 Do you think it has anything to do with the pain of vaginal labor? I think I was dealing with that and then dealing with this at the same time. So I was dealing with the fact that I went through so much pain and in the end, I felt like the pain was needless pain because I didn't push my baby out. Then right from when I got to the hospital at 5 o'clock, I should have just gone into the theater to have the CS because I felt like it was needless pain I went through so I was dealing with that. And then the recovery from the CS is something no one tells you about. It's hard, like it's a major surgery, a major abdominal surgery, how to even get out of bed. It's a whole ball game altogether and you're supposed to be taking care of a very tiny human who is very helpless. And they are getting up every two hours a week. So when they are crying, you have to summon the energy to get up out of bed without hurting yourself and hurting your wound and feeding them, changing them. So I was dealing, I literally felt like I'd been run over by a bus. I didn't know what to do. So that's when I ended up calling a friend. I actually spoke with three friends and they took their time and they all had cesarean so like they gave me tips and how they dealt with everything which was so helpful. And I was so glad that I had spoken to them prior to giving birth so that I knew who to call because I had gone through that. Yeah, how long did it last? And when did you finally feel the bond between you and your child? What was going through your mind all this while? So because these friends had told me that it's normal, eventually it began to feel the bond, I felt better about myself. Like I didn't feel too bad about it. But exactly a week after he was born, he was born on the Saturday. So the following Saturday, which is like being alive for seven days, I wept the whole day and I couldn't figure out why I wasn't eating. So then my husband is like, what is going on with you? And I was like, I don't know. And I felt really terrible. I felt really terrible because I was like, there are so many women out there who don't have children and you have, you've been able to go through pregnancy, you've given birth and your child has been alive for seven days. I felt like the seven days was very significant. You know, like how in our culture you name a child. So it's like, if we're doing it traditionally that day, would have named, like would have had the ceremony and everything. So it's like, why are you so sad? It's like I was so sad that day, the whole day. I was like, what's wrong with me? This cute little human is alive and he's well. Why are you crying? I'm so glad I had my husband with me and at that time we're my parents' house. But thankfully I think for some reason that day they weren't home. So it was just like, I really cried. Like I was free to cry without being scared that my dad would walk in and be like, what's going on with you or something.