 So I started 2004 just, you know, betting, basically I'd buy an upmarket, you know, if the market opened up, I'd buy it, if it opened down I'd sell it, and I hit a run and it went really unbelievably well for a period of time, as is often the case with people who get involved in this. For some reason there is a beginner's luck syndrome and you, you know, you hit a run and you think you're invincible, which is what I thought I was, and then in January 2005 I remember I got off a plane in Paris, checked my black green tell-along out. I'd been averaging down basically into what was to become a huge losing position. I mean I lost a six-figure sum, so it was a gut-wrenching and sobering experience, it's an understatement. The BlackBridge didn't survive the tarmac, and yeah, so I'd, you know, I lost a lot of money and it had a big impact on me, and a big impact, you know, I got divorced through that process and found myself in a position where I knew that it was feasible, I knew it was feasible to make money from the markets. I just didn't understand how to do it, and so I networked, as I had done as a headhunter and put through contacts, got introduced to a guy who became my mentor. He basically, you know, taught me the process of trading, but more importantly than that, and something that I couldn't have conceived of at the time. When I first had, well, we exchanged emails and then I had a telephone call with him, and he asked me about how I'd got to where I was, and I'd explained, and you know, told him about the money and stuff, and he said, are you angry? I hadn't really thought whether or not, I mean, it was a meaningful sum of money, but I was fortunate I still had capital, you know, I wasn't broke, but I didn't think it through, and when I thought about it after the call, I thought, yeah, I'm really pissed off, you know, this has impacted me badly, and so the next telephone call I had with him, he said, how do you thought about glass corn? I was like, yeah, I really actually thought a lot about what this has actually meant to me, losing all this cash, and so he gave me the name of a therapist, and I didn't speak to him again for six months, but I didn't speak to the therapist, and went through a process of like self-inventory and, you know, understanding what had driven me to where I was, and what I was going to need to do to get to a place where I could come back to this and win at it, and it was a really meaningful period to change my life, and I got involved in martial arts and meditation, and just totally changed the way I was living, and then he taught me how to actually put in place a process, understand risk management, and actually turn the gambling into trading and making consistent money. Well, well, story, you know, going from having, you know, begins luck to then losing money, to then having to restart all of it again, learn certain things, get a mentor, and then, you know, him having to send you to a therapist and understand... He didn't send me. After we had that conversation, the second one was that he was like, look, if it has had that type of impact on you, you're never going to make it in this business, because you're going to be coming for a place of revenge, and that's really what I would have been doing, and so I'd have actually ultimately gone through all the cash, trying to make back what I'd lost, when in reality I had to come back to it for a place of presence and perspective, and, you know, not thinking or not harboring that thought of loss and revenge.