 Hi, beautiful. Welcome to my New York City bathroom. If you don't already know, I do live in New York City, so things are a bit smaller around here in Manhattan. So it was a lot of work getting this camera equipment in here, but I made it work. And somehow it looks a lot bigger on screen, but in real life I am quite pushed up against the wall right now. I've been watching so many Vogue beauty videos lately and I was like, you know what? People always ask me, for some reason, what I do for skincare, what I do for makeup and how I do my hair. So I thought I would combine all those three things into one video and just do a whole, you know, getting ready to film kind of video, getting ready for, you know, a fun night out. I don't know. I pretty much wear the same makeup no matter what I do. So it's pretty simple, pretty natural, basically just a pretty skin kind of moment. But, you know, I have my own little way of doing things and it's very much not like a YouTuber style makeup tutorial. You know, a lot of YouTubers wear a ton of layers of makeup. I wear more like a practical amount and I do my makeup in more of a practical, quick way. So if you're interested in seeing that, then, you know what? You've come to the right place. Also, I wanna talk to you guys about how my 2019 was. So many amazing, cool things in my life happened this year and I just wanna reflect on it with you guys and then talk about what's to come in 2020 and, you know, all the struggles that come with doing YouTube. And I wanna just open up and talk to you guys more about all the things that I struggle with and all the things that have just been hard to deal with. So let's do a little bit of skincare, a little bit of makeup, a little bit of hair and a lot of talking. Let's do it. Okay, so let's start off with skincare, obviously. I actually wash my face at night only. In the past, I washed my face two times a day in the morning and night, but then I figured that actually wasn't good because I have very dry skin naturally and I also have eczema. So washing it like that is not a good idea. This is not in any way shape reform sponsored. However, this company does send me products for free. That's all I wanna say about that, but I really do like this product and I'm not paid to say this in any way, shape or form. I actually use Curology cleanser and I use the Curology nightly serum that they give you. You fill out like a survey and they give it to you and it actually really works. I was a little bit skeptical at first, but it actually is a great product and my face looks a lot smoother, a lot more clear and I don't really worry about redness or spots or any kind of blemishes coming up anymore. So I don't really have like acne prone skin, but sometimes I do get the occasional spot and I haven't really seen any spots happening since I've been using that. So I do that at night. I wash my face with Curology and then in the morning I rinse my face with water. I then apply this stuff. It's La Roche Passee. I don't know how to say it actually, but this is what it looks like. And it's the Double Repair Face Moisturizer Broad Spectrum SPF 30. It's a pretty heavy moisturizer and I love really heavy moisturizers. So it's pretty white when it goes in the skin and I actually love just feeling like so hydrated. Like I just cannot get enough hydration on my skin to be honest with you, especially when it's, you know, 20 degrees out right now and I am such a person who loves warm weather. It's too bad that I really love living in New York City for some reason. Otherwise I'd probably be in LA, but you know what? The city just does it for me. So I just basically do that and we're moisturized. I'm just gonna take a clip like this and just pin my hair back because you know what? This shit is getting long as hell and I don't need it in my face. We now move on to the next step, which is more La Roche Passee and this is the thermal spring water for sensitive skin. So after I apply my moisturizer in the morning, I usually go like a few hours before I actually get ready to film. So this kind of, you know, remoisturized my face and balances my pH. And honestly, it just feels good. I just like moisture, okay? Don't come for me. It's probably just water in a bottle, but like who doesn't love water in a damn bottle, okay? So then I take like 10 sips of my matcha latte. I have like two or three matcha lattes a day and they are so delicious and I will never have enough matcha in my life or in my body. So yeah. If you've never had a matcha latte with oat milk, try it and then let me know what you think, okay? It is the most delicious thing you'll ever have in your life. It's a little bit earthy crunchy, but it's good. It's really good. Oh, yum. So now I sometimes prime my face before makeup. I sometimes don't. It honestly just depends if I have primer available. And today we do. And today we're using Dermalogica Hydroblur and to be honest with you, I've never used this before. I typically use my Pat McGrath primer that goes with the foundation that I'm gonna use, but I actually ran out of it like two days ago and I threw away the bottle and now I'm here filming this spontaneously. So we no longer have that. So we're gonna try this today. I don't really don't know if primer even really works, but it feels good. I usually just go around my nose and ooh, this actually feels really good. Okay, I usually just go around my nose and my cheek area and my forehead because that is where I get the most lines and my pores are huge there. So we're gonna try and fill them in. You know what? Why not just go over my entire face today because I am so exposed right now. Oh, it's actually like shiny too. Fun. Ooh, it's very smooth. Okay, I feel that, yeah, I like that. I actually forgot to mention one other thing that I do before primer, which is just shaping my eyebrows with one of these things. I'm sure you've seen them before, but I basically just like go like that on my eyebrow. Try not to take off my eyebrow right now and basically shape it. They probably need to be shaped right now, but I really don't feel like doing it. So that's usually how I feel when I'm getting ready too. So there's nothing new about that and we're staying very true to myself right now. And usually I just like go with the unibrow for the day because I don't feel like plucking it. So yeah, after I do this, I usually pluck the middle, but I don't think I have a unibrow right now surprisingly. Girl, it grows fast there. And then I also will do like my cheeks. If I feel like I'm gonna wear highlighter that day, I'll also do my cheekbones because girl, if you've never shaved your entire face, do it. It is life-changing and it makes you feel so smooth and so shiny and it makes your skin look so much better. I've convinced so many of my girlfriends to shave their face and they literally live for it. And no, your hair will not come back thicker. Do your research on that one. That is a myth that is not real. I learned all about it in hair school. You don't grow thicker hair after you shave it. It just comes back more blunt. So it feels like it's more thicker, more thicker, thicker, not more thicker. You know what I mean? We did the primer, I'm feeling primed. It is looking cute. I'm feeling very smoothed out. We're shaved, we're ready to apply the foundation. So I have been living for this foundation right here, the Pat McGrath Labs Skin Fetish Foundation is everything. I use two shades because I'm extra like that, but I use medium 15 and light medium 13 and I mix them together. I'm usually light medium in the winter and then I'm the medium 15 in the summer. And then when I wanna feel like tan or I'm gonna film, cause these bright lights like really wash you out. So when I'm gonna film, I usually try and go a little bit darker than what I am naturally, just to give myself like a little bit of a bronze summery glow because I just don't like looking super, super duper, disgustingly pale. And I don't like fake tanning because I think it looks awful on most people. So today we're gonna use mostly the lighter one and a little bit of the other one and I'll show you right now how I do that. I usually mix it on the back of my hand right here. We're gonna do like two pumps of this and then we will do one pump of the darker color and then, you know, we'll mix it together on my face because that is how I do it. I don't like to spend a lot of time with this stuff. I'm so not lazy. Okay, yeah, no, I just don't have the time to be spending all this time doing my makeup. So I usually just do it and get it done. Okay, so I take the Pat McGrath foundation brush which also sent to me. So thank you for that. And I put on this and I stipple away. And I usually do under my eyes first because that is where I get the most, you know, darkness. Look, it's a little bit darker than my natural skin but it's not like too crazy. And this just covers up, you know, any little tiny imperfections. Ugh, again, don't come for me. Like I'm so fast with this stuff. I just put it on. Like I definitely sit here and blend it for a minute but I don't know, it's not that serious to me. And I'm not, you know, saying I am the best at makeup. I'm also not the worst. So I actually wanted me to make up artists before I was ever a hair stylist. And then I realized I like hair more. Oh, I bring it down to my neck and my chest of wearing like a low cut thing just because again, it's a little bit darker than my natural skin tone and it's looking really yellow right now but we'll fix that with a lot of other things. I should really just start not wearing foundation. I don't know why I do. Okay, so now that I look nice and yellow, I always pick foundations that are very warm because I just don't like looking too cool toned. It's looking a little crazy right now but it'll get better, I promise. So then I take my Beauty Blender, a little bit of a damp Beauty Blender and I just go over it. This kind of removes like a little bit of it because I don't like it to be so foundation-y. I don't like to look like I'm wearing a pound of foundation and I'm like a beauty influencer. Grab my under just shading the beauty community on YouTube for like 10 minutes, 20 minutes. I just blend everything in. This will also help blend those little streaks that the stippling brush will give you and it'll make everything perfect. So we love perfection. So while I finished blending this foundation in, I thought we could just talk a little bit about 2019 and YouTube in general and how it's all going for me behind the scenes and 2019 was a shocker for me. I popped off, I had my moment on YouTube like three years ago and the fact that I've been growing year over year and getting more subscribers and more views than ever, I'm shocked in a way and a way I'm not because I do put so much effort into everything that I do. It's a lot behind the scenes, you guys. I don't think a lot of people understand how much a YouTuber really does. You see us for 20 minutes a week or two times a week and it's quick, it looks easy. Setting this all up though, you guys, took three hours, it's not like I just pop in here and everything's done. But I feel like I have really grown on YouTube and figured this space out a lot in 2019 and have become a lot more confident in myself but I also feel like I've become a little bit more confused than ever. How do I keep people entertained with hair for so long? There's no written path on how to entertain as a hairstylist on YouTube. It's scary a lot of the time and I wanna keep you guys so interested and that is a lot of the reason why I'm doing this video today is to just change it up a little bit. Maybe switch gears for 2020 and do more stuff about me and who I am because I show a lot of hair, more hair and more hair all the time but I don't know if you guys actually know who I am as a person and the things I like to do and maybe it might be a little bit interesting to know I am not like everybody else. I do like a lot of different things. I'm in a totally different city than most YouTubers. Pretty much everybody is in LA and I'm over here chilling and I don't really talk to many YouTubers. I am not friends with a bunch of big YouTubers. Like we're friendly online but that's pretty much the extent of it and it's quite different than how a lot of people have it, you know? So I don't know where I was going with that but let's just apply some more makeup and I'll keep going with what I'm talking about but I usually take this brush. This is a Barrett Minerals brush. It is, you know, tapered at the top. It is a fluffy brush and I do bronzer. I use this palette. I was sent so long ago, probably like a year ago. It's probably expired by now but this palette has been everything to me for so long. Oh, this is the Sigma Sculpt Highlight Contour Palette and honestly it's everything. I use the shades, baking it and throw shade mixed together which is like a cooler tone color and a bit of a warmer tone color and I just do this and I do it like super lightly. Like I don't wanna look like I have lines in my face. I cannot handle when people have the crazy contouring. I really can't. I mean, I've definitely done it in my past but I've gotten over it. I actually didn't contour for like a year straight. I just started doing it again because I'm getting so pale and I want to just warm myself up a bit but like contouring gets crazy sometimes on people. Like the nose contour, girl, chill, chill. So that's it. I just do like the regular three motion like that and up on my forehead and then I'm done with that. I think a lot of the reasoning why I do my makeup the way I do it is because I'm so scared of wearing makeup that you can really see in real life. I personally don't think people realize that their skin a lot of the time looks worse when they have a lot of makeup on it. Like even if you have acne or whatever, I don't think piling a bunch of foundation on your skin makes it look any better. I think in photos, yeah, it definitely does. And you know, doing photo shoots and whatever, being in front of the camera is a totally different situation than real life usually. You definitely do makeup a lot heavier in front of the camera but in real life, dude, when you're going to an event and you're wearing like 40 pounds of makeup, I'm sorry, I'm just gonna go ahead and say it. It doesn't look good. It doesn't look good. It doesn't. And then they have the lines on their nose, like airplanes, what to land on your damn nose. And I just like don't get it. The whole like foundation then put concealer and then more concealer and then more baking powder and more baking powder and more baking powder. I'm like, where is your actual face? This is seriously not me bashing anybody. I just feel like voicing my own opinion on this. And if you like it, cool, if you don't like it, keep doing your thing, keep wearing a lot of makeup. We're all different people. We can all do whatever we want. That's just my stance on that. You don't need to listen to it. This is basically, you know, the foundation moment. It's cute, right? Oh, and then, you know, my lips are super dry right now because it's winter here and it is so cold. I actually have my own little concoction right here which is a cute little container I bought off Amazon and I fill it with aqua four and jojoba oil and I mix it together and it makes this jojoba oil aqua four mixture and I put it on my lips. It really helps a lot. I really don't like chopsticks. Like store-bought chopsticks because they have so many ingredients and you never know what's really in them and it ends up making your lips so much more dry and irritated and a lot of them have like peppermint in them and I'm like, why would you put peppermint and irritant in a lip product? Like I don't get it. So then I do blush. So I use this random brush. I have so many nice brushes and things that are sent to me, but I end up just using like the cheap things all the time because I don't know. Sometimes they just work better. I don't know where this came from, but I use it and I use it for my blush. I love blush. And I use the Sigma blush palette. Same one I got sent in the same box in the same PR box as the bronzer and I dip into this shade in this shade which is cordierosa and mode mauve. And this is like the really pinky one right here and then the kind of like reddish pink over here. And the reason why I do this is because when it's not summer and I don't have any kind of redness on my face, I feel like when you're wearing bronzer, it makes you look very yellow and not natural because usually when you're tan, you have a lot of red in your skin and I think it's really beautiful. You know, that little bit of burning on your nose and your cheeks, I think it's just so pretty. So I actually just go and gently put this on my cheeks and I would do my forehead and my nose and my chin and sometimes I do my neck. I definitely do my chest a lot. I love having a burned looking chest. Is that weird? See that? I just feel like I got instantly tanned. If I like a really cute natural looking tan, I feel so much better now. So yeah, a lot of great things have happened including my, you know, Joanna collab. It was just like one of the most fun days and most iconic things I've done. And I was just really proud of that video in general and it was so fun to film with Joanna and I just saw her last weekend actually at the Streaming Awards and she's just gorgeous. And Joanna, if you're watching, hi girl, how are you? I guess in 2019 I've also felt like I'll probably never be a part of the beauty community on YouTube and I've come to just accept that. I've come to just understand that they don't want anything to do with me. I am the hair guy, right? I don't know. Like I am pretty much alone out here a lot of the time and I'm not saying like, pour me, pour me. Like I love what I do. I would keep doing this even if I'd never made any more YouTube friends ever but I always see somebody YouTubers doing collabs with each other and hang out with each other. And I can't help but get a little bit jealous of just having somebody who's on the same level as you to talk to, to make friends with, to hang out with, to just talk YouTube with. I don't even know. It's weird because I'm like in that beauty world but I'm not at the same time. Like nobody really wants to fuck with me. I do talk to these people online, like pretty much everybody who's big in beauty I've talked to or like have their number or whatever but it's very like flaky a lot. I don't really like to put in too much effort with a lot of other YouTubers because plans always fall through and I'm up to a person that if I'm gonna say I'm gonna hang out with you, we're 100% hang out. Like I don't just do it for fun. I don't just say like let's meet up. And then like let's never actually show up. No, like if I'm gonna say I'm gonna hang out with you and I'm gonna say let's meet at this time on this day I expect like that to actually happen where I think a lot of people don't actually think like that. And so I've just been let down by so many people on social media so many times that I probably built kind of a wall and I just stopped trying. I'm also like not in that scene. And I think it actually was a good thing for me to not hang around that crowd. Obviously this year it's been really crazy for beauty on YouTube and I'm just glad I have my sanity. I'm in my own bubble in New York with my non-Youtuber friends who work in fashion and PR and whatever and they're all creative but I have a really solid group of people who are very mentally stable and there's no drama and I love that. So I am gonna do my own thing. I'm gonna succeed without anybody's help like I've done to this day. Nobody's helped me get to where I am on YouTube and that is for sure. I didn't have friends in the industry. I didn't even know how this thing worked. I didn't monetize my videos for the first six months of me being on YouTube. Like I didn't even know how to do that. It's been a learning process and I did it all myself and I'm very proud of that and I have my solid group of friends in New York. I think at the end of this year I realized that I am happy being a bit more of my own than average YouTubers are. I'm done trying but in a positive way and that's that. Let's work on my eyebrows really quick. I take this hourglass eyebrow pencil and I just push it all up. Actually, I've been doing this lately where I push it all down and then you see that little arch right there that's just like a little bit sparse. I actually just fill that in. So I basically just go, I'm gonna just fill it in but I'm gonna do that in front of the mirror real quick because I'm gonna fuck it up if I don't. So I'll be right back. So that is one brow down and then this one I haven't done yet. But as you can see, it's not that much different. I mean, it's just more of an arch right there but another thing I really don't like is Instagram brows. I do not like the outlined brow. I don't like the very, very shape and eyebrows. It's not my thing. And I think we need to leave that in 2019 a bit. And I think we already have but I like to just keep it natural and just fill in the tiny bit of imperfections that I have up there but not do like too much. Even with the strokes I do, I try to not make them straight because I don't like to look like I have this really arched eyebrow and it's just super serious and weird. So I just gently feather in some lines and call it a day. I'm gonna do the other eyebrow now. So as you saw before, I did the foundation and all of the powder before my eyebrow is because I don't like when the powder gets in your eyebrows. I just feel like it looks gross and like fake. So I do that after. So I do all the brows stuff after. I then take the hourglass arch in clear. It depends on the day or like whatever I choose but I either use a clear gel or I use a tinted brown one. I don't know. It doesn't really make that much of a difference on my eyebrows. My eyebrows are really thick anyways. So I usually just take this thing and just make them super bushy. I don't really trim my eyebrows either. Like I used to always trim them but I like when they're really dramatic and bushy now. The older I get, the more I just go with my natural beauty and try not to change it too much. I just get worried about looking like I have 18 pounds of makeup on and I don't like that look if you weren't already clear about that. That's basically that for my eyebrows. It's pretty easy. So I'm gonna now do a little bit something extra that I don't always do which is, can you guess what this is? It is highlighter. I don't love highlighter. It's another thing that I feel like people overdo. There's always like 10 pounds of caked on highlighter and in real life it doesn't look good. It's always just two day of much, right? So I wear a minimal amount of highlighter but I usually only wear it when I'm filming. Sometimes not even. I like it because on camera it looks super glossy and like your skin is just healthy if you don't wear like too much of a packed on. Otherwise I don't wear it in real life because I just feel like it's a telltale sign on a dude if you're wearing makeup and I'm not trying to look like I'm a cake face over here. So I use the Becca. I mean, this is so basic. The Becca in Moonstone and I take this little tiny bare minerals diffused highlight brush and I'm just going like this and like this and I do a little like this and I just do the tiniest amount on my cheekbones and then I bring it onto my forehead just over the eyebrow maybe like a little bit inside my corner of my eye. Honestly, just over here. And then like I'll do my chest sometimes. Nothing crazy though. So that is the makeup all done. As you can see, it's pretty basic and natural. It's a little bit, you know, it's definitely like a little makeup-y but I feel like you could probably be like, yo, I'm not wearing any makeup and like get away with it at this point. Now it's time for my hair and my hair routine is just as easy as my makeup routine. Yay. I just use the right products and my hair comes out really nice, really fast and really easily. I don't know if you guys can guess what I use but it might be from a brand named X-Mondo. I use Glitterati first. Usually when I'm going out or I'm like feeling like I want to look a little extra or I want to have like that little bit of sparkle in my hair or the weather's gross and I just want a little bit more hold in my hair. I use Glitterati. Sometimes I skip Glitterati but typically I use it and I'm just gonna do like three squirts of it on my hand and I'm just gonna go like this. Get it all around. Ooh, Marty feeling more extra. I love it. Oh, I'm sorry. I'll just never get sick of the scent of my own products. So after I have Glitterati in my hair I use Electric Rain Moisture Cream and this is literally the best thing for my hair and for anybody with dry hair or anybody who just wants a little bit more of a sheen, shine to their hair, to their ends. Everybody could use a trim at all times. Like the ends of your hair, if you have long hair or colored hair are just always gonna be a bit compromised. Using something like this, a moisturizing cream on your hair is not gonna weigh down your hair and it's gonna really do a great job at smoothing your hair and making it a lot more shiny and a lot more healthy and our formula has Argan Oil and Bobab Oil in it. My two favorite oils right now, it really helps moisturize my ends and keep my hair beautifully styled throughout the day and Glitterati is just gonna give me that hold that I need in order to keep my look in place. So those two together work so well for me. So today I'm gonna go for like a blowout kind of a moment, a little bit of a pompadour, a little bit more styled look. You know, you guys see me do the wet look all the time. You see me do like middle part. I don't know. I really just go with however I wake up that day and what's like the easiest to style but I don't try and mess with it too much. I wash my hair like once a week and yeah, today I wanna go for a blow dried look. So I take my Ibiza Borbristle brush. It's number B5 and these are my favorite brushes to ever exist on this planet. They just smooth your hair out so well. They make it just so shiny and beautiful and ugh. And then I use of course my Dyson which I also just love. And then combined with the X-Mondo products. Most iconic trio ever. So I'm just gonna do a quick round brush blow dry and then we'll finish the style. I look crazy. Let's do it. And that is my blow dry. Ooh, it feels nice and oh, fluffy and fresh. I love it. I also forgot to mention before that I wash my hair with, of course, the right of my shower right here. Project X Shipwood conditioner. Um, and this is like my 20th one I've been through. So yeah, every time I wash my hair I condition with prismatic glow. My hydrating hair mask because I always need extra hydration. My hair is so dry, hi. And then you typically, I'll end up styling with electrograin. Because the thing with electrograin is if you add a little bit too much on purpose, it gives you kind of a really cute, moisturized, peasy look. So I usually do that. And honestly, a little bit of pomade. By a little bit I mean so much that it makes your hair look greasy. I don't like when my hair looks fluffy. Like sometimes I do, but also most of the time I like when it looks a little bit wet. All right, I feel like we're onto something here. That looks okay. Like I just don't like things that are look too perfect. I guess. I like when they look imperfectly perfect, like I tried, but I didn't actually try, but I kind of did. Now typically it takes me about 15 minutes to do everything I just showed you. It does not take me as long as it just did, but I've been talking and doing a bunch of things at the same time. So yeah, while I finish styling my hair, I'm gonna put a little bit more bronzer on the edges of my head because once I've had my hair slick back, it kind of like exposes me and like, oh my God, like there's a bit of missing bronzer on the side. But basically in 2020, I just hope to be more open on the internet and be more myself. I always look at other YouTubers and think like, wow, they're so open with their fans and they just tell everything and they do whatever they wanna do and they are just so true to themselves. And while I feel like I'm true to myself, I also feel like I could just show so much more in my life. I just don't know if I'm always like comfortable with that. I just wanna try in 2020 to be more open, share more things, let you guys more into my life in a way that's not always about hair. And I hope you guys will, you know, enjoy that. And if you see a video that I upload that isn't about hair, I'd hope that you would just give me a shot, watch the video, see if you like it, you know? And if you don't wanna see anything besides hair for me, I get it. I still really, really love hair and I will continue to be mainly about hair but I'm gonna show more about my life in 2020 and I hope that you guys will be on the long the ride with me. And of course I've made so many mistakes this year and that's okay. I feel like I have just grown so much as a person. I've grown so much in business and I'm just so proud of myself in general. I mean, X-Mondo, my lifelong dream of creating my own haircare company came true this year and you guys have been supporting like crazy and I'm so appreciative of every single one of you that come back and watch me or anybody who has purchased a product or merch or anything over the time of me being a YouTuber, like seriously, your feedback and everything on, especially my products makes my day every time. Those moments that I could sit back and read your comments just makes it all so worth it and makes it so exciting and makes me tear up a little bit. Even though I'm not an emotional person, I'm just like, ah, this is so cool. And yeah, in 2020 I just wanna continue to grow in my personal life. Maybe find a boyfriend. I don't even know if I want a boyfriend. Be more open to that, I guess. Grow my channel in a way that opens me up to you guys a little bit more. Shows the different things that I can do besides hair. Continue with X-Mondo. Continue to nurture the amazing friendships that I have in my life. Spend more time with my family and still focus my work, but maybe just take a damn step back for two seconds. I don't know how to stop. I don't. And, you know, keep up with my health, work out more, get my fitness back, and just continue to be cute. And I'm gonna continue on my journey to find more happiness. 2019 has been amazing. Thank you guys for being on my journey. Thank you for watching me put on some makeup and doing my hair today and do skincare kind of. I don't like spending a lot of time on myself when it comes to my appearance, but I love getting other people ready and making them feel and look beautiful, and that's why I do what I do. So yeah, that's my super simple routine makeup, skin, and hair, and this is how I get ready for my YouTube videos. It's so easy, it's so cute. That's all I got for you today. I love you so damn much. Don't forget to live your extra life, and I'll see you next time. Bye.