 I remember googling, are you an alcoholic and not thinking people who drink normally don't wonder that? Never thought it was a problem, I'd just go to another doctor and they would prescribe it and then oh well you know heroin's pretty much the same thing. I didn't like going outside like that but I wasn't going to hide in the house my whole life, it was just like you can't touch me, I felt like I had superpowers. Moms want to fix things for their kids and I couldn't, I couldn't fix them and I didn't have anyone to talk to about it. I called that number and they asked how they could help. Having the Employee Assistance Program saved my life. I don't know that I would have stopped drinking as early as I did. How could anyone ever step up and say I need help or my person I care about is dying? You can't do that when everyone is forcing you to whisper. So we talk a lot about addiction, we don't necessarily talk a lot about recovery. 23 million Americans live in long term recovery today, right now here in the United States, but where are their stores? People need hope and whole towns are dying and people need to see people like me that are striving and thriving and you can overcome it.