I am 26 hours into my withdrawal.
All the energy is being sucked out of me. Even sitting putting the washing on the clothes horse drains me completely.
It has been 50 hours since my last dose of Morphine 10mg SC in hospital.
I have been in hospital for the last 8 days due to uncontrollable oesphageal pain that was beating even my Neurostimulator implant. If I had turned it off I have no idea how bad the pain would have been.
I have been on Morhine and Valium since being admitted.
I discharged myself last night against Doctor's advice due to family issues.
The Doctor wanted me to stay longer and start me on Endone, another Opiate, before going home. Plus I was still suffering from pain and unable to eat and drink without Morphine to kill the pain.
The Doctor fell over when I said that as soon as I got home I planned to cease all meds!!!!
I told him he could write a prescription but I wasn't going to fill it or take it.
And consequently me still having the pain while eating and drinking and not taking any pain killers, I am unable to eat or drink. It has been 32 hours since I have had anything to eat or drink.
I must check how long it takes for dehydration to start REALLY effecting you.
I am already dehydrated.
It is only going to get worse.
But I am ready for it.
This afternoon, 4 hours into withdrawls, the slight 'creepy crawlies' under the skin started. So too has the hot/cold flushes and stomach cramps. Sinus blockage. And lower right leg and foot cramps.
If any of you have seen my previous videos, you would know why I go Cold Turkey. For those of you who have never seen these videos or have any questions al all, please ask me as I am more than happy to truthfully answer.
I become physically addicted to pain meds while taking them for many years for GENUINE pain. Once I got my pain under control through non-drug methods I ceased the pain killers.
Something ALL Doctor's tell you is "If you take pain meds for pain then you can not become addicted." That is TRUE!!! But what they don't tell you is that if you ever stop the meds for whatever reasons, you WILL go through withdrawls the same as a 'Druggie', a 'true addict', BUT you are NOT an addict. Your BODY IS.
There is a MASSIVE difference.
Anybody who has gone through withdrawals at any stage will then get labled as an 'addict'.
No matter if it was withdrawing from Morphine after being in hospital or if you were a 'junkie' or 'slight' user, you get labled the same. ADDICT! And then EVERYONE, especially in the Medical Profession, see's you as just that. And to be labled an addict is hurtful and shameful.
If you come into hospital also & the hospital has it on record that you have been through withdrawals, then your treatment WILL change for ANY pain control.
The reason I choose to show you such a private and painful, literally, part of my life is to educate everyone on the truth.
I hope that is what I am achieving.