 Ugh, I look a mess. I look a mess. I look a mess. I'm going to Aldeys, because I need to do it. And so I've got like four months to my leave. I just have a home pre-ment here. I've just been to Aldeys. I need such an exciting life. I'm going to Aldeys. That's my excitement. I'm going to sort my face out and then we're going to film. But that's the part. I'm just drained from last night. I literally recorded everything last night. I don't know why. I can't even keep up with myself on it and I'm trying to put it here. That light is the one... This is the one I'm talking about when I keep saying the light move. It's like I literally just like... I don't even... What am I doing? No one knows. Don't let me drive. Don't let me drive. You guys know much pain. Cheek with him. He doesn't understand the hot water pot. So I gave up using a tap because telling him he doesn't know. I live in student halls. Very warm out of the tap. Allow me to educate you. What are you staying in the water for? I'm just using the same water. Are you going to use a hot water bottle? It's not like I'm drinking it or anything. I'm being a kettle. What am I doing? This is why I don't film after a certain time. Because my mood just goes a little hyper. We don't need it. It's steamy being a kettle. Slightly more fun side to my life. Shock. It's hot. I'm in such a state. When I'm in hospital I use my phone all the time. But when I'm at home I just don't use it. I don't use my phone for much. You use like computers more. You are more likely to find me using my laptop than you are on my phone. I don't know. I'm just the kind of person that's more likely to... I've rambled on for... 8 minutes. I hate the smell I've come up with. I hate it. Sorry, I just forgot the noise, does it? I don't really... You do you. If it works for you, it works for you. I'm not the kind of person that's into that. I don't know how to do it. I don't like it. You don't know how your person is. I don't know how I get met in the hospital when I'm in there. Because... I don't want to do that. I don't want to spend that time. There's a fun moment. I forgot my camera was recording. I just disobeyed a lot. I forgot it was recording. And then it just died. And I was like, oh, it didn't know it was recording. I kind of bother to film something. I don't get my bothering. I feel just typed it on my laptop. Meds. Meds is what I hate right now. Lydia, encouraging drug use. Trolls be like... She's encouraging drug use. Sorry, I was just going with the light mood. It felt like... How many weeks? It was the first week I sat down there. I've only just learned that this light... It was... Did I think? It said it's memory was full now. No, it's not. My only memory took a moment. I don't know why. I've literally taken my meds. So I'm going to knock myself out now with my pro-meds-of-being. On the folders, I didn't even take in 25 initially. It was not necessarily, but it wasn't. So I'm going to do a 25 and make it up to 50. And I'm also having... There's a big one I forgot to add. Well, not morning, but... Earlier on. And that's all from... Manic, me. I don't know. I'm not moving away. But, like... So it's 10 past 11. I'm not normally awake now. I know most people are like, Oh, God, you wake up early. I don't... I just fall asleep really early and sleep in a lot. I like sleep. I get really fatigued up, so... Yeah. That's what my DVD, by the way. I don't know how many can you get. Chronic. Chronic. My brain's been on overtime. It's not used today. We all need a Wild Lydia sometime if we don't. No one needs this. No one needs this. No one's used this part of me. I don't even know where I record. I'm, like, overly happy because I forget. Like, I get so genuinely happy that I just forget to record. And people only see that they're really depressing side of my life. When in reality... There's also a side of my life. Like, the hyperactive night. That's where you get to take some medication and ramble all that crap that no one really wants to watch. You'll care about what she thinks they do so she puts it out there anyway. Wow, that was the best promotion of my channel. I'm a mess. I've been only been out of hospital, like, two days. And my brain's just... I just don't think my brain knows how to comprehend it. It's like... I don't know. I don't know. I get really anxious around people. I don't know. Because of that, you see different people every day. It's like... I don't know. I've got loads of thoughts. And I was like, can I say that on camera and not get arrested? And if I'm asking that question, it's probably best that I don't say it. And everyone watching this is just like, let it go. Yeah, so is this everything? I don't think. I don't take what I've prescribed. And I promise to you, because it's over the counter and I can't get it prescribed when I've got my money on it. I used to have it prescribed. I used to take 10 milligrams of it. That was on prescription for it. So I don't have to pay for it. I don't have it on prescription anymore because they got really funny in the UK about people using prescriptions to get over the counter medication and now they haven't prescribed it. It's really low over the counter. You're just expected to fork out fucking £9 to go. I have to pay for my medication. Being a student and having an income, like it sounds bad, but having an income is all the stuff I do on the internet. That counts as an income. I get a thing called a prepayment card. It says it's this. Oh my God, I don't know what I was talking about before. My brain just did a thing. I was talking about police sirens and triggers. So when I hear police sirens, that's not made to trigger. It does trigger me a bit into thinking and putting my hand up rapidly. If I see blue flashing lights, no matter what fucking vehicle it is, I'm running back to my flat and I'm hiding. I make light of it because I don't know what else to do. I dropped my tablet on my trusser. I don't know why I need to say that. But that's what I was talking about before. Tablet bad, that's what Lydia needs to do. Tablet, night guys. Let's turn the light on. Oh, you can still see me, because I'm out of tops on. Why did I put my scarf thing that I use on my whole robot? I'm going to re-wrap it back because I literally need to. I'm just going to get like a cool coat. Anyway, I'm literally messing around for a fucking photo. Oh, Shane Dawson. There's no video. I haven't seen the new series yet. Oh my god, that's what I missed when I was in hospital. For King Shane Dawson. I haven't seen any of it yet. So I downloaded it on YouTube Premium to watch because I paid for that last month because I was like, oh my god, I love them in hospital. I need YouTube and usually the hospitals I've been to don't have Wi-Fi. So I wouldn't have any. I don't have Wi-Fi. And I wasted fucking 15 pounds. But hey, I need the water bottle thing. And now I'm going to bed. Good night. Actually, I had my sleep on. I'm going to do that with that girl. Alright guys, see you tomorrow. Don't let me drive Don't let me drive