 Hello everyone so I just thought I'd film this in the car here just because I really wanted to say something about um some of the feelings that I have about the visit that I did to a factory farm with a VFC recently and uh like I just wanted to sort of express how hard it is for an animal rights activist to go into a farm like that and see so many suffering animals and not be able to help them. I just want to give you a little bit of insight like as to like you might just say well why don't you just take him out the farm well I just want to I just want to like if I could have taken all of those animals out of that farm and helped them I of course I would it's just not that simple like so it's it's 2 a.m. it's a 30 minute walk from the part where we park to the farm and it's freezing cold okay just to give you an idea when we go inside the shed there everywhere you walk there's another suffering bird and they're on their last breath nearly and they're face down and they're breathing heavily hyperventilating and their eyes are shut and they're about to die. Now I wanted to pull a bird out of there I didn't have a pet carrier um I was afraid that if I pulled a bird out of there they would suffer in the cold on the way back to the car so I couldn't I didn't want to put the animal through that suffering and they wouldn't make it they probably wouldn't make it to the car and it's 3 a.m. and where was a vet near us and where was a sanctuary near us you know it's just I didn't expect there to be so many dying birds on the floor I mean it's just it was a really difficult situation and I uh you can't I just don't you can't help but you can't help it but like feel like you didn't do what you could have when you leave and like there's nothing harder than that type of feeling that feeling of like could I have done something else to help while I was in there and all I could do is just plead with the public please stop doing this to them please you know all I could do was just offer some type of comfort to the bird on the floor there were so many there were so many who'd recently died who were dying who who were just limping around suffering it was just it's just overwhelming what are you doing that situation you know and it's uh it's just a tough one and I still think about it now and um still think about that bird that I was comforting on the floor and uh I'm trying to fight back tears and there's cameras rolling as well so I have to like advocate for the public to change you know while I'm trying to deal with everything inside that shed myself and um yeah it's a it's a very overwhelming saddening um frustrating situation and having that type of weight on your shoulders like feeling like what what can I do to stop this right now it's very pressurizing like and it's very like I don't think any one activist should take that entire weight on their shoulders which is great that we have a movement but it's really hard to expect someone who cares deeply not to take that weight you know of the entire system of animal agriculture I mean just to sort where do you start where do you start like in one of the pig sheds one of the chicken sheds what about the fish farms the testing labs you know horse racing tracks like there's so there's so much exploitation and suffering and murder that it's just like what do I where do I begin and what do I do but um yeah I just thought I would share that with you like just uploading a video where I'd you know it was a powerful video and I'm very grateful that we did that video it's just I couldn't help but feel regrets like you know I didn't do enough while I was there and but it's just it was just a tough situation I did my best and plead with the public but um you know you live with these types of things as an activist you know always thinking did I did I do enough have I done enough can I am I you know am I making enough of an impact and I'm always very self-critical and very I can't every single day I put myself under enormous amounts of pressure to try to uh to do something you know I mean and uh yeah I'm sure there's a bunch of activists out there who feel the same bunch of vegans who feel the same but yeah I just uh want to make this video just to remember those birds um suffering on the shed floor and uh the ones I couldn't help and the ones that are loaded up onto a truck now terrified little babies who will be executed and then devoured by a human who is completely ignorant to the suffering they went through and uh I am again I had to plead with people not to support these industries um I rarely find a human being that I think would be okay with supporting the things that I've seen and that's why I try to talk to him like look I can see that you're not that type of person there's there's not that many people out there some cold people there's some people who like to be ignorant who but not people who are deliberately cruel they're they're they're not that many people who are deliberately cruel um so um they're the people that I want to want to just like plead with them just say look please stop supporting this stuff like help us out help us help the animals um and help us end this horrible nightmare