 Hey you guys so it is Tuesday and I'm responding to some Fulery Christine sent me Chow she sent me this hundred page pd of document we're supposed to read about modern workplace learning in 2018 is 170 pages. Speaking of reading you guys I was trying to say a couple of logs ago that one of my classmates has said that her goal for reading books she had set a goal last year to read something like 80 books why did she say she read like 130 books in one year. I am a reader I love to read books but I mostly was reading before I had a child and I wasn't too busy so that that was like two or three weeks ago right I'm like how could she read all of those dang on books and I'm a fast reader I can sit down and read a book in three or four hours yeah I'm a fast reader miss Jackson can read like that so it's not like I'm a slow reading it takes me I just don't have the time that was three weeks ago right so I'm like okay let me see what I have in my candle cuz I do have a couple of books like if there's a book that someone has suggested or that I need something on need help on or something I will download a book and I read it but I love physical books I have a little mini library of about between JB and us we have about a hundred books to be quite honest we have about a hundred books but I love books I love to be able to snow books and to flip through the pages so excuse me I have a lot of Stephen King John Saul S. A. U. L. John Saul Christopher Pike old school girl most of Stephen King's and rice all that little collection she has of the vampires I have mostly all of John Saul and Stephen King's so that's that's the bulk of it but I have a little off you know random books I have the help I have you know girl with the dragon tattoo stuff like that so I'm like okay let me see what's on my candle so I decided to go ahead and read a book I've been wanting to read by Terry McMillan I really had one ahead and read and I read it over a week yeah so I'm okay I'm gonna make my goal I can do 130 books girl a feasible and reasonable goal for me for reading is would be about five books she's responding to five books a month that's why I'm gonna that's what I'm going to do fine I was supposed to have done a volunteer day with a organization called Dress for Success and what they do is they help either lower income not necessarily lower income that people that don't necessarily have the skill set women not people just women with a job interview styling interviews questions you know do a mock interviews helping them with their attire stuff like that and so I I was excited to do it you guys so I looked at the hours and it's like nine to two thirty I can't do that first of all I I don't even have the physical capacity anymore to volunteer all day I used to volunteer for a long time but I when I volunteer I like to do it in hours hour three to four hours I can't do that's a work day I mean I had 30 see off but I can't do that and also what I was gonna say I had to pick up JB about three o'clock in this place is a downtown Phoenix so perhaps one day when my husband is off I will do it but then I would but I don't think I could do a full day I will ask them cuz I don't know what it what all it entails okay I don't know if I'm gonna be you know lugging dresses around so I will probably more than likely will want to do a little bit more research on the organization which I probably should have done before instead of just flying by the mail and signing up for it so I'm gonna take my time to look it up do do some more research contact them possibly go over there shadow someone cuz they have different areas where you can actually volunteer makeup personal shopper which is what I was going to do which we which you could help someone with their attire cuz I think I'm a you know right now I look crazy but when I go to work oh baby I snatch it together yes head turns they're like where you going I'm going I'm going into the office I'm not one of the one of the best people dressed in my office cuz everyone else is looking like they're gonna go fix some cornflakes girl I don't know so anyway that was canceled I do have a doctor's appointment tomorrow that's okay y'all my what am I trying to say my menu holiday menu is going to be slightly changing I want some dressing yes I want some dressing so I'm gonna be adding dressing to the menu but I don't know about Italian wedding cake because this is the thing y'all saw that butter pecan cake I made it look good didn't it but I didn't like it I didn't like it I know where I messed up at and I know how to correct it oh let's talk about this her real quick girl and this is the only place I could do this so yes the hair is considerably shorter you guys the reason why I was so butt-hurt about it is that I was only a few inches away from waist length and that has been my gold and those you who don't know I shaved my head in order to go natural so I've had short hair I know what my hair looks like I knew I know what a TWA looks like so I worked I have worked very hard to get to where the length I was at I know yeah I know it could grow back but this has been eight years of work to get to I was two inches parts past bra length actually Nezzie did a video recently I was almost her length almost yeah almost her length and her is very long her hair is all her hair is almost waist length so yeah so yeah I was perturbed a little bit so the stylist Ms. Urlat said that she thinks that my hair can get back to its original length by May and then I think that I can get back to birth I could possibly get to waist length by the end of next year if not the beginning of the year following but I know the overall go I've always said to see you guys to have healthy hair and my hair was not at its healthiest I mean my hair was splitting up the ends were horrible and it was starting to split I am really bad about trimming my ends and I know there's some of you who say oh I only trim my hair you know it wants a once a year or two to two times you supposed to be trimming your hair every quarter with my hair especially I know this for myself and I just I got lazy I just didn't do it I mean this has this is honestly I'm gonna clock my own teeth this is my second time this happened and the second time she's had to let me let me back up I didn't do what I did before this is the second time where I've neglected my ends the first time she cut my hair and she doesn't let me go ahead and get rid of these ends and it was it was looking really good she's like she told me then this was two and a half years ago and she told me then you need to keep your ends trimmed do it every three or four months I'm like yeah I gotta go deep condition so this time I tried to do it myself didn't do a good job clearly and then she had to correct it with me losing three and a half inches in certain areas so yeah I mean it's hair it'll grow back but when you've been working as long as I have to get to a certain length and have this type of setback it is what it is it's still very healthy it feels fabulous washed it's gonna be a breeze so cuz I don't have those ends holding me up girl holding me back so hey you guys it is Friday it's Friday yeah I'm not in the mood I think that I'm still a little boned out about my hair I know y'all gonna be like girl get over it miss earlet she wrote me cuz I sent to the video she's like your hair is not short it is shorter but you can't tell me looking at it now um and yes I know it's just hair but one thing that I I wanted to mention cuz one person commented on that video you know you should let her do what she wants you know it's just hair girl now that's what makes miss earlet such a great stylist is because she's one of the few stylists who are actually I shouldn't say they there are some stylists that actually do listen to the client y'all it's okay anyway it's Friday I went staples because y'all I didn't let we didn't take pictures with Santa Claus this year I don't know I just think I think after five and nobody gets a little creepy y'all after five and they get a little creepy and he wasn't saying anything about it we're like whatever child so you know as a baby one of two-year-olds it's cute but now it's like no but what I did do is I printed out a letter from Santa so we're going to bake cookies the night before and of course my chubby ass is gonna get up in the middle of the night and I may do it that night and eat one take a bite out of one leave some crumbs on it and leave the note next to the Christmas tree who's gets me y'all I'm slobbering and sugar thinking about the damn cookies girl mercy so y'all I don't know my mood has been off it's more than just that hair I just my mood has been off and I need to slow down and relax around this time of the year like I said I get anxiety so I'm okay I will be okay just I have a lot going on so right now after this I have a stop at the bank go to the credit union then go get JB his dang on raising Kang cuz I promised him that and then go pick him up I have to do that all of that within 40 minutes yeah so let's just go ahead and keep it pushing one thing I do want to give y'all heads up those of you who watch all my videos thank you first of all um I think 2019 next year will be my last active year as a youtuber meaning consistently uploading um I don't know where I'm going with this but I'm doing a lot you know I have a lot of different videos that come out and I upload quite a bit I upload at this point between three to four times a day I mean a week a day I upload three to four times a week and there are certain things I want to do in my life I'm gonna get my health in order because girl I was at the doctor's office earlier this week and yeah I need to lose some weight you guys get my health in a health in order get my being my down to a health I'm not fat by any means but unfortunately due to things that run in my family I'm more predisposed to cancer high blood pressure which I'm on medication for that now and I'm not even 40 years old so I want to be able to get my health in order get my life in order get my goals in order get back on my career I'm always on my goal you know goal thing but really start thinking about the hell is that start thinking about you know where I want to go as far as my career some things are changing around in my organization so yeah I want to focus on that the word of the day is more dent so yeah I have an application where I download a word of the day girl that's a that's a nasty sounding word you know what I'm saying y'all so I'm literally up I get up early anyway but as soon as I get up I find myself doing something has to do with YouTube either I'm responding to comments replying because I try to be as active as possible or I'm like editing a video I'm getting burnt out so yeah I'm pretty sure next year would be my first full active year as a YouTube you break doesn't mean that I won't be making content I just won't be consistent it will be like once a month or once every other month at this point I was talking to another youtuber I'm not gonna name drop her and she has a lot more subscribers than I do but she has a quarter of the number of videos I have 800 plus videos and my subscriber I just feel like I'm putting in so much work for 17 that I love all of y'all but I just feel like my channel hasn't grown the way it should have and I'm tired too I'm burnt out so yeah I'm gonna slow my role and focus on some other stuff here we go sheet pan meal this is just what I had in the fridge you guys I have some yams in there but I think this is enough this child's getting in my nerves hey I sprinkled some parsley on top some onions chopped up garlic tons of different seasonings pop it in the oven at 365 for 40 to 45 minutes and it shall be done you could serve this with some rice or as is I'm gonna make some spinach so I'm gonna lay the chicken thighs on a bed of spinach and then have these on the side real quick two things about some youtubers good news that I just I saw just today and I think she's subscribed to me gold now she's a sister and I think she did she I know she's in the south is Alabama or Mississippi I can't remember where but she posted a video either late last night or really this morning that she is cancer-free y'all hey man praise God the sister have been battling cancer went through treatment and I just love her spirit I love gold mouth I know a couple of y'all to subscribe to her and congratulations to Buzzfeed for having her little baby girl she posted a picture that baby all I saw was hair I'm like look at all this hair it's time to clean clean with Mariah Mariah anyone knows you know I'm a huge Mariah Carey thing you cannot go wrong this is my washing go looking let's turn around that's no I'm crazy inside inside that is sleeping it is Saturday you can't choke on cam it's Saturday we doing JB what are we gonna do we're gonna go to the tram part this is a thing because they can't hear me because we're in Phoenix it gets dark here early like it starts to get dark around 5 30 I don't know though it this the this time of the season is really weird because the time doesn't change I'm talking hold on 5 5 30 you would think it's 7 o'clock the days are I feel like the days are long I don't know what y'all think those of you live here in Phoenix I feel like the days are stretched out and maybe partially or that is because we get up early but to do something after 6 o'clock it feels like it's 10 o'clock at night at that point but I'm not gonna show them that so what we're gonna do I'm gonna show you not we'll go to the train park and it will be Christmas lights what you gotta show me look that's nice so yeah we'll do that and right now I'm making a list my husband's off starting Monday I need to make a list cuz I want to get scary you know how do you know cuz when I came in here I heard some noise and that's when I saw it I was like what in the world is going on what the glass how did he get through the glass he kicked it down that's what woke me up this tree is so pretty let up but how does it fix it boo boo look at JB and one I got him three sets of Christmas what just holiday Santa's note yeah well it's not Christmas he's gonna have how do you know he's gonna get you a note I'll buy your ice cream