 Okay. Hello everybody. Hi. Great to see you all. Welcome to our Tabula Rasa online retreat weekend. I'm Peter for those who are new. And yeah, we've got a wonderful weekend ahead of us with the theme miracles are involuntary. So it feels like it's going to be a really sparkly weekend. And yeah, we're going to have, we'll have some of the guys from Quantico here. Casa Quantico, they're going to be coming in tonight. This evening for for a session then and we also have a movie workshop tomorrow. And it's just going to be a very full weekend but to start with, we're going to have David Hofmeister and Francis Sue. And Francis is here with us in Mexico and David over at the monastery in Utah. So just pass it over to you guys now. Thank you, Pete. Hi everyone. We met this and I had a brief call before we came on here and we both went look the Holy Spirit dressed us in white. And I said, that's involuntary. Didn't plan that. So it's just fun, you know, when you start to see everything, everything is involuntary. So we're going to have a great weekend. So glad to see you Francis see you again and see all the lovely smiling faces sprinkled around the world. It's just amazing and I see we have some new people this week we have Ernst from Austria. We have a Ruka from Japan. We have Kyoko from the Netherlands and we have five new ones from the United States, Elaine, Donna, Maryland, Maria and PJ. Our new eight visitors joining us for the first time. Thank you for coming and I think you're going to love it. We're going to have a fun time here. So Francis wow what a fun life we have that's what we were talking about we get on for a half an hour and just talk about what a fun life we have and how grateful we are. We couldn't help but talking about that it was involuntary. And even last night I was praying for today I was thinking oh the retreat is coming and the topic is miracles are involuntary and then I started to have this feeling very strong feeling almost like a knocking at my door. And if this feeling of bubbly and and as I see if the spirit was telling me just remember that this is what you want. This is what all of you want and you found it you found it you found each other. And here we are just just celebrate that and I thought oh just remember that this is what we want. This is the calling of our heart. This, you know, this is our path, and we find each other I have all your face even though I don't have, you know, necessarily recognize all the faces but a face of a lot of you flash through my mind. Like this is what we're here together to celebrate. Yeah, Holy Spirit is the spirit of joy. Our curriculum is a curriculum of joy. And, you know, that's how we transcend the ego which is the death wish is through joy through joy and happiness and. Francis and I were reading a lot of the prayers and the questions as we do before we do an online retreat and wow we can just feel your hearts underneath the prayers and the question is just this, this spirit just bursting out just recognizing itself rejoicing in its identity itself. And the thing that's so beautiful is we just we want this we really do like Francis said we've prayed for this. And also when we were reading the prayers and questions we, it always comes to mind that this is a lifelong devotion. This, this isn't something that you should just do for a brief time and then wonder why isn't it working, because it's, it's a lifelong devotion and that takes you into the light is that the devotion, the prayer and the devotion. So that's the keynote that we saw this morning when we were talking. Yeah, I even talking about lifelong devotion I remember when, when I've, you know, maybe in my first retreat when I met David I had a one on one time with David. And that was the question I asked is like exactly me the succinct answer of how I can truly have an experience that I'm not this body. And I'm the spirit. And David said, if, if you really want to know, I would, I would give my whole life to it to find out. And that was, that was the answer to a question like how, how do I really know an experience. And I thought, well, that's not an answer I expected because it felt long at the time. But, but, but the years was in the moment, you know, and, and, and I thought, well, okay then. But what happened after was, was David and I even talk about it, we got sucked in into this involuntary nature of this journey. We got sucked in. We're not really there to say, I need to undo this, I need to undo this, my mind is this, we got sucked into this journey. And now the things that, that, that's, you know, they do, when they don't serve us they fall away because, because truly we, we just jump on jump jump into this ride with the Holy Spirit. And that's really what we want to share, you know, this, this weekend. Yeah, yesterday I was doing a live with Kenneth and Anna, I see they're joining us from Spain and, and we had so much fun. And then a little bit later, Francis said, I'm tuned in I'm watching she said, Oh, all these wonderful gushy, wonderful feelings are coming to me as I'm watching. And I said, Yeah, it's truly involuntary. The joy is absolutely involuntary and, and being sucked into it, or to use Star Trek terminology. We're getting beamed up. We somehow we got on into the transporter room. And somebody turned to switch and all the electrons are going in the energy and, and then we go from a body into a light beam of light like a vertical beam of light and then nothing is gone. Somehow, it seems like that's what happened with the course that that I got sucked into the, the transformer room, and Jesus flipped the switch, and I got really lit up and then of course we all attracted to that same light, because we all are that same light and it didn't seem to matter that's what I was when I was talking to Kenneth and Anna, it doesn't seem you don't care where the body goes what the body does it's it you start to feel how it's involuntary that when you say a big yes and you just start to go with your intuition and those inner prompts and nudges, the prompts and nudges grow stronger and stronger, and then you're sucked in. And, and you don't want to get out of it, you get sucked into it and you don't want to get out of this experience and then it convinces you that that this is such a wonderful. It's just a total fulfillment of everything that you could ever want, or ever even seem to need it is a total fulfillment so it's just an honor for us to be sharing with you, the feeling that we're having in our heart and the state of mind we're feeling and, and join with you fully fully in that. Well, I think Stephanie Renetto said to the prayer, Francis and we were both looking at that when we were looking at the prayers and questions and we were just beaming and twinkling and our eyes started twinkling when we read Stephanie's prayer. And so we were like, Oh, we, we need to share this so maybe you can just read that for everybody to start us off for this weekend. Yes, I'd love to. Dear Francis and David, miracles are like sparkling stars in the sky. I love to sit outside in the night and look into the sky. Sometimes I can't see the stars, but I know they're there. When I look back to this moment. I see my path was covered with sparkling stars of miracles. And they strengthen my trust with my deepening of the desire to experience love and having heart opening experiences. It feels like an invitation for more unconscious to arise past thoughts and patterns and grievances about holding back love way heavy on my heart. I offer my willingness to do God's will and to know divine love to make way for the miracles. I know they will carry me with love and gratitude. That's a prayer. They carry me. So first you get sucked in and then you get carried. Wow. That's pretty good sucked in and carried you know and you and it's involuntary. That's beautiful. That's beautiful. I think that is the answer that we've been praying for to because the human condition. To the extent that you believe in it in linear time and to the lack and scarcity and conflict of the ego to that extent there's there is a heaviness and and yet the prayer is always Holy Spirit lift me up. You know, lift me higher and higher. Lift us up where we belong like the Joe Cocker song love lift us up where we belong that's that's the prayer of our heart and and then anything that we've been hanging on to seems to come up from the unconscious. So the blocks are not hidden anymore. First it's a little intense to start to see oh my gosh look at these defense mechanisms that I've been holding on to. What a heavy thing our defense mechanisms because I must be defending something that's not real. Spirit doesn't need defense spirit just is that must be that this ego self concept that that was made as a substitute identity is heavy as heavy armature around it. And then we start to become first aware of the defense mechanisms and that's intense, because we tend to judge ourselves like I can't believe I did this to myself. Why would I do this to myself. I love myself why would I do this, but then we start to realize it's just coming into awareness so we can let it go and then, then we start to get lighter like oh okay I get it. Let it up and let it go. That's the way it goes. Well, we had some very sincere questions that that were written in and and we could really feel the heart of what the, what was being called for and so we thought to before we open things wide open here we would just try to answer some of those. And one of them that really jumped out was a friend of ours Isabel, the ward from the Netherlands and in she had actually just come a while back a short while ago on a trip all the way from the Netherlands to the monastery to allow her skills and design to be used in some construction projects that were going on. And Francis, would you like to read what is about wrote. Yes. Yeah, I actually think it's very representative representative of a lot of the prayer of you so I, we just thought to use that as an example. Isabel said hi David and Francis. I'm praying for expansion clarity and softness of the heart and mind. I want to experience reverence and the peace of God in every moment. Coming back from the monastery I have been praying for expansion and authenticity. I'm questioning why I do things, why I think I want specific things, what I'm using things and situations for and whether they're truly still serving me on a higher level. I've been looking at the many distractions allow myself to be occupied by the monastery was a space for me where many of those distractions weren't there. By dropping my hobbies friends job and possessions all at once does not seem like the way to go. I want distractions from, I want distractions from the peace of God to authentically lift transform or fall away. How do I go about this. So beautiful. I know is about that prayer is is really a prayer that many, many people share. Because I think it starts to dawn on us that that we, we cannot really approach the light by struggling, or fighting against the ego, we have to be drawn to the light we have to be attracted to the light. And in a way that our attention gets pulled away from what the ego made as a substitute for us. So a lot of times the things we consider distractions in the world. I was really interested myself because I used to ask these questions like why am I still drawn to this thing or why am I habitually still repeating this thing, when I don't think it serves me but but I don't seem to be ready to want to let it go yet. And Jesus did say that all temptation is a wish to make illusions real so it's like a wish to hold on to a hierarchy of illusions and hold off the light, hold off the miracle which would show that they're all the same. And I thought well I am not going to ever get anywhere if I am resistant. I am not going anywhere in my spiritual growth if I feel coerced in any way. If I feel forced to do anything. It will take a miracle for me to voluntarily release what's holding me back. It's going to take a miracle and Jesus would say that's exactly right. It's going to take a miracle for you to really be happy and joyful because you still find a little value in certain things. And he said don't worry. I got it. Just relax. Enjoy the ride. I got this thing. No problem. This is inevitable. I will give you everything you need and instruct you to release whatever is holding you back. So I think the thing that got me was I wanted to go back to love through attraction, not through avoidance. I want to be attracted to love. And Jesus said yeah that's what we're doing with when we bring through the miracles in your mind. We're showing that love is attracted to love and your essence is love and you're attracted to that divine essence and as you go forward the more that you get into your function which is really forgiveness but the more you just get into the joy of your function. That joy like a ball of light will grow bigger and bigger in your mind until it just lights the whole thing up. It just lights the whole mind up. But it's always through attraction and not avoidance because whenever we have things in our mind that we think that we need to avoid we really just need to look a little deeper and and come back to that. That joy that inspiration which will be the light that that extends. And I know Francis, you know we've talked about this so many times that it's been like we got sucked into this. I couldn't really imagine living a life of devotion unless I got sucked into it and saw the benefit of it. I saw the benefit of being used by Jesus, by God, by the Holy Spirit, used so fully that I felt my mind was aligned. It was taken back. It was taken back to the light. And that's been...