 And so what happened from that is that it's set off a chain event of defensive behavior and caused me to be depressed. So I want to make clear that I'm not using depression as an excuse for acting. It's actually the opposite. Oh so now Ethan Klein opened up about his depression and all is supposed to be forgiven. What is up everybody? This is Chris from the Rewired Soul where we talk about the problem but focus on the solution and if you're new to my channel, my channel is all about mental health and what I like to do is pull different topics from the YouTube community to try to teach you how to improve your mental and emotional well-being. So if you're into that kind of stuff make sure you subscribe and ring that notification bell because I make a ton of videos. I'm not even in my normal setup right now. This is my second video today because that's how I roll. I make so many videos that Tristan's actually sitting right here off camera. You don't even realize she's there but anyways anyways. So yeah I want to talk about A3A3 productions, Ethan Klein, his depression and first I want to give some shout outs to some people who helped me out on Twitter. So the first one is Karen, Karen Terry. She tweeted at me and told me that Ethan talked about this on his podcast and she's thought that I'd be interested in. I'm like oh cool. So I was actually on my way to pick up my son and I'm Carson Geek. So Alex from the channel Carson Geek, she actually did a guest video not long ago about autism spectrum disorder. I'm gonna link her channel down below. Go check out her channel. She's amazing. But she actually got me the timestamps of when Ethan talked about it like Carson Geek, you amazing girl. So anyways I was on my way to pick up my son. We moved across town so it was a long drive so I listened to it on the way there and yeah like there's some excellent things to kind of unpack from Ethan opening up about his depression and there's so much, there's so much that all of us can learn from this okay. And like again if you're new to my channel this isn't about Ethan. Ethan's never gonna see my video. You're watching my video. This video's for you. All right like I will say this. I was talking to Tristan a little bit earlier about this. Like I enjoy Ethan sometimes but I'm like a huge A3A3 fan boy or anything like that. But I will say this like it's just interesting to me because it's one of the reasons why I make my videos the way I do. Like I see so many people attacking Ethan or just people online and I'm like you're probably doing most of this stuff in your own life. You know what I mean? It's just these other people obviously YouTubers it's on camera but that's why I try to take these things and try to teach you. So if you're going through some of this stuff but anyways let's get started. What have people been saying about me recently okay. That I'm a hypocrite, that I prioritize money over everything else, that I've thrown friends under the bus, that I'm ignorant and poorly informed and spread misinformation, that I'm arrogant, that I cannot handle criticism and that I've used people just to name a couple of the reoccurring themes. I'm sure there's so much more you could say about me. Um and let me just say this okay for the record that I am guilty of all of those things. So the first thing I want to say and I was I was telling Tristan this I'm like oh my god so for those of you who don't know I have an entire playlist called How to Apologize because with all the controversies that just happened and everything like nobody knows how to apologize. Like if you see these beauty gurus or I even covered that guy from like IGN who plagiarized that article like people don't know how to apologize and let me tell you this. Ethan in this podcast like I was like oh my god like Ethan's like apology and outing himself was like better than a PR team has done for some of these multi-millionaire beauty gurus. Like Ethan just goes down a list of things he's being accused of and he's like yep that that's what it was. I did those things you're absolutely right. Like he just he just like what like that it's not that hard everybody so if you're wondering how to apologize just like save that clip and just replay it like a million times over again. Like one thing I was telling Tristan too I was like I feel like he even apologized for like some parts of that where I don't even think he needed to but he just took all of it and like he goes on to share his uh his story of his battle with depression and everything and he done he did what I talked to you guys a lot about right? Like he gives you a reason but it's not an excuse. Like he knows damn well that he was screwing up. He knows very well so he's not trying to give it as an excuse. And I'm pretty sure you know looking back that I started to become more arrogant and overconfident and on some probably deep unconscious level a feeling of almost infallibility that I could take anything on. For for the most part like in the beginning he explains how his ego kind of took over and this is what kind of led to a lot of the initial depression and I can definitely relate to that. Um so those of you who don't know and you haven't been around for a while like or you haven't been around this channel for a while I made a video a long time ago. I actually used to be in the professional e-sports industry. I used to travel all over the world and all these things but I just destroyed it because my ego got out of control. So I could definitely relate to what Ethan was saying like he was just on this high right and he could do no wrong and then when he started getting criticism like his ego was like no no I'm right you're wrong and he talks about how it almost felt like physical pain. Even people that like respectfully would disagree with me would turn me like bitterly against them. So I'm so bad right I was feel like I was being attacked like fit like is like I said it feels like somebody's dying I feel like I'm physically being attacked almost like a flight or fight or flight. This is what I've been telling you okay I literally just talked about this in my video about the film theorist and Shane Dawson. This is the science of beliefs this is the neuroscience of beliefs. So when Ethan's talking about how it triggered his fight or flight response this is what I've been telling you. It challenged his beliefs in his medial prefrontal cortex okay. His belief was that he is infallible that he makes the best content. Everybody should love his content so when people criticize him he would get defensive and what it took him was therapy to realize how defensive he actually gets and this is something like it's funny because I was only halfway through this podcast when I picked up my son. My son's nine and a half he's about to be ten on New Year's Eve. We were driving back and I paused the podcast and I was explaining it to my son you know because my son is like oh well what if those people just don't like him because he has a lot of subscribers. I'm like yeah right I'm like what if I'm like but if that's what you think everybody's doing then how are you ever gonna grow or how are you gonna learn and that's kind of what Ethan admits to. Ethan says like he wasn't even taking like constructive criticism well. So what that snowballed into was his lack of confidence, his depression, his irritability and he talks about how he starts taking it out on Eli right and like that's one of the reasons why I'm so grateful for for Tristan. Like you guys you need to understand like like if I get like moody or a little if you will um like Tristan'll be there to call me out on it you know what I mean and and that's important like that's that's why that's why I keep her around you know but no this is why one of those things where I tell you that you need to keep people around to tell you what you need to hear not what you want to hear especially those of us who struggle with mental health issues like we need people around who know when we're not acting like ourselves like Tristan knows me right if I started acting different she would know hopefully she would catch it early on so we can nip it in the butt before it got out of control. It was so I was just so miserable that I was so tired of being myself that I was willing to do anything to be anything I want I didn't no longer want it to be myself. So the last thing I want to talk about the last thing I want to talk about is something that so many of you can relate to it's something that I can relate to like Ethan talks about how he was suffering for two years for two years this is why one of my favorite sayings is pain is inevitable but suffering is optional he talks about how for two years he was sitting in his depression he refused to take antidepressants like he was like oh well I shouldn't have to take antidepressants I should just be able to eat better and exercise like I've talked about it in other videos about him in the past like yeah that all sounds good and well but if you don't even have the the go to get out of bed and do those things or the motivation or the drive then what good is that so he's sat in that for two years how long have you sat in your own misery just not getting help like Ethan is just now seeking therapy Ethan is just now taking medications I'll say this the antidepressant is not at all what I thought it would be that right there that right there what he just said is what we call contempt prior to investigation right so Ethan's talked about it in the past about how why he doesn't take antidepressants what he thinks they're gonna do what right and then he goes on he says yeah and it didn't do any of those things so for two years he sat in his own misery finally takes the antidepressants he's like oh this is what they are right like think about that for a second like I say this because I can relate I can relate to so much of what Ethan said like I had such terrible mental health I had my drug addiction my alcoholism my depression my anxiety and I refuse to get help but this contempt prior to investigation like what I teach my clients is this and I'll shorten the story a little bit but I imagine when my son was a baby right and like you would try to get him like you know like uh I don't know mush peas and he loves the mush peas and he's just eating them all day long right then all of a sudden you get like mush carrots and he doesn't even smell it he doesn't taste it but he refuses to eat it and you're just like eat the food kid like right like why wouldn't he eat the food he hasn't even tried it but he's saying he doesn't like it you right but think about how many times we do that oh uh therapy's not gonna work for me oh what are these medications gonna do we're judging these things that we haven't even tried before like do you know how irked I get when I ask I'm like hey have you tried meditation no that wouldn't work for me and I'm just like have you tried it no like what what like this is why I say on my channel we talk about the problem but focus on the solution like this like your mental health takes action you have to take action steps that's why if you are a hashtag rewired soldier you are taking action steps I don't care what it is but I really want you guys to learn from what Ethan um you know took for granted which was like how help was available but he waited he sat in that for so long so if you're watching this video right now and you're in the middle of it if you're in the middle of this depressive storm or anxiety or whatever it is ask yourself like why are you sitting in your own misery why haven't you reached out for help in my description of every single video I've been making there is a link to our free mental health support group on facebook you can at least do that all right so like join the facebook group come in there talk to us let us know what's going on give us problems give us solutions provide support for one another like come on join us we're a great group of people but anyways I want to hear down in the comments below like let me know in the comments below like have you have you been somebody who sat in your misery way too long like did you have all these like misconceptions or ideas about like therapy or even medications or anything like that and then you didn't you're like oh that wasn't so bad like let's have a conversation down in the comments below all right but anyways that's all I got for you with this video if you liked this video please give it a thumbs up if you're new make sure you subscribe and ring that notification bell because I'll make a ton of videos and a huge thank you to everybody supporting the channel over on patreon you're all amazing and if you would like to sign up for patreon you can click or tap right there there is exclusive never before seen content for all the patrons five dollars and up all right so go ahead sign up it's fun time all right thanks so much for watching get into the solution and I'll see you next time