 My father died in 96 and my father died Christmas 96. My mother died Christmas 2011 my brother was killed March 2011. So out of my intermediate family. It's just me The dad died of cancer. Yeah, my father died of cancer and my mother and your mother. Oh far apart My father died in 96 and my father died Christmas 96 my mother died Christmas 2011 my brother was killed March 2011. So out of my intermediate family. It's just me You don't talk to your half-siblings at all My mom you know my mother I call her my mom when I say she go to bed for me Like she goes like she puts me push me out her pussy. That's my mama When I got locked up in fucking, Minnesota Listen, mama She came walking through the motherfucking car doors and told them y'all better hurt my goddamn baby This is the first time and what did you only get locked up once or how many times did you get locked up? This the case that's in me of state That was my biggest case But while I was out on bond for that case I called two more cases and how are you at this time? Mama's 30 Later on 32 years old. Yeah, that's these are only times I call cases. Okay, so you're a good criminal So, so let's go back to That early stage aid when you was really a dance, you know, y'all used to dance could you dance or you was cuz I heard But what I want you know cuz losing your dad that was your hero Mm-hmm at that age. How are you when you lost him? I was 12 years old. How did that affect you? Oh, she went in It I lost a part of me that I'll never be able to get back. I knew my mother, you know My mom is my mom Devon I go to bad for but I knew my mother wasn't strong enough To survive life or she was not strong enough to make it through the fire So my dad like I told you my dad used to talk to me and put certain things in me I feel like God was prepping my dad to prep me Yeah, it's not even to be there for my mom. It was to be there for my brother, you know Because my mom ended up going off into her addiction so she couldn't be there for her fucking self She can be there for my brother nor could she be there for me was a addiction She my initially she was addicted to crack cocaine It's her from crack to heroin. Okay, and then she started mixing both of them But she was just after before he passed. Okay, so check this out. My mother was a function and alcoholic You know I'm saying so she she would drink she would drink then she stopped then she'd drink drink drink Whatever whatever so when my dad got sick with cancer a relative of mine of ours Turned her own to crack. Okay, you know I'm saying and this was to ease her pain Because my father was the only man she had ever been with and so that family member who turned my mother on to crack She was a functioning crack. I mean she don't want to say she was a crack out But she could use this shit and put it down and still function and fucking life Get high on the weekends or some shit like that. I know that sounds absurd to a lot of people like no I'll crack you down, but no you got motherfuckers who do this shit in moderation. It just is what it is you know I'm saying and when That relative was getting her life together decide she want to do that shit no more that crack was taking my mother under You know I'm saying so by the time my dad my father passed away. My mom Addiction was blooming So if you're a functioning fucking addict you cannot take care no fucking kids you cannot protect no children You know I'm saying and so my mother she started doing things that addicts would do to make sure she can keep Her her addiction going so right there be men bringing men mad you at this point in time I'm a young I'm twelve thirteen years old I'm a young tender cute little girl and these men they're gonna fuck you miss miss addict They're gonna fuck with you cuz that's what they you know That's what you putting out there, but when your back is turn They're gonna go over here and take would take this other shit because you don't give a fuck That's true. Did they ever mess with you? Yes, I don't be molested at rate. Oh At twelve thirteen for the molestation believe it or not the molestation with me started From five years old to eight years old of a friend of the family his a friend of the family his Son, you know I'm saying and his daughter their daughter was molesting my brother and It's because they were being molested in the house or they they passed this poison on You know and my mother was living at that time. I'm getting to that Okay, so they you know they drinking and why they drinking and playing a good time You know having a good old time in the back room and telling the kids to go in the other room and all this other shit This is what's going on and I knew that my father if my father knew because my daddy was very very protective over me I knew if my father found out what that boy was doing or that girl. He was gonna kill him They were the boy was 14 Okay, they the boy was 14 and I know five at that time. Yeah, he was no He's like he was like he was like 13 14 years old, you know, he's locked up right now, but They were way older. You know I'm saying they were way old Was it for molestation he locked up? Yeah He he ended up molesting his nieces. Okay, and these are just years later years later You know I'm saying and then he went on he got out for that And then he did the shit again and then they locked him up on federal charges. So yeah, so he's there. That's crazy My brother was only nine months younger than me Over him because you said you had to take care of him. So Listen, it's certain things into me only thing I know how to do is be a nurturer and protector and a provider You know I'm saying so I might like I said even though he was the boy my dad put certain things in me I was I was up under my dad You know my dad let me know certain things at a young age young age and I guess that was God's way of Telling him like put this in her so she can have this so my mom like I said my father passed away my mom I knew my mom was not strong enough shit. She already in a blooming addiction I gotta have us, you know I'm saying you don't gotta so I gotta have us and I have something in me called fuck it And fuck you know I'm saying even though what that was my mom I understood what the fuck she was doing it was the point in time She was dealing with this dude and the dude end up the dude end up molesting me He ended up raping me. It just is what it is. So when I tell my mother my mother turns around and tell me you wanted him I had to be my mom ass. It just is what it is. You why you don't give a fuck about me You put me in this position. Not only did she do that, but she did some other things to me as well My mother sold me You know I'm saying so it took me a long time to get over Get over some of the things that she did to me But I had to I had to I had to make peace with that shit. This is my life I cannot let those situations be able to move on. Yeah, I can't let those situations hinder me You know I'm seeing God gave me I felt like my mother did not love me enough I felt like she didn't protect me enough. I had to do all this shit on my own But in the midst of that God said I I'm gonna give you these little girls my God gave me my children My children love the fuck out of me. How many kids you have I have five Yeah, we on boss talk one on one