 Be honest, what's a sentence that absolutely killed you inside but you pretended like it didn't? I just ran into an old friend that I hadn't seen in a couple years and he asked me how I was doing and what I was up to. I said that I was pursuing this online ministry thing and that it was my dream and my goal to do it full time. He took a long pause and he looked right at me and he said, that's cool man, but it's probably better to play it safe and get something secure while you still can. Oh man, it sent me back a little bit, a lot bit, because that was my goal. My goal was to share the gospel online for people, to help people find Jesus and follow him daily and yet hearing such an authoritative voice at least what I thought was somebody that said don't do it, get something safe, it won't work. It almost maybe quit, but in the midst of that I was forced to look back on why I was doing what I was doing and ultimately it was like I have nowhere else to go. I know this is what God has called me to do so I just have to do it whether it works or not. When that happened, some of the pressure and weight lifted off because it wasn't about, it wasn't up to me anymore to make it work. It was just up to me to show up and sometimes we just need to show up and ask God to provide the rest, whatever that may be, to provide for our needs, to provide for our mental capacity and withstanding whatever hardship we encounter and just the courage to make it through. Just show up and don't let anybody stop you.