 Hey, it's Bridget. Welcome to Above Life Channel. The purpose here is to inspire your spirit and to fill you with hope today's video It's going to be a little different than what I would typically do and that is I'm not going to channel a famous person not today Today I'm going to have a conversation with my dad in the afterlife because he's in the afterlife and It's Father's Day, so some of you have I get comfortable here you guys I've had so much anxiety my anxiety has been off the charts lately and so I Was hoping that coming outside would really just help bring me some calm. It always does That's the number one thing if you have anxiety Go outside and go for a walk or be in nature or go sit by the river under a tree and bring your journal or bring your card decks whatever Listen to your you know music whatever just sit to be outside. It just Really helps to just balance out the energies, you know So I also did I will say that this week I did have another video that I've recorded like several weeks ago that I was going to share and Given current events in the United States with all of the riots and the Protests and the big movements that are that are really Bringing up some really core issues topics specifically related to racism and social justice and Because of all that that's really present and really amplified right now. I don't want to I'm not going to share the channel like this week that I had scheduled Because I think it will stir the pot for people who are fans of this particular person and get them a feeling kind of upset Maybe or feeling like they have to defend that person from the afterlife And I don't want to do that to anybody because there's enough going on right now in our own values and belief systems that And externally in the world and this great momentum for change, which is awesome, but it's creating a lot of chaotic reevaluation and restructuring within us and our own beliefs and stuff and so I just I don't want to disrupt that for people, you know, and I like I said, I have so much anxiety right now so much so much and I Just think it would be better for me to I don't want to not do a channeling either either a couple weeks ago I didn't do a share a channeling video I left and went out of town for a couple days and and to answer your maybe obvious question is will bridge it? Are you more anxious after? You know because you live in Minnesota because you live like 35 minutes from St. Paul or Minneapolis where the murder happened and Kind of the epicenter for all of the the change that's now happening and the protests and things Yeah, that's probably why it's been really it had been It's just been a such a different time You know, there's definitely and the best that way to describe it because words can't describe the energy of things It's just change, you know, and it's momentum for change, which I personally feel is a very good thing but it also calls for us to Be willing and open to participate ourselves not Extremely participate like you're not going to see me at a protest necessarily Although you might have when we were going for a walk in town the other night I was so excited and so proud on the four corners of the one-stop light town near us Yeah, one-stop light rural Minnesota town on the four corners They were people with signs that said anti-racism black lives matter And I just was like oh my gosh, I mean there were I mean I was so excited I was like yeah, yeah, you know I'm like beeping the horn when we drove by and when I walked by I'm like, thank you Thank you, you know for doing that and I'm like in the meantime I'm on a walk with my husband to get out of the house where there's chaos So I didn't really feel like I wanted to join the protest at that point and I thought well Maybe later. I'll go back in well, you know how that goes I came home and then fed that my entire family made dinner and such and so I didn't go and participate But but internally it's a restructuring for all of us questioning our own belief systems questioning our behaviors Our thoughts the way we act to the way we respond. It's like a reprogramming for me Anyway, I think that's why there's anxiety because there's so much shifting and changing and I'm just letting it happen I'm letting it happen because it needs to happen, you know I'm grateful that I don't need a movement You know to make my life better to make a change. I don't need a big movement Because I have privilege so That's what I'm saying about that Okay, um, I'm gonna have a conversation with my dad. My dad was very political if you've watched my video on fairy grasshopper where I did like my 10 year anniversary of being psychic or Subsequent videos on above life channel where I talked about my psychic story and how I got psychic and At least became aware of that. I the fact that I was Was after my dad's passing when my dad died. He passed away in 2002 in the summer and It's father's day today, and I'm gonna channel him to have a conversation with him, but this is a really Very spirit connected time for me and regards to that for myself connected to my spirit during this time in the summer because We found out that he had AIDS like literally the weekend of father's day I think it was right before Father's Day weekend and then He got really sick and collapsed in Right before the fourth right before the fourth of July holiday, we were planning to have a picnic Our family it was gonna get together and he collapsed and ran the hospital I think it was July 2nd when the hospital and he never came back never came home and he died on August 1st and so this time it's a Spiritly spirited connection time for me because of that I think and I have access to tap into more of my Underlying emotions and feelings and probably that's why the anxiety is high out here and the stuff going on the world and The stuff inside of me that's saying hey I want to be cleared and healed to my my emotions and energy want to be cleared and healed too So let's let's jump into this change and let's really Allow our own emotions to flow in our own grief process and how sad it is that It's all come to this place, you know, it's just I mean I can't even Even have an intellectual conversation about it because it's so emotional I feel so many emotions about all of it everything current events and and within myself too And it's easier to focus on externally when we're really feeling stuff internally I mean we're just coming off several months of being indoors all the time and trying to stay away from people and being afraid for our health and our lives and Against this invisible thing Virus thing and it's like this health crisis, but you can't see it. It's kind of like energy You can't see it until it actually has the The all the symptoms show up and until you're really sick It's that's kind of what like psychic and intuition stuff is like too energetically You can't really see it how the energy of something is affecting you until it manifests in fibromyalgia or Liver disease or do you know what I mean? It's like so there's so many layers of info here energetically so All right, so dad. I'm gonna talk to you and to answer maybe a question That's probably obvious to you is that you probably would ask me. I would assume I would ask me if are you? Well, don't you just talk to your dad all the time? I mean your your medium or your psychic why don't you just talk to your dad all the time? No, I don't I don't because I don't really need to because you see once once our loved ones become spirit It's almost like like for me. I just feel so connected to him all the time like it's almost integrated within me like He's not separate from me anymore It's it's a different kind of energy relationship like I feel support and only every once in a while usually when I'm really in a State of deep change or I feel really on my own or alone or I'm I forget that I have a soul That's my spirit that's guiding me when I forget that and I'm too human and not enough connected in body and spirit That's when my dad will kind of show up, you know, I'll like kind of see his energy Usually it's in the car usually it's in the car when I see him Every once I'm all he'll like say something or I'll get like a little message almost like a fortune cookie message And I'll see my dad's kind of face and then I know it's for my dad a reminder info whatever and after he passed So it's been since 2002. So that's a long time. He has like 18 years. It'll be this year and so that's a long time and Right after he died though and for several years after it was much more tangible than that He felt much more separate much more like he did when he was a person and he still feels like that so as a personality kind of like that But he doesn't like manifest like a spirit that I channel He doesn't show up like that because he's just part of me and I just It's not separate, you know, so I just know he supports me. I don't need to really talk to him I thought it'd be cool to do that today for you guys And I'm talking about a lot of different topics and I haven't even started telling my dad And you might not even be interested in this but you might be so above my channel I mean we pretty much can do whatever I want to do here. I guess Even though I try really hard to stay focused on just celebrities. I think You just need to understand that I'm also a person and I've had loss and grief and that's how I started Opening up to this and so that too is how many of you have come to be clients of mine Have come here to watch this to understand the connection in the afterlife and how things work And and to understand that it's spirit connection is really art and not a science. It's not exact It's not very tangible and specific. It's more like that virus that's going around that you don't know you got it So you got it kind of a thing, right? Okay, dad, can you come close so that I can feel you know, thanks my dad When he does manifest he looks like he's been on vacation in Hawaii and he loved Hawaii He only went once I think in his life, but he loved it had the best time ever Him and my mom and my aunt and uncle they went and oh my gosh, he just had such a good time there So I always see him in like these um flowy pants that are like. Oh What is that material linen like khaki colored linen and like a shirt? That's like that kind of to but it's like that linen color that khaki colored linen But with white flowers on it. So he just looks so like And he looks happy his face is round and His cheeks are really the like happy like he has fun My dad is actually has darker skin than I do a little bit. So but that doesn't take much I mean, I'm very fair Conflicted and so but dad dad tanned. So that's cool. My sister tans, too. She's so lucky Tans really nice my sister anywhere So I know my brother and sister will probably watch this video So hey guys All right, so hey, I'm gonna try really hard to have an authentic connection with you So I'm gonna open my heart and so the connection come through really strongly He says there's a lot of disruption in the field burgeon, it's not your fault That's the first thing he says to me. There's a lot of disruption in the field. That's not your fault I have had such a time you guys trying to channel. I have had such a time. I can't even like I'm not interested in it I'm not I'm annoyed. I feel like There's all this pressure on me or demand on me to like produce and perform and entertain and spin on my head and Like I'm a monkey in a circus and I'm not I'm not an entertainer. That's not what above-life channel is. It's about connection and conversation and Inspiring you and empowering you and I lately it's felt much more pressured And that's because of the state that I'm in or the stage that I'm in so he's saying there's a lot of disruption in the field and What he means by that is that there is a lot of energy of change and chaotic energy says very it's very dramatic He says he's saying it's really it's really dramatic. Yeah, it's really drama That's that's why you're feeling this like need to perform He said that's why you're feeling that he said there's a real sharp Contrast going on. It's a very sharp distinction because it has he says things have to be obvious to people right now it has to be real obvious and You got to know what you don't want so that you can go where you want to go and go away from What you don't want to be a part of anymore He's like you gotta just drop that old stuff and the stereotypes and all of it and step forward You just got to do it. He's like there's no instruction manual. You're gonna make mistakes. You're gonna say things that In ways that people will misinterpret and not understand and you're gonna say things that are stupid And that's just the way it is. You're always gonna do that if you didn't do anything if you were afraid to do something He's like you channel who you want a channel if you're afraid to do something or have a channeling session with somebody That's on that's on you. Well, that's you and your limitation on yourself That's your self-doubt that is nobody else's responsibility That is your own individual choice and if you can't deal with the backlash then don't do it at all Don't be doing any of it. Then you have no business doing any of it. Okay So dad give me some advice About channeling on above-life channel. Should I keep doing above-life channel channeling? It's been over two years now. I've got a lot of videos people could just enjoy those for ever if they want and I Really enjoy my channel My very grasshopper channel because it's way more flexible for me I feel like I can say whatever I want and I get to know people on there and people who love my work really I want to know me as a person not just as a Public figure person that channels are there on there, you know, so I don't know how I What do you do would you have advice? It's like a bridge you can do whatever you want to do. It's really nobody's business What you choose to do? It's it's your business. What do you want? Says if you want to take a break take a break if you need a break take a break He says, but I don't think you I don't think you really want that Yeah, I don't want to disconnect. I know that for a fact. That's why I keep like ever since April it's been really tough to just keep channeling keep channeling and there's a couple of times That's why I've done people that I know really well like Freddie Mercury or And David Boy haven't done for a while I could do David Or Louise Hay and Marilyn Monroe people from the afterlife that I really feel connected to it's really much easier to do those Folks than it is to keep doing just new people that I'm really not feeling a bond with you know Just like right now you guys it would be hard for you to go out and socialize and meet new people I mean, I'm not in the mood to do that. I don't know if you in the mood to do that I'm not in the mood to do that. I could barely manage the relationships. I have right now So it's like the same thing. He's like it's the same. He's like you're just going through a time He says you're going through change And that's he's like, but that's natural. You don't have to do or die or ride or die or Which is so ironic that that's the ride or die. I'm doing it. I'm not doing it I'm like and that's how I am. He's like Bridget. That's you always been like that ever since you were a little girl I can do it. I can do it myself. I can do it. He said you're always like that little girl hands on hips like I can do it I can do it But as soon as you get to a point where you feel like other people are telling you to do it Or it feels like they're demanding of you. Well, you're not doing this like it's not good enough Or it's not you're not channeling enough or you're not telling the right people or you're not channeling How I want you to channel or you didn't ask the right questions or whatever it is because I feel that that happens That happens all the time. Well, that's really not that big a deal normally It doesn't usually bother me as much as right now. It does Clearly it does bother me He's like as soon as people push against you you're like I'm done drop mic drop done. I'm done He said but it's not all or nothing. You've got to negotiate You've got to move through this time in a way where you decide what keeps what you keep what stays and what goes You decide don't let other people force you into a position or situation where they are calling the shots That's what happens when you just disconnect and walk away That's what happens other people are determining your destiny and that is not who you are That's not who you are Don't do that You will regret it a hundred percent the same thing happened and the oh, yeah, I don't know if I want to say that a lot But I will the prince group So you guys want to know some tea Do you guys want to know some tea over to them a drama channel for a little bit? There's a lot of that going on youtube this week. Oh my goodness By the way, this is going to be a very long video so Stay if you want to stay pull up a chair get comfy If you don't like it then just wait till next week and see if I channel somebody else Which I will I'm sure You want to know the tea so I have been doing psychic medium work since 2004 And after prince died in 2016 in april I had experiences where I was just really connected with him I felt him I don't know if it's because I'm here in minnesota not far from paisley park or what the deal was You can read all about that. I have a website devoted to that the purple medium dot com Where you can go and binge if you're a prince fan binge on the blog. There's a blog there It's all free all the blog stuff is free tons and tons and tons of after life conversations with prince I wrote about my experiences all that kind of stuff And I really wasn't Comfortable with just keeping those communications to myself I just started recording the stuff that was coming through was all audio at first Because that's how I was doing all my work. Anyway, it was audio like recording Meditations and doing audios and teaching through audios and then and stuff like that and so I didn't know that I would actually share it with people and then I decided that I had to because it felt like Even for a couple months just to help people with healing because there was so much of a gap With when prince died and so many people opened up and had no idea They were never fans before and all of a sudden they were drawn to him and they couldn't understand why and it was because he was like an opening he was a An advocate or catalyst for a spirit awakening and that happens when there's famous people that pass over because they Have such great life on purpose energy where they lived Their gift their musical gift their talent or Their advocacy if they were a public figure or leader or whatever They lived Their purpose and we are so drawn to that because we struggle with trying to even know what our purpose is And how do we function and are we enough and all that? And so we're so we admire that so much that when that person crosses over there's this opening in us like Wait, there's this gap wait. I loved connecting to your you connecting to your purpose So then I didn't have to connect to mine as much. That's the truth. That's the truth You guys We we use other people as our not just our scapegoats to blame them for stuff But we also use them to live our lives like that's what your relationships are about You want those people to help you feel good about yourself. That's what your friends are about Right. I mean really think about it. You guys Underlying there is that some of that I'm not saying that's the only way some of that but that's a truth, right? It is And so when I did the prince um stuff I I started a facebook group eventually after about six eight months of doing it because people were just I could feel the need to connect and communicate. So I just created that online and I hated facebook groups. Oh my gosh I hated them. I never hardly participated in them I Couldn't stand Facilitating them because it just seemed like so much work for like not a lot of benefit like it was always one sided I felt like I was always sharing stuff and then other people weren't really and so it's like I'm working my tail off and nobody else Is contributing and it kind of felt one sided for me. Anyway, and that's a me thing. That's because I'm an overgiver I'm an overgiver for sure for sure And so When I did the prince group I met some wonderful people that are now my purple friends for life, man There's a good core group of people that I just love as humans that I'm so blessed with to call my friends They're not clients. They're friends and that's cool. That's so cool Some of our clients too, actually Yeah, someone have sessions too, but friends, you know, like just sweet wonderful amazing heartfelt people that are so supportive and kind and Encouraging to everybody else and me and I just feel so blessed to have them in my life and you know who you are And yet then there was a whole subset of of energy on my group Also that as it grew it kind of became this it kind of really became really entrenched in It's kind of hard to explain this but it's almost like people put their own healing like their own pain Not just the loss of prince, but the their own pain attached to that and then all of a sudden they'd get really Super obsessed about a prince thing a prince story or a prince's relationship with maite or prince's relationship with So-and-so or prince's relationship with this person or you know, they would get really focused on just Pieces and parts instead of dealing with their own stuff They wouldn't recognize. I think that He was being a reflection to bring out their stuff to work on their stuff So if it's a relationship thing that they had an issue with or they were all judgmental about or focused on It's because in their life They have a relationship thing that they're very judgmental about or focused on or somebody's projecting that on them And they can't they don't know how to heal it and that's normal like I have those situations myself too they have to be willing to be in a state of awareness and so I didn't I felt a lot of pressure just a channel prince and I was doing it for free all the time and it was very stressful and then my my work changed And I didn't have the same coaching clients I had before because I was doing so much prince stuff and it was just I felt such a pressure to keep doing stuff and It was really I got to a point where it was not good for me to do that because I lost a lot of my business I lost and that's my income and I lost um I lost myself a bit in that I think and so I had to I closed the group and The people that I'm friends with are I'll always be friends with like I said and we were still connected and stuff But I cannot just focus and work for somebody else and I didn't anticipate working for prince for like the rest of my life Either anyway, so it's been like four years. So it's about time to kind of Not have to just work for one person He doesn't pay that well either But he's very very good mentor and it's a good spear friend too. So So what happened with the prince stuff? It's I kind of lost myself and what's my purpose and what do I need to do? And I instead I'm just responding to other people's needs And so that's kind of what the above life channel I need to make sure that when I'm channeling somebody it's an integrity Where I'm in alignment. I'm doing it because I want to do it and it can I can connect and I'm not I'm not I don't have this extra barrier of pressure like I have to ask the right questions or I have to To respond to these people's need, you know There's a subset group of like eldest fans or freddy fans or prince fans or like Well, it'll be nice if you do this or be nice if you do that Well, why haven't you done this and why haven't you done? I'm like because it's not I'm not a restaurant Like it's not made to order like you pay for this and I do that and here you go It's not like that. That's not my life channel Oh But I still want people to be able to request Make requests and you know because I I do get inspired and need some Questions from you guys, you know, so that that works that does work good, but Lately I've definitely been feeling like the pressure To perform is what I'm gonna say and so I don't have that on fairy grass upper channel at all So It's definitely been I'm not gonna get back to what I what I did with prince. There's no way I'm ever going down that road again When you work with a specific niche or a specific group of people then that's That's only as big as you can grow and that's only As much you can only go as much and evolve as much and help them as much as they're willing to help themselves To and so it's better to have much more of a broader platform for a connection for me anyways so that I can help the people that are ready To do the work for themselves and to have the support instead of just question answer question answer question answer Tell me what to do. Tell me what to do. What does my guide say? Why? Why um Is my husband cheating people do ask me that kind of stuff in session. I'm like, I'm not gonna tell you that None of the It's weird. It's it. I'm like deal if you're asking the question. That's what you gotta focus Think about the questions you're asking, you know, it's like wow. I mean, it's really uh Can be really tricky, you know It's like I didn't sign up for that. I don't want to break up marriages, you know That's just one example. By the way, not everybody's like that at all But Yeah, I'll answer that question to my dad just said, why did you stop doing mediumship sessions? Since that's what I do on above life channel I do mediumship, which is what what communicating with the afterlife is what communicating with dead people as its mediumship and I stopped doing private sessions for that specifically because of the there's such a grief component and a healing component to that that I know how awesome it is to have some of those feelings of closure and things but That's a lot of pressure to try to help somebody to get to a point where they can heal in one hour of one session And usually that's the only time you talk to them and then they're gone Like you never talk to them again really because all I want is one specific thing and they're looking usually for one thing One special detail and that's it and if you don't say it that way then You like crush their hopes for believing in the afterlife and that's a lot of pressure And I don't want that people are very very tangible literal when they're thinking about their loved one They think about them as they were like you as you were in life and not you as you are now And it's different. We are different when we're in spirit than we were as a human. We feel different. We evolved That's what happened with the prince group too He evolved and he kept ascending and I kept connecting to him communicating with them in a totally different way and people Like that doesn't sound like prince I'm like that's because you don't know him the way he is right now You expect him to be who he was in the past and that doesn't work very well You got to grow and evolve with them so But I know that there's a very valid service in that, you know, and and I know that I'm good at mediumship I know that But I just it's a lot of pressure and a lot of stress and I feel like there's a grief component and a healing component where that grief counseling needs to be there and People that go through loss need to feel supported. They need connection They need consistent long-term connection and when somebody is coming to me because they lost someone It feels really awkward to be like, hey, let's have multiple sessions Because it seems like I'm taking advantage of them and I'm not I'm trying to help them to heal and to keep growing and moving on and you know connecting for themselves and all that and it's just really hard to discern that you know, I'm not a used car salesman. I'm not a hearse chaser I'm not anybody that is a used car salesman. Totally fine. You got to make a living But that's just not I'm that's not the lane. I swim in man and so And the one-time sessions just one and done kind of thing. It's just not It's not very fulfilling for me as a coach. Like I really want to support people People deserve support long term too. So that's why my psychic plus life coaching is both It's it's a really great way to Bring up your spirit team and your own intuition and give give people opportunity give you opportunity connect for yourself And in our experiences in our sessions and in between the sessions then you have your own experiences and then I'm saying Hey, so what have you learned or what's shown up for you? Let's talk about this and I then I can help identify. Oh, well, this means this. How does that feel to you? Oh my gosh, exactly. That's exactly what it is. I'm like, see your psychic. Look you did it Because you are everybody is everybody has that capacity But everybody's not a psychic for everybody else. It's just like I say everybody can balance their checkbook Well, most people they can balance their checkbook, but it doesn't mean you're going to be a certified public accountant and do people's taxes So it's kind of like that, right? so I just it's it's been it's emotionally A lot of pressure for one hour and there's like this pressure to perform and get the person exactly what they need and then I would work longer like I'd have a longer session but people just to try to get that and then That's not fair to other clients. They're paying the same amount of money and I'm talking to somebody for an hour and 20 minutes And versus an hour and it's not it's not right like I I want to make sure I'm very fair and So it just it was it was getting to the point where and then people like I would talk to some people And they would just be quiet the whole time and not say anything And then they would be like, well, that's not it. That doesn't sound like camera Well, why would you say that or I'm like, well, why would he what's the Why would your dad show up like mine and say I voted have an I voted sticker on him? Why why would that be? Oh, because he was really active in politics But why would he show up in the afterlife? And that's the first thing he shows you Bridget. That doesn't make sense That doesn't mean a lot to me. I'm like, yeah, but it's identifying him. That's his vibe That's how you would recognize him, right? But they're like, you know, it's like people's expectations and needs are like sometimes very Big and and I just I feel bad if I can't meet exactly where they're at And then sometimes like I'll have a session with somebody and then like halfway through the session I'll be like, oh, well, I wonder why my mom didn't show up. I'm like, what we just talked to her for 20 minutes Is that not your mom? But I think people's expectations Especially when you don't understand the psychic suffer haven't had a reading or a session with anybody before It's like they expect me to be like, okay, your dad's here Here's what your father says Make sure that you vote, you know, in our family it was Very important to do that I'm going to show you a picture from when you were a little girl with your pink bonnet. Do you remember the doll you had? I'd like for you to tell your mother blah blah blah and just be very specific Like I think they expect me to not talk like I normally talk like I think there's an expectation sometimes that I'm like supposed to be like Very serious and I'm not like I just have conversation and that's But I'm super connected and still psychic. I'm just not Hamming it up Brea They mean why do that? Let's just have a conversation So that's why I decided not to do mediumship specifically And yeah, the reason why I don't channel famous people in the afterlife in private session is because I don't think it's right to do that and From time to time there will be a guest like a spirit guide that comes in for somebody But when people want it so bad, it won't happen because it's like And sometimes people are really kind of passive aggressive about it too with me in session They'll be like, well, why isn't so-and-so coming? I'm like, well, if that's what you want Maybe you should request that and then try to connect for yourself You know or I'll ask and see and but I'm not going to ask for Here's my list of celebrities. I want to talk to no It's not I'm not like a tour bus in Hollywood. That's not that's not the point. It's to inspire your spirit He says you feel very upset about this I I am because I don't want to hurt anybody's feelings and I don't want to give the impression that I don't want to do Sessions because I love sessions. I love my clients. Those of you who are my clients, you know, how much I love you I love you because you invest In yourself and are willing to show up and are willing to have these deeper conversations and You're open-hearted and open-minded and it is my pleasure to be in service to you and to remind you who you are and to Oh gosh to bring up that energy even even when it's hard and to to shift sift through things with you It just it feels so It makes me feel so On purpose, you know And I can do that as a psychic and as a coach I can do that in all the tools that I have and I'm So able to do that in my sessions, you know It doesn't mean I won't do one time readings or sessions I will but not in a traditional psychic reading sense. So if you come with a list of questions and want answers That's not me. It's about options. I will not Predict your future because you create it. That's what I believe That's what I believe I don't think it's set in stone and if you believe that I'm not a good fit for you And on above life channel, you shouldn't even be watching because that's not how I operate And I just will probably make you mad So I don't want to do that either But living for other people's expectations and managing other people's expectations and needs is very difficult And that's something that I have to learn more about In healthy boundaries and to just say no to people even when they're nice But they just don't know And it just isn't a great fit. It's hard to do that sometimes, you know and And I'm I'm a person that I mean, I know my value but at the same time I also know the value of a dollar and I know like for me like I pay my coach $150 for an hour session with her and I talked to her at least once a month sometimes twice a month And I'm also in a group a group with her for like 70 bucks a month. So I get It's an investment financially and some months I feel like oh my god Did I get my money's worth and the question is that did she show up for me? And do what I needed her to do. It's did I show up for me and when I'm spending money You damn well better bet I'm gonna show up for me and I'm gonna do the best job I can and do the best work I can and be willing to Sift through some heavy stuff if I need to but also to recognize my gifts and my value And you know, you get all the sides of it the whole view. That's what I want I don't want somebody that just gives me compliments the whole time It tells me how great I am and there's no substance or no depth. I mean, that's that's not what I'm paying for, you know So I make sure I'm really aware of the value of a dollar. I am I mean, I have a family of six. Okay, and I have had sessions, you know People have to cancel their sessions and financial hardships on some of my clients and things like that So I know that that's that's tough, you know, I know I know it's tough So boy, this is really personal. Do I even want to share this? Hey dad, what else do you got to say for me? He's like be who you is not who you ain't that's a mentor for me Who's like a dad to me and the afterlife red turtle berries native american medicine man Um, and he's my sons my youngest son's godfather And so be who you is not who you ain't because that's a market say right and my dad's like, yeah, yeah, absolutely He's like you have to be willing to participate if you're not willing to participate But don't even bother showing up. He said you can't just carry a sign you have to believe what you're carrying the sign for, you know So he says if you believe that your work is to inspire the spirit And that you want to give people hope he says I I think you're doing it. I think you're doing it And the pressure that the extra pressure bridge it that you put on yourself is yours Anybody that's watching you consistently Knows the kind of person you are and you don't have to prove it and you don't have to explain it to people Because they know Yeah And for some of those random folks that happen to click on this video and go Who the heck is this person and what's her channel about this video is not what my channel is usually about This video is what my fairy grasshopper channel is about But i'm having a conversation with my dad on father's day from the afterlife and dad. I totally appreciate you being here Do you have any words of advice for all of us? This is just crazy times, man. You've got a health crisis on top of a a social justice crisis and Massive change which i'm i gotta be honest. I'm really excited about like when I feel it. I'm like, I'm a little bit so excited Ah You know, but at the same time i'm like, oh s h i It's like It's killing me. It is killing me all that's going on is killing me And I think that that's okay to say that because we are slowly dying parts of us are dying you guys and dying is difficult To let go right the death process is about letting go and there's parts of our old belief systems and old Structures that are dying and if we're really connected to them and trying to hold on to them We are going to feel like we're dying as they're dying So we have to let go of them as quickly as we can as productively as possible so that we can Rejuvenate and come back to life and be more unified Now that is awesome That's the goodness right that's coming through it. Absolutely. Yeah, absolutely. Yep So you have to understand that there's a lot of forces at work here a lot There's going to be a lot of clashes and there's going to be a lot of dysfunction There'll be a lot more separation before there's unity again And he says in your own personal relationships there's going to be a lot of fighting and bickering and And people not getting along because some people are going to be willing to let go of those old structures and things And some people are going to be so scared to let go you guys fear Yeah, I've been talking about that in session too. There's a lot of fear of the changes even though we want change For our own lives. It's it's scary because the change equals unknown and that's where we're in right now everything's unknown everything's up in the air and while that's Very very scary not to have any kind of sense of like connection and justice and And structure and security at the same time we are connected. We have that we have that in earth We have that when we go on walks and feel earth energy We have the ability to see the sky and the colors and appreciate and connect in those ways energetically that Just Expands us in a way that helps our mind then be able to function not even focus because let's just be real Focus is like out the window. It's about functioning Be able just to function and if you can function good on you because I'm telling you It's not easy and I know it and I Super authentic and sharing with you that it has been hard for me too. It has been I'm going to keep wrestling weapons struggling too with my values and beliefs about meeting other people's needs and expectations and being the best I can be and judgment and triggers and criticism and Feeling like it's not enough no matter what I do. It's not enough. So why even try, you know And I've said that out loud many times in my life like when I was getting divorced when I left a job and Sometimes when I read my youtube comments, I say the same thing But then usually there's like 15 other comments for every one that's crappy or even not even crappy but passive aggressive Which I can feel that you know For every every one that I take personally there's at least 15 that are like awesome people like oh my gosh This this really stood out to me or oh, I think this is so cool And oh, I really learned about this or oh, I love that person This is my favorite song and it just triggers something in you when you're washing it And it feels good enough for you to like that that connection feels so good And it inspires your spirit brings it to the front enough for you to type a comment and that's so cool Like that's cool. That's the point like that's the goodness. That's the inspire your spirit Check the box and check the box Now we're gonna focus on the whole part. Hmm. How are we gonna do that? Maybe we could add something to above life channel. That would be like, um Like something I did in the past like my sunday morning coffee sessions I used to do those for my clients that were my membership group. I did a membership platform Back in the day. That was a lot of work though. Holy mac and only But I just done that been there done that had a podcast and all that and so you won't find it on youtube I kept it on my membership channel, but um Could do something like that again that'd be kind of interesting to do That might be kind of inspiring that might be focused on the whole part. I'll have to like Be let might let that simmer a little bit so I can get inspired by you said that's That's just so he's like that's so much who you are. That is who you are. That's so much of you. That's you He said you were born that way. That's just how you were born. You were made with all that in you All that all that hope Yeah, he says. Yeah, absolutely When I get an affirmation from somebody I always use the word absolutely like when it's a powerful not just a yes Yes, but uh, absolutely means affirming yes, even though my dad would never say the word absolutely I say it because the energy comes through with a Yes, that's who you are and he's like absolutely is the energy like yes period underlined Oh my Oh my gosh, this is so long this video. Okay Hey, let's wrap up I hope I've inspired your spirit a bit today Filled you up a little bit with some hope, baby I hope so and at the very least you've gotten to know me and I put it all out there here on above life channel Which is I think the first time I've actually done this kind of a video here If you like these kind of videos great go to fairy grasshopper on youtube and Follow my vlogging channel And if you don't don't worry, I probably won't do anything else like this for quite some time Thanks for watching. Thanks for being here. Make sure you subscribe to above life channel If you do enjoy above life channel. I really appreciate that. Thanks you guys Oh wait Inspired your spirit filled you with hope Now what? Now what? It's your life This is your life So live it Come on you guys Just Live it Thanks for watching