 Like, well, is he still alive? And I remember clearly, it was like, no. And all we could do was just, all we could do was just stand out. Cause you know, you, you never think that people are, you know, you never think. Here one day and then you're gone. Then you go on the next. I'm sorry. No, you fine. You never, you just never think. I'm sorry. I'm talking, we'll get you some tissue. Yeah. Yeah, we on boss talk one on one. He died at the house. Yeah. So my brother, yeah, he got killed at the house. He got killed at the house. I want to, like I said, now I don't want to, if you want to talk about it, we can't. Cause I want to talk about that day just kind of, you know, where were you at and how you, how did, how did it affect? It's your brother, of course, but it's been years now. Can we talk about it? You know, like, how was that, that day? Like when, when this all happened? So I remember it was like, we wasn't home. So my mom, like I said, she's a lady bug jumper. So it was like probably like a week before their second line. And so they were really getting like closed together. So we were at my aunt's house. My aunt lives like probably like six, seven minutes from us. And we all talking about, this is when love me, love me, not was about to drop. So he had just show everybody was just seeing a video and talk about how good the video was. Like this was the one that was going to put him to the next level. Nobody was messing with this video. He shot it at Tipper Tina's. Like it was like a live band and everything. So we knew that this was like one of those moment that was going to prepare him to the next moment. And just like we sitting there, we talking and they just calling the phone like he had been shot. So, you know, my brother had been shot before. So, you know, we like, okay, he been shot. Is he okay? He was like, we don't know. It's really bad this time. And, you know, so all I remember is my mom running down the street about my AT house to run to the scene. And we ended up going there before her. It was me and my cousin. We ended up driving up before her cause we had to let her know because she didn't want to go at that time. So we ended up going before her and... And everything was still there? Everything, we was, yeah, everything. Cause it just had happened. Like it didn't just happen. So you made that before the police then? The police were there. They were there, the crime people were there. And all you could see was him laying next to the steps. They didn't even cover him up or nothing? No, so it was like, you know, like I said, it was still the coroner's hand came or anything. So we was like, well, is he still alive? And I remember clearly that it was like, no. And all we could do was just, all we could do was just stand up. Cause you know, you never think that people are, you know, you never think... Here one day and then you're gone. Then you go on the next, I'm sorry. No, you fine. You never, you just never think. I'm sorry. I'm talking, we'll get you some tissue. Yeah. I don't know. I don't get it. Yeah. Yeah, you just never think, but so... And to see that, that's the problem. You know, because that image can never go in. And I think that affects you even more than if you hadn't seen it. You know what I mean? Yeah, you know, cause you think you're going there. You're going to see them people again, but you're really not. So I think my whole thing was just, how was we going to tell my mom? Cause my mom and my brother, like we said, we like 14 years ago. But they were on their way down there. She, yeah. So did she end up coming to see? We ended up stopping him. We got back to tell them that he was gone. My mom was like running to, running down the street to my AT house. And she was, we intercepted. So she like, y'all, what happened? And we told her, we was like, you know, he gone and that's a moment that always gonna scar me to see my mama and how she dropped to know that it was done. She fell out. Yeah, she did. Of course, cause you're a mom now, right? Yeah, I'm a mom now and I know. And I think that affects you even more because like for me personally, I'd never experienced anything like what you're experiencing, but you know how like when you watch sentimental movies and stuff like that, you didn't cry. You did not cry before you have kids. But once you start having kids, it's like, everything makes you cry. Especially if they're talking about children. Children and somebody's child. Because like you can put yourself in that person's position and you feel it. So it's totally different. So like even just knowing that she's a mother and you have to endure that. But then for me, it's like once I'm in tune with God now where, cause I was raising the church and all of that, but I think when you really find God later on as an adult and you know that everything happens for a reason and it's bad that of how some things happen terribly. And that makes people question like, how can there be a God if they go like this? Or they go like that. But like I tell everybody, and when I tell people things I'm not telling them for them. I'm telling them also for myself because it can happen to anybody. Yep, yep, yep. So I'm trying to heal myself in a lot of different ways. Yeah, we on boss talk one on one.