long among them, always made her gloomy. It was with a lightning of the heart, a feeling of throwing off the old miseries and old sorrows of the world that she rang up the wise staircase to the pictures. There she liked best the ones that told stories. There was a painting by Jerome called the Pasha's Grief, which always made her wish for Gunner and Axel. The Pasha was seated on a rug beside a green candle almost as big as a telegraph pole and before him was stretched his dead tiger, a splendid beast, and there were pink roses scattered about him. She loved too a picture of some boys bringing in a newborn calf on the litter, the cow walking beside it and licking it. The coral which hung next to this painting she did not like or dislike, she never saw it. But in that same room there was a picture. Oh, that was the thing she ran upstairs so fast to see. That was her picture. She imagined that nobody cared for it by herself and that it waited for her. That was a picture indeed. She liked even the name of it, the Song of the Lark, the flag country, the early morning light, the wet fields, the look in the girl's heavy face, while they were all hers, anyhow, whatever was there. She told herself that that picture was right. Just what she meant by this, it would take a clever person to explain. But to her the word covered the almost boundless satisfaction she felt when she looked at the picture. Before Thea had any idea how fast the weeks were flying, before Mr. Lawson's permanent soprano had returned to her duties, spring can, windy, dusty, strident, shrill, a season almost more violent in Chicago than the winter from which it releases one or the heat to which it eventually delivers one. One sunny morning the apple trees in Mrs. Lark's backyard burst into bloom and for the first time in months Thea dressed without building a fire. The morning shone like a holiday and for her it was to be a holiday. There was in the air that sudden treacherous softness which makes the poles who work in the packing houses get drunk. At such times beauty is necessary and in packing town there's no place to get it except at the saloons where one can buy for a few hours the illusion of comfort, hope, love, whatever one most longs for. Hassani had given Thea a ticket for the symphony concert that afternoon and when she looked out at the white apple trees her doubts as to whether she ought to go vanished at once. She would make her work light that morning, she told herself. She would go to the concert full of energy. When she set off after dinner Mrs. Lark who knew Chicago weather prevailed upon her to take her cape. The old lady said that such sudden mildness so early in April presaged a sharp return of winter and she was anxious about her apple trees. The concert began at 2.30 and Thea was in her seat in the auditorium at ten minutes after tour a fine seat in the first row of the balcony on the side where she could see the house as well as the orchestra. She had been to so few concerts that the great house, the crowd of people and the lights all had a stimulating effect. She was surprised to see so many men in the audience and wondered how they could leave their business in the afternoon. During the first number Thea was so much interested in the orchestra itself in the man, the instruments, the volume of sound that she paid little attention to what they were playing. Her excitement impaired her power of listening. She kept saying to herself now I must stop this foolishness and listen I may never hear this again but her mind was like a glass that is hard to focus. She was not ready to listen until the second number Davoszak's symphony in E minor called on the program From the New World The first theme had scarcely been given out when her mind became clear instant composure fell upon her and with it came the power of concentration. This was music she could understand. Music from the New World indeed. Strange how as the first movement went on it brought back to her that high table land above Laramie the grass-ground wagon trails the faraway peaks of the snowy range the wind and the eagles that old man and the first telegraph message When the first movement ended Thea's hands and feet were cold as ice She was too much excited to know anything except that she wanted something desperately and when the English horns gave out the theme of the Largo she knew that what she wanted was exactly that Here were the Sandhills the grasshoppers and locusts all the things that awakened and chirped in the early morning the reaching and reaching of high plains the immeasurable yearning of all flatlands There was home in it too first memories first mornings long ago the amazement of a new soul in a new world a soul new and yet old that had dreamed something despairing something glorious in the dark before it was born a soul obsessed by what it did not know under the cloud of a past it could not recall If Thea had had much experience in concert going and had known her own capacity she would have left the hall when the symphony was over but she said still scarcely knowing where she was because her mind had been far away and had not yet come back to her she was startled when the orchestra began to play again the entry of the gods into Vahala she heard it as people hear things in their sleep she knew scarcely anything about the Wagner operas she had a vague idea that Ryan Gold was about the strife between gods and men she had read something about it in Mr. Howe's book long ago too tired to follow the orchestra with much understanding she crouched down in her seat and closed her eyes the cold, stately measures of the Vahala music rain out far away the rainbow bridge throbbed out into the air under it the welling of the Ryan daughters and the singing of the Ryan but Thea was sunk in twilight it was all going on in another world so it happened that with a dull, almost listless ear she heard for the first time that troubled music ever darkening, ever brightening which was to flow through so many years of her life when Thea emerged from the concert hall Mrs. Locke's predictions had been fulfilled a furious gale was beating over the city from Lake Michigan the streets were full of cold, hurrying angry people running for streetcars, embarking at each other the sun was setting in a clear windy sky that flamed with red as if there were a great fire somewhere on the edge of the city for almost the first time Thea was conscious of the city itself of the congestion of life all about her of the brutality and power of those streams that flowed in the streets threatening to drive one under people jostled her, ran into her poked her aside with their elbows uttering angry exclaminations she got on the wrong car and was roughly ejected by the conductor at a windy corner in front of a saloon she stood there dazed and shivering the cars passed screaming as they rounded curves but either they were full to the doors or were bound for places where she did not want to go her hands were so cold that she took off her tight kid gloves the street lights began to gleam in the dusk a young man came out of the saloon and stood eyeing her questioningly while he lit a cigarette looking for a friend tonight he asked Thea drew up the collar of her cape and walked on a few paces the young man shrugged his shoulders and drifted away Thea came back to the corner and stood there irresolutely an old man approached her he too seemed to be waiting for a car he wore an overcoat with a black fur collar his great moustache was waxed into little points and his eyes were watery he kept thrusting his face up near hers her head blew off and he ran after it a stiff pitiful skip he had and brought it back to her then when she was peening her head on her cape blew up and he held it down for her looking at her intently his face worked as if he were going to cry or were frightened he leaned over and whispered something to her it struck her as curious that he was really quite timid like an old beggar oh let me alone he cried miserably between her teeth he vanished disappeared like the devil in a play but in the meantime something had got away from her she could not remember how the violins came in after the horns just there when her cape blew up perhaps why did these men torment her? a cloud of dust blew in her face and blinded her there was some power abroad in the world then upon taking away from her that feeling with which she had come out of the concert hall everything seemed to sweep down on her to tear it out from under her cape if one had that the world became one's enemy people, buildings, wagons, cars rushed at one to crush it under to make one let go of it Thea glared around her at the crowds these sprawling streets the long lines of lights and she was not crying now her eyes were brighter than even Hassani had ever seen them all these things and people were no longer remote and negligible they had to be met they were lined up against her they were there to take something from her very well they should never have it they might trample her to death but she should never have it as long as she lived that ecstasy was going to be hers she would live for it work for it die for it but she was going to have it time after time height after height she could hear the crash of the orchestra again and she rose on the brasses she would have it what the trumpets were singing she would have it have it it under the old cape she pressed her hands upon her heaving bosom that was a little girl's no longer end of part two sections four and five recording by shi ping ning part two sections six and seven of the song of the lark this is the liber vox recording all liber vox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit liber vox.org recording by shi ping ning the song of the lark by willa cyber cather part two sections six and seven section six one afternoon in april theodore thomas the conductor of the chicago symphony orchestra had turned out his desk light and was about to leave his office in the auditorium building asaani appeared in the doorway the conductor welcomed him with a hearty hand grip and threw off the overcoat he had just put on he pushed asaani into a chair and sat down at his bird in the desk pointing to the piles of papers and railway folders upon it another tour clear to the coast this traveling is the part of my work that grinds me and or you know what it means food dirt noise exhaustion for the man and for me i'm not so young as i once was it's time i quit the highway this is the last tour i swear then i'm sorry for the highway i remember when i first heard you in pittsburgh long ago it was a lifeline you threw me it's about one of the people along your highway that i've come to see you whom do you consider the best teacher for voice in chicago mr. thomas frowned and pulled his heavy moustache let me see i suppose on the whole medicine bowers is the best he's intelligent and he had good training i don't like him asaani nodded i thought there was no one else i don't like him either so i hesitated but i suppose he must do for the present have you found anything promising one of your own students yes sir a young swedish girl from somewhere in colorado she is very talented and she seems to me to have a remarkable voice hi voice i think it will be though her low voice has a beautiful quality very individual she has had no instruction in voice at all and a shrink from handing her over to anybody her own instinct about it has been so good it is one of those voices that manages itself easily without thinning as it goes up good breathing and perfect relaxation but she must have a teacher of course there is a break in the middle voice so that the voice does not all work together and unevenness thomas looked up so curious that cleft often happens with the sweets some of their best singers have had it it always reminds me of the space you so often see between their front teeth is she strong physically asaani's eye flashed he lifted his hand before him and clenched it like a horse, like a tree every time i give her a lesson i lose a pound she goes after what she wants intelligent you say musically intelligent yes but no cultivation whatever she came to me like a fine young savage a book with nothing written in it that is why i feel the responsibility of directing her asaani paused and crushed his soft great hat over his knee he would interest you mr thomas he added slowly she has a quality very individual yes the scandinavians are apt to have that too she can't go to Germany i suppose not now at any rate she is poor thomas frowned again i don't think bowers a really first rate man he's too petty to be really first rate in his nature i mean but i dare say he's the best you can do if you can't give her time enough yourself asaani waved his hand oh the time is nothing she may have all she wants but i cannot teach her to sing might not come amiss if you made a musician of her however said mr thomas driving i've done my best but i can only play with a voice and this is not a voice to be played with i think she will be a musician whatever happens she is not quick but she is solid real not like these others my wife says that with that girl one swallow does not make a summer mr thomas laughed tell mrs hasani that her remark conveys something to me don't let yourself get too much interested voices are so often disappointing especially women's voices so much chance about it so many factors perhaps that is why they interest one all the intelligence and talent in the world can make a singer the voice is a wild thing it can be bred in captivity it is a sport like a silver fox it happens mr thomas smiled into hasani's gleaming eye why haven't you brought her to sing for me i've been tempted to but i knew you were driven to death with this tour confronting you oh i can always find time to listen to a girl who has a voice if she means business i'm sorry i'm leaving so soon i could advise you better if i had her her i can sometimes give a singer suggestions i've worked so much with them you are the only conductor i know who is not snobbish about singers hasani spoke warmly dear me why should i be they've learned from me and i've learned from them as they rose thomas took the younger man affectionately by the arm tell me about that wife of yours is she well and as lovely as ever and such fine children come to see me oftener when i get back i miss it when you don't the two men left the auditorium building together hasani walked home even the short talk with thomas always stimulated him he walked he was recalling an evening they once spent together in Cincinnati hasani was the soloist at one of thomas' concerts there and after the performance the conductor had taken him off to a rats gallery where there was excellent german cooking and where the proprietor saw to it that thomas had the best wines procurable thomas had been working with the great chorus of the festival association and was speaking of it with enthusiasm when hasani asked him how it was that he was able to feel such an interest in choral directing and in voices generally thomas steldum spoke of his youth for his early struggles but that night he turned back the pages and told hasani a long story he said he had spent the summer of his fifteenth year wondering about alone in the south giving violin concerts in little towns he traveled on horseback when he came into a town he went about all day tacking up posters announcing his concert in the evening before the concert he stood at the door taking in the admission money until his audience had arrived and then he went on the platform and played it was a lazy hand-to-mouth existence and thomas said he must have got to like that easy way of living and the relaxing southern atmosphere at any rate when he got back to new york in the fall he was rather torbid perhaps he had been growing too fast from this adolescent drowsiness the lad was awakened by two voices by two women who sang in new york in 1851 jenny lend and harry atta son tag there were the first great artists he had ever heard and he never forgot his debt to them as he said it was not voice and execution alone there was a greatness about them there were great women, great artists they opened a new world to me night after night he went to hear them striving to reproduce the quality of their tone upon his violin from that time his idea about strings was completely changed and on his violin he tried always for the singing-vibrating tone instead of the loud and somewhat harsh tone then prevalent among even the best german violinists in later years he often advised violinists to study singing and singers to study violin he told hasani that he got his first conception of tone quality from jenny lend but of course he added the great thing i got from lend and son tag was the indefinite, not the definite thing for an impressionable boy their inspiration was incalculable they gave me my first feeling for the italian style but i could never say how much they gave me at that age such inferences are actually creative i always think of my artistic consciousness as beginning then all his life thomas did his best to repay what he felt he owed to the singers art no man could get such singing from choruses and no man worked harder to raise the standard of singing in schools and churches and choral societies section seven all through the lesson thea had felt that hasani was restless and abstracted before the hour was over he pushed back his chair and said absolutely i'm not in the mood miss kronborg i have something on my mind and i must talk to you when do you intend to go home thea turned to him in surprise the first of june about mister lawson will not need me after that and i have not much money ahead i shall work hard the summer though and today is the first of may may day hasani leaned forward his elbows on his knees his hands locked between them yes i must talk to you about something i have asked medicine bowers to let me bring you to him on thursday at your usual lesson time he is the best vocal teacher in chicago and it is time you began to work seriously with your voice thea's brow wrinkled you mean take lessons of ours hasani nodded without lifting his head but i can't mister hasani i haven't got the time and besides she blushed and drew her shoulders up stiffly besides i can't afford to pay two teachers thea felt that she had blurted this out in the worst possible way and she turned back to the keyboard to hide her shock ring i know that i don't mean that you shall pay two teachers after you go to bowers you will not need me i need scarcely tell you that i shan't be happy at losing you thea turned to him hurt and angry but i don't want to go to bowers i don't want to leave you what's the matter don't i work hard enough i'm sure you teach people that don't try half as hard hasani rose to his feet don't misunderstand me miss cromborg don't interest me more than any pupil i have i have been thinking for months about what you ought to do since that night when you first sang for me he walked over to the window turned and came toward her again i believe that your voice is worth all that you can put into it i have not come to this decision rashly i have studied you and i have become more and more convinced against my own desires i cannot make a singer of you so it was my business to find a man who could i have even consulted theodore thomas about it but suppose i don't want to be a singer i want to study with you what's the matter do you really think i have no talent can i be a pianist hasani paced up and down the long road in front of her my girl you are very talented you could be a pianist a good one by the early training of a pianist such a pianist as you would want to be must be something tremendous he must have had no other life than music at your age he must be the master of his instrument nothing can ever take the place of that first training you know very well that your technique is good but it is not remarkable you will never overtake your intelligence you have a fine power of work but you are not by nature a student you are not by nature i think a pianist you will never find yourself in the effort to do so i'm afraid your playing will become warped eccentric he threw back his head and looked at his pupil intently with that one eye which sometimes seemed to see deeper than any two eyes as if his singleness gave it privileges oh i have watched you very carefully miss crone bork because you had had so little and had yet done so much for yourself i had a great wish to help you i believe that the strongest need of your nature is to find yourself to emerge us yourself until i heard you sing i wondered how you would do this but it has grown clearer to me every day thea looked away toward the window with hard narrow eyes you mean i can be a singer because i haven't brains enough to be a pianist you have brains enough and talent enough but to do what you will want to do it takes more than these it takes vocation now i think you have vocation but for the voice not for the piano if you knew he stopped and sighed if you knew how fortunate i sometimes thank you with the voice the way is so much shorter the rewards are more easily won in your voice i think nature herself did for you what it would take you many years to do at the piano perhaps you were not born in the wrong place after all let us talk frankly now we have never done so before and i have respected your reticence what you want more than anything else in the world is to be an artist is that true? she turned her face away from him and looked down at the keyboard her answer came in a thickened voice yes i suppose so when did you first feel that you wanted to be an artist i don't know there was always something did you never think that you were going to sing yes how long ago was that always until i came to you it was you who made me want to play piano her voice trembled before i tried to think i did but i was pretending hasani reached out and caught the hand that was hanging at her side he pressed it as if to give her something can't you see my dear girl that was only because i happened to be the first artist you have ever known if i had been a trombone player it would have been the same you would have wanted to play trombone but all the while you have been working with such good will something has been struggling against me see here we were you and i and this instrument he tapped the piano three good friends working so hard but all the while there was something fighting us your gift and the woman you were meant to be when you find your way to that gift and to that woman you will be a piece i mean it was an artist that you wanted to be well you may be an artist always fear drew a long breath her hands fell in her lap so i'm just where i began no teacher nothing done no money hasani turned away feel no apprehension about the money miss kromborg come back in the fall and we shall manage that i shall even go to mr. thomas if necessary this year will not be lost if you but knew what an advantage this winter's study all your study of the piano will give you over most singers perhaps things have come out better for you than if we had planned them knowingly you mean they have if i can sing thea spoke with a heavy irony so heavy indeed that it was coarse it grated upon hasani because he felt that it was not sincere an awkward affectation he wheeled toward her miss kromborg answer me this you know that you can sing do you not you have always known it while we worked here together you sometimes said to yourself i have something you know nothing about i could surprise you is that also true thea nodded and hung her head why were you not frank with me did i not deserve it she shuddered her bent shoulders trembled i don't know she muttered i didn't mean to be like that i couldn't, i can't it's different you mean it is very personal he asked kindly she nodded with people like mr.lasen but with you it was personal i'm not like you and mrs.hasani i come of rough people i'm rough but i'm independent too it was all i had there's no use my talking mr.hasani i can't tell you you needn't tell me i know every artist knows hasani stood looking at his pupils back as if she were pushing something at her lowered head you can sing for those people because with them you do not commit yourself but the reality one cannot uncover that until one is short one can fail oneself but one must not live to see that fail better never revealed it then may help you to make yourself short of it that i can do better than powers thea lifted her face and threw out her hands asani shook his head and smiled oh promise nothing you will have much to do there will not be voice only but french, german, italian you will have work enough but sometimes you will need to be understood what you never show to anyone will need companionship and then you must come to me he peered into her face with that searching intimate glance you know what i mean the thing in you that has no business with what is little that will have to do only with beauty and power thea threw out her hands fiercely as if to push him away she made a sound in her throat but it was not articulate asani took one of her hands and kissed it lightly on the back his salute was one of greeting not of farewell and it was for someone he had never seen when mrs asani came in at six o'clock she found her husband sitting blisslessly by the window tired she asked a little i've just got through a difficulty i've sent miss chromeborg away turn her over to powers for voice sent miss chromeborg away and or what is the matter with you it's nothing rash i've known for a long while i ought to do it she is made for a singer not a pianist mrs asani sat down on the piano chair she spoke a little bitterly how can you be sure of that she was at least the best you had i thought you meant to have her played at your students recital next fall i'm sure she would have made an impression i could have dressed her so that she would be very striking she had so much individuality asani bent forward looking at the floor yes i know i shall miss her of course mrs asani looked at her husband's fine head against the grey window she had never felt deeper tenderness for him than she did at that moment her heart ached for him you will never get on on door asani said motionless no i should never get on he repeated quietly suddenly he sprang up with that light movement she knew so well and stood in the window with folded arms but someday i shall be able to look her in the face and laugh because i did what i could for her i believe in her she will do nothing common she is uncommon in a common common world that is what i get out of it it means more to me than if she played at my concert and brought me a dozen pupils all this drudgery will kill me if once in a while i cannot hope something for somebody if i cannot sometimes see a bird fly and wave my hand to it his tone was angry and injured mrs asani understood that this was one of the times when his wife was a part of the drudgery of the common common world he had let something he cared for go and he felt bitterly about whatever was left the mood would pass and he would be sorry she knew him it wounded her of course but that hurt was not new it was as old as her love for him she went out and left him alone end of part 2 sections 6 and 7 recording by shu pinglin