 Alright guys, what is happening, it's Jacob here, it's Wednesday today, I haven't actually picked up the camera in a few days, tomorrow I actually leave Christchurch, so my holiday is over, now this video is just going to be a quick update on everything, how things are going, I've just finished biceps and shoulders, so after my little episode earlier on this holiday that you guys saw, lack of motivation, etc, I got in, I did a few good, hard, heavy sessions, made myself hit PBs, if not weight PBs, I made myself hit volume PBs, so I forced myself to progressively overload and that's what you need to do to build muscle, so I went and caught up with my mate Adam and a few others on Saturday night and that was my third night binge drinking, well third Saturday night binge drinking in a row and if you followed me for any length of time you know that really just does not happen, but what I what I did do is have a great time and you know if I wasn't drinking around around him it definitely wouldn't be the same, so you know there is a time and place, but it's not all the time, but anyways today's Wednesday, Wednesday night I've got my last catch up with the family tonight, I've been staying with my dad most of the time, last clip you saw was probably in Littleton staying with my mum, since then I've gone back to my dad's place and I've stayed there the last few nights of my holiday, yeah it's been it's been good man, obviously I came over here for one particular reason which was to come and see my dad and make sure he's alright, he's been a bit unwell, things are on the up, so that's cool, every time I come back to Christchurch I go and see my Nana, she's been a huge part of my life, always supported me with everything, sport academics absolutely everything and she has had dementia for the last probably about three, three and a half years and it progressively gets worse and you know I've come back to Christchurch probably every six to nine months and each time I see her it's progressively worse and unfortunately at the moment that you know recognition factor has diminished a lot, when you go and see you might be lucky to get a smile and if you get something like anything, if they give you anything it's it means the world you know because they don't do much, it's been real interesting because when my Nana first went in there was because she couldn't live, well basically it's a dementia home so it's actually very similar to the place that I work in that my clients you know if they could get out they'd get themselves into trouble or they'd get hurt or something because my Nana would forget where she was and she'd go walking in the middle of the night like into busy roads and shit like that so that was why she had to be put into a home like this and it's specific for people with dementia, all different levels and unfortunately she went in there she was actually one of the you know one of the libeliest and bounciest she she knew how I was until about probably about six months ago properly and then she started calling me like different names and things like that and now yeah she's she's pretty much non-verbal most of the time and you get the picture anyways went in to see her for the last time today well for the last time this holiday but honestly the lady pulled myself and my dad aside and obviously my dad's not the best at the moment so if she was to pass away you know that would be devastating for him and I might even be coming back soon than I thought but hopefully she she she hangs on man because he's yeah he doesn't need that and I don't need that I mean that would be hard on me let alone my dad so but yeah she's she's 94 so it's a fucking good earnings but anyway so seeing her seeing my auntie and my mum for the last time tonight and then tomorrow I'm flying off to Melbourne I've got two nights in Melbourne I'm gonna try and organize some shit to do there definitely gonna buy some shoes gonna buy some clothes and hit Doherty's gym so that should be good and following that guys my final thing I'll talk about is this alright you guys know you may have subscribed to my channel through my video about Guino but yeah I've suffered from from Guino Commastia since I was about 11 or you know since I can remember from about 11 years old it developed and it never went away so after this holiday in Christchurch I was I was gonna go to the Gold Coast and get my Guino Commastia sorted when I run up about two months ago they said that they did surgery all the time they had heaps of you know spots available and I could get in whenever so I run up as soon as I got to Christchurch to organize it and unfortunately the earliest appointment was the 8th of November and that was when I already had to be back in Alice Springs and back to work so unfortunately I couldn't do that so I had a bit of time on my hands and I am actually going to Flyza Bali for a week of self self for a week of what can I call it just a week of basically me without any substances no alcohol well actually I will go out a couple of nights but more important than that actually no marijuana I'll talk about that in another video honestly but I just need a break from it it's really clouding my you know goal setting and my what I really want to do with my life and with these next few years coming up because my mind sort of like really really scattered at the moment I've got you know I really don't have a path an exact path or an exact goal that I'm striving for I know that you know I can put in that effort like I do in the gym like I do with my diet like you know if I had something to push for I can definitely do it but I don't know the exact direction of where I want to go whether that's trying to get a career in health and fitness whether that is you know continuing with mental health and care work and getting the qualification and that either way I'm definitely gonna have to do some study you know I attempted a certificate in mental health and I fucked around so much that 18 months came up and I hadn't finished this certificate and another six months was given to me to finish it I didn't actually do that so I lost all my money I didn't get the qualification and now if I want it I'm gonna have to start again so that's an 18 month qualification as far as you know personal training sort of certificate I think that's a six month certificate and you know I've been I've really been thinking about coming back to Christchurch and attending the campus here at the New Zealand Institute of Sport and doing my personal training certificate through them you know it's still it's about three grand it's not a huge cost but it's six months of going into campus I don't think it's every day but yeah it's probably between part-time and full-time study but yeah six months you go in there and you're on campus you know you live that campus life you're networking with people in the same industry and with people who who want to do the same sort of thing as you and I think that's priceless you know I haven't really been surrounded by that yet and I think I'd really I'd be in my element to be honest like health and nutrition weight loss muscle gain flexible dieting all that stuff I really want to give that knowledge to people and you know if I can get paid for it as well that'd be the ultimate thing so I really do think that I do want to change my career path but I just need to you know I've got two properties I need to make sure they're sorted I can't just quit my job so there's a lot of thinking that needs to be done and I'm gonna use this next week in Bali to do that I think so that is the plan guys that's the plan and yeah I'm not gonna film in Bali it's gonna get a nice hotel probably relax the first couple of days get you know in tune with with myself and with what I really want to do with my emotions with my mental space spirituality is becoming a huge part of my life I really do believe in spirituality and the benefits of things like meditation and you know the never-ending journey to find true happiness because definitely happiness doesn't come from money that's for sure and it's not gonna come from me having a good body so I'm currently looking for it inside and you know that is the that's a journey I'm on as well at the moment so I think I need to stop talking I think I need to stop talking but I hope you guys have really enjoyed the videos that I've put up so far I haven't enjoyed coming back to Christchurch with me this is my hometown this is where I was brought up I always love it back here it's always gonna be home and yeah hopefully I'll get this sorted as well in the not too distant future and it will be all upwards from there so with that being said as I do say with that being said a hell of a lot so I'm really gonna try and stop that but with that being said have a great night guys I'm gonna say goodbye to my family it's never easy and then we'll be off to Melbourne for a couple of nights and then off to Bali so if you do see any videos following this one they're actually gonna be videos that I've had in the bank rugby videos I've got a couple of travel vlog videos from Thailand in fact I've got I think it's about eight or nine so actually following this video I'm gonna release all of my rugby ones I'm gonna release anything I've got in the bank as far as like hints you know tips videos and then I'm gonna release all of my Thailand travel vlog videos and if I've filmed anything in Bali I'll release the Bali travel vlog videos after the Thailand ones the Thailand ones are awesome I mean if you know if you guys don't watch it me and my sister are gonna enjoy watching it because we had a great time together and I think you guys enjoy it too so it's probably about eight or nine like I said it's fucking heaps but yeah it was good it was good it was a good time so anyways have a great night guys peace