 Welcome to another vlog just finished my well I'm kind of still in the middle of my morning routine and I was just about to jump in the shower I'm like but I'm actually not that sweaty anymore but I was drenched after that workout I literally just sat on the floor scrolling through my phone for like 25 minutes afterwards just like but it was good I really enjoyed it I've been going through kind of like a one of those weird I don't know it's up and down with your relationship with exercise fitness health whatever you want to call it and I'm in the part right now where I have to rely on discipline more than motivation if that makes sense but anyways I'm just about to jump in the shower and actually we got a new shower head I'll show you think I mentioned this in like the last one or the one before that or something where we have that amazing shower spinning brush but we weren't using it that often because it's really hard to rinse off your shower and our shower is tiled from like roof to floor so yeah basically this is what our shower looks like so we ended up getting this one which is amazing and it comes off of the actual thing and then you can rinse off your entire freaking shower and we were like why have we not thought of buying this before living here for almost freaking two years so that is gonna be much better and I'm gonna do my fake tan routine and I don't know if I've ever even like gone through how I do it and if you are a regular fake tan user then this will probably be like the most basic info ever but I actually had a friend reach out recently and was like tell me everything I need to know everything about fake tan so I thought I would kind of go over a few things so okay there's a lot to know there's a lot to know and I'm gonna link like a couple YouTube videos down below that I feel like probably describe everything better but for the like cliffnotes version I use moose to fake tan with and I usually apply it like once a week but honestly I'm really lazy so like once every 10 days two weeks ish I'm pretty pretty pale right now but I do have some remnants of like leftover fake tan we'll get into that but I typically use a moose and a mitt this mitt is disgusting we're gonna ignore that currently I'm using the filter by Molly May tanning moose you don't have to use the expensive ones Jurgen's makes a really good one they sell it at like Walmart CVS Target whatever I think it's called like Jurgen's Instant Sun or something like that it does have a little bit more of like that fake tan smell but it works great honestly I might go back to that why did I stop using that this year I'm really gonna try to like go back to drugstore favorites cuz I feel like I just like I don't know by default started buying nicer stuff and I just spend so much money on stuff that I don't need to anyways ramblings these are my thoughts that come into my brain at any given time I literally was just gonna turn on the camera and be like I'm fake tanning and it's three minutes and 34 seconds into this clip and I'm just rambling I also recently bought but I saw someone on Instagram recommend the tanologist express tan in dark but it's clear and I've never used to clear one before that's the thing so I prefer fake tans that have brown like a dark brown guide color because the guide color is essentially like pigment extra pigment that's in the moose that helps you see where you're putting it and then when you let your tan develop you rinse it off in the shower and the guide color washes off it looks kind of scary it's like brown water and then you're left with like the actual developed tan underneath so I thought I would take you through my routine so first things first you got to exfoliate either I mean I don't always I don't always but this is what they tell you to do so I have these like mitts I think I got them on Amazon or maybe I got them at CVS I can't remember but they just hang in my shower I put them on I put my regular moisturizer on and I just scrub the hell out of my body sometimes I don't do this though it just looks better and it lasts longer if you do it that way I also just recently this is gonna be my first time using it but I saw Lottie Dryman on Instagram she recommended this stuff and I actually had to buy it on Beauty Bay which is like I think they should be okay stuff to the US and it was kind of like a whole hassle they don't sell it in the US but it's called rose and caramel purity XL 60 second tan remover so I'm gonna try it but you really don't have to do this you can use like any kind of scrub or whatever it is you have so it says on this that you just apply it you let it sit on your skin for like 60 seconds and then you scrub it off so that's what I'm gonna do I'm gonna rub this in it has like a slight kind of scrubby texture but not really I'm gonna really focus it like this is where I struggle to get my fake tan off the most mostly just gonna do it on like my arms I think okay interesting and then it says you just jump in the shower and you scrub it off with some mitts so that's what I'm gonna do what I normally do this with a shirt on no but I'm just we're just doing this together oh yeah right here too that always is like a tough one to exfoliate my elbows it always clings on my elbows no matter what okay so we're gonna let this sit for a minute jump in the shower I'm gonna scrub basically from my neck down with these I don't spend that long doing it I just kind of go over it until I feel like I'm scrubbed up enough and then we're gonna get out of the shower I'm gonna show you how I tan very quickly I obviously can't like really show you a lot but like we'll go over it hey right on the shower nice and scrubbed I'm feeling quite red actually but I'm gonna do my face really quick I use these Isle of Paradise drops and I mix you have to mix them in with like a moisturizer and they're really good but they're also not necessary some people use their fake tan on their face some people do nothing I did nothing for many years and just like let my face be pale and then match it with my foundation but it's totally whatever you prefer so I'm gonna do like four drops and this is much more like a gradual tan and because you mix it in with the moisturizer it's like not that big a video but I do this first so I can like really wash my hands afterwards so I just like rub it in like I work my moisturizer I did all my skincare first by the way and then you just kind of let it develop throughout the day I will like try to blend it into my neck a little bit but that is pretty much it I try to like you know make sure that I didn't miss anything but you don't really want to like put it in your eye or anything like that either so there we go okay then for the fake tan I just make sure I like shake it up and I apply depends on like I guess which section of the body but on my legs I think I apply like three or four pumps per leg so I'll show you what it looks like it's kind of scary at first but once you like start working it in it's fine and also with the guide color because it's so pigmented if it's not like perfectly perfectly smooth it's gonna be fine it's gonna rinse off so I do like I think like four pumps for like I have thick thighs and I like move it around like this and then I rub it all over my leg should I show you I'll show like a quick a quick demo God I hope you can't see my foot you know how Gen Z feels about flip content these days but yeah you just basically rub it in and I do all of the kind of like middle areas first so I avoid like my ankles and my feet until after the fact I'm not gonna show you the whole thing but yeah then I'll use like whatever is left on the mitt and then I will like rub it in on my feet and I do the exact same thing all over my entire body same thing on my arms I do the same thing on my chest in my neck I work it all the way up my neck back of my neck and then on my actual back I just do my best you know I will finish the rest of my body and then I'll show you what it looks like afterwards okay so I'm back in the robe just to show you kind of what it looks like like it does look a little splotchy it doesn't look perfect but I promise once it washes off it'll look a lot better so I also forgot to mention a very important step that I didn't realize until I was already doing it because I forget everything you should moisturize the dry parts of your body before you apply the product I'm sure most of you know that but just in case so like apply moisturizer to your elbows your hands maybe your knees and your ankles but nothing else do not apply moisturizer all over your body because it like affects how the color absorbs but apply it on like kind of the driest parts of your body and that will help a lot it'll help with like the evenness especially at your hands because you don't want to have like orangey brown hands so anyway you can sit around in your dressing gown you can do whatever but I just put on loose clothing so I'm gonna put on some pajamas and a sweatshirt and that's it and I let it set typically for about eight hours but there are different ones you can use there are like express ones that develop in like three hours two hours one hour just kind of depends on what you like but I'm just gonna like lounge around and do some editing today and then I will rinse it off before I go to bed tonight and that's it that's my that's myself Tam routine without me explaining it and going through all the details it takes like 10 minutes so it's just super easy it's just a nice way for me to feel a little bit better about myself especially in the winter as a pale girly hello it is the next day I got just like swept away with editing work yesterday I edited all day long and it was needed because I needed to get ahead on some stuff but I've actually taken two showers since myself Tanner developed here let me show you in like some better lighting to be honest there's never really great lighting in this place but here is what it's looking like I've actually taken two showers because I took my shower last night rinsing everything off before I went to bed and then I took a shower after my workout this morning so this is what it is looking like and I think it looks pretty good it's pretty natural the most important piece of advice for like after you're done tanning is to moisturize every single day or else it starts getting kind of patchy and so I definitely like slather the moisturizer on when I get out of the shower but anywho I am just getting ready because I'm getting my hair done today my hairstylist is actually pregnant she's like almost nine months pregnant and this is my last appointment with her until she comes back from maternity leave I think I'm probably gonna have to find someone else in the interim as well so I wanted to make sure that she got me in you know I don't really need to get my hair done at this point I would love a bang trim my bangs are getting like very long and almost kind of hard to style like especially this side like how long these are these need to be like up to here and then just like touching up my roots overall you know it's not bad but I just wanted to get in while I still could you know while she still could take me so that is what we're gonna do I'm gonna wear a very very comfy casual outfit today because I usually get a lot of work done and I'm gonna be sitting in a chair for like six hours or however long I wish I had like a good tripod in here you're standing on a pile of clothes as per usual so I think I'm gonna wear this blondie shirt this is from Daydreamer it's a small business based in LA and like they just have the best oversized t-shirt so I think I'm gonna wear this one I'm gonna do a little flannel around the waist because that feels feels comfy it's like what what I know oh I mean it's like wearing pajamas are you kidding exactly and then we will do a little flannel around the waist maybe and then some cowboy boots cuz I'm just in the mood to wear my cowboy boots today and I'm gonna dress it up like a little bit let's see what this looks like all put together I don't know okay I'm obsessed I also sort of feel like I'm going to like what is that it's not Coachella it's like the country music one stage coach that's what I feel like I'm going to right now the only thing that's bothering me is that my hair is blow-dried and it's just kind of been meh for the last couple days feel like I need to like bump the ends in or out a little bit so maybe we'll do that is it pointless to do your hair before you get your hair done yes of course but am I annoying like that yes I am how much of this vlog is going to be filmed in this bathroom I do not know I'm also gonna put on a necklace I love my little fake Tiffany's necklace it's adorable so okay I'm just gonna plug in my straightener and just do a little boop a little boop a little boop you know how it goes I'm also gonna plug in my little hot roller brush because I don't know which one I'm gonna want to use and um if you want to that scares me every time if you want to see more of like an in-depth first impressions type of thing um it's in a main channel video that I think by the time this video goes up it will have been up yesterday on my main channel I'm pretty sure it's not it's me it's gonna be up soon by the way I don't have any layers in my hair at all whatsoever that may change after today I'm not sure I do have like a couple little pieces like face framing stuff but the way that you get that sort of like blowout look even if you don't have layers is to alternate so like I'll take one section and I'll bump it under like I'll bump my ends under like so and then I'll take the next section of hair or another section of hair whatever and I'll flip it the opposite direction because that's kind of what your hair like naturally does when you have layers and then that way you can kind of like create some movement and stuff and I mean sometimes they go in different ways than you want them to but that's kind of how I've been doing it you cannot put your hand on this thing now I have to remind myself of that and in case you don't have like a roller brush and you want to see it with a flat iron it's the same thing you just take a piece and kind of like move it towards your face away from your face whatever and just exactly like I said before just kind of like bump your ends kind of like this and there you go so it's just like something a little a little extra okay I'm gonna do the rest of my hair and then we're gonna see what I have for like snacks to pack because I'm always there for so long that I get really hungry so we'll see it may look like we have a lot in our pantry right now but we actually don't have that much food we really need to go grocery shopping we're gonna work with what we got I also can't bring anything cold she has a mini fridge but it's filled with like other stuff so what I'm leaning towards is bringing some chocolate rice cakes and putting some like peanut butter or almond butter or something on it and then like just some other snacks in general like I have pretzels maybe some of my salt and vinegar pistachios would be good although it gets a little over my fingers this already is like a lot of nuts I'm so okay we have some um puffs I could bring I suppose we're also oh perfect perfect perfect we're out of the right ziplock bags so I'm gonna have to bring a Christmas listen it is what it is maybe I can do it somewhere or something okay that's starting somewhere I guess okay let's do it else I'm gonna sit on my parmesan cheese I have some perfect bars I'll definitely bring one of these they're really filling and like definitely keep me going for a while I'm out of fresh bananas I'm gonna have frozen one so that's not gonna be really good I can't bring like string cheese or anything aren't you so glad you're with me on this journey these can be out of the fridge for like a couple hours so that'll be fine but other than that that's about all I'm gonna be able to bring I think better than nothing I can always order like a salad I've done that before just she's pregnant I'm not trying to make her like walk down and pick it up for me so we'll see we'll work with what we've got all right we got my little my little snacks got my what is this called they're like it's like pirate's booty and then my rice cakes with all the butter drew is actually placing a grocery order right now so we should be good there I'm gonna fill up my water now I'm gonna pack up my like computer bag because my stylist is the best and she's like if you have work to do when you get here I prefer it like get your work done do your thing she's like I love when my clients bring in work I'm like yes thank you so I think I'm gonna pack my laptop just all my editing stuff I'm gonna pack up my laptop and the longer charger because it's like a little bit of a distance from the chair to like where it plugs in so we'll do that my laptop I love this backpack by the way I think someone recommended it like years ago and it's from Amazon and it has like its own little laptop pouch I've used it to travel as well I need to bring my little because Apple makes you have an accessory for everything so this is for my memory card put that in there we'll do the charger I also have to bring my external hard drive because laptops don't really have that much space on them so I always just put all my footage on a hard drive so put that in there oh not my switch although I have actually brought my switch and played it I've gotten my hair done before headphones are vital I actually would not have been able to edit without them that would have been tragic okay that that feels good that feels like I've got enough stuff I'll stick my purse in here as well just we have everything in one place and I'll put my lunch too and then I think I'm gonna do is I think I'm gonna take some of the flowers that I got from the farmers market and like bouquets that I have around the house and make like a little mini flower arrangement like a homemade flower arrangement for her because this is the last time I'll see her before she gives birth so I don't know might be next okay I got this little vase that is from a thread-up event that I went to where they just like gave us the bases afterwards they were like everyone take one so we'll start with that this cute little daisy we'll do that one I want to do one of these amaranth they're so pretty but I'm just gonna do one maybe like there that's cute what else maybe a snap dragon just one this is weird to do like take flowers I already have I don't know that then showing up with nothing I suppose although it wouldn't matter okay it's already really cute okay I'm also going to take this like kind of magenta carnation kind of like a wildflower bouquet I love it and then I don't know what this is but it's really really pretty so I'm gonna put one of them in there this thing is getting very full sorry but that is so cute that is really cute I think I might do one more yellow flower just needs a little more yellow uh sorry that is freaking precious it's like a little baby bouquet for having a little baby I'm so happy with that that is freaking precious okay that's exciting I really wanted to clean this office up before I left but as per usual I ran out of time it's okay I just have like clean laundry I need to put away so nothing crazy this little thing's falling apart when I have had this since like probably 2017 she is truly like actually falling apart I'm not gonna mess with that stands up for 10 minutes and then it's like so excited to sit down let me scoot you over a little bit okay so I think we pretty much have everything done I'm gonna like make one last quick check of my emails before we leave I hope I didn't forget anything vital that would be very frustrating I feel like in like a couple sort of work things today I've had to kind of advocate for myself a little bit in that I've had to like sort of voice my opinion and be like hey that's not gonna work for me and in my mind and my people-pleasing mind and I know a lot of you will agree with this that's kind of why I'm talking about it I know you'll be able to relate in my people-pleasing mind that means I'm being difficult but I'm not being difficult I'm just asking for what I need and I'm really really trying to work on that I'm really trying to be like I am not a burden or an inconvenience or whatever for just simply asking for what I need like or what I want even and I do think that like part of that probably comes from I mean obviously just this innate need to like be liked by everyone which is impossible um and it's like why would I ever ever ever ever choose this job that was the case but anyway yeah if you also needed to hear that you are not being difficult by simply stating something that you need from someone or want from someone especially if it's in a work capacity and like it's part of their job I don't know I'm always just so afraid of being perceived as being difficult or needy or like gosh she really asks for a lot or whatever but instead I will like put other people's needs before my own or sit with something I don't like or whatever it may be and then like end up in worth of a predicament than when I started or even just with like boundaries in general with like other people in my life I have had to be like hey I keep telling you what my boundary is about this thing and you keep kind of stepping all over and not listening so no this is not gonna work for me yada yada yada and like it's just so difficult it's like there's all this talk online about boundaries and boundaries are one of the most important things in the entire world they're like what saves you and your mental health but sometimes like the aftermath of that it's just like so scary it's like I feel like I'm sending like a risky text or something or a risky email and it's just like it's silly just feels really weird to do that every time I could never be like a boss like oh my god no way I'd be like are you mad at me though are you mad at me for asking me that absolutely ridiculously silly I need to head out in about five minutes so let me check my phone and make sure there isn't anything that I had on my to-do list to do before we go and then head off to go get this hair done okay in the car on the way I was thinking about this when I was like packing up my bag about how oh I need to bring like a pair of headphones for my phone in case I want to watch like tiktoks or something and then I was like oh yeah I don't have tiktok anymore so I thought that that would be like something interesting to chat about because I don't know how long it's gonna last if it's gonna be forever if it's just temporary but I deleted tiktok and I started it on I think January 1st did I talk about this already at least I might have mentioned it but at the start of every year I really kind of assess what it is that I'm like not I take inventory with my life right things that I'm just not vibing with or that don't make me feel great and I decided to delete tiktok because last year at the beginning of 2023 I deleted twitter and it was the best thing I ever did it truly freed up so much brain space and it just it just made me happier overall and so like deleting tiktok I was like okay I think that's the next step because I found myself just mindlessly scrolling on tiktok and there's nothing wrong with that by the way I'm not like judging anyone for doing it I'm just saying for my own personal brain I noticed that I was doing it all the time and I was on tiktok for hours and hours and like I was never feeling good afterwards like yeah there were funny things and things that I would see and I was always getting inspiration for like recipes and just other various things however I felt like shit it just made me feel bad all the time so I was like you know what I think I'm just gonna delete it and I honestly feel so good about it like Drew is still on it and he kind of tells me things and he tells me drama and stuff that's going on and he's even like considering deleting it tiktok is like one of those platforms to me that is so freaking cool like I love it I've discovered so many things I've learned so many things but it's also one of those platforms that can really like take up space in your brain if you let it like I felt like I was getting brain rocked I even thought about maybe making like a main channel video about this or something because I just have so many thoughts about it but I cannot simply handle any more aesthetics any more trends any more viral this or that like I still do it for my job I'm going to test out viral products and things like that but I just simply could not take it it's it's like so um we're like having an individuality crisis I think it was just making me never feel like I had enough clothes never feel like I had enough the right beauty products never feel like I was trendy enough never feel like you know I had the good enough skin and obviously that's all a me thing that's something I need to work on so removing that is like honestly has been a game changer it just really has helped me so so much I found myself buying stuff more than ever when I was on tiktok so yeah that's just kind of one thing that like I have removed in case you've been thinking about doing that it's one thing that I've removed that's really actually made quite a positive impact on my mental health it's actually made me feel a lot better one thing that's also so funny in LA it's just so different from like anywhere I've ever lived before is that there's parking garages for everything there's parking garages for target parking garages for hair salons parking like everything you're lucky if you have a parking garage and I have to pay every time I get my hair done to park and I think it's like last time I paid like $30 and I guess it's like I could find a meter and go feed the meter every two hours or something like that but it's like I wouldn't have time to do that I wouldn't be able to like get up as she's highlighting me or shampooing me or whatever but that is one thing that I find interesting about living here is just that like I really do miss free parking lots everywhere there's pros and cons about living everywhere for sure but that is just one thing that's like so so funny and so different about living in LA is just like getting used to the parking situation like there have been times where I haven't been able to find parking and I just leave it's crazy okay anyway I can't stand looking at these long bangs any longer so let's go get this hair done and actually get it done and stop talking to the camera okay goodbye the new do it's mostly just like fresher a little bit blonder at the roots and then my bangs got a little bit trimmed I'm gonna have to like play around with them because my bangs are very finicky and they have to be styled in a certain way but they it looks so good I love it it's nice and fresh I I was this close to going for more of like a straight across bang but I want to wait for my like actual hair to get a little bit longer but yeah I'm feeling good feeling fresh I'm gonna end this vlog here I have chatted enough I've said enough it's time to just make dinner and unwind for the night so thank you so much for hanging out with me today and I will see you very soon in the next vlog bye