 How are y'all doing? Girl, let me put on some lipstick or something. What am I doing? Okay. This is Midnight Blue by Milani. In the middle with a purple. I mean a pink. Oh my God. Ha ha ha. Way off. Let me try to kind of fill in my brows. What y'all been up to? Huh? Hot mess. Why did I do that? All right y'all. Look, I'm gonna be honest with y'all. This is gonna be very candid. One of my not honest. I have not felt like recording anything. I have not felt like recording hair videos, chit chat, vlogging. I have, I really haven't felt like doing anything at all. My previous video was very impromptu because I did have an appointment. I was like, let me just turn on the camera so cause I need to put something out. Of course I have a calendar content of scheduled stuff that I supposed, I'm supposed to film, but I have not felt like it. And I'm not gonna apologize. I'm so damn blunt. A Leo for your ass. I have not felt like it honestly. I haven't. It's a lot going on at home. It's a lot going on in the world. A lot going on in Phoenix, Arizona. People are upset about wearing masks or having bushfires. I mean, it's been so much compound in the past three or four months. I was so funny. I had a one on one with my manager today and I told her, you know, I said, I felt like, I have felt like these past three or four months has been a year. It has been so much has happened and that small amount of time, you know what I mean? That it felt, it felt like a whole year has gone on, has passed. But we're just half of the year. So I'm trying to remain optimistic, y'all. I'm trying to remain positive, but it is so hard when there's so much chaos going around. It's really important doing this time to have a quiet time to sit and reflect. This is me talking out loud. You don't have to listen if you don't want to. But I find that it's very important to take the time to reflect and to think about some things because even though the world is going crazy right now, God's word still stands, okay? And we have to ask believers, if you are a believer, we have to stand on God's word at the end of the day. So enough of that. Let's just jump right into this. What do we know of my hair? First of all, let me tell you something. I have been ordering a lot of stuff. Don't ignore whatever you see back there that's not. Okay, let me show you something. Hold on, y'all. Okay, so, no, look, honestly, seriously. So remember somebody, Walgreens had this buy one, get one free, I think. Something like that, okay? So listen, let me tell you, what had happened was I had ordered some stuff through Walgreens, right? I got it a couple of days ago. I opened it up and it's a styler. I don't want the styler. I want this, the pre shampoo that I reviewed for y'all. It is so hard to find this stuff, y'all. Like, I, it sold out. Wherever I look, eBay, Amazon, Walgreens, it is sold out. So I'm returning that styler I haven't used it. I don't want to use it. I heard it doesn't have that, it has mixed reviews. So I don't need a lot of styling products. I need some of this. I need this crack. So I'm returning that. What am I talking about? I'm just telling you what I purchased, what have came in. So that's packed away. I'm returning that. I took my nails off because it was too bulky. Really too bulky. I have one peaky one still on. She's taking forever to come off. Instead, I am letting my nail bits breathe a little bit and I will reapply my tips with the dip powder and another two weeks or so, okay? So what I got through eBay, $15, which is a deal. I got through eBay, I'm sorry, DND, DC. Look at this color. Okay, I see that. Look at that color. Look at that. You really, really can't see this. Let me see. This is so damn pretty. Excuse me, excuse my language, y'all. This is called Maple Orchage. Orchage? Maple? Or is it Canadian Maple? Girl, I think it's Canadian Maple. That's what I think this is. I like the bright orange slash red colors. So y'all, with my hair, my hair is thriving. Oh, let me show y'all something else I bought. Look at these earrings. Girl, don't this remind you, you know that you remind me of a girl that I once knew. Is that, I don't know. But this is cute, right? Reminds you of the 80s. I'm not 80s. I'm 90s. Really, really cute. I don't know where I want to wear that too, but I got it. So my hair has been thriving. It feels great. Now I will say this. Let me adjust the lights some y'all. Now, now, now you can see it. Very, very shiny because of the leaving condition I've been using. Now I will say this. As I've been washing it, it has been feeling better. Now, I can't remember what products I used last wash day. I'm trying to stay consistent, okay? But I noticed when I washed out the shampoo and I was going in with the conditioner and when I washed it out, it didn't feel as great as the last wash day. So I don't know what's going on, but I'm there. It's feeling a lot better. Those of you who don't know, I feel like I'm experiencing protein overload. It is feeling a lot better. So what I'm gonna be doing in this video is going through and spraying my hair and applying a little bit of this pre shampoo. I ain't got hardly none of this stuff left. This is a joke. So anyway, y'all, y'all know how we do it. We talk about what's in these YouTube streets. We talk about what I've been watching and we discuss, let me take off this watch. And we discuss what's going on in my personal life. We're gonna talk about personal life first because I have a feeling my child's gonna interrupt me. I locked him out the room. Y'all, JB. Everybody's gaining weight. Kids included. JB has gained about five pounds. And I noticed it in his cheeks because his cheeks are full now. And I'm just messing with him. I weighed him and he's gained about five pounds. But y'all, I started laughing because I looked up his BMI on the CDC calculator to tell my, your child is overweight. I'm like, what, the CDC just called my baby fat. No, ma'am. Are you guys sorry? The camera shut off. Battery's low. And so it's been a couple of hours. I'm back on. I don't remember where I stopped off. I believe. Girl, excuse the background. I believe we were talking about personal life. So, y'all, y'all, not much going on. Like, you know, everyone's getting fat and being happy. So, oh, I'm gonna kind of pre-prove but we'll see what happens. Y'all, I feel like my hair, I'm gonna stop complaining about my hair but I just feel like it's at a standstill. And honest to God, I have felt like it's been this way for like three years or so. So, my child has to holy ghost. All right, y'all. So, yeah, I'm trying to finish up with I'm in the middle of continuing getting my things ready for the next school year for homeschool. I already know what curriculum I'm gonna be using. I will be using online a time for learning spectrum and just a couple of workbooks that I've gotten together. Along with, you know, just going with the flow, I tend to be a very, very organized person when it comes to stuff like this. And I was getting really, really like, okay, what type of applications or what type of spreadsheet can I get to help me to track stuff? Girl, I'm not doing that. Not for the first year, not for my first time homeschooling. I will literally take a three-ring binder and jot down everything we do daily. Now, attendance, I have worksheets and all that less than plans. I have a worksheet or excuse me, a planner, which I'll be writing things down. I do have a library online. Sorry, y'all. I have an app I've been using to track our, what am I trying to say? The books we'll be using. And so, I was able to scan everything in. And we're good. We have like, girl, do I want to homeschool you? No, I do. I have over 50 educational books. And that includes workbooks, resources, you know, stuff like that. So I'm good. I'm good. And I know things will change. And so I'm trying to remain open and flexible. Besides that, girl, let me tell you something. My fluffy ass, y'all, I tried to jump rope. First of all, no one told me at damn near 40 that when you try to, all 100, now 175 pounds of this body, try to jump. Great timing, right? JB always has the great timing. Why is he so, like I said, 175 pounds of this jump, jump roping. You talk about a full body worker. I can't do that. I will have no ankles, no knees, no calves, no hips. I did it, like for two days and I was done. I said, I'm not doing this. I'm not jump roping. We really can't go out. I was walking outside, but we can't do that too much because the allergies are so bad right now. So I need to put my ass on the chair. Sorry, y'all, I need to get on the treadmill and just, you know, walk for 30 or 40 minutes and I'll be good. So yeah. Besides that, y'all, home life is good. Like I said, a little stressed out. We had some fires going on in the neighborhood, not in the neighborhood, but in our area within 10 miles. And so it is taking it one day at a time, okay? So girl, what am I watching on YouTube? So y'all, from what I understand, what is her name? Latoya Forever is getting a divorce. That's just really sad. And do they have two children? I believe they have two small children. How long have they been married? I believe it's seven or eight years, together nine years. She posted on Instagram. That's just really disheartening. You know, we've had this conversation before. Do we have to do it again? People are getting divorced and their relationships are not on social media. You know, you're not filming every day. You're not vlogging. So when you have a channel that you bring your spouse and your children on, it highlights any problems that you are having. So, really, really sad. I feel bad for the children when any of this happens. I really do. I mentioned in why I am kind of mentioning in an upcoming vlog about a family. Y'all, people are going crazy. There are, nah, I shouldn't say that. I don't want to use that type of language. This is a very stressful time for a lot of us, okay? Anyone who already has underlying mental issues, relationship issues, issues with people living in their house, now you're all together. And so there are a lot of incidents, a lot of domestic abuses increasing. I didn't even mention this because I didn't want to go there. My husband told me about a couple of cases out in Texas when we first had to get quarantined at the end of March of children dying at the hands of their parents. People are losing their minds. It is absolutely horrible. So just last week, I heard of a YouTube family that is no longer with us. Now I didn't know of the family, but they had a little over 25, 20,000 followings, which is a big deal in my opinion. A family husband and wife, African American, apparently he shot the wife, killed himself, killed the mother-in-law, and shot like a family friend or something. The husband and wife were separated. The YouTube channel is called The Meyers, The Meyers or Mayors Effect. Very, very sad, because now those children are left without a family, parents, a grandmother, just a sad situation all around. When something like that happens, a murderous suicide, you often wonder what was that person thinking. You never know what's going on behind closed doors, y'all, so that's just really, really sad that those children have to go through that. Sorry, I lost my train of thought again. It's just really, really sad about that. On to some brighter news who I've been looking at on YouTube, y'all. I don't know how this got into my recommendation. Girl, when I was bored doing my hair last week, the recommendation for an African hair god watching Send Dolls videos, y'all, why did I watch that video again? The video where she is detangling the baby's hair, she has since taken that video down. I'm not subscribed to Send Doll anymore only because, and I was a subscriber, I was subscribed to her before I was up to African hair god. And the only reason why I'm not, well, why not, because I don't want to be, but I noticed that there's this almost, I don't disagree or agree with her honestly, but she comes off as condescending in her comments, not very genuine, and maybe that was just something she was going through at that time. And so I don't agree with all of her methods, but I don't have to, you know what I mean? So, but anyway, I was just watching his video again where she was breaking down the hydrogen bonds too. I was like, oh lord, I can't deal with it. So anyway, that's old news, old, old, old news. I've been watching, going back and watching some of these smaller YouTubers, y'all, I like smaller YouTubers, you know what I mean? Seababe, her name is Seababe. I discovered her years ago when she did, like she was doing a grow your hair challenge and grow your thin, grow out your thinning edges. She's an older YouTuber. She's over 40, I think she may be over 45. A very humbling spirit, very sweet, always smiling and just very, just a very sweet woman. But anyway, her name is Seababe. Girl, I know one thing, when I go under all those 5,000 little ragged ass Legos, better be picked up. Yeah, I'm so over it. We did Thomas the train. We, damn, man, we did Thomas the train. We did his little ragged ass Hot Wheels. Now we on Legos. He turned the DNA to a dang on Kmart. You know how many times I hear welcome Kmart shoppers? No, he would say attention Kmart shoppers. So, besides JB acting crazy, look at this hair. I'm going in between this green Apple conditioner. What? I'm watching on TV, y'all. Blah, blah, blah. I'm watching the South African. Oh no, I'm done, girl. The South African series, Blood and Water. Now yes, girl, thank you for giving me the heads up that it was quite a bit of sex stuff going on. You know, I feel like, to show it's called Blood and Water. Let me back up, Blood and Water on Netflix. I feel like this, where's my flip flop? I feel like this show is catered towards young adults, teenagers. Cause for a while there, I was like, how old are they supposed to be? Cause they're doing a lot. Yeah, I was a good girl in school. I'm sorry, I didn't do all that retchiness. And I know that's common for young kids, high schoolers and young adults, but I was not like that. I was, yeah, I wasn't really, now I am, but. So, it was good. It's about this young high school girl who feels like she found her, let me back up. She had a sister that was kidnapped or trafficked. And she goes to this house party and she feels like the girl at the party may be her sister. So, during the entire series, she's trying to determine whether or not this girl is truly her sister. So yeah, I had some heavy scenes in it for a while. I almost stopped watching it because I was like, oh, this is too much, this is too much. But I finished it and I was like, yes, I'm ready for season two now. I'm watching this young girl getting dropped off with no mask on. Okay, let me stop it. All right, y'all, so. Finished Fargo, loved it. Y'all, I love black humor. I absolutely love it. Now, what's gonna try to get into season two, and it has to have actor, what is his name? Michael something? The black guy from Jason Lyriks. Jason's ratchet brother, his little brother, the one that shocked the daddy. Yeah, he's placed in season two. So, season two of Fargo is set like in the 70s or something. I may have to watch it because I heard season two was good. Fargo is on, is it on Hulu? I don't remember, y'all. I canceled HBO because I'm not watching it. I'm not watching anything on HBO. Instead, I got Amazon Prime. I may have to cancel that, too. But I feel like, you know what? I feel like, how many streaming apps do we need to watch what we wanna watch? It's really frustrating. So, right now I have Amazon Prime, I canceled Netflix. No, no, no, no. I canceled HBO. I have Netflix, Hulu. Hulu is just $7. And I do watch Hulu. Oh, and then I have Sling. I've also watched a movie on HBO before I canceled it. At Astria, I've always been wanting to watch this movie. It starts Brad Pitt, y'all. Brad Pitt, the last time I found Brad Pitt Fine was in Meet Joe Black. Brad Pitt has not aged 12. Angelina Jolie has done a number on him. You know, stress will cost, you'll get stress wrinkles and shit. You know what I mean? You'll get deep stress wrinkles. He just hasn't aged 12. He just hasn't. I mean, he's an older gentleman, but he, anyway. So, it's a movie about an astronaut who goes out into space to look for his father in an attempt to save the world. Very similar to Intercellier. But girl, do not watch this movie if you are already depressed. It is not one of those. It's basically about a broken-ass man going out into space looking for what daddy issues. I'm like, this is so, and left me even more depressed when the movie ended. Not gonna give any spoilers, but I prefer Intercellier. Although Intercellier is one of those movies with Matthew McConaughey, that's one of those movies where I could probably watch three or four times ever in my life. It is that emotional. Yeah, I know how I feel about, man. He be getting my nerves. Why am I watching y'all, girl? The most ratchet stuff. I don't know why. I got a recommendation. Okay, so I was watching Fatal Attraction, right? I got back on that. Then I started watching Fatal Vowels. Then I got a little recommendation. I have been getting one for a while for this show called Couples Court. I'm like, I'm not watching this. Girl, I watch one, two, three hours later. Couples Court is the most, you don't wanna talk about these people. You know what's so sad, y'all. I don't know if this stuff is scripted or what, but a lot of these people getting to relationships already broken. Then they started having kids. But y'all, they're coming home on there with their evidence. And I like the husband and wife team with the cutlers. I like them. They're funny. They're very sweet. So started watching that. Then I started watching Paternity Court. I'm like, oh Lord, I can't do this. So I'm gonna stick to Couples Court because it's interesting. It's very interesting what? Even if it is scripted, it's still very interesting. Oh, then I started looking at, I tried to see how I could look at old episodes of Brasila. Y'all, I can't find them. I mean, old like season three, season four on it. There's a YouTuber who used to be on Brasila, y'all. What is her name? Martina. I think her YouTube channel is named like Martina Brasila. She ended up being like, I don't wanna call her a weather girl cause that's inappropriate. Like a, what do you call? She ended up being on the news and stuff like that, y'all. So, yeah. So anyway, and you know what? It's kind of scripted because she said that she kinda had mentioned a couple of years ago, this is Martina, the YouTuber who was on the show. She really was not that mean. She was annoying on the show, but she wasn't mean, not compared to some of the other women. And so she literally said that they asked them certain questions and stuff like that. We know most of these shows are scripted. I worked with someone whose daughter was on Flavor of Love 2 and she said they had everything. We were watching it and she was, when was she, she was a social worker, right? And she would come on the show, excuse me, she would come into the, this was when I was working for her, I suppose. She would come into the office and tell us what's going on. And so she said, it's all scripted, all scripted. And so what they would do is they would ask the girls, okay, ask the seasons are going on. Because remember on Flavor of Love with these love story shows, your family would have to come on and then your ex would have to come on. Well, she said that her ex, her daughter's ex, wasn't down for it. It's very long, it is about, it does not stretch all the way, but see, it needs to be trimmed because you see that, this right here, I can feel it. So this needs to come off, that right there. I will probably trim my hair in August. I will not be flat ironing my hair. My hair feels better. I feel like I'm about 75% there. When I was, like I stated though early, when I was washing my conditioner out, I felt something still wasn't off. So this wash there will more than likely clarify my hair. I probably won't be filming that cause I'm tired y'all, it's a lot. I will however be filming the TGIN versus the Eating Body Works deep conditioner because those are both protein free. Again, sticking with the protein free products for now. And if a product has protein in it, it's okay. I'm just trying to be aware of how much protein I use it. Now this, that's a hairstyle, girl. All right y'all, I'm going to continue to prep my hair and that is it. Thank you so much for watching. Take care y'all, bye.