 Hey, hey you guys, welcome to above life channel. The purpose here is to inspire your spirit and to fill you with hope. So today we're gonna talk about energy shifts and the rough seas. Yesterday was the 1212 portal if you follow astrology and now we're in Mercury retrograde, great. So I had a heck of a day, let me tell you. And so I'm not feeling great today. In fact, I'm kind of debating on whether or not I'm gonna go to cardiac rehab or not. So not sure if I'm feeling well enough to do that. So can you let me know if you can hear me okay? Just put a thumbs up. I'm trying to figure out a way to hold on without having to hold on to this but I think I'm just gonna have to hold it. Hi, hey, can you tell me if you can hear me, will you give me a thumbs up? I can't double check my stuff here. Hope I'm feeling better. You know, I was doing pretty well but I didn't, hey abs, nice to see you. I have been like physically feeling better but then yesterday I had some emotional stuff and so I had some, what would you call it? Stress on my heart space. So I feel very, I'm trying to set something up here so I can actually just sit and talk without I'm doing too many fancy things. Let's say, hey, nice to see you. See if I can do this. I don't know if this is gonna work. It might, it may not work. Yeah, I don't think this is gonna work. Ooh, I got an idea, just a minute. I should have done this before I went live but I didn't plan very well. I'm glad you're on those so at least I can chat with somebody and I'll feel good. I'm at the townhouse today. I came yesterday and it feels good to be here. The doggos are here with me, keeping me company. Oh, that looks good. Yeah, that looks pretty good. Keeping me company which is really nice. And so I appreciate that. Hi, Lisa from Florida, nice to see you. So I was just sharing that we're gonna have a conversation a little bit about the energy and how yesterday was the 1212 portal which was like a whole thing astrologically. Now I don't do astrology specifically but I have a really good friend who's like super into it and so she fills me in and tells me all about it and so I know that there's a lot of stuff and for me personally, I had a lot of things come up from the past yesterday, a lot of, it wasn't even triggers, it was just like in your face, like a frying pan in the face kind of thing. Like what the hell was that? Like really, really why? Why? Why does this need to be the scenario, you know? And so I was, I spent, I was really upset yesterday. Yesterday was a rough day but I was able to come here, I did a session. So that was awesome to talk to a client because that always kind of gets me centered and grounded in my body and connected and it feels really good to do a session, to work, it feels so good. And then I just hung out here with the dogs and I couldn't even journal, like I just felt kind of waves, it felt like rough seas and I kind of had been happening, I knew something was up yesterday morning, like I could feel stuff, like I couldn't get off the couch yesterday, I was so tired and I was so, so tired and it was just like an energetic thing, you guys, I'm talking about energy, this was energetic, right? 12, 12. And I was like so, so tired, I could not, I was trying to get myself to, and I had been up since like 5.30 in the morning, I was trying to get myself to take a shower, trying to get myself to take a shower and it wasn't a physical thing, I'm not physically limited, I mean, I do get tired easy but not like before, I'm really picking up, like I've been exercising, I've been doing what I need to do to take care of my physical body and the healing of my physical body and so it was definitely an emotional and energetic thing that I was feeling and I just could not get motivated. I was like, what the hell's wrong with me? And I talked to some friends and some of them said kind of the same type of thing too and but I felt like something was coming, like I felt like, like as if you were on the ocean in a sailboat or a boat and you can kind of tell that it's, you know, you're not gonna storm later in the day but you're not sure how bad the storm's gonna be, it was like that and I, it doesn't matter where you are in the boat as long as you're, when you're still in the boat, you're still affected by the storm, even if you're close to shore, it doesn't matter, even if you're like, it just, and that's exactly how the energy felt for me and so it was a rough day, I thought maybe I was dealing with some depression or maybe I was dealing with some heavy or thick energy and I thought, you know, I really don't want to end up back in a space where I was this time last year and I gotta be really conscious of that especially because I am not able to do the kinds of activities yet, I'm not full on like, I can't hold my body weight up, I can't push and pull and I can't do weights and so I can't do yoga, like with my arms and stuff, I can do some chair yoga but I can't do anything where I'm using my body weight which I love, like I love to do planks and I love to do exercises on my arms and all that and I haven't been able to do that and it's definitely affecting my mental health and so I even took extra vitamin D yesterday because I'm like, I gotta get out of this funky energy feeling and I didn't really feel heavy bad like when I was depressed last year and I felt so bad, so bad, like I couldn't keep my head above water last year, it felt like somebody was trying to drown me and literally all the time, like I was walking around in mud is how it felt up to my neck and I could barely breathe, that's how it felt and so it didn't feel like that so that's good but I was just, it was, I couldn't do anything, I just couldn't do anything and then all of a sudden later in the day I had something kinda bubble up, something personal bubble up and it was from the past and it just, and it was so random how it happened, I started a new TikTok channel, you guys, I need to tell you that, I started a TikTok channel for, for, above life channel, so I did, so I started a TikTok channel for above life channel on YouTube and so when you do that and you can connect some things like Facebook Messenger and Instagram and other kind of things that you have and it's, it, it shows people and things like that and then people start following you and then like I guess the algorithm or something does something and I got, I got some, I, it was kind of a thing that is kind of a, I don't know how much to share but it just felt, oh God, and I'm gonna get upset too. I called my friend Rebecca and I said, girl, and I know she's got, you know, she's busy, super busy this time of year, she's busy for her and stuff but I'm like, girl, I need some help because I'm losing my shit right now and it's just one of those things that like you're handling everything and then all of a sudden something comes by and knocks you off balance and you don't realize how close you are to fragility until it happens, right? Just like with my open heart surgery, I didn't realize how close I was to fragility until that happened. I was like, what? And then denial and resistance and all that, right? Well, with the astrology yesterday, I sensed a storm coming but I didn't think it was gonna be this big bad thing and it wasn't like somebody was super mean to me or anything like that. It wasn't like my immediate family or anything like that, it was external and but I felt very, I definitely felt this leak from me. I felt like I've done so much to keep my energy. Maybe I haven't done enough to keep my energy protected and held in the cocoon, right? And I think it goes to show how and then I just got knocked out of orbit and it's hard because I'm so visual, so imagery. So when I see videos or when I see pictures and stuff, it's just, it's so fucks with me and it felt very, I felt very vulnerable to the energy and I felt like that last year too. There were times last year where I felt very targeted and psychically just weak energetically and like personally, like in my private life and I just, there was some weird stuff that happened and I had stuff happen last year and the year before with like psychic attacks and weird stuff that I've never dealt with. People that do like negative uses of energy, that manipulate energy in ways that are really dark and not dark like shadow, but dark like just evil, like for their own benefit in a way that's like when they feel threatened by you or something, like it's just ridiculous. Like why would you be threatened by me? I'm just a weird live in my life, like trying to live, like I'm just healing, okay? Leave me the fuck alone is how it feels. And the energy was just so targeted at my heart and it was really hurtful and in my face and very painful and it brought up a whole bunch of past things of grief and loss and not feeling enough and feeling like I should have known better and like I should make better choices. Like in general, like my head, you know what I mean? You know how you go to those places? I go to those places to you guys just because I'm a psychic, just because I'm an intuitive coach, just because I'm a life coach and I do healing work doesn't mean I'm immune to human experience. I mean, I am right there with you and thank God because that's the kind of person, thank God is, that's the kind of person you need that understands real life, right? Because psychic stuff doesn't do any good. Spirituality, energetics does not do you any good. Number one, if you're gonna manipulate that stuff. Number two, if you're gonna totally misunderstand the empath and the heart space and how tender it is and also then how powerful it is, it's not gonna help you either. It can make you so unhealthy like look at me. Look at me. So today I'm dealing with the aftershocks of that and my physical heart hurts. It's like, it's not my heart, it's like the muscle like the aorta, the muscle, right? And it's the left side, it's not even the right side. Usually when I feel like, when I overdo it, like when I lift too much and I shouldn't, like if I pick up a dog for example or carry a grocery bag up or carry my backpack, I carry my backpack in. I usually is on my right side, I can usually feel it and I can tell and it kind of feels underneath my ribcage right here. This is all right here. And I know it's because of that broken heartedness that stress and it hurts. And I think it's good that at least I'm feeling it. I got angry too yesterday and in fact I told my friend both two of my friends that were trying to like help me through it, through the feelings I was feeling because it's really not about like whatever happened, right? It's not about that. It's more about me and how I handle it, how I handle myself and take care of myself and choose myself and love myself and hold myself and same with you when you deal with something. Like if you have a crappy relative, that's a jerk or an overbearing mother or a significant other that just is never satisfied or a child that seems to want the world and you're like stressing out about money, whatever it is for you, it's like it's not about what other people are telling you or giving to you or showing to you. It's what you know in your heart that's true for you and that light has to win. It has to shine. It's like not, that's not when you dim it down and try to hide because that was kind of my instinctual thing was, oh my God, not again, please. I cannot, I cannot handle it. My heart cannot take anymore. And then, so there's this like withdrawal, pull back, isolate and that's not healthy and that's not what you need to do. It's turn it up. Turn it up, baby, turn it up. And that's what unconditional is. It's other people's conditioning, it doesn't, that's the moment that you choose yourself and that's when the empaths, we have so much power. You guys have so much power. It's like truly solar power. It's soul or power, right? It's soul, her power. It's soul, your power. And it just, that's the truth. That's the truth. And I was like, and I told both of my friends, I'm like, I just get to get, I get to be angry right now. I get to be angry. And so remember you guys, I've been telling you for like a week and a half. I'm trying to get in touch with my anger and trying to get in touch with my anger. And now all of a sudden, I was like raging yesterday and I'm like, this is just cruel, you know? This is just, this is not okay. It's beyond not okay. This is, you are fucked up, you know? Like really, you know, it's like, call off the dogs kind of thing is how it feels. Call off the fucking dogs kind of thing. It's like, I am no threat to anybody, you guys. But sometimes can't, don't you feel like a target? Don't you guys? Seriously, don't you feel like that? Sometimes don't you go, what is going on? Like, what did I do to deserve this? Don't you ask the universe sometimes, what the heck? What kind of karma did I inflict in a former life to deserve this? Like really, what? And it's like, I don't really want to know that by the way. I just am like, doesn't it kind of feel like that? It kind of does, you know? And I'm going to be clear. This is nothing to do with anybody and my personal relationships right now, my close friendships right now, my special people in my life right now, it has nothing to do with you. It doesn't have to do with my family, my husband, my kids, my sister. I know it's not that. My main, it's not that, it has nothing to do with that. So, but it really fucks you up, the energy. It really can fuck you up and take you off course and you can feel so fragile and getting angry didn't help me feel better necessarily, but it did. But I kept saying, and I said this for like two hours, I said, because I had a friend that just, she just kept checking on me. She's like, okay, this is not yours. These people have to deal with that. And I'm like, but I can read the energy. I know what the situation is. Like I can feel that this person's bad. Oh my God, and my instinct is to like, help protect the other person from this person. I'm like, they don't know, they don't know. This person's really bad. They think this person is like their savior and this person's bad. Oh my God, oh my God, this person's bad. And they're acting all nice and all sweet. And I'm like, oh my God, this person's not good. This person's a bad person. They pretend like they're good. Oh my God. And that, I was just like so in that space, like, oh my God, you know. And I realized that that was the past. That was an old pattern for me to wanna protect. But the truth is, people have to make their own choices. Even like our kids have to make their own choices. And that sucks. And we can't protect people from themselves. You know what I mean? They're gonna make bad choices. And sooner or later, maybe they'll realize that, but I'm not gonna be able to do the I told you so and I wouldn't do that anyway. But I'm just like, how are you so fucking blind? Like, aren't you like, oh my God, people are so stupid. Like, really? Can you not see the manipulation? Can you not see, you know, there's a lot. And I'm like, well, getting into that place, I'm like, ah, and my good friend said to me, it's 3D. Some people are just in a lower vibe and you're not that person. She literally said to me, is Texas, my friend from Texas. She said, it's 3D, you're not there. That's not you, that's not you. And I'm like, but I can, it's so hard because I can read the energy. And then my friend Rebecca was like, she's like, it's not yours. It is not yours. You don't play, let's like don't, it's like the message I got was like, don't play that game, don't fall for that, you know? It's a lower energy, it's a lower vibration. It's like, I'm like, do they want me dead? Like, really? Let's cause her so much heartache that her heart explodes. Let's try that. Like, what the fuck is that? That is awful. But like I said, with energy, the rough seas, nobody really can hurt us, can they? Like not? Well, that's not true. Nobody can. Maybe it's, maybe the elixir or maybe the antidote to that, to that constant reoccurring cycle of pain or punishment or guilt or whatever you feel, that heartache or heartbreak or that longing for that person or whatever it is, that just feels toxic, that poison. Cause that's what it is. That's what it was directly told to me, poison. I have the antidote. I don't have to drink it. I don't have to see it. I don't have to look at it. I mean, I couldn't, like I'm like, what the fuck is this? And then shock, I'm like, holy shit. And then sadness, I cried first. I cried, I just couldn't believe that somebody would. And it was just awful. And then anger. And now today, the stress of it all just, I let it seep in. I let it leak in a little bit. And so now today is rebuilding time. Now the energy is my choice to turn up that light in my heart space. And to connect with people I love and to get hugs and cuddles from the dogs and to find a way to forgive myself for that time in my life. Because I am such a good person and I know that and I want you to say that right now to yourself. I want you to say that. I wanna hear you say it. I wanna feel you say it. Put your hand on your heart and say, I am a good person. I am a good person. And I deserve a beautiful, unconditional love. I deserve all the goodness that I am in my heart space. I am a good person. I am a good person. And if other people can't see that, that's their problem. It's probably because they're not a good person and they need to be out of your life. They can't be in your life anymore. That scenario, that circumstance, that situation, it's over. It's done. It's done. Right now we're leaning into the solstice, the winter solstice, which is another energetic thing that's happening. And that's next week. And with that, it is the darkest night, right? Or the darkest day, the least hour of daylight where I'm at here in the United States, it is. In other parts of the country, if you're watching from the other parts of the world, it's different, but that's what it is here. And so that's what it means. And so it is dark and then it gets really light. Then the light starts to grow. So right now we have this chance to, in the work that I do in the 13 Moon, in the 13 Moon Oracle, using the 13 Moon Oracle deck, or, and I don't have it with me right now, or I'd use it with you. Or the 13 Moon Mystery School, or Priestess Presence Temple is, it is the archetypal energy of the Queen of Death right now because that is associated with this winter time that's going within this being letting things die. And so this is the message, is to let those old things die, let those feelings die because then there's no end. And it's not about ignoring it, it's not about detachment in a way that's like not healthy. Okay, it's not about unhealthiness. It is about allowing yourself to heal, it's time. I am a good person, say it. I am a good person. I just serve unconditional love, say it. You do. I'm telling you right now, you do. I know you do. You are the empath that is watching this. Maybe the experience I had is for all of us. So I'm gonna take tender, tender care of myself. And I'm gonna encourage you to do the same, especially during this time of moving into the darkness with that Queen of Death energy. It's not literal death, it's moving into the dark space, which is the quiet, which is no noise, no chaos, no other people. It's just this time that you can rest and just be with yourself. It is a time of being alone so you can have sovereign reflection. It's not being lonely, it's being with yourself, your soul and your heart, your beautiful, beautiful, beautiful heart and soul. So you're never really truly alone, even if you might be alone because of that. And so energetics do impact us for sure. And rough seas, I'm telling you, I'm living it right now. And I do have, I have been told by multiple psychic friends of mine that I'm extraordinarily empathically sensitive right now. I am so hyper aware and I can read that energy. So when I see something like physical, a physical, like a video or picture or whatever, I can read it. Like, like in ways that I don't want to be reading that. I don't want anything to do with that. And I can, you know, it's just, it's rough. Okay, there's a lot going on in the chat right now. I just need to peek and make sure everything's okay. Oops, it looks okay, good. So there's definitely energetic ups and downs. It's not, it's not just you in your own world where you have to worry that you're losing your mind. You're not, there's a lot of other things that are impacting you besides the holidays, besides the hustle and bustle, other people's energies is a big deal. The astrology is a big deal. There's a lot, but you don't have to get, you don't have to succumb to that. You don't have to get overwhelmed by that. You just go right to your heart. I'm a good person. I deserve unconditional love. I do, I do, I do, I deserve to be unconditionally loved. And that starts with me. So I go into my heart space and I turn up that light. I turn up the volume. I don't, I don't try to hide and shrink so that I'm safe. Because if you hide and shrink, you're not safe. You're blending into the background and then you are subsequently filled with holes and are able to be totally overpowered by energy that is not healthy for you. That's when depression gets really bad. That's when anxiety goes off the charts. That's just when there's, there's just, that mind just spins out of control and doesn't even wanna be attached to the body anymore. I mean, really, really, really focused right here, right now on how just how much you get to because of how good you are, love yourself. Ooh, who's here? Is that UPS? Is that Amazon? Oh my gosh, Tucker's freaking out. All right, well, I was gonna do a card for you guys in regards to the energy. Yeah, he'll stop in just a second. In regards to the energy. See if there's anything we can do to help support your heart. You are a good, you are such a good person. I am a good person, I am a good person. I deserve unconditional love. And if you'd like, you can say I am unconditional love. If you can believe that, if you're in a place where you can believe that, then say it that way. But I know not all of us can believe that, that I am unconditional love. Am I? Like, what does that mean? What does that look like? But that's when you get out your handy-dandy journal and you start contemplating these things and you could write things to yourself to encourage your heart space. Like, I am a good person. I am worthy of love. I believe in my heart. I believe in the beauty that is me. I believe I love myself. I am such a good person. I am such a good person. Just please, that peace alone, the goodness of you, that just outshines everything else because the goodness of you is connected to the love you have in yourself. And that love in your heart is totally like, goodness, good, good, good. Flashing neon sign, good, good, good. Yeah, there's no vacancy here. It's good, good, good, good. It's that, it's that. Yeah, it's definitely that. All right, okay, so let's do a card. This is the Kyle Gray deck. The Angel's deck from Kyle Gray. So good, so these are the cards, right? Guardian Angel. Guardian Angel, if you can't believe for yourself how good you are and how worthy of love you are and how unconditionally you are loved and you have the capacity to receive unconditional love, call in your guardian angel. Call in your archangels. You can call in Archangel Michael for the energy of protection. Archangel Raphael for healing and hope. You can call in my friend Archangel Ariel for badass women, especially those entrepreneurs. Okay, especially those women who are trying to organize stuff, get things together and maybe thinking about career stuff. Call in my friend Archangel Metatron who works with grid systems and aligns your energy like an energetic chiropractor. Call in my friend Archangel Gabriel, beautiful yellow, golden yellow, holding that solar plexus all about communication and connection. There are numerous spirit guides. There are saints and goddesses and deities and totem animals that are at the ready to be in service to you, to connect with you, to remind you of how good you are, to fill you with that essence of unconditional love until you can love yourself in that way. And that's just the truth. So thank you so much for being here today for connecting here on Above Life channel. Go check out TikTok, Above Life channel on TikTok. And as always, I hope that I've inspired your spirit today. Filled you with some hope and given you the opportunity to recognize how important it is to live your life. And I know as an empath right now, it is not easy. But I see you and I believe in you and your empathic-ness is not a flaw, it's a powerful. We just gotta learn how to use it in a way that's really helpful and healthy for you, okay? I am good, I am good, I am good. Let's start there, all right? That's your mantra. Write it on the mirror, an eyeliner. Write it on a post-it note at your desk at work. I am good. Write it in your journal over and over and over and over and over again. I am good, I am good. Okay, put a little heart next to it. All right, thank you so much for being here. Love you guys. Oh, and yeah, I am scheduling sessions in January and February now. So you can use the link to schedule one if you want. So, bye for now. All right, guys, you're so great. I just love it. Oh, a top car, silly boy. All right, I think we're good. I wanna kinda look at these.