 We had we had a you know recent, you know death in our family Apollo's and You know during that time. Well, it's only been a week, right? Been just over a week now Think that has been that was a very That was a very hard Very hard. I think experience for us as a family all together. I think we're still, you know We're still working through it in process and if we just received his paw print Today they told me they called me Monday. They called me Monday and told me that we were able to pick it up And so I just waited till I just waited and I said, well, let me just go ahead and no mother said two weeks now It's been two weeks. Yeah The 13th. Yeah, the 13th will make two weeks. So he passed on the 13th. But anyway, so And I'll say this it's not the same, you know, I'm saying it's not the same. It's different You know, you look at certain parts of the house and stuff like that, you know But as a family member, you know, you would hear people you would hear people talk about You know losing a pet and losing, you know, I Beloved Adam on things like that until you actually experience it. It's a different thing. So How how are you? How have you been able to, you know, work through it and you know Maybe somebody else will be watching this video and and and may need that help and that support and encouragement to I know one of the things that helps me is family is is being able to, you know, be with you be with y'all and and And then talk about it at times. But I think that first week, man, it was like We didn't mean we didn't mean we were talking about the church situation because we have a church to go to Anyway, but nonetheless, it was just hard. It was it was a very hard thing a very hard time During that week, it was like the worst because The day it happened I was supposed to go to work. Yeah, and I was like, okay, I'll be fine when I was like when I was Sitting next to mom and Myra was like in the other room. Yeah with you and All I could hear Like it was like a moment of silence and all I could hear was my light out like um, a Big yelp because I knew that that's when it happened so During that week, I Knew Like that day. I knew like I couldn't go to work Because like I actually I had to like come to terms with like the fact that he's gone and The stuff that I used to take for granted like him barking him whining for no reason I miss that now because I don't get to see him when I come home Or like and I feel for Kailin because when it happened Like all their member all the Malamie Kailin members when they last saw him when he was in the kitchen so it's like when I Think about like Kailin it's kind of like That was literally like her best friend because she didn't really talk to anybody like she was cuz like she's homeschooled So like really Apollos was like everything to her So when that happened That's when I felt like I don't know how I'm gonna be able to like do this. I can't go to work And so I text my boss and I was like, I'm so sorry like I can't come to work right now They knew Mike would happen and he was like I totally understand like take the time you need to like grieve with your family and I took the time and My friends are like so sweet like they stopped by like they checked up on me and it was it was so sweet But it was also like the next day. I knew I had to go to work And so in the morning it's before like everyone always gets there so like in the morning I was trying to go And like when you're sitting in the car by yourself Your thoughts you're just like in your mind all the time and so When that happened I was just driving to work and I was trying to like not cry and I just kept thinking about him because it was still so like fresh in my mind and It was thank God it was sunny that sunny that day because like I was I didn't want to Walk in to see her and have everyone see me crying and so I put on my shades I just walked in and I was okay. No one's gonna look at me. I'm just gonna keep my shades on and not say anything And so of course everyone knew what had happened because they're like I'm so sorry and I'm like, thank you And so I'm trying I know I'm gonna be fine when someone asked me like What happened and I can tell them the story without Me crying right and right now like it's still it still like hurts, of course because I Loved him and we only had him for like five years. He wasn't even gray yet. So I Was imagining still having him up until like I was 20 something and he was gonna be all gray And I was gonna come home and sleep and see him And so it's like the fact when I come down I couldn't even like go downstairs Because his kennel wasn't there anymore his bed wasn't there his toys weren't there so it's like it's like a constant reminder that like he's not here anymore and It comes and goes it does just have to keep like, you know focusing on I know he's not in pain anymore, right? and he was Like my first pet and I appreciated him for the time that he was that he was here. Yeah, no, yeah It was it was hard for all of us I know, you know, we got home that first day your mother had gathered all his stuff up, you know Then I had to add to disassemble the kennel had to gather the bed had to you know Take all the stuff and the toys and it happened on a Thursday. So, you know trash day was Friday. So When we saw him saw him, you know that last day I Knew pretty much everything was over when when the trash truck truck had came and Gather all his stuff. So, um, I mean, this is the first time since the you know that week Yeah, I've been been okay, but You know it comes and goes I was able to Talk to Mr. Caesar you he was helpful He was very helpful and He had told me he said man We had to I had to put, you know, our dog down because he was you know He was sick as well too and stuff, but you know, it was a freak accident Nobody in our family knew that this would have happened I mean we met that you had got lunch for us that day Wednesday and stuff and then you know And the accident had happened he uh, it was it was nerve damage for people may have wanted to know he suffered nerve damage and It would have taken a lot of care for us to try to before the keeping we just couldn't and so He was basically limping and couldn't walk anymore on his left hind legs So, you know, so we made the decision as a family to To go ahead and put him to sleep and so, you know as a family we had to make that decision And we was hard, but you know by God's grace. We but uh, we've been dealing with it. Okay, so but uh We should have a commercial break This is this is one of time you go to the commercial but you know, this is uh, this is, you know One needs real conversations and so it happens, but um Let's talk about let's talk about your your no pun intended, but pet peeves What are some things that you don't like? I mean the things that you either either that I do your mother does your sisters do, you know, your brothers What what are some what is some Look here she is right here this one here look yeah wait wait you gonna see it in the comments Yeah, I'm need y'all to wrap this segment up. Yeah, I know how I am see yeah, so