 Hey there, my name is Jo and I am in physical pain literally every single day. How does that work? Hello, my little Burnett friends. Welcome back. Before we dive into today's actual topic I have some super exciting news to share with you guys. My puppies are home Do you see them hanging out on the couch back there like total bums because they're total bums, but they're so cute I finally got to bring them home. I'm recovered enough from surgery. I'm stable I have the capacity to take care of three big dogs and so they are home and oh my god I am so happy. Audio quality on my videos is just gonna tank because there's gonna be jingling collars, paws and claws on hardwood floors And it's gonna be glorious. So let's dive in today's actual topic, which is pain. Before we go any further Dee is gonna help me introduce our sponsor today. 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Let's dive back in It's it's rather bizarre for me to sit here and tell you my lovely viewer that I am in physical pain Literally every single day and to my knowledge short of a miracle or something massively shifting in my body or the medical community I will always hurt. That's a weird statement for me to make and that's something I don't love spending a lot of time thinking about because Well, it's just not super happy to think about but it's also the reality of the situation Now the reason that I'm making this video is because recently I've seen a lot of comments of people Celebrating the fact that I'm not hurting anymore. First of all, thank you so much I it means the world to me that you guys care about my journey and that you're excited for the things that I'm excited about But I did want to talk about the fact that I actually still am in physical pain and always will be but probably not in the way That you think so if you're new to my channel, I had my leg amputee to a year ago There were some complications. I had to have an amputee again, which was bizarre now I'm finally learning to use a prosthetic leg and it's incredible and it's really really cool And it's complicated and difficult, but it's neat and my ability to start doing that is a sign that things went Well, right that things are going. Okay, so let's talk about the leg portion of things first first and foremost I think that we will get to a place where maybe my leg doesn't hurt ever again I mean, you know, it'll probably have some bad days But I think it'll get to a point where my leg is not in pain every single day. We're not there yet Let's just clarify that we are not there yet. It is gonna take a while to desensitize my leg It was literally cut off again seven or eight weeks ago now and using a prosthetic leg is nowhere near comfortable I think it will get there and I think it gets there for a lot of people from my conversations with other amputees But it's a journey when you lose your leg your nerves are severed They're rearranged your skin is not used to have it pressure in those places And so my entire body weight that used to come down on my foot My ankle is now coming down on parts of my body that were never designed to take it prosthetic technology Which is incredible distributes it pretty well, but it's still not comfortable It takes a while to get used to that it takes a while for your skin and your nerves and your muscles to be like All right, this is okay, and it takes a while to get the fit right so right now every day my leg still hurts It's still sore. It's still aches I get crazy phantom pain and I hope that that continues to lessen not sure we'll find out But what is ridiculously exciting to me is that there's hope in sight There's an end in sight There's a future that I can envision for myself where I don't hurt there where my leg doesn't hurt Where I could like put on my leg in the morning I could go about my day and taking steps would not cause me pain I wouldn't have to think about that and that was the reason that I did this because Before hand walking was really painful and the only end in sight is I would continue to degrade and get worse and worse and worse And that wasn't the kind of life I wanted to be living because it was something that had a solution it was a problem that had an answer and There are other problems in my life that don't have answers that we'll get to in a second and in my own life I found that having control that having some kind of autonomy and Decision-making over your own life is so powerful and so important so having the ability to say you know what no This isn't working for me. I cannot stand to live like this anymore Let's remove the problem as borderline traumatic and difficult and Exhausting and weird as that is at for the hope of a better life, right? And that's what I'm doing and I'm really really grateful to be on this crazy journey But the flip side of it is there are other problems in my body that Don't have solutions that have huge question marks and that the only answers that I've been given after a lot of research A lot of digging and so many hours in doctors offices. The only answers are I'm sorry It is what it is So I have a kiari malformation which essentially means I was born where my brain was too big for my skull We could say that my skull was too small for my brain either way It sounds like I have a big brain and I'm super smart and that's what you should get from this statement My brain is compressed that causes a host of symptoms and a host of issues one of which is I get migraines often I get them more than half the month So I spend a lot of days in darkness and in quiet and trying to get them to calm down and manage it I'm on a host of medications to try to balance things out and on top of that my neck is really messed up I have compressed discs and that kind of interacts with the kiari malformation because they're all right back in this area They're all stuffed in there and they don't feel great like I said I have spent years and years Trying to find answers from Western medicine to the Mayo Clinic which is incredible and I have a whole video about that I popped the link up above they are great there to alternative therapies to physical therapy to acupuncture to Meditation to fill in the blank like you think of it I've probably tried it and I have found things that help I have found things that lessen the symptoms and I figured out what are triggers But at the end of the day and I hate this sentence I will probably never be pain-free short of a miracle or something completely unpredictable Which I'm very open to I will never not hurt and I realize that that probably sounds funny And I realize that that might sound a little bit funny coming from someone who's Sitting up is dressed in clothes that aren't pajamas. I mean this could be pajamas, but it's not I braided my hair I put earrings in I even put some makeup on my face like I tried to put myself together today and I'm Working and I'm filming a video and I'm doing stuff and I hurt all the time I think there's like a disconnection that happens for a lot of people there At least that's what I've experienced where like how can someone really be in pain all the time? And wouldn't you just get used to it if your body hurt all the time and the answer to that question is no no At least my experience is you don't get used to it. I don't get used to it I don't get used to pain. I find ways to deal with it. I find ways to smile anyways I find ways to look normal and act normal and a lot of people Don't know that I hurt unless it gets to a certain level unless it escalates to the place where I can't handle it And I have to leave an event or lay down or I'm throwing up or fill in the blank But I always hurt and to be honest with you That's a very bizarre life to live and the reason I wanted to talk about this is because I've seen pain free I've seen that that phrase that word those two words show up so often recently in my Videos of people writing to me and again, thank you so much for caring But pain free is a painful statement for me because I don't know that I'll ever get there I will always be trying to I'll always be trying things Chronic pain is weird. It's bizarre It's not how our bodies were designed to function and I'm gonna put some links down below If it's something you want to understand a little bit more about which I would Absolutely encourage you to go check out and it's hard to think about something in your life that is painful Never going away, but at the same time you can find ways to deal with it And I think that this applies to so very many things because there were a lot of painful things in life Whether they be physical or emotional that don't go away that don't ever just disappear that we don't get over and yet We're still here yet. We're still on the planet We're still on earth and we've got to figure out what to do and I don't think time heals all wounds Physical or mental but I do think that we are insanely adaptive resilient creatures who learn how to function the best We can damn it. I will continue to learn coping skills to live in pain to function in pain to love life Anyways, I'll continue to find community and find ways to talk about it and find ways to make life easier It may never go away But I think it will get easier to live with I think back to like four years ago when it was kind of at the Height when things were really really bad and I didn't think I could exist like that And frankly, I couldn't and so I had to change how I was handling life I had to change how I was handling pain and a lot of things in my life so that I could handle it I guess what I'm saying in short is a lot of things in life don't have answers But we find ways to cope and to function and to live anyways So probably always be in pain and that sucks and there's no sugar coating that and I just wanted to clarify that But I'm still insanely happy to be alive. Thanks for allowing me to clarify the whole pain-free thing I'm really excited for the day that I'm walking and it doesn't hurt I'm I'm so excited to be able to take steps and go for a walk around my neighborhood and maybe go hiking and heck even Go running guys and it not be a significant source of discomfort or sharp pain I'm not there yet But if it's possible, I'm gonna get there and I think it's possible If you are someone who is dealing with chronic pain or some other form of any kind of pain in your life That doesn't go away and get it. It sucks. I hear you. We're all here for each other and we're gonna find a way through it Gosh darn it. Thank you so much for listening to me talk. You could be anywhere in the world Doing anything you wanted to right now, but you decided to watch this video and it means the world to me Thank you. Also. Thank you again to premium jane for sponsoring today's video Remember you can use coupon code joe for 20 off at checkout. I love you guys I'm thinking of you and I'll see you in the next video. Bye guys