 41 Coming home. In different ears how differently sound the words. They, who in all their wanderings have still the little, well-filled, love-expectant nest where too they may wing their way, should think sometimes of the many there are to whom the whole wide world is all alike, whose soul rest must be in themselves, who never can truly say, I am going home, until they say it with eyes turned longingly towards a home unseen. Something of this mournfulness felt Alivrothsay. It was dreary enough to reach her journey's end alone, and have to wait some hours at the small railway station, and then, tired and worn, to be driven for miles across the country through the gloomiest of all gloomy November days. Still the dreariness passed, when she saw, shining from afar, the light from the windows of Farnwood Dell. As the shades stopped, out came running old Hannah the maid, with little Eileen, too, while awaiting her in the parlor were Crystal and Mrs. Gwynne, no one else. Alivrothsay that in one moment, and blamed herself for having wished, what she had no right to hope, what had best not be. Mrs. Gwynne embraced her warmly, Crystal with dignified grace. The young lady looked gay and pleased, and there was a subdued light in her black eyes which almost softened them into sweetness. The quick restless manner in which she had indulged at times since she came to Farnwood seemed melting into a becoming womanliness. All together Crystal was improved. Well, now, I suppose you will be wanting to hear the news of all your friends, said Miss Manners, with smiles bubbling round her pretty mouth. We are not all quite the same as you left us. To begin with, let me see, Mr. Harold Gwynne. Of that, Miss Crystal, I will beg you not to speak. It is a painful subject to me, observed Mrs. Gwynne, with a vexed air. You need not look at me so earnestly, dear kind, Olive. All is well with me and with my son, but he has done what I think is not exactly good for him, and it somewhat troubles me. However, we will talk of this another time. More news, do you want, Olive? Crystal now sometimes called her so. Well, then, Dame Fortune is in the giving mood. She has given your favourite Mr. Lylder went a fortune of a thousand pounds a year, and a little estate to match. I am so glad! For his sake, good dear Lyld. Dear Lyld, repeated Crystal, turning round with a sparkle either of pleasure or anger in her glittering eyes, but it was quenched before it reached those of Olive. Well, winning is one thing, deserving is another, she continued merrily. I could have picked out a dozen worthy, excellent young men, who would have better merited the blessing of a rich uncle. I, and made a better use of his money, too. Lyld would thank you if he knew. That he ought, and that he does, and that he shall do every day of his life, cried Crystal, lifting up her tall figure with a sudden haughtiness, not the less real because she laughed the while. Then with one light bound she vanished from the room. Olive, left alone with Mrs. Gwynne, would feign have taken her hands, and said as she had oft done before, Friend, tell me all that troubles you, all that concerns you and him. But now a faint fear repelled her. However, Harold's mother, understanding her looks, observed, You are anxious, my dear. Never was there such a faithful friend to me and to my son. I wish you had been here a week ago, and then you might have helped me to persuade him not to go away. He is gone, then, to America. America? Who mentioned America? said Mrs. Gwynne sharply. Has he told you more than he told me? Olive, sorely repentant, tried to soothe the natural jealousy she had aroused. You know well Mr. Gwynne would be sure to tell his plans to his mother. Only I have heard him talk of liking America, of wishing to go thither. He has not gone, then. He has started with his friend Lord Erendale to travel all through Europe. It is a pity, I think, for one of his cloth, and it shows a wandering and restless mind. I know not what has come over, my dear Harold. Was it a sudden journey? Is it long since he went? said Olive, shading her eyes from the fire-light. Only yesterday I told him you were coming today, and he desired me to say how grieved he was that he thus missed you, but it was unavoidable. He had kept Lord Erendale waiting already, and it would not be courteous to delay another day. You will not mind. Oh no! Oh no! The hand was pressed down closer over the eyes. Mrs. Gwynne pursued. Though I have all confidence in my son, yet I own this sudden scheme has troubled me. His health is better. Why could he not stay at Harbury? Olive, wishing to discover if she knew anything of her son's sad secret, observed. It is a monotonous life that Mr. Gwynne leads here, one hardly suited for him. Ah, I know, said the mother, sighing. His heart is little in his calling. I feared so long ago. But it is not that which drives him abroad. For I told him if he still wished to resign his duties to his curate, we would give up the parsonage and he should take pupils. There is a charming little house in the neighbouring village that would suit us. But no, he seemed to shrink from this plan, too. He said he must go entirely away from Harbury. And for how long? I cannot tell, he did not say. I should think not above a year. His mother may not have many more years to spend with him. And there was a little trembling of Mrs. Gwynne's mouth, but she continued with dignity. Do not imagine, Olive, that I mean to blame my son. He has done what he thought right. Against my wish or my happiness he would not have done it at all. So I did not let him see any little pain it might have given me. T'was best not. Now we will let the subject rest. But though they spoke no more, Olive speculated vainly on what had induced Harold to take this precipitant journey. She thought she had known him so thoroughly, better than any one else could. But in him lay mysteries beyond her ken. She could only still rest on that which had comforted her in all she suffered, and entire faith in him and in his goodness. Mrs. Gwynne sat an hour or two, and then rose to return to the parsonage. We must be home before it is dark, little Eiley and I. We have no one to take care of us now. Some pain was visible as she said this. When she took her grandchild by the hand and walked down the garden, it seemed to Olive that the old lady's step was less firm than usual. Her heart sprang to Harold's mother. Let me walk with you a little way, Mrs. Gwynne. I am thoroughly rested now, and as for coming back alone I shall not mind it. What a little trembling arm it is for me to lean on, said Mrs. Gwynne, smiling, when, after some faint resistance, she had taken Olive for a companion. Tis nothing like my Harold's, and yet I am glad to have it. I am afraid I shall often have to look to it now Harold is away. Are you willing, Olive? Quite, quite willing! Nay, very glad! Olive went nearly all the way to Harbury. She was almost happy, walking between Harold's mother and Harold's child. But when she parted from them she felt alone, bitterly alone. Then first she began to realize the truth, that the dream of so many months was now altogether ended. It had been something, even after her sorrow began, to feel that Harold was near, that, although days might pass without her seeing him, still he was there, within a few miles. Any time, sitting wearily in her painting-room, she might hear his knock at the door, or in any walk however lonely and sad, there was at least the possibility of his crossing her path, and, despite her will, causing her heart to bound with joy. Now all these things could not be again. She went homeward along the dear old Harbury road, knowing that no possible chance could make his image appear to brighten its loneliness. That where they had so often walked, taking sweet counsel together as familiar friends, she must learn to walk alone. Perhaps, neither there nor elsewhere, would she ever walk with Harold more. In her first suffering, in her brave resolve to quit Harbury, she had not thought how she should feel when all was indeed over. She had not pictured the utter blankness of a world wherein Harold was not. The snare broken and her soul escaped, she knew not how it would beat its broken wings in the done air, meeting nothing but the black, silent waist, ready once more to flutter helplessly down into the alluring death. Olive walked along with feet heavy and slow. In her eyes were no tears. She had wept them all away long since. She did not look up much, but still she saw, as one sees in a dream, all that was around her. The white, glittering grass, the spectral hedges, the trees laden with a light snow, silent, motionless, stretching their bare arms up to the dull sky. No, not the sky. That seemed far, far off. Between it and earth interposed a mist, so thick and cold that it blinded sight and stifled breath. She could not look up at God's dear heaven. She almost felt that through the gloom the pitying heaven could not look at her. But after a while the mist changed a little, and then Olive drew her breath, and her thoughts began to form themselves as she went along. I am now alone. Quite alone. I must shut my life up in myself. Look to no one's help. Yer in for no one's love. What I receive I will take thankfully, but I have no claim upon anyone in this wide world. Many pleasant friendships I have, many tender ties, but none close enough to fill the void in my heart. None to love as I could love, as I did love for many years. Oh mother, why did you go away? Why did I love again? Lose again. Always loving only to lose. Many times she said to herself, I am alone. Quite alone in the world. And at last the words seemed to strike the echo of some old remembrance. But it was one so very dim that for a long time Olive could not give it any distinct form. At last she recollected the letter which, ten years ago, she had put away in a secret drawer of her father's desk. Strange to say she had never thought of it since. Perhaps this was because, at the time, she had instinctively shuddered at the suggestions it gave, and so determined to banish them. And then the quick changing scenes of life had prevented her ever recurring to the subject. Now, when all had come true, when on that desert land which, still distant, had seemed so fearful to the girl's eyes, the woman's feet already stood, she turned with an eager desire to the words which her father had written, to his daughter Olive when she was quite alone in the world. Reaching home, and hearing Crystal warbling some Italian song, Olive went at once to her own apartment, half parlor, half studio. There was a fire-lit and candles. She fastened the door that she might not be interrupted, and sat down before her desk. She found some difficulty in opening the secret drawer, for the spring was rusty from long disuse, and her own fingers trembled much. When at last she held the letter in her hand, its yellow paper and faded ink struck her painfully. It seemed like suddenly coming face to face with the dead. A solemn, anxious feeling stole over her. Air-breaking the seal she lingered long. She tried to call up all she remembered of her father, his face, his voice, his manners. Very dim everything was. She had been such a mirrored child until he died, and the ten following years were so full of action, passion, and endurance, that they made the old time look pale and distant. She could hardly remember how she used to feel then, least of all how she used to feel towards her father. She had loved him, she knew, and her mother had loved him, I, long after love, became only memory. He had loved them too, in his quiet way. Olive thought with tender remembrance of his kiss, on that early morning when, for the last time, he had left his home. And for her mother, often during Mrs. Rothsay's declining days, had she delighted to talk of the time when she was a young, happy wife, and of the dear love that Angus bore her. Something too she hinted of her own faults, which had once taken away that love, and something in Olive's own childish memory told her that this was true. But she repelled the thought, remembering that her father and mother were now together before God. At length, with an effort, she opened the letter. She started to see its date, the last night Captain Rothsay ever spent at home, the night which of all others she had striven to remember clearly, because they were all three so happy together, and he had been so kind, so loving to her mother and her. Thinking of him on this wise, with a most tender sadness, she began to read. Olive Rothsay, my dear child, it may be many, many years, I pray so, God knows, before you open this letter. If so, think of me as I sit writing it now, or rather as I sat an hour ago, by your mother's side with your arms round my neck. And thus thinking of me, consider what a fierce struggle I must have had to write as I am going to do, to confess what I never would have confessed while I lived, or while your mother lived. I do it because remorse is strong upon me, because I would feign that my Olive, the daughter who may comfort me if I live, should, if I die, make atonement for her father's sins. I, sins, think how I must be driven, thus to humble myself before my own child, to unfold to my pure daughter that, but I will tell the tale plainly, without any exculpation or reserve. I was very young when I married Sebilla Hyde. God be my witness, I loved her then, and in my inmost heart I have loved her ever more. Remember, I say this, hear it as if I were speaking from my grave. Olive, I did love your mother. Would to heaven she had loved me, or shown her love, only a little more. Soon after our marriage I was parted from my wife for some years. You, a girl, ought not to know, and I pray may never know, the temptations of the world and of man's own nature. I knew both, and I withstood both. I came back, and clasped my wife to the most loving and faithful heart that ever beat in a husband's breast. I write this even with tears. I, who have been so cold. But in this letter, which no I will ever see until I and your mother have lain together long years in our grave, I write as if I were speaking, not as now, but as I should speak then. Well, between my wife and me there came a cloud. I know not whose was the fault, perhaps mine, perhaps hers, or it might be both. But there the cloud was. It hung over my home so that I could find therein no peace, no refuge. It drove me to money-getting, excitement, amusement. At last, to crime. In the West Indies there was one who had loved me, in vain. Mark you, I said, in vain. But with the vehemence of her southern blood. She was a quadroon, lady, one of that miserable race, the children of planters and slaves, whose beauty is their curse, whose passion knows no law except a blind fidelity. And God forgive me, that poor wretch was faithful unto me. She followed me to England without my knowledge, little she had ever heard of marriage. She found no sacredness in mine. I did not love her, not with a pure heart as I loved Sibylla. But I pitied her. Sometimes I turned from my dreary home, where no eye brightened at mine, where myself and my interests were nothing. And I thought of this woman, to whom I was all the world. My daughter, Olive, if ever you be a wife and would keep your husband's love, never let these thoughts enter and pollute his mind. Give him your whole heart, and he will ask no other. Make his home sweet and pleasant to him, and he will not stray from it. Bind him round with chords of love, fast, fast. Oh, that my wife had had strength so to encircle me. But she had not, and so the end came. Olive, you are not my only child. I have no desire to palliate my sin. Sin I know it was, heavy and deadly, against God's law, against my trusting wife, and against that hapless creature on whom I brought a whole lifetime of misery. I, not on her alone, but on that innocent being who has received from me nothing but the heritage of shame, and to whom in this world I can never make atonement. No man can. I felt this when she was born. It was a girl, too, a helpless girl. I looked on the little face, sleeping so purely, and remembered that on her brow would rest through life a perpetual stain, and that I, her father, had fixed it there. Then there awoke in me a remorse which can never die. For alas, Olive, I have more to unfold. My remorse, like my crimes, was selfish at the root, and I wreaked it on her, who, if guilty, was less guilty than I. One day I came to her, restless and angry, unable to hide the worm that was continually gnawing at my heart. She saw it there, and her proud spirit rose. She poured on me a torrent of reproachful words. I answered them as one who had aired like me was sure to answer. Poor wretch! I reviled her as having been the cause of my misery. When I saw her in her fury, I contrasted her image with that of the pale, patient, trusting creature I had left that morning, my wife, my poor Sibylla. Until, hating myself, I absolutely loathed her, the enchantress who had been my undoing. With her shrill voice yet pursuing me, I precipitately left the house. Next day mother and child had disappeared. Wither I knew not, and I never have known, though I left no effort untried to solve a mystery which made me feel like a murderer. Nevertheless I believe that they are still alive, these wretched two. If I did not I should almost go mad at times. Olive have pity on your father, and hearken to what I implore. Whilst I live I shall continue this search, but I may die without having had the chance of making atonement. In that case I entreat of my daughter Olive to stand between her father and his sin. If you have no other ties, if you never marry but live alone in the world, seek out and protect that child. Remember she is of your own blood. She at least never wronged you. In showing mercy to her you do so to me, your father, who, when you read this, will have been for years among the dead, though the evil that he caused may still remain unexpniated. Oh, think that this is his voice crying out from the dust, beseeching you to absolve his memory. Save me from the horrible thought, now haunting me ever more, that the being who owes me life may one day heap curses on her father's name. Herewith enclosed you will find instructions respecting an annuity I wish paid to—to the woman. It was placed in Blank's Bank by Mr. Wilde, whom, however I deceived concerning it, I am now old enough in the school of hypocrisy. Hitherto the amount has never been claimed. Olive, my daughter, forgive me. Judge me not harshly. I never would have asked this of you while your mother lived, your mother, whom I loved, though I wronged her so grievously. In some things perhaps she erred towards me, but I ought to have shown her more sympathy, and have dealt gently with her tender nature, so unlike my own. May God forgive us both. God, in whose presence we shall both be when you, our daughter, read this record, and may he bless you ever more, praise your loving father, Angus Rothsay. Celia Manners was her name, her child she called Crystal. It ceased. This voice, from the ten years silent grave of Angus Rothsay, his daughter sat motionless, her fixed eyes blindly outgazing, her whole frame cold and rigid, frozen into a statue of stone. CHAPTER 42 Olive, by Dinah Maria Craig. CHAPTER 42 Riveted by an inexplicable influence, Olive had read the letter through without once pausing or blenching, read it as though it had been some strange romance of misery, not relating to herself at all. She felt unable to comprehend or realize it, until she came to the name Crystal. Then the whole truth burst upon her, wrapping her round with a cold horror, and, for the time, paralyzing all her faculties. When she awoke, the letter was still in her hand, and from it still there stood out clear the name which had long been a familiar word. Therefore, all this while, destiny had been leading her to work out her father's desire. The girl who had dwelt in her household for months, whom she had tried to love and generously sought to guide, was her sister. But when a chaos of horror was revealed by this discovery, Olive's first thought was of her mother, who had showered kindness on this child of shame, who, dying, had unconsciously charged her to take care of Crystal. With a natural revulsion of feeling, Olive thrust the letter from her. Its touch seemed to pollute her fingers. Oh, my mother! My poor, wronged mother! Well for you that you never lived to see this day. You, so good, so loving, so faithfully remembering him, even to the last! But I! I have lived to shrink with abhorrence from the memory of my own father. Suddenly she stopped, aghast at thinking that she was thus speaking of the dead, the dead from whom her own life had sprung. I am bewildered, she murmured. Heaven help me! I know not what I say or do. And Olive fell on her knees. She had no words to pray with, but in such time of agony all her thoughts were prayers. After a while these calmed her, and made her strong to endure one more trial, different from, perhaps even more awful than, all the rest. Much sorrow had been her life's portion, but never until this hour had Olive Rathse stood face to face with crime. She had now to learn the crowning lesson of virtue, how to deal with vice. Not by turning away in saintly pride, but by boldly confronting it, with an eye stern in purity, yet melting in compassion, remembering ever how all the souls that were were forfeit once, and he who might the vantage best have took found out the remedy. Angus Rathse's daughter read over once more the record of his sin. In so doing she was struck with the depth of that remorse which, to secure a future expiation, threw aside pride, reserve, and shame. How awful must have been the repentance which had impelled such a confession, and driven a father to humble himself in the dust before his own child. She seemed to hear, rising from the long-closed grave that mournful beseeching cry, a tone my sin. It silenced even the voice of her mother's wrongs. This duty then remained to fulfill which, as it would appear, Olive had been left alone on earth. The call seemed like that of fate. Nay, she half-shuttered to think of the almost supernatural chance which had arranged everything before her and made her course so plain. But it had often happened so. Her life appeared as some lives do, all woven about with mysteries, threads of guidance, first unseen, and then distinctly traced, forcing on the mind that sweet sense of invisible ministry which soothes all suffering, and causes a childlike rest on the omnipotence which out of all evil continually evolves good. With this thought there dawned upon Olive a solemn sense of calm. To lay down this world's crown of joys and to take up its cross. No longer to be ministered unto but to minister. This was to be her portion henceforth, and with this holy work was her lonely life to be filled. I will do it, she cried. Oh, my poor father, may God have forgiven you as my mother would, and as I now do. It is not mine to judge your sin. Enough for me is the duty to atone it. How can this be best fulfilled? She sat long in silence, mournfully pondering. She tried to collect every scattered link of memory respecting what she had heard of Crystal's mother. For such, she now knew, was the woman who for the time had once strongly excited her girlish imagination. That visit and its incidence now came vividly back upon her memory. Much there was which made her naturally revolt from the thought of this unhappy creature. How could it be otherwise with her mother's child? Still, amidst all, she was touched by the love of this other most wretched mother, who, living and dying, had renounced her maternal claim, and impressed upon her daughter's mind a feigned story, rather than let the brand of illegitimate birth rest upon the poor innocent. Suddenly she heard from the next room Crystal's happy, unconscious voice, singing merrily. My sister, Olive gasped. She is my sister, my father's child. And there came upon her, in a flood of mingled compassion and fear, all that Crystal would feel when she came to know the truth. Crystal, so proud of her birth, her position, whose haughty nature, inherited from both father and mother, had once struggled wrathfully against Olive's mild control. Such a blow as this would either crush her to the earth, or rousing up the demon in her, drive her to desperation. Thinking thus, Olive forgot everything in pity for the hapless girl. Everything, save an awestruck sense of the crime, which, as its necessary consequence, entailed such misery from generation to generation. It seemed most strange that Crystal had lived for so many years, cherishing her blind belief, nay, not even seeking to investigate it when it lay in her power, for since the day she returned from France, she had never questioned Miss Van Bra, nor alluded to the subject of her parentage. Such indifference seemed incredible, and could only be accounted for by Crystal's light, careless nature, her haughtiness, or her utter ignorance of the world. What was Olive to do? Was she to reveal the truth, and thus blast for ever this dawning life so full of hope? Was her hand to place the stigma of shame on the brow of this young creature? A girl, too. There might come a time when some proud, honorable man, however loving, would scruple to take to his bosom as a wife, one whose mother had never owned that name. But then, was Olive to fix on herself the perpetual burden of this secret, the continual dread of its betrayal? The doubt, lest one day, chance might bring it to Crystal's knowledge, perhaps when the girl would no longer be shielded by a sister's protection, or comforted by a sister's love. While she struggled in this conflict, she heard a voice at the door. Olive! Olive! The tone was more affectionate than usual. Are you never coming? I am quite tired of being alone. Do let me into the studio. Olive sprang to her desk and hid the letter therein. Then, without speaking, she had no power to speak. She mechanically unlocked the door. Well, I am glad to get you at last, cried Crystal merrily. I thought you were going to spend the night here. But what is the matter? You are as white as a ghost. You can't look me in the face. Why, one would almost imagine you had been planning a murder, and I was the innocent unconscious victim as the novels have it. You, a victim, cried Olive in great agitation. But by an almost superhuman effort she repressed it, and added quietly, Crystal, my dear, don't mind me. It is nothing. Only I feel ill. Excited. Why, what have you been doing? Olive instinctively answered the truth. I have been sitting here alone, thinking of old times, reading old letters. Whose? Nay, but I will know, answered Crystal, half playfully hath in earnest, as though there was some distrust in her mind. It was my father's. My poor father's. Is that all? Oh, then don't vex yourself about any old father dead and gone. I wouldn't. Though, to be sure, I never had the chance. Little I ever knew or cared about mine. Olive turned away and was silent. But Crystal, who seemed, for some reason best known to herself, to be in a particularly unreserved and benignant humor, said kindly, You poor little trembling thing, how ill you have made yourself. You can scarcely stand alone. Give me your hands, and I'll help you to the sofa. But Olive shrank as if there had been a sting in the slender fingers which lay on her arm. She looked at them, and a slight circumstance, long forgotten, rushed back upon her memory, something she had noticed to her mother the first night that the girl came home. Tracing the beautiful hereditary mold of the Rothsay line, she now knew why Crystal's hand was like her own father's. A shiver of instinctive repugnance came over her, and then the mysterious voice of kindred blood awoke in her heart. She took and passionately clasped that hand, the hand of her sister. Oh, Crystal, let us love one another. We, too, who have no other tie left to us on earth. But Crystal was rarely in a pathetic mood. She only shrugged her shoulders, and then stroked Olive's arm with a patronizing air. Come, your journey has been too much for you, and you had no business to wander off that way with Mrs. Gwynn. You shall lie down and rest a little and then go to bed. But Olive was afraid of night and its solitude. She knew there was no slumber for her. When she was a little recovered, feeling unable to talk, she asked Crystal to read aloud. The other looked annoyed. Pleasant to be a mere lady's companion and reader, Miss Rothsay forgets who I am, I think, muttered she, though apparently not meaning Olive to hear. But Olive did hear and shuddered at the hearing. Miss Manners carelessly took up the newspaper and read the first paragraph which caught her eye. It was one of those mournful episodes which are sometimes revealed at the London police courts. A young girl, a lady swindler, had been brought up for trial there. In her defense came out the story of a life, cradled in shame, nurtured in vice, and only working out its helpless destiny, that of a rich man's deserted illegitimate child. The report added that the convict was led from the dock in a state of violent excitement, calling down curses on her parents, but especially on her father, who, she said, had cruelly forsaken her mother. She ended by exclaiming that it was to him she herself owed all her life of misery and that her blood was upon his head. It was upon his head, burst forth crystal, whose sympathies, as by some fatal instinct, seemed attracted by a case like this. If I had been that girl, I would have hunted my vile father through the world, while he lived I would have heaped my miseries in his path, that everywhere they might torture and shame him. When he died I would have trampled on his grave and cursed him. She stood up, her eyes flashing, her hands clenched in one of those paroxysms which to her came so rarely, but when roused were terrible to witness. Her mother's soul was in the girl. Olive saw it, and from that hour knew that, whatever it cost her, the secret of crystal's birth must be buried in her own breast for evermore. Most faithfully Miss Rothsay kept her vow, but it entailed upon her the necessity of changing her whole plans for the future. For some inexplicable reason, crystal refused to go and live with her in Edinburgh, or in fact to leave Farnwood at all. Therefore Olive's despairing wish to escape from Harbury, and all its bitter associations, was entirely frustrated. It would be hard to say whether she lamented or rejoiced at this. The brave resolve had cost her much, yet she scarcely regretted that it would not be fulfilled. There was a secret sweetness in living near Harbury. In stealing, as it were, into a daughter's place, beside the mother of him she still so fervently loved. But thinking of him she did not suffer now. For all great trials there is an unseen compensation, and this last shock, with the change it had wrought, made her past sorrows grow dim. Life became sweeter to her, for it was filled with a new and holy interest. It could be so filled, she found, even when love had come and vanished, and only duty remained. She turned from all repining thoughts, and tried to make for herself a peaceful nest in her little home. And thither, above all, she desired to allure and to keep, with all gentle wiles of love, her sister. Her sister. Often yearning for kindred ties, she longed to fall on Crystal's neck and call her by that tender name. But she knew it could never be. And her heart had been too long schooled into patience, to murmur because in every human tie this seemed to be perpetually her doom. That, save one who was gone, none upon earth had ever loved her as much as she loved them. Harold Gwynne wrote frequently from Rome, but only to his mother. However, he always mentioned Miss Rothsay, and kindly. Once when Mrs. Gwynne was unable to write herself, she asked Olive to take her place and indulge Harold with a letter. He will be so glad you know. I think of all his friends there is none whom my son regards more warmly than you, said the mother. And Olive could not refuse. Why, indeed, should she feel reluctance? He had never been her lover. She had no right to feel wounded or angry at his silence. Certainly she would write. She did so. It was a quiet, friendly letter, making no reference to the past, expressing no regret, no pain. It was scarcely like the earnest letters which she had once written to him. That time was past. She tried to make it an epistle as from an ordinary acquaintance, easy and pleasant, full of everything likely to amuse him. She knew he would never dream how it was written, with a cold, trembling hand and throbbing heart. It's smooth sentences broken by pauses of burning, blinding tears. She said little about herself or her own affairs. Save to ask that, being in Rome, he would contrive to find out the vanbras of whom she had heard nothing for a long time. Writing, she paused a moment to think whether she should not apologize for giving him this trouble. But then she remembered his words, almost the last she had heard him utter, that she must always consider him as a friend and brother. I will do so, she murmured. I will not doubt him or his true regard for me. It is all he can give. And while he gives me that, I shall endure life contentedly, even unto the end. END OF CHAPTER 43 It was midwinter before the inhabitants of the dell were visited by their friend, Lyle Derwent, now grown a rich and important personage. Olive rather regretted his apparent neglect, for it aggrieved her to suspect a change in anyone whom she regarded. Crystal only mocked the while, at least in outside show. Miss Rothsay did not see with what eagerness the girl listened to every sound, nor how every morning, fair and foul, she would restlessly start to walk up the harbury road and meet the daily post. It was during one of these absences of hers that Lyle made his appearance. Olive was sitting in her painting-room, arranging the contents of her desk. She was just musing, for the hundredth time, over her father's letter, considering whether or not she should destroy it, lest any unforeseen chance, her own death, for instance, might bring the awful secret to Crystal's knowledge. Lyle's entrance startled her, and she hastily thrust the letter within the desk. Consequently her manner was rather fluttered, and her greetings scarcely so cordial as she would have wished it to be. The infection apparently communicated itself to her visitor, for he sat down, looking agitated and uncomfortable. "'You are not angry with me for staying so long away, are you, Miss Rothsay?' said Lyle, when he had received her congratulations on his recent acquisitions. You don't think this change in fortune will make any change in my heart towards you?' Olive half-smiled at his sentimental way of putting the matter, but it was the young man's peculiarity. So she frankly assured him that she had never doubted his regard towards her, at which poor Lyle fell into ecstasies of delight. They had a long talk together about his prospects, in all of which Olive took a warm and lively interest. He told her of his new house and grounds, of his plan of life, which seemed very arcadian and poetical indeed. But he was a simple-minded, warm-hearted youth, and Miss Rothsay listened with pleasure to all that he said. It did her good to see that there was a little happiness to be found in the world. You have drawn the sweetest possible picture of rural felicity, she said, smiling. I earnestly hope you may realize it, my dear Lyle. But I suppose one must not call you so any more, since you are now Mr. Derwent of Hollywood. Oh, no, call me Lyle, nothing but Lyle. It sounds so sweet from your lips. It always did, even when I was a little boy. I am afraid I have treated you quite like a boy until now. But you must not mind it, for the sake of old times. Do you remember them still, asked Lyle, a tone of deeper earnestness stealing through his affectations of sentiment? Do you remember how I was your little knight, and used to say I loved you better than all the world? I do indeed. It was an amusing rehearsal of what you will begin to enact in reality some of these days. You will make a most poetical lover. Do you think so? Oh, Miss Rothsay, do you really think so? And then his eagerness subsided into vivid blushes, which really caused olive pain. She began to fear that, unwittingly, she had been playing on some tender string, and that there was more earnest feeling in Lyle than she had ever dreamed of. She would not for the world have gested thus, had she thought there was any real attachment in the case. So a good deal touched and interested. She began to talk to him in her own quiet, affectionate way. You must not mistake me, Lyle. You must not think I am laughing at you. But I did not know that you had ever considered these things, though there is plenty of time, as you are only just twenty one. Tell me candidly, you know you may. Do you think you are ever seriously in love? It is very strange for you to ask me these questions. Then do not answer them. Forgive me, I only spoke from the desire I have to see you happy. You who are so mingled with many recollections, you poor Sarah's brother and my own little favorite in olden time. And speaking in a subdued and tender voice, olive held out her hand to Lyle. He snatched it eagerly. How I love to hear you speak thus. Oh, if I could but tell you all. You may indeed, said olive gently. I am sure, my dear Lyle, you can trust me. Tell me the whole story. The story of a dream I had, all my boyhood through, of a beautiful noble creature whom I reverenced, admired, and at last have dared to love. Lyle answered in much agitation. Olive felt quite sorry for him. I did not expect this, she said. You poetic dreamers have so many light fancies. My poor Lyle, is it indeed so? You whom I should have thought would choose a new idol every month. Have you all this while been seriously and heartily in love, and with one girl only? Are you quite sure it was but one? And she half smiled. He seemed now more confused than ever. One cannot but speak truth to you, he murmured. You make me tell you everything, whether I will or no. And if I did not, you might hear it from someone else, and that would make me very miserable. Well, what was it? That though I never loved but this my beautiful lady once, only once for a very little while I assure you, I was half disposed to like someone else whom you know. Olive thought a minute, and then said, very seriously, Was it crystal manners? It was. She led me into it, and then she teased me out of it. But indeed it was not love, only a mere passing fancy. Did you tell her of your feelings? Only in some foolish verses which she laughed at. You should not have done that. It is very wicked to make any pretence about love. Oh, dearest Miss Rothsay, you are not angry with me. Whatever my folly, you must know well that there is but one woman in the world whom I ever truly loved, whom I do love most passionately. It is yourself. Olive looked up in blank astonishment. She almost thought that sentiment had driven him crazy. But he went on with an earnestness that could not be mistaken, though it was mingled with some extravagance. All the good that is in me I learned from you when I was a little boy. I thought you an angel even then, and used to dream about you for hours. When I grew older, I made you an idol. All the poetry I ever wrote was about you, your golden hair and your sweet eyes. You seemed to me then and you seem now the most beautiful creature in the whole world. Lyle, you are mocking me, said Olive, sadly. Mocking you. It is very cruel to tell me so. And he turned away with an expression of deep pain. Olive began to wake from the bewilderment into which his words had thrown her. But she could not realize the possibility of Lyle Derwentz loving her, his senior by some years, many years older than he in heart. Pale, worn, deformed. For the sense of personal defect which had haunted her throughout her life was present still. But when she looked again at Lyle, she regretted having spoken to him so harshly. Forgive me, she said. All this is so strange. You cannot really mean it. It is utterly impossible that you can love me. I am old compared with you. I have no beauty, nay, even more than that. Here she paused, and her color sensitively rose. I know what you would say, quickly added the young man. But I think nothing of it. Nothing. To me you are, as I said, like an angel. I have come here today to tell you so, to ask you to share my riches and teach me to deserve them. Dearest Miss Rothsay, be not only my friend, but my wife. There was no doubting him now. The strong passion within gave him dignity and manhood. Olive scarcely recognized in the earnest war before her the posey, raving, blushing, sentimental Lyle. Great pain came over her. She had never dreamed of one trial. That of being loved by another as hopelessly as she herself loved. You do not answer, Miss Rothsay. What does your silence mean? That I have presumed too much. You think me a boy, a foolish, romantic boy. But I can love you for all that with my whole heart and soul. Oh, Lyle, why talk to me in this way? You do not know how deeply it grieves me. It grieves you. You do not love me, then. Well, he added, sighing, I could hardly expect it at once. But you will grant me time. You will let me try to prove myself worthy of you. You will give me hope. Olive shook her head mournfully. Lyle, dear Lyle, forget all this. It is a mere dream. It will pass. I know it will. You will choose some young girl who is suited for you, and to whom you will make a good and happy husband. Lyle turned very pale. That means to say that you think me unworthy to be yours. No. No, I did not say you were unworthy. You are dear to me. You always were, though not in that way. It goes to my very heart to inflict even a momentary pain. But I cannot, cannot marry you. Much agitated Olive hid her face. Lyle moved away to the other end of the room. Perhaps with manhood's love was also dawning manhood's pride. There must be some reason for this, he said at last. If I am dear to you, though ever so little, a stronger love for me might come in time. Will it be so? No, never. Are you quite sure? Quite sure. Perhaps I am too late, he continued bitterly. You may already love someone else. Tell me, I have a right to know. She blushed crimson, and then arose, not without dignity. I think, Lyle, you go too far. We will cease this conversation. Forgive me. Forgive me, cried Lyle, melted at once and humbled too. I will ask no more. I do not wish to hear. It is misery enough for me to know that you can never be mine, that I must not love you any more. But you may regard me tenderly still. You may learn to feel for me as a sister, an elder sister. That is the fittest relation between us. You yourself will think so in time. And Olive truly believed what she said. Perhaps she judged him rightly, that this passion was indeed only a boyish romance, such as most men have in their youth, which fades painlessly in the realities of after years. But now, at least, it was most deep and sincere. As Miss Rothsay spoke, once more, as in his childish days, Lyle threw himself at her feet, taking both her hands and looking up in her face with the wildest adoration. I must, must worship you still. I always shall. You are so good, so pure. I look up to you as to some saint. I was mad to think of you in any other way. But you will not forget me. You will guide and counsel me always. Only if you should be taken away from me, if you should marry. I shall never marry, said Olive, uttering the words she had uttered many a time, but never more solemnly than now. Lyle regarded her for a long and breathless space, and then laying his head on her knees he wept like a child. That moment at the suddenly opened door there stood crystal manners, like a vision she came and passed. Lyle never saw her at all. But Olive did. And when the young man had departed amidst all her own agitation, there flashed before her, as it were an omen of some woe to come, that livid face, lit with its eyes of fire. Not long had Olive to ponder, for the door once more opened and crystal came in. Her hair had all fallen down, her eyes had the same intense glare, her bonnet and shawl were still hanging on her arm. She flung them aside and stood in the doorway. Miss Rothsay, I wish to speak with you, and that no one may interrupt us, I will do this. She bolted and locked the door, and then clenched her fingers over the key, as if it had been a living thing for her to crush. Olive sat utterly confounded, for in her sister she saw two likenesses, one of the woman who had once shrieked after her the name of Rothsay, the other, that of her own father in his rare moments of passion, as she had seen him the night he had called her by that approbrious word, which had planted the sense of personal humiliation in her heart for life. Crystal walked up to her. Now tell me, for I will know, what has passed between you and him who just now went hence? Lyle Derwent. Yes, repeat every word, every word. Why so? You are not acting kindly towards me, said Olive, trying to resume her won'ted dignity, but still speaking in a placable, quiet tone. My dear Crystal, you are younger than I and have scarcely a right to question me thus. Right? When it comes to that, where is yours? How dare you suffer Lyle Derwent to kneel at your feet? How dare you, I say? Crystal, Crystal, hush. I will not. I will speak. I wish every word were a dagger to stab you, wicked, wicked woman, who have come between me and my lover, for he is my lover and I love him. You love him? You stole him from me. You bewitched him with your vile flatteries. How else could he have turned from me to you? And lifting her graceful majestic height, she looked contemptuously on poor shrinking Olive. I, as her father, the father of both, had done before. Olive remembered the time well. For a moment a sense of cruel wrong pressed down her compassion, but it rose again. Who was most injured, most unhappy? She or the young creature who stood before her, shaken by the storm of rage. She stretched out her hands intreatingly. Crystal, do listen. Indeed, indeed, I am innocent. I shall never marry that poor boy. Never. I have just told him so. He has asked you then, and the girl almost gnashed her teeth. Then he has deceived me. No, I will not believe that. It is you who are deceiving me now. If he loved you, you were sure to love him. What am I to do? How am I to convince you? How hard this is? Hard? What then must it be to me? You did not think this passion was in me, did you? You judged me by that meek, cold-blooded heart of yours. But mine is all burning, burning, woe be to those who kindled the fire. She began to walk to and fro, sweeping past Olive with angry strides. She looked, from head to foot, her mother's child. Hate and love, melting and mingling together, flashed from her black southern eyes. But in the close mouth there was an iron will, inherited with her northern blood. Suddenly she stopped and confronted Olive. You consider me a mere girl, but I learned to be a woman early. I had need. Poor child. Poor child. How dare you pity me? You think I am dying for love, do you? But no, it is pride, only pride. Why did I not always scorn that pitiful boy? I did once, and he knows it. And afterwards, because there was no one else to care for, and I was lonely and wanted a home, haughty and wanted a position, I have humbled myself thus. Then, Crystal, if you never did really love him. Who told you that? Not I. She cried, her broken and contradictory speech revealing the chaos of her mind. I say I did love him, more than you with your cold prudence could ever dream of. What could such and one as you know about love? Yet you have taken him from me. I tell you no. Never till this day did he breathe one word of love to me. I can show you his letters. Letters, he wrote to you then and I never knew it. Oh, how I hate you! I could kill you where you stand. She went to the open desk and began searching there with trembling hands. What? What are you going to do? cried Olive, with sudden terror. To take his letters and read them. I do it in your presence, for I am no dishonorable thief. But I will know everything. You are in my power. You need not stir or shriek. But Olive did shriek, for she saw that Crystal's hand already touched the one fatal letter. I hope there was that she might pass it by, unconscious that it contained her doom. But no, her eye had been attracted by her own name mentioned in the post-script. More wicked devices against me cried the girl passionately. But I will find out this plot, too. And she began to unfold the paper. The letter! Give me that letter! Oh, Crystal, for the happiness of your whole life I charge you, I implore you not to read it! cried Olive, springing forward and catching her arm. But Crystal thrust her back with violence. Tis something you wish to hide from me, but I defy you. I will read. Nevertheless in the confusion of her mind she could not at once find the passage where she had seen her own name. She began, and read the letter all through, though without a change of countenance until she reached the end. Then the change was so awful none could be like it, save that left by death on the human face. Her arms fell paralyzed, and she staggered dizzily against the wall. Trembling, Olive crept up and touched her. Crystal recoiled and stamped on the ground, crying, It is all a lie, a hideous lie! You have forged it, to shame me in the eyes of my lover! Not so, said Olive most tenderly. No one in the wide world knows this but we, too. No one ever shall know it. Oh, would that you had listened to me! Then I should still have kept the secret even from you! My sister, my poor sister! Sister, and you are his child, his lawful child, while I, but you shall not live to taunt me. I will kill you that you may go to your father and mine, and tell him that I cursed him in his grave. As she spoke she wreathed her arms round Olive's slight frame, but the deadly embrace was such as never sister gave. With the marvellous strength of fury she lifted her from the floor and dashed her down again. In falling Olive's forehead struck against the marble chimney-piece and she lay stunned and insensible on the hearth. Crystal looked at her sister for a moment, without pity or remorse, but in motionless horror. Then she unlocked the door and fled. CHAPTER 44 When Olive returned to consciousness she was lying on her own bed, the same where on her mother had died. Olive almost thought that she herself had died, too, so still lay the shadows of the white curtains, cast by the one faint nightlamp that was hidden on the floor. She breathed heavily in a kind of sigh, and then she was aware of some watcher close by, who said, softly, Are you sleeping, my dear Olive? In her confused fancy the voice seemed to her like heralds. She imagined that she was dead and that he was sitting beside her beer, sorrowfully, perhaps even in tenderness, as he might look on her then. So strong was the delusion that she feebly uttered his name. It is Harold's mother, my dear. Were you dreaming about my son? Olive was far too ill to have any feelings of self-betrayal or shame, nor was there any consecutive memory in her exhausted mind. She only stretched out her hands to Harold's mother with a sense of refuge and peace. Take care of me. Oh, take care of me, she murmured. And as she felt herself drawn lovingly to that warm breast, the breast where Harold had once lain, she could there have slept herself into painless death, wherein the only consciousness was this one thought of him. But after an hour or two, the life within her grew stronger, and she began to consider what had happened. A horrible doubt came of something she had to hide. Tell me, do tell me, Mrs. Gwynn, have I said anything in my sleep? Don't mind it, whatever it be. I am ill, you know. Yes, you have been ill for some days. I have been nursing you. And what has happened in this house the while? Oh, where is Crystal? Poor Crystal! There was a frown on Mrs. Gwynn's countenance, a frown so stern that it brought back to Olive's memory all that had befallen. earnestly regarding her, she said, Something has happened. Something awful. How much of it do you know? Everything. But, Olive, we must not talk. I must not be left to think, or I should lose my senses again. Therefore let me hear all that you have found out, I intrigue you. Mrs. Gwynn saw she had best comply, for there was still a piteous bewilderment in Olive's look. Lie still, she said, and I will tell you. I came to this house when that miserable girl was rushing from it. I brought her back. I controlled her, as I have ere now controlled passions as wild as hers, though she is almost a demon. Hush, hush, murmured Olive. She told me everything. But all is safe, for I have possession of the letter, and I have nursed you myself alone. Oh, how good! How wise! How faithful you have been! I would have done all and more for your sake, Olive, and for the sake of your unhappy father. But, oh, that ever I should hear this of Angus Rothsay. Alas, it is a sinful, sinful world. Never knew I one truly good man save my son Harold. The mention of this name fell on Olive's wandering thoughts like balm, turning her mind from the horror she had passed through. Besides, from her state of exhaustion, everything was growing dim and indistinct to her mind. You shall tell me more another time, she said. And then, sinking back on her pillow, still holding fast the hand of Harold's mother, she lay and slept till morning. When, in the daylight, she recovered a little more, Mrs. Gwyn told her all that had happened. From the moment that Crystal saw her sister carried upstairs, dead as it were, her passion ceased. But she exhibited neither contrition nor alarm. She went and locked herself up in her chamber, from whence she had never stirred. She let no one enter except Mrs. Gwyn, who seemed to have over her that strong rule which was instinctive in such a woman. She it was who brought Crystal her meals and compelled her to take them. Or else, in her cell in misery, the girl would, as she threatened, have starved herself to death. And though many a stormy contest arose between the two, when Mrs. Gwyn, stern in her justice, began to reprove and condemn, still she ever conquered so far as to leave Crystal silent, if not subdued. Subdued she was not. Night after night, when Olive was recovering, they heard her pacing up and down her chamber, sometimes even until dawn. A little her spirit had been crushed, Mrs. Gwyn thought, when there was hanging over her what might become the guilt of murder. But as soon as Olive's danger passed, it again rose. No commands, no persuasions could induce Crystal to visit her sister, though the latter entreated it daily, longing for the meeting and reconciliation. But in illness there is great peace sometimes, especially after a long mental struggle. In the dreamy quiet of her sick room, all things belonging to the world without, all cares, all sufferings, grew dim to Olive. I, even her love, it became sanctified, as though it had been an affection beyond the grave. She lay for hours together, thinking of Herald, of all that had passed between them. Of his goodness, his tender friendship, of hers to him, more faithful than he would ever know. It was very sweet, too, to be nursed so tenderly by Herald's mother, to feel that there was growing between them a bond like that of parent and child. Often Mrs. Gwyn even said so, wishing that in her old age she could have a daughter like Olive. And now and then, when Olive did not see, she stole a penetrating glance, as if to observe how her words were received. One day when Olive was just able to sit up, and looked in her white drapery and close cap, so like her lost mother, Mrs. Gwyn entered with letters. Olive grew pale. To her fancy every letter that came to Harbury could only be from Rome. Good tidings, my dear, tidings from Herald, but you are trembling. Everything sudden startles me now. I am very weak, I fear, murmured Olive. But you look so pleased. All is well with him? All is quite well. He has written me a long letter, and here is one for you. For me, the poor pale face lighted up, and the hand was eagerly stretched out. But when she held the letter she could not open it for trembling. In her feebleness all power of self control vanished. She looked wistfully at Herald's writing, and burst into tears. Mrs. Gwyn regarded Olive for a moment, as his mother naturally would, jealous over her own claim, yet not blaming the one whose only blame was loving where she did. But she said nothing, or in any way betrayed the secret she had learnt. Perhaps, after all, she was proud that her son should be so truly loved, and by such a woman. Leaning over Olive she soothed her with great tenderness. You are indeed too weak to hear anything of the world without. I ought to have taken better care of you, my dear child. Nay, never mind, because you gave way a little. She said, seeing the burning blushes that rose one after the other in Olive's face. It was quite natural. The most trifling thing must agitate one who has been so very, very ill. Come, will you read your letter, or shall I put it by till you are stronger? No, no, I should like to read it. He is very good to write to me, very good indeed. I felt his kindness the more from being ill. That is why it made me weep, said Olive faintly. Certainly, my dear, but I will leave you now, for I have not yet read mine. I am sure Harold would be pleased to know how glad we both are to hear from him, said Mrs. Gwynne, with a light but kindly emphasis. And then Olive was left alone. Oh, that Harold had seen her as she sat. Oh, that he had heard her broken words of thankful joy when she read of his welfare. Then he might at last have felt what blessedness it was to be so loved, to reign like a throned king in a pure woman's heart, where no man had ever reigned before, and none ever would until that heart was dust. Harold wrote much as he had always done, perhaps a little more reservedly, and with a greater degree of measured kindness. He took care to answer every portion of Olive's letter, but wrote little about himself or his own feelings. He had not been able to find out the vampiras, he said, though he would try every possible means of so doing before he left Rome for Paris. Miss Rothsay must always use his services in everything, when needed, he said, nor forget how much he was her sincere and faithful friend. He is that, and will be always. I am content, quite content. And she gazed down, calmly smiling at the letter on her knee. This news from Rome seems to have given her new life. Hour by hour she grew rapidly better, and the peace in her own heart made it the more to yearn over her unhappy sister, who, if sinning, had been sinned against, and who, if she aired much, must bitterly suffer too. Tell Crystal I long to see her, she said. Tomorrow I shall be quite strong, I think, and then I will go to her room myself, and never quit her until we are reconciled. But Crystal declared no power should induce her to meet Olive more. Alas! What are we to do? cried Olive sorrowfully. And the whole night, during which she was disturbed by the restless sounds in Crystal's room, she lay awake, planning numberless compassionate devices to soothe and win over this obdurate heart. Something told her they would not be in vain. Love rarely is. When it was almost morning she peacefully fell asleep. It was late when she awoke, and then the house, usually so quiet, seemed all a stir. Hastey feet were passing in all directions, and Mrs. Gwynne's voice, sharpened and agitated, was heard in the next room. Very soon she stood by Olive's bed, and told her troubled tale. Crystal had fled. ere anyone had risen, whilst the whole household must have been asleep, she had affected her escape. It was evidently done with the greatest ingenuity and forethought. Her door was still bolted, and she had apparently descended from the window, which was very low, and made accessible by an espalier. But the flight, thus secretly accomplished, had doubtless been long arranged and provided for, since all her money and ornaments, together with most of her attire, had likewise disappeared. In whatever way the scheme had been planned and executed, the fact was plain that it had thoroughly succeeded. Crystal was gone. Wither there was at first not a single clue to tell. But when afterwards her room was searched, they found a letter addressed to Miss Rothsay. It ran thus. I would have killed myself days since, but that I know in so doing I should release you from a burden and a pang which I wish to last your life, as it must mine. Also, had I died, I might have gone to hell, and there met him whom I hate, my wicked, wicked father. Therefore I would not die. But I will not stay to be tyrannized over, or insulted by hypocritical pity. I will neither eat your bread, nor live upon the cowardly charity of the man who is dead. I intend to work for my own maintenance, most likely to offer myself as a teacher in the school where I was brought up. I tell you this plainly, though I tell you at the same time, that if you dare to seek me there or drag me thence, but no, you will be glad to be freed from me forever. One thing only I regret, that injustice to my own mother I must no longer think tenderly of yours, for yourself all is ended between us. Pardon I neither ask nor grant, I only say farewell, crystal manners. The letter was afterwards apparently reopened, and a hasty post-script added, Tell Lyle Derwent that I have gone forever, or still better, that I am dead. But if you dare to tell him anything more, I will hunt you through the world, but I will be revenged. Mrs. Gwynne read this letter aloud. It awoke in the stern, upright, God-fearing Scotswoman less of pity than a solemn sense of retributive justice which she could scarcely repress, even though it involved the condemnation of him whose memory was mingled with the memories of her youth. But Olive, more gentle, tried to wash away her dead father's guilt with tears, and for her living sister she offered unto heaven that beseeching never offered in vain, a pure heart's humble prayers. End of Chapter 44 Chapter 45 of Olive This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. Olive by Dinah Maria Craig Chapter 45 Many a consultation was held between Mrs. Gwynne and Olive as to what must be done concerning that hapless child. For little more than a child she was in years, though her miserable destiny had nurtured in her so much of woman's suffering, and more than woman's sin. Yet still, when Olive read the reference to Mrs. Rothsay, she thought there might yet be a lingering angel sitting in poor crystal's heart. Oh, that someone could seek her out and save her. Someone who would rule and yet soothe her, who, coming from us, should not be mingled with us in her fancy, so that no good influence might be lost. I have thought of this, answered Mrs. Gwynne. But Olive, it is a solemn secret, your father's too. You ought never to reveal it, except to one bound to you by closest ties. If you married, your husband would have a right to know it, or you might tell your brother. I do not quite understand, said Olive, yet she changed color a little. Mrs. Gwynne kindly dropped her eyes, and avoided looking at her companion, as she said, You, my dear, are my adopted daughter, therefore my son should be to you as a brother. Will you trust Harold? Trust him. There is nothing with which I could not trust him, said Olive earnestly. She had long found out that praise of Harold was as sweet to his mother's heart as to her own. Then trust him in this. I think he has almost a right, or one day he may have. Mrs. Gwynne's latter words sank indistinctly, and scarcely reached Olive. Perhaps it was well. Such light falling on her darkness might have blinded her. Airlong the decision was made. Mrs. Gwynne wrote to her son and told him all. He was in Paris then, as she knew. So she charged him to seek out the school where Crystal was, sustained by his position as a clergyman, his grave dignity and his mature years, he might well and ably exercise an unseen guardianship over the girl. His mother earnestly desired him to do this, from his natural benevolence and for Olive's sake. I said that, my dear, observed Mrs. Gwynne, because I know his strong regard for you, and his anxiety for your happiness. These words, thrilling in her ear, made broken and trembling the few lines which Olive wrote to Harold, saying how entirely she trusted him, and how she implored him to save her sister. I am ready to do all you wish, wrote Harold in reply. Oh, my dear friend, to whom I owe so much, most happy should I be if in any way I could do good to you and yours. From that time his letters came frequently and regularly. Passages from them will best show how his work of mercy sped. Paris, January. I have had no difficulty in gaining admittance to the pension, for I chanced to go in Lord Arundel's carriage, and Madame Blandin would receive anyone who came under the shadow of an English milord. Crystal is there, in the situation she planned. I found out speedily, as she, poor girl, will find, how different is the position of a poor teacher from that of a rich pupil? I could not speak with her at all. Madame Blandin said she refused to see any English friends, and, besides, she could not be spared from the schoolroom. I must try some other plan. Do not speak again of this matter being burdensome to me. How could it be so, when it is for you and your sister? Believe me, though the duty is somewhat new, it is most grateful to me for your sake, my dear friend. I have seen Crystal. It was at Mass. She goes there with some Catholic pupils, I suppose. I watched her closely, but secretly. Poor girl, a life's anguish is written in her face. How changed, since I last saw it? Even knowing all, I could not choose but pity her. When she was bending before a crucifix, I saw how her whole frame trembled with sobs. It seemed not like devotion. It must be heartbroken misery. I came closer, to meet her when she rose. The moment she saw me, her whole face blazed. But for the sanctity of the place, I think she could not have controlled herself. I never before saw at once such anger, such defiance, and yet such bitter shame. She turned away, took her little pupils by the hand, and walked out of the chapel. I dared not follow her, but many times since then I have watched her from the same spot, taking care that she should not see me. Who would think that haggard woman, sharp in manner, careless in dress, you see how closely I observe her, was the blithe crystal of old. But I sometimes fancied, even from her sporting, that there was the tigress nature in that girl, poor thing, and she had the power of passionately loving, too. Ah, we should all be slow to judge. We never can look into the depths of one another's hearts. Crystal saw me to-day. Her eye was almost demoniacal in its threatening. Perhaps the pity she must have read in mine only kindled hers with wrath the more. I do not think she will come to the chapel again. My dear Miss Rothsay, I do not like playing this underhand game. It almost makes me despise myself. Yet it is with a good intent, and I would do anything from my friendship for you. I have heard much about your sister to-day from a girl who was a pensionaire at Madame Blendance. But fear not, I did the questioning skillfully, nor betrayed anything. My friend, you know me well as you say, but even you know not how wisely I can acquire one secret and hold fast another. An honourable school of hypocrisy I learned in, truly. But to my subject, little Clotilde does not love her instructress. Poor Crystal seems to be at war with the whole household. The pupil and the poor teacher must be very different in Madame Blendance's eyes. No wonder the girl is embittered. No marvel are those storms of passion, in which, according to Clotilde, she indulges, just as if she were a great English malady, when she is nobody at all, as I told her once, said the triumphant little French girl. And what did she answer, asked I. She went into a great fury and shook me till I trembled all over. Then she threw herself on her own bed, at one end of the dormitory, and all that night, whenever I woke, I heard her crying and moaning. I would have been sorry for her, except that she was only the teacher. A poor, penniless Anglès. This, my friend, is the lesson that Crystal must soon have to learn. It will ring her heart, and either break it or soften it. But trust me, I will watch over her continually. Ill-fitted I may be, for the duty is more that of a woman, such a woman as yourself. But you have put something of your own nature into mine. I will silently guard Crystal as if I had been her own brother, and yours. The crisis must be coming, from what the little girl tells me. This manners and Madame Blandin have been at open war for days. Clotilde is in great glee since the English teacher is going away. Poor for Lauren Crystal, wither can she go. I must try and save her before it is too late. I sit down at midnight to inform you of all that has happened this day, that you may at once answer and tell me what further I am to do. I went once more to visit Madame Blandin, who poured out upon me a whole stream of reproaches against Crystal. She was on petit diable always, and now, though she has been my own pupil for years, I would rather turn her out to starve than keep her in my house for another day. But, said I, you might at least find her some other situation. I offered, if she would only tell me who she is and what are her connections. I cannot recommend as a governess a girl without friends, a nobody. Yes, you took her as a pupil. Oh, monsieur, that was a different matter, and then I was so liberally paid. Now, if you should be a relative. I am not, as I told you, said I, indignant at the woman's meanness. But I will see this poor girl nevertheless if she will permit me. Her permission is no matter. No one cares for Miss Manners' whims now, was the careless reply, as Madame ushered me into the deserted schoolroom, and then quickly vanished. She evidently dreaded a meeting with her refractory teacher. While she might, for there sat Crystal, but I will tell you all minutely. You see how I try to note down every trifle, knowing your anxiety. Crystal was sitting at the window, gazing at the high, blank convent like walls. Dull helpless misery was in every line of her face and attitude. But the moment she saw me she rose up, her eyes darting fire. Have you come to insult me, Mr. Gwyn? Did I not send you word I would see no one? What do you mean by haunting me in this way? I spoke to her very quietly, and begged her to remember I was a friend, and had parted from her as such only three months before. But you know what has happened since. Attempt not to deceive me, you do. I read it in your eyes long ago at the chapel. You are come to pity the poor nameless wretch, the, ah, you know the horrible word. Well, do I look like that? Can you read in my face my mother's shame? She was half beside herself, I saw. It was an awful thing to hear her, a young girl, talk thus to me, I, and without one natural blush. I said to her gently, that I knew the unhappy truth, but as regarded herself it could make no difference of feeling in any right judging mind, nor would with those who had loved her, and who now anxiously wished to hear from me of her welfare. You mean your mother, who hates me as I hate her, and Olive Roth say whom I tried to murder. Friend, you did not tell me that. I drew back the hand I had offered. Forgive me, Olive. Let me this once call you so. Forgive me that I felt a momentary abhorrence for the miserable creature who might have taken your precious life away. Yet you would not tell the fact, even to me. Remembering this I turned again to your sister, who cannot be altogether evil since she is dear to you. I said, and solemnly I know, for I was greatly moved. Crystal, from your own lips have I first heard of this. Your sisters were sealed, as they would have been on that other secret. Are you not softened by all this goodness? No. She thinks to crush me down with it, does she? But she shall not do so. If I grow wicked, I, worse than you ever dream of, I shall be glad. It will punish her for the wrong her father did, and so I shall be revenged upon his child. Remember, it is all because of him. As to his daughter I could have loved her once, until she came between me and— I know all that, said I, heedlessly enough, but I was not thinking of Crystal just then. She rose up in a fury and demanded what right I had to know. I answered her as, after a struggle with myself I thought best. How, I will tell you one day, but I must hasten on now. She was calmed a little, I saw, but her passion rose again when I mentioned Lyle. Speak of that no more, she cried. It is all past and gone. There is no feeling in my heart but hatred and burning shame. Oh, that I had never been born. I pitied her from my soul, as she crouched down, not weeping, but groaning out her misery. Strange that she should have let me see it, but she was so humbled now, and perceiving that I trusted her, perhaps she was the more one to trust me. I had considered this when I spoke to her as I did. My dear friend Olive, I myself am learning what I feign would teach this poor girl, that there is sometimes great evil done by that selfishness which we call a just pride. While we were talking, I very earnestly, and she listening much subdued, there entered Madame Blondin. At the sight of her the evil spirit awoke again in unhappy Crystal. She did not speak, but I saw the flaming of her eyes, the haughtiness of her gesture. It was not tempered by the woman's half insulting manner. I am come to make one last offer to Mademoiselle, who will do well to accept it, always with the advice of her English friend, or whatever he may be, she added, smirking. I have already told you, Madame, that I am a clergyman, and that this young lady is my mother's friend, said I, striving hard to restrain my anger, by thinking of one for whom I ought and would endure all things. Then Monsieur can easily explain the mystery about Mademoiselle Crystal, and she can accept the situation. For her talents I myself will answer. It is merely requisite that she should be of Protestant principles and of good parentage. Now, of course, the latter is no difficulty with a young lady who was once so enthusiastic about her high family. Crystal looked as if she could have sprung at her tormentor and torn her limb from limb. Then, turning deadly white, she gasped out, take me away, let me hide my head anywhere. Madame Blondane began to make bitter guesses at the truth. I feared lest she would drive the girl mad or goad her on to the perpetration of some horrible crime. I dared not leave her in the house another hour. A thought struck me. Come, Crystal, I said, I will take you home with me. Home with you? What then would they say of me, the cruel, malicious world? I am beginning to be very wise in crime, you see, and she laughed frightfully. But it matters not what is done by my mother's child. I will go. You shall, I said, gravely, to the care of my friend, Lady Erendale. It will be enough for her to hear that you come from Harbury and are known to me. Crystal resisted no more. I brought her to share the kindness of good Lady Erendale, who needed no other guarantee than that it was a kindness asked by me. Olive, may I begin to call you so, acting as your brother I feel to have almost a right. Olive, be at rest. Tonight ere I sat down to write, I heard that your sister was quietly sleeping beneath this hospitable roof. It will shelter her safely until some other plan can be formed. I also feel at peace, since I have given peace to you. Peace too I see in both our futures, when this trouble is over past. God grant it. Key to whom, as I stand at this window, and look up at the stars shining down into the midnight river, I cry, thou art my God. I have an awful tale to tell. One that I should fear to inform you, save that I can say, thank God with me that the misery has passed, that he has overruled it into good. So, reading this, do not tremble, do not let it startle you. Feeble, as my mother tells me you still are. Poor little Olive, she calls you so. Last night, after I closed my letter, I went out to take my usual quiet ramble before going to rest. I went to the Pont-Noillet, near which Lord Arendelle resides. I walked slowly, for I was thinking deeply, of what it matters not now. On the whole my thoughts were happy. So happy that I did not see how close to me was standing misery. Misery in the shape of a poor wretch, a woman. When I did see her it was with that pang, half shame, half pity, which must smite an honest man, to think how vile and cruel are some among his brethren. I went away to the other wall of the bridge. I could not bear that the unhappy creature should think I watched her crouching there. I was just departing without again looking round, when my eye was unconsciously caught by the glitter of white garments in the moonlight. She was climbing the parapet to leap into the arms of death. I know not how that awful moment passed, what I said or did, for there was no time for words. But I saved her. I held her fast, though she struggled with miraculous strength. Once she had nearly periled both our lives, for we stood on the very edge of the bridge. But I saved her. Olive cry with me, Thank God! Thank God! At last, half fainting, she sank on the ground, and I saw her face. It was Crystal's face. If I had not been kept wandering here, filled with these blessed thoughts, which, please heaven, I will tell you one day, your sister might have perished. Say again with me, Thank God! His mercy is about us continually. I cannot clearly tell what I did in that first instant of horror. I only remember that Crystal, recognizing me, cried out in piteous reproach, You should have let me die. You should have let me die. But she is saved. Olive be sure that she is saved. Her right spirit will come into her again. It is coming even now, for she is with kind Lady Arendale, a woman almost like yourself. To her, when I carried Crystal home, I was obliged to reveal something of the truth, though not much. How the miserable girl contrived to escape, we cannot tell. But it will not happen again. Do not be unhappy about your sister. Take care of your own health. Think how precious you are to my mother and to—all your friends. This letter is abrupt, for my thoughts are still bewildered, but I will write again soon. Only let me hear that you are well, and that in this matter you trust to me. I have not seen Crystal for many days until yesterday. She has had a severe illness, during which Lady Arendale has been almost like a mother to her. We thought it best that she should see no one else, but yesterday she sent for me, and I went. She was lying on a sofa, her high spirit utterly broken. She faintly smiled when I came in, but her mouth had a patient sunken look, such as I have seen you wear when you were ill last year. She reminded me of you much. I could almost have wept over her. Do you not think I am strangely changed? I do sometimes. But no more of this now. Crystal made no illusion to the past. She said she desired to speak to me about her future, to consult me about a plan she had. It was one at which I did not marvel. She wished to hide herself from the world altogether, in some life which in its eternal quiet might be most like death. I said to her, I will see what can be done, but it is not easy. There are no convents or monasteries open to us Protestants. Crystal looked for a moment like her own scornful self. Us Protestants, she echoed, and then she said humbly, One more confession can be nothing to me now. I have deceived you all. I am, and I have ever been, a Roman Catholic. She thought, perhaps, I should have blamed her for this long course of religious falsehood. I blame her. Olive, for God's sake, do not let my mother read all I write to you. She shall know everything soon, but not now. But you will not thwart me, Crystal said. Though you are an English clergyman, you will find me some resting place, some convent where I can hide, and no one ever hear of me any more. I found that to oppose her was useless. Little religion she ever seemed to have had, so that no devoteeism urged her to this scheme, she only wanted rest. You will agree with me that it is best she should have her will, for the time at least. I have just received your letter. Yes, yours is a wise and kindly plan. I will write it once to Aunt Flora about it. Poor Crystal. Perhaps she may find peace as a novice at St. Margaret's. Some little fear I had in communicating the scheme to her, for she still shudders at the very mention of her father's name, and she might refuse to go to her father's land. But she is so helpless in body and mind that in everything she has at last implicitly trusted to my guidance. I suppose you too have heard from Edinburgh. Dear Aunt Flora, who, despite her growing feebleness, is continually seeking to do good. I, like you, judged it better not to tell her the whole story, but only that Crystal was an orphan who had suffered much. At St. Margaret's she will see no one but the Good Nuns, until, as your aunt proposes, you yourself go to Edinburgh. You may be your sister's saving angel still. Crystal is gone. Lady Arendale herself will take her safe to St. Margaret's, where your aunt has arranged all. Olive, we must not fail both to go to Edinburgh soon. Something tells me this will be the last good deed done on earth by our noble Aunt Flora. For what you say in your last letter, thank you. But why do you talk of gratitude? All I ever did was not half worthy of you. You ask of myself and my plans. I have thought little of either lately, but I shall now. Tell my mother that all her letters came safe and welcome, especially the first, she wrote. Lord Arendale stays abroad until the years close. For me, in the early spring, when I have finished my duties with him, I shall come home. Home. Thank God. CHAPTER 46 Night and day there rung in Olive's heart the last words of Harold's letter. I shall come home. Simple they were, but they seemed so strangely joyful, so full of hope. She could not tell why, but, thinking of him now, her whole world seemed to change. He was coming back. With him came spring and sunshine, youth and hope. It was yet early in the year. The little crocuses peeped out. The violets purpled the banks. Now and then came soft west winds, sighing sweetness over the earth. Not a breeze passed her by. Not a flower sprang in her sight. Not one sunny day dawned to ripen the growing year, but Olive's heart leaped within her. For she said, He will come with the spring. He will come with the spring. How and with what mind he would come? Whether he would tell her he loved her or ask her to be his wife, she counted none of these things. Her love was too unselfish, too utterly bound up in him. She only thought that she would see his face, clasp his hand and walk with him, the same as in the dear old time. Not quite, perhaps, for she was conscious that in the bond between them had come a change, a growth. How she knew not, but it had come. Sometimes she sat thinking. Would he tell her all those things which he had promised, and what could they be? And above all, would he call her, as in his letters, Olive. Written it looked most beautiful in her sight, but when spoken, it must be a music of which the world could hold no parallel. A little she strove to temper her happiness, for she was no lovesick girl but a woman, who, giving her heart, how wholly none but herself could tell, had given it in the fear of God and in all simplicity. Having known the sorrow of love, she was not ashamed to rejoice in love's joy, but she did so meekly and half tremblingly, scarcely believing that it was such, lest it should overpower her. She set herself to all her duties, and, above all, worked sedulously at a picture which she had begun. It must be finished before Harold comes home, said Harold's mother. I told him of it in my letters, you know. Indeed, I do not remember that, and yet for this long while you have let me see all your letters, I think. All, except one I wrote when you were ill, but never mind it, my dear, I can tell you what I said. Or perhaps Harold will, answered Mrs. Gwynne, her face brightening in its own peculiar smile of heartfelt benevolence and lurking humor, and then the brief conversation ceased. For a while longer these two loving hearts waited anxiously for Harold's coming, at last he came. It was in the sweetest month, the opening gate of the summer year, April. Mrs. Gwynne and Olive, only they too, had spent the day together at Harbury, for little Eiley, a child too restless to be ruled by quiet age, was now sent away to school. Mrs. Gwynne sat in her armchair, knitting. Olive stood at the window, thinking how beautiful the garden looked, just freshened with an April shower, and how the same passing rain cloud, melting in the west, had burst into a most gorgeous sunset. Her happiness even took a light tone of girlish romance. Looking at the thorn tree, now covered with pale green leaves, she thought with a pleasant fancy that when it was white with blossoms Harold would be here, and her full heart, hardly conscious why, ran over with a trembling joy. Nevertheless, amidst all her own hope, she remembered tenderly her poor sister far away, and also Lyle, whom since that day he parted from her she had never seen. Thinking, how sweet it is to feel happy, she thought likewise, as those who have suffered ever must, heaven make all the world happy too. It was just after this silent aspiration, which of all others must bring an answering blessing down, that the long desired one came home. His mother heard him first. Hark! There's someone in the hall. Listen, Olive. It is his voice. I know it is. He has come home. My son. My dear son, Harold. And with eager, trembling steps, she hurried out. Olive stayed behind. She had no right to go and meet him as his mother did, and after one wild throb her heart sank, so faintly that she could hardly stand. His voice, his long silent voice. Hearing it, the old feeling came over her. She shuddered, even with a sort of fear. Heaven save me from myself. Heaven keep my heart at peace. Perhaps he will not suffer himself to love me, or does not wish me to love him. I have thought so sometimes. Yes, I am quite calm, quite ready to meet him now. And she felt herself growing all white and cold as she stood. The door opened, and Harold came in alone. Not one step could she advance to meet him. Not one word of welcome fell from her lips, nor from his, which were pale as her own. But as he clasped her hands and held them fast, she felt him gazing down upon her. Now, for the first time, beginning to read her heart, something in that fond, aye, it was a fond look, was drawing her closer to him, something that told her she was dearer than any friend. It might have happened so. That moment might have proved the crowning moment of life, which blends two hearts of man and woman into one love, making their being complete, as God meant it should be. But at the same instant Mrs. Gwyn came in. Their hands fell from one another. Harold quitted Olive's side and began talking to his mother. Olive stood by herself in the window. She felt as if her whole destiny was changing, melting from cloud to glory, like the sunset she had watched an hour before. Whatever was the mystery that had kept him silent, she believed that in the secret depth of his heart Harold loved her. Once she had thought, that were this knowledge true, the joy would overpower her reason. Now it came with such a solemnity that all agitation ceased. Her hands were folded on her heart, her eyes looked heavenwards. Her prayer was, Oh God, if this happiness should be, make me worthy of it, worthy of him. If not, keep us both safe until the eternal meeting. Then, all emotion having passed away, she went back quietly to Harold and his mother. They were sitting together on the sofa, Harold holding his mother's hand in one of his. When Olive approached, he stretched out the other, saying, Come to us, little Olive, come. Shall she, mother? Yes, was Mrs. Gwyn's low answer. But Olive heard it. It was the lonely heart's first welcome home. For an hour afterwards she sat by Harold's side in the gathering darkness, feeling her hand safe clasped in his. Never was there any clasp like Harold's, so firm yet soft, so gentle yet so close and warm. It filled her with a sense of rest and protection. She long tossed about in the weary world. Once or twice she moved her hand, but only to lay it again in his, and feel his welcoming fingers close over it, as if to say, Mine, Mine, always Mine. So they sat and talked together. She and Harold and Harold's mother, talked as if they were one loving household, whose every interest was united. Though, nevertheless, not one word was spoken that might break the seal upon any of their hearts. How happy it is to come home, said Harold. How blessed to feel that one has a home! I thought so more strongly than ever I had done before, one day, at Rome, when I was with Olive's old friend, Michael Van Bra. Oh, tell me of the Van Bra's, cried Olive eagerly. Then you did see them at last, though you never said anything about it in your letters. No, for it was a long story, and both our thoughts were too full. Shall I tell it now? Yet it is sad, it will pain you, Olive. And he pressed her hand closer while he spoke. She answered, Still, tell me all. And she felt that, so listening, the heaviest worldly sorrow would have fallen light. I was long before I could discover Mr. Van Bra, and still longer before I found out his abode. Day after day I met him, and talked with him at the Sistine, but he never spoke of his home or asked me thither. He had good reason. Were they so poor then? I feared this, said Olive compassionately. Yes, it was the story of a shattered hope. As I think, Van Bra was a man to whom fortune could never come. He must have hunted her from him all his life, with his pride, his waywardness, his fitful morose ambition. I soon read his character, for I had read another very like it once. But that is changed now, thank God, said Harold softly. Well, so it was. The painter dreamed his dream, the little sister stayed at home and starved. Starved? Oh no, you cannot mean that. It would have been so, save for Lord Arendelle's benevolence when we found them out at last. They lived in a miserable house which had but one decent room, the studio. Michael's room must always be comfortable, said Miss Meliora. I knew her at once, Olive, after all you had told me of her. The poor little woman. She almost wept to hear the sound of my English voice, and to talk with me about you. She said she was very lonely among strangers, but she would get used to it in time. She was not well, too, but it would never do to give way. It might trouble Michael. She would get better in the spring. Poor Meliora! But you were very kind to her. You went to see her often. I knew you would. There was no time, Harold answered, sadly. The day after this we sought out Michael Van Bra in his old haunt, the Sistine Chapel. He was somewhat decomposed because his sister had not risen in time to set his pallet, and get all things ready in his painting room at home. I went thither and found her, dying. Harold paused, but Olive was too much moved to speak. He went on. So sudden was the call that she would not believe it herself. She kept saying continually that she must contrive to rise before Michael came back at night. Even when she knew she was dying, she seemed to think only of him, but always in her simple, humble way. I remember how she talked, brokenly of some drapery she had to make for his model that day, asking me to get someone else to do it, or the picture would be delayed. Once she wept, saying who would take care of Michael when she was gone. She would not have him sent for. He never liked to be disturbed when he was at the Sistine. Towards evening she seemed to lie eagerly listening, but he did not come home. At last she made me give her love to Michael. She wished he had come, if only to kiss her before she died. He had not kissed her for thirty years. Once more, just when she seemed passing into a death-like sleep, she half roused herself to beg someone would take care that Michael's tea was all ready for him against he came home. After this she never spoke again. Poor Meliora! Poor, simple, loving soul! And Olive melted into quiet tears. After a while she inquired in what way this blow had fallen upon Michael Van Bra. Strangely, indeed, said Harold. It was I who told him first of his sister's death. He received the news quite coldly, as a thing impossible to realize. He even sat down to the table, as if he expected her to come in and pour out his tea. But afterwards, leaving the meal untouched, he went and shut himself up in his painting room without speaking a word. And then I quitted the house. But you saw him again. No, for I left Rome immediately. However, I had a friend who watched over him and constantly sent me news. So I learnt that after his sister's death a great change came over him. His one household stay gone. He seemed to sink down helpless as a child. He would wander about the house as though he missed something. He knew not what. His painting was neglected. He became slovenly in his dress, restless in his look. No one could say he grieved for his sister, but he missed her, as one misses the habit of a lifetime. So he gradually changed and grew speedily to be a worn-out, miserable old man. A week since I heard that his last picture had been bought by the Cardinal F. and that Michael Van Bra slept eternally beneath the blue sky of Rome. He had his wish. He had his wish, said Olive gently. And his faithful little sister had hers for nothing ever parted them. Women are content thus to give up their lives to someone beloved. The happiness is far beyond the pain. You told me so once before, answered Harold in a low tone. Do you remember? It was at the hermitage of braid. He stopped, thinking she would have replied, but she was silent. Her silence seemed to grow over him like a cloud. When the lights came in, he looked the same, proud, impassive Harold Gwynne as in the old time. Already his clasp had melted from Olive's hand. Before she could guess the reason why she found him speaking and she answering coldly, indifferently. All the sweetness of that sweet hour had with it passed away. This sudden change so pained her that very soon she began to talk of returning home. Harold rose to accompany her, but he did so with the formal speech of necessary courtesy. Allow me the pleasure, Miss Roth say. It stung her to the heart. Indeed you need not, when you are already tired. It is still early. I had much rather go home alone. Harold sat down again at once. She prepared to depart. She shook hands with his mother, and then with himself, saying in a voice that, lest it should tremble, she made very low, quiet and cold, how glad she was that he had come home safe. However, before she reached the garden gate, Harold followed her. Excuse me, but my mother is not easy for you to set off thus, and we may as well return to our old custom of walking home together, just once more. What could he mean? Olive would have asked him, but she dared not. Even yet there was a veil between their hearts. Would it ever be drawn aside? There were few words spoken on the way to Farnwood, and those few were of ordinary things. Once Olive talked of Michael Van Bra and his misfortunes. You call him unfortunate. How know you that? said Harold quickly. He needed no human affection, and so on its loss suffered no pain. He had no desire save for fame. His pride was never humbled to find himself dependent on mere love. The old painter was a great and a happy man. Great he was, but not happy. I think I had rather be the poor little sister who spent her life for him. I, in a foolish affection which was all in vain. Affection is never in vain. I have thought sometimes that as to give is better than to receive. They who love are happier than they who are loved. Harold was silent. He remained so until they stood at Miss Rothsay's door. Then, bidding her good-bye, he took her two hands, saying, as if inquiringly, Olive? Yes, she answered, trembling a little, but not much. For her dream of happiness was fading slowly away, and she was sinking back into her old, patient, hopeless self. That olden self alone spoke, as she added, Is there anything you would say to me? No, no, nothing. Only good-night. And he hastily walked away. An hour after, Olive closed her heavy eyes, that burned with long weeping, and lay down to sleep, thinking there was no blessing like the oblivion of night, after every weary day. She lay down, little knowing what mystery of fate that quiet night was bearing in its bosom. From her first sleep she started in the vague terror of one who has been suddenly awakened. There was a great noise, knocking, crashing, a sound of mingled voices, and above all her name called. Anywhere, waking or sleeping, she would have known that voice, for it was Harold Gwinn's. At first she thought she must still be dreaming some horrible dream, but consciousness came quick, as it often does at such a time. Before the next outcry was raised she had guessed its meaning. Upon her had come that most awful waking, the waking in a house on fire. There are some women who, in moments of danger, gain an almost miraculous composure and presence of mind. Olive was one of these. Calmly she answered Harold's half frenzied call to her from without her door. I am awake and safe. The fire is not in my room. Tell me what must I do? Dress quickly. There is time. Think of all you can save and come, she heard Harold's reply. His passionate cry of Olive had ceased. He was now as self-possessed as she. Her room was light as day, with the reflection of the flames that were consuming the other end of the long, straggling house. She dressed herself, her hands never trembling, her thoughts quick, vivid, and painfully minute. There came into her mind everything she would lose. Her household mementos, the unfinished picture, her well-beloved books. She saw herself penniless, homeless, escaping only with life. But that life she owed to Harold Gwinn, how everything had chanced she never paused to consider. There was a sweetness, even a wild gladness, in the thought of peril from which Harold had come to save her. She heard his voice eager with anxiety. Miss Rothsay, hasten, the fire is gaining on us fast. And added to his was the cry of her faithful old servant Hannah, whom he had rescued to. He seemed to stand firm amidst the confusion and terror, ruling everyone with the very sound of his voice, that knew no fear, except when it trembled with Olive's name. Quick, quick, I cannot rest till I have you safe. Olive, for God's sake, come, bring with you anything you value, only come. She had but two chief treasures, always kept near her. Her mother's portrait and Harold's letters. The letters she hid in her bosom, the picture she carried in her arms. Thus laden, she quitted the burning house. It was an awful scene. The utter loneliness of the place precluded any hope of battling with the fire, but the night being still and windless, it advanced slowly. Sometimes, mockingly, it almost seemed to die away, and then rose up again in a hurricane of flame. Olive and Harold stood on the lawn, she clinging to his hand like a child. Is there no hope of saving it? My pretty cottage, my dear home where my mother died. Since you are safe, let the house burn, I care not, muttered Harold. He seemed strangely jealous even of her thoughts, her tears. Be content, he said. You see, much has been done. He pointed to the lawn strewn with furniture. All is there, your picture, your mother's little chair. Everything I thought you cared for I have saved. And my life, too. Oh, it is so sweet to owe you all. He quitted her for a moment to speak to some of the men whom he had brought with him from Harbury. Then he came back and stood beside Olive on the lawn. She watching the doomed house, he only watching her. The night is cold, you shiver. I am glad I thought to bring this. He took off his plaid and wrapped her in it, holding his arm round her the while. But she scarcely felt it then. Through the yawning, blazing windows, she saw the fire within. Lighting up in its laughing destruction, the little parlor where her mother used to sit. Twining round the white-curtained bed, where on her mother's last breath had been sighed away peacefully in her arms. She stood speechless, gazing upon this piteous household ruin wherein were engulfed so many memories. But very soon there came the crash of the sinking roof, and then a cloud of dense smoke and flame arose, sweeping over where she and Harold stood, falling in showers of sparks around their feet. Instinctively Olive clung to Harold, hiding her blinded eyes upon his arm. She felt him press her to him, for an instant only, but with the strong true impulse, taught by one only feeling. You must not stay here, he said. Come with me, home. Home? And she looked wistfully at the ruins of her own. Yes, to my home, my mother's. You know for the present it must indeed be yours. Come. He gave her his arm to lean on. She tried to walk, but quite overpowered, staggered, fainted, and fell. When she awoke she felt herself born like a child in Harold's arms. No power had she to move or speak. All was a dizzy dream. Through it, she faintly heard him whisper as though to himself, I have saved her. I hold her fast. Little Olive, little Olive. When they reached the parsonage door, he stood still a moment, passionately looking down upon her face. One minute he strained her closer to his heart, and then placed her in his mother's arms. She is safe. Oh, thank God! cried Mrs. Gwynne, and you too, my dear son, my brave Harold. And she turned to him as he stood, leaning breathless against the wall. He tried to speak, but in vain. There was one gasp. The blood poured in a torrent from his mouth, and he fell down at his mother's feet.