 Before we get into the video today, I just want to give a quick shout out to one of our sponsors, Gnostic TV. Gnostic TV is ancient wisdom reimagined. This is a Netflix for those who are spiritually curious and want a place to go where there is no censorship. I personally am doing a whole series on Gnostic TV called The Esoteric Explorer where I am providing exclusive content to Gnostic. Gnostic TV is a host to all sorts of different content creators, many of whom are your old favorites. If you would like to check out Gnostic TV, there is a link down in the description box below. Hello everybody and welcome back to Esoteric Atlanta. My name is Bryce. This video today, we're just going to kind of wing it or I'm rather going to kind of wing it. Normally I have notes out and I know where I'm going, but I wanted to kind of talk to you guys more from the heart today. First of all, I hope that you guys are having a for those who celebrate. I hope you're having a wonderful, wonderful Easter or Ishtar weekend. I hope that you're enjoying time with friends and family and enjoying lots and lots of chocolate. Or if you're someone like me, lots and lots of Skittles because I'm not a huge chocolate fan. But nonetheless, I hope that you're having a very restful and very, very calm, nice weekend with your loved ones. With that being said, I think that this time is kind of appropriate to talk about the subject that I'm going to talk about today. For a few reasons. For starters, we know in ancient times, this was actually the New Year. The New Year happened in the springtime, which makes sense to me, right? Because it's the it's the rebirthing, the world is coming back from the dead. That's what we have the bunny rabbits and the eggs. It represents fertility that the, you know, April showers bring made flowers. We have the the regrowth of a lot of color in our world, especially for those of us in the northern. Hemisphere, I know I've got a lot of great people down in the southern hemisphere, so it's flipped. But nonetheless, we are at a time, especially in the northern hemisphere, where the world is kind of being reborn again. And so this is kind of a great time to start to reevaluate things in our lives. Just like in at the New Year's that we celebrate in January, which isn't really the New Year, but we make New Year's resolutions, right? Well, the springtime is really a good time to start to reevaluate because we're coming into the flow of nature. If we're working with nature, we're coming into this time of rebirth of resetting. That's why people do a lot of spring cleaning in their houses to kind of reset yourself to take wisdom from past mistakes and to try to figure out where what your trajectory is for for the future. And so a lot of that for us since for me specifically, I talk a lot about health on this this channel because health and spirituality are like this. You know, I've said many times before that the root word of exorcism is exercise, exercise is the foundation of spirituality. Whether people want to hear that or not, it is the foundation of spirituality. That's why in the Yoga Sutras, we do Asana work. That's why in all the Egyptian alchemy, they were doing exercises. They were creating sweat because that's how we actually change patterning within the body and the body mind spirit. If the mind changes, the body changes, the body changes, the mind changes. So we're creating new new new karmic patterns. And so this is a great time to start to like consider that, especially if this is a new concept for you. Now, with that being said, when we come to the junction of seasons, so when it comes to the spring time or the fall time, any time we have a junction of seasons, you might notice things like being a little bit tired, feeling a little bit swollen. You might you might just notice some weird little health stuff happening, sinuses get inflamed. That's normal. And at the junction of seasons in the Ayurvedic system, we don't want to do things like fast. You don't do a fasting. You don't want to do a cleansing. You want to get through the junction of seasons and then start the clap, the fasting or start the cleansing in the summertime or in the winter time when you are in a season and your body is locked and loaded into that season. With that being said, if you're already on a detox program throughout the winter and you're going into spring, that's that's fine. But just to start something, you might want to give yourself some space during the seasonal junctions. If that makes sense, if that's confusing to you, let me know down in the comment section and I can address it later on in another video or to you individually. But what I wanted to talk about today is the esoteric health and wellness series over on Gnostic TV. And I wanted to kind of come to you guys from a very, very, very personal perspective as to why I wanted to offer this series over on Gnostic. Now, I have, I also have the esoteric explorer series on Gnostic, which is deep dives, which is potent, scandalous deep dives that I can't do on YouTube. They're over on Gnostic. Those are fun and those are educational in a very different way. But the esoteric health and wellness series that I'm also doing on Gnostic TV, I feel like I want to do this just to kind of give back to humanity. And this is what most you guys know. This is what I do off YouTube. No, not when I'm not on YouTube, how I make a living is I work, I work out of Shala. You know, I'm the only female authorized teacher in the state of Georgia. So this is why I also want to bring this to YouTube too, because I believe in this. And I, you know, in the side of light, we want to share, we want to share stuff. We don't want to hold and hoard things for ourselves. If something works for me and has lived in life changing for me, of course, I want to, I want to give that share that with other people too. So let me talk to you guys a little bit about my childhood and how I discovered this path of healing and how I discovered this lineage. Because you don't go into a very disciplined lineage with very disciplined teachers unless you're looking for a change. And my childhood was literally hell on earth in a lot of ways. I'm still recovering at 41 years old. I'm still recovering from a lot of A-B-U-S-C, trying to watch the algorithms, A-B-U-S-C that I suffered as a child. And some of this A-B-U-S-C is very layered. Like, my school was definitely responsible for a lot of it. And in fact, the school that I went to is the main, when I think about the main perpetrators, it's definitely Darlington, the school that I went to. I'll go ahead and name them because that's my experience is that they, things that they did were horrific to us. But I also experienced a lot of A-B-U-S-C at home as well. And some of this came through my health. And I don't think, in some cases, I don't think my parents realized what was happening because they didn't know. But with my father specifically, I think my father did know some things and was just kind of mean to me, which we're going to get into. So I'm going to kind of go through. At first, I thought I would just talk about my health struggles. But when we're looking at holistic healing, as far as the human body and digestion and, you know, other bodily functions, it's not typically just physical, right? It's also a manifestation through the emotional. Now, with my digestion issues, which were very extreme as a child, a lot of it was physical, which I'm going to talk about in this video even deeper when we get to that. But some of it was emotional, okay? So let's go all the way back. We got to start all the way back at the beginning. We got to start back in, on February 4th of 1983, 41 years ago, that's my birthday. I was the first born child of my parents. And my parents were like 25, 26 years old, I believe, when I was born. So I recognize now at 41 years old that that's really young to have a child. Now, I know that was normal back then. And I know that there are a lot of people that have kids even younger than that. But just generally speaking, 25 and 26 year old now being responsible for a human life is a lot. There's a comedian, a little tech talk I saw from a comedian recently where he said, you know, for all the first born kids out there, the older kids, you were raised by people who didn't have kids. Like you were raised by people who didn't have kids. So a lot of the oldest children in the family, a lot of our presidents have been oldest children, a lot of CEOs are oldest children. A lot of times the oldest children in the family do end up being kind of the most responsible because their parents, they were the guinea pigs, right? And then when they had siblings or siblings, they then had to be responsible for themselves at very, very young ages. And by the time the siblings come along, your siblings are being raised by people who do have kids. So, so it's a very different childhood sometimes depending on which child, the perspective of which child, my sister and I had very different childhoods. There was miscarriages between my sister and me were about three and a half years apart. And yeah, it was very different childhood and I was, I was born sick. So I was born early. I was, I think I was due actually on Valentine's Day, but I came 10 days early, which isn't that big of a deal. There are many kids. I have a cousin who was born like two months early and that was scary, but you know, not that big of a deal. I was very, very small when I was born. I was born. I was tiny. And yeah, my parents were super young now. My parents were married. They were married. My mother, I believe I was planned. I believe that they were trying for a child when I, when I came along, you know, even if they weren't trying, I know that my parents obviously when my mother was pregnant that they were going to have a child that they were married. They were, both of my parents came from very affluent families. Both of my parents were college educated. Both went to, both went to the University of Georgia. I believe my mother was an early childhood development major. She had a bachelor's and early childhood development. So she wanted to be a teacher. My father, I believe my father has his bachelor's in science in animal sciences. I believe because he's a veterinarian now, which, which we'll get into that, but I believe his bachelor's was an animal science. I think he had a minor in Spanish, if I remember correctly. So very well educated people. My parents, my, both of my parents came from very stable parents. My mom, both of my grandmothers went to college, went to university, which was extremely, extremely rare. My mom's father was a surgeon, the Bryce family. My name is my mother's maiden name, which we'll get to. They are all doctors. My dad's family, my grandfather was, he went to the University of Tennessee. He was an engineer, but he owned a factory, you know, very, very affluent people. Very, very prominent members of society. So at 25, 26, my parents are now married. They're living in South Carolina at this time. And my mom's family is from South Carolina. The, the Bryce's are from South Carolina. They're from the coast of South Carolina. And my dad's dad is from Tennessee. My dad's mom, which we've done a show on, which I'll link that down in the description box below is from South Georgia. So we were living, I was born in South Carolina, where my mom's family is from my, my parents, I believe at that point we're living on a dairy farm. Again, if you reference the past episode we did my, my dad's mother, my paternal grandmother's father was a dairy farmer, a very successful, very affluent dairy farmer in South Georgia. And my father was very close to his grandfather. And so I think if I put my 41 year old eyes on the situation, I think my dad wanted to be a dairy farmer too. I think that's kind of what he wanted to do. He wanted to follow in his grandfather's footsteps and be, you know, on, on a farm, but I was born. And again, I was born, I was born very sick. So you've got a 25 year old and a 26 year old who now have a very sick child. Not only is it their first child, but it's a baby that's sick. And I do know that I was, I've accepted that I was definitely my parents' Saturn return, which we're not really going to get into what that is. Basically just the Cliff Notes version, everybody has a couple of Saturn returns in their life. The first one happens in your late 20s. It's basically usually around the age of 27, but that's just general. It's usually when like she gets real, you know, like, like Saturn is the planet of karma father time. And so in your late 20s, you go through your Saturn return, which is really hard. It's, it's a difficult transition. Everybody goes through it. It's a difficult transition where you go from really being a kid to now being an adult and having the adult responsibilities and nothing is going to bring upon a Saturn return like having a baby, especially a sick baby. So I was born. I was very thin the day that very tiny, the day that I was born, there was some struggles. My mother had a hard time. My heart rate. I lost my heart rate. They had to kind of resuscitate my heart rate while I was still like in the stomach and then I was born and so which is interesting because I don't have like cardiovascular is is my heart is actually one of the healthiest organs I have now. I have a very low heart rate. It's always been great. So it's interesting that my first insurance into this world that was that was the struggle, but it might be due to my blood type, which, which we'll get to, we'll get to in a minute. So I was jaundice, meaning I was very yellow when I was born. I cried a lot. I was a very, very cry baby. I was not an easy baby. And I understand that I totally, you know, feel, feel for my parents in that in that way that I was not the easiest child infant cried all the time. I was colicky jaundice. I think the reason why I cried a lot was because I didn't feel good, which we'll get to because of course a baby the only communication baby has is crying. And I know that's frustrating for parents because you don't know what your child is trying to tell you. And of course, again, I was my parents first child. So I was being raised by people who didn't have kids. And so maybe they thought it was normal. Maybe they thought that this was like what all babies did. You know, they didn't have any type of, of, of comparison to know that really that something wasn't wasn't right. Well, my mother nursed me for about from what I remember her telling me like the first two weeks and then she dried up, which makes sense because my mother is very tiny. I think she only gained like 15 pounds with me. So not a lot of weight with me. So that makes sense. And I know formula is not that great. But in this situation when you don't, when you're dried up and you're, you know, the most important thing for a baby is to gain weight. You want your baby to gain weight, right? So that they can grow and be healthy. And so I'm glad that they had the option of formula in 1983. But I started to basically reject the formula reject nutrients. I would either throw it up or it would just run right through me. So from the very beginning, I was showing signs of a very weak digestion system. My stomach hurt a lot. And this went into my toddler hood. We'll say I had a really hard time with juices, which I still have a hard time with juices, which I know why now, which we'll get to. And I apparently one of my first words was diarrhea because so much stuff hurt my stomach. I was sick all the time. Like severe digestion problems. I my mother tells a story that when I was in preschool, I asked my mom just to put like crackers and peanut butter in my lunchbox because our teachers would make us eat all of our food. And I was so traumatized by food that I only wanted like crackers. And I don't want my mom to put a lot in my lunchbox so that I wouldn't I mean makes me emotional now to think about a child like begging for their mom not to put much food because food you have such a traumatic relationship with food because you get so even you spent your whole life so sick that you want to try even at like three years old. You want to try to control that so that you don't get sick. I remember being in church as a kid and like having to run to the bathroom and throw up just randomly like my body just rejected food. And so I was in and out of the doctor's office. My whole childhood just trying to figure out what was going on. I remember one point my pediatrician actually like remember this my pediatrician said to my mother. He said there's something about blonde haired blue eyed little girls. They just cannot digest things. I think I know why that is now which again we're going to get to you towards because I have answers now as to what was going on with me as a child. I think the blonde haired blue eyed statement just does speak highly of a particular blood type which we're going to get to. So when I was probably in like the second grade and I think it was a second grade because I have a memory of my teacher and I have a memory of like missing some school and like my mom walking into my teacher's classroom to explain like I was going to be gone for a few days because I had to go to Scottish right which was a Children's Hospital here in Atlanta to run some testing on my because I remember that so I was probably and it was just my second grade classroom. So I was probably like eight years old previously. I've been in Eglston as a kid because I couldn't digest food and I remember being Scottish right because that was horrific and I remember that's when I found out I had next to urinary tube which I talked about a lot which again is common for my blood type which again we're going to talk about but I remember being having an ultrasound and they were looking at my colon. So the doctor was looking through the ultrasound just like they do for pregnant women but like they put the gel on your stomach and they used this little camera over your belly and they look at the monitor and they can kind of see what's going on in your organs and so she was looking at my colon but she went down below and she saw my kidneys and my bladder and that's when she goes huh your kid has three urinary tubes she has two urinary tubes on one side and one on the other my parents were like what does that mean and she's like nothing just means just means she's got an extra urinary tube I actually think I go to the bathroom I think I pee more than most people but that's just my opinion but it hasn't caused me that that's not the cause of any significant health issues and again that's very common for my blood type to have an extra organ. So after that they made me go to do this this thing I don't know what it was but they do this thing where they make you drink this like really chalky disgusting it looks like a milkshake but it's not and you have to drink like three of them you have to drink them really really quickly and then they lay you on a table and they watch your stomach digest so they like literally watch on camera as your stomach digest this this thing and I don't know why they specifically had this particular drink like why couldn't it just have been like a sandwich or something but I remember the drink was so disgusting it was so disgusting that my parents were not in the room with me my parents couldn't come in the room with me so there's a lot of radiation so it was the nurse it was a couple of nurses and it was me this eight year old sitting on this table and they brought me this drink and a straw and I had to drink it really fast and I remember I started crying because it was so gross and I was gagging because it was so gross and the nurse started yelling at me she's already yelling at me that I'm wasting their time and that my parents are doing all these things to try to fix my health and how dare I just not drink the drink and I'm crying on the table I'm gagging because it's so gross and then the doctor comes in and bless this guy's heart I think he was pissed off at this nurse because I'm an eight year old kid like I'm a tiny little child at this time and I'm in this big hospital and they can't figure out why why I'm getting sick all the time I was throwing up in the middle of the night like what's going on and so this doctor comes in with a chocolate bottle of chocolate and he sits beside me on the table and he starts rubbing my back and he says I know you're scared I know that you're you don't feel well and we're really really trying to figure out why you throw up so much we really want to help you but we know you're scared and he goes and I know that tastes really bad like the doctor was like I know that's disgusting he's like so I have this bottle of chocolate then I remember this conversation he's like I keep this bottle of chocolate here so that I can put chocolate in my milk sometimes because my wife doesn't let me keep chocolate in the house he goes tell you what I'll put some chocolate in this drink for you because it'll make it taste better is that okay can I put some kind of share some of my chocolate he was so nice and I remember him saying my wife doesn't let me keep it I remember thinking as an eight year old kid well you're an adult why can't you like I remember like now as an adult I can appreciate him saying this but he put the chocolate in my drink and they stirred up and I finished the drink and they do they do the procedure and they still couldn't figure out what was going on the doctor told my parents that there was a possibility that I might be missing some enzymes in my stomach and that might be why I'm having trouble digesting foods and and just to keep an eye on my reaction to certain foods there might just be certain foods that I can't eat and basically like it's not life-threatening it sucks but they also said be careful with dairy like just don't give her like milk at night or anything just be very careful anyway so at that from the time I was eight years old all the way up till high school which was the next time I went to a doctor because of my digestion I basically and I remember I still do this like I can walk into a restaurant and I can smell and I can tell you whether I'm going to be sick or not I started being able to do that as a very young child like walking into a restaurant and telling my parents I'm going to be sick here now I didn't know it at the time I know it now what I was smelling was the oil and oil does play huge into this which again we're going to get to and so my mother started to listen to me when I would tell my mother I didn't want to eat something or when I would tell my mother my stomach hurt when I eat something she immediately would take action she really was really good about allowing me to kind of feed myself like to tell her what was working and what wasn't working my father though was a totally different story the only way I can say about my dad now I do have some good memories with my father like I do remember him playing Barbies with me a few times when I was really really little I remember him like holding my hand and walking to the park remember him pushing me on the swings like I have some good memories with my dad but most of my memories with my dad are memories of aggression memories of anger and memories of him just being mean to me like my dad was just that's the only way I can really describe it when I was a kid he was just mean to me he wasn't mean to my sister like he was to me I know my father really wanted a son I get that and if you're a man watching right now and you really want a son but you and only end up with daughters like don't let your daughters know that like love your daughter is just as much as you would love your son like I get that he wanted to say he's never had a son and and maybe there was a reason for that like I don't know a brother would have fared well if he had not been the son that my dad maybe wanted him to be if you know what I mean but I took a lot of that that that brunt from my dad now my dad I talked about this before because I have struggled also with body dysmorphia which I'll put I'll link that video down below to if you missed that my father the Watson side of my family there they're tall people like they're tall like my my grandfather was six five my dad is six four my great aunt was six feet tall yeah there's tall people my dad again he was six four he was when I was a kid he was tall and he was very svelte he was very chiseled he had chiseled cheekbones and like very thin very fit he was a swimmer he still held records at his high school high school I ended up going to very you know athletic he had dark brown hair and these like really light blue eyes and I remember I had a babysitter that I would always talk about my dad being like hot which is disgusting like that would make me real you know so my dad but looking back kind of giving that information to you I think my dad first of all had a lot of aggression towards my mom's family and thus me and also I think my dad had a lot of attention from women I know that that sounds weird but I think he got a lot of attention from women outside of the home and so any type of pushback he dealt with in the home it made it like worse if that makes sense I don't know this is me trying to look back on my childhood but when I was born again kind of going back again to me being born with my father he was working on this dairy farm and I think it was my mom's dad that was like alright you have a grandchild now you have my granddaughter you now need to go to vet school and I don't know if my dad wanted to go to that school he's a really guy will say you might not be the greatest dad but he's a really good veterinarian is really good at what he does really good with animals but from what I understand from what I remember being told to me that my mom's dad who was a surgeon kind of came down hard on my dad like you and that's the south right like in the south men are the providers the woman is to be provided for and now you've got a daughter you've got a child now so you need to stop playing on the farm and you need to go to vet school and so my father went to the University of Georgia the vet school so we moved from South Carolina to Athens Georgia my sister was born in Athens my I believe my we lived in a house in Athens even though my parents really young and I from what I understand my mom's father actually paid for that house because of me and my sister because he wanted his grandchildren to have a yard and a house so I think there was a lot of pressure put on my father at a very young age from his in-laws probably from his parents too because again my dad comes from affluent people as well so probably from his parents too but there was just a lot of pressure put on him at the age of like 25 26 years old to to all the sudden have this career and have you take care of your your children and blah blah blah so I think my father took a lot of that out on me as a child I again I was the first born so I was a Saturn return I was the the wrecking ball that came in and forced this to happen I also had a lot of health problems I also have my mom's maiden name so Bryce is my mother's maiden if I had been born a boy I would be named after my father but because I was born a girl I was named after my mother's family so I'm just this walking reminder of the fact that my dad had to grow up and then I have all these medical issues now I do remember my dad going to these doctor's appointments with me I do remember him being sweet sometimes like I remember sitting in his lap when they were taking my blood I remember sitting in my dad's lap my mom was was standing in the room I sat my dad's lap when they were taking my blood for me cuz I was a little kid so you know getting your blood drawn as a little kid is scary and painful and all on all that stuff so I do remember my dad being kind to me from time to time but he was also on the flip side was mean to me a lot when it came to food my father was of the opinion that since he was the parent that we should eat what was put in front of us and he was really big on us cleaning our plates I remember getting into knockdown screaming fights with my father like crying because my father was trying to force me to eat something that I knew was gonna hurt my stomach was gonna make me sick and I have my mother who's defending me and telling my dad like she can't eat this like she cannot eat this she's going to be sick all night tonight she it's gonna make her sick she's not gonna be able to go to school tomorrow I we're gonna be up all night with her throwing up like she cannot eat this Lee she can't my dad's name is Lee she can't eat this and I remember these just so what started off was him like being aggressive towards me would end up him and my mom fighting about it and my mom being like and then he would bring up the whole like these are bad manners this is her being rude and my mother was like no it's not this is her trying this is us trying to preserve her health Lee like she's been dealing with this since the day she was born and when I eat something that my stomach cannot digest my stomach will swell up it's done it since I was a kid like if I eat something I can't digest before I throw up it will swell up I look like I'm pregnant like I would be like a four year old walking around with like what looks like a pregnant belly because I eat something I'm allergic to my body's panicking and swelling and so and my dad had been at these doctor's appointments he had heard these prognosis is he had heard the doctor say let her guide you let her tell you what she can eat and what she can't eat in order to keep her stomach trust her when she tells you something hurts her stomach my dad heard all that but it was like this power struggle this aggression that I need to eat what he told me to eat regardless of whether I was sick or not and so there was a lot of there's a lot of contempt I had for my dad I at 41 I'm under no illusions that my father like really loved me I think he loved me in the sense that he was my dad he would tell you he loved me but I don't think he had the capacity to actually like thoroughly love me as his daughter like my mother had that capacity to be like this is a this is a this is a different situation like she's not you know my sister and I you know another you know if we ate with our elbows on the table or if we had bad table manners in general we would get flicked on the head like even my mother would like flick us on the head so we had to have good table manners we had to sit at the table wait for everyone to be done and then take our plate and clear our plate we had good table manners it was just that I could not eat certain foods it all came down to him wanting me wanting to control what I ate and even my grandparents my mom's parents ended up passing away I was like four when my grandfather died I was nine when my grandmother died so the only grandparents that I really had growing up were my dad's parents and they were amazing I loved my dad's parents so much and they even understood so we would go and have like Sunday lunch with my dad's parents and my grandmother and grandfather were very much like if Bryce can't eat this totally fine and my grandmother I remember her crouching down in the kitchen and looking me like I was little being like what can I get you what what what she's like I'm gonna be going to the grocery store this week what is it that I what snack food can I get you so that when you come here you can have a snack what like very loving very kind very understanding that this was something that was not in my control that this was a health issue and so so that was kind of like the emotion so when I talk about like health issues being both physical and emotional whenever my father with there were temper tantrum about this it would make it worse I would all the sudden have even worse stomach issues and it turned out later I in my teenage years I ended up having lower back issues and having to have lower back surgery that was around the time my father actually left which if you're looking at Mola Dara Mola Bunda that Mola area the area that makes a lot of sense as to why my back went out at that point well now I know at 41 to when I have really bad digestion problems my back typically hurts so there is a correlation between the two so I started to really not like my father like just did not like my father as a teenager just didn't like my dad it got to the point where my dad my dad was also having affairs he wasn't really like when I've gotten to my teenage years like he wasn't really there that much I think we thought he was working but my mother would take my sister and me out to eat a lot for dinner which was great because then I could just order what I wanted anyway and so that's why I don't know how to cook is because there was a lot going on in my teenage years around the age of 15 I started to struggle again with my stomach and I think what was happening to at that point was I was hanging you know we were getting our learners permit and then some of the kids returning 16 and learning how to drive so not only was I going to friends houses but we were driving around doing things and I wanted to eat you know the french fries with my friends I wanted to get the you know the cheese pizza with my friends I would eat things that I knew or there was this big Mexican restaurant we would go this particular Mexican restaurant I would go with my friends and I wanted to be like my friends so I would eat the things they were eating and I would end up getting sick later and so that was more on me but I do remember going to a doctor a colon doctor when I was like 15 again and saying you know she can't she's her digestion again is not not working and I remember the doctor being like you just need to eat more fiber and I remember looking at the doctor at 15 and being like that doesn't work like that doesn't work I'm like because you know fiber like you are that cereal fiber one and maybe they still make it I don't know my mother would like go and get me fiber one cereal and all fiber does is it like swells in your colon and if you can't go to the bathroom like if you're if you have missing enzymes and can't go to the bathroom it's just gonna swell in your stomach and sit there like it's gonna sit there so I've been looking at the doctor like my face changed like like he was an idiot I was like that doesn't work like maybe that works for a normal person who's just got a little bit of constipation but that's not gonna work for me that doesn't work fiber doesn't work it doesn't work and I remember walking out of doctor's office and I said to my mom I was like he had no idea what he was talking about like I remember saying that to my mom I was like well he's a doctor and I was like he's got no idea what he's talking about little did I know that he absolutely had no idea what he was talking about because about 15 years later I would find myself in India where I would actually figure out why I had digestion problems but I digress so end up you know going going to school going off to LA I you know got real skinny when I was in LA cuz nobody eats in LA and also I because nobody eats in LA it wasn't weird that I would skip meals sometimes again I do believe I have a trauma when it comes to food still at 41 I'm pretty traumatized by food because it's make me sick a lot of my life so you know nobody noticed in LA if I would like skip dinner or like not eat a lot of my food so I was you know in high school I weighed about 98 pounds I remember when I left Los Angeles I weighed in my mid-twenties I weighed 106 pounds so I was tiny so skinny and I started in that time I did start I had been a runner which I do know why I am and gravitate towards cardiovascular running I'm O negative which we're going to get I need to have more oxygen in my blood I also think that I this is another contention my father and I had my father was very athletic like I said he held records still at the school I'm athletic my sister's super athletic but I don't care about competition like I don't understand people who are competitive especially when it comes to things like American football like I don't understand why people get so obsessed with football I don't get it bread and circus bread and circus it doesn't matter whatever team winter loses it doesn't matter your life doesn't change so I was never competitive my father was and that was a contention between us because I was athletic but didn't give a shit and so that was very that was hard for my dad to well I looking back now when I was a long-distance runner in high school when I did swim and then getting into yoga what I was looking for was a meditation now I haven't even gotten into the whole paranormal side of my childhood that's a story for a different day I'm just talking about the basic human stuff I did go through a lot of paranormal so I could always see ghosts I got tapped a lot spiritually again that's a story for a different day which I can talk about that in another episode if you guys want but I really want to focus more on the third density stuff the matrix D health stuff that we all have to contend with when we're here in the third density so anyway where was I so in Los Angeles I look back now I know all the exercises that I gravitated toward towards were more meditations I was meditating I was finding peace in the long runs I was finding that you know you know back then we had like Walkman's like CD Walkman's you could a CD and but when you were running it with scratch so most of the time until the iPods came out I would go for runs with nothing and just be in silence I loved it I loved it so then I find yoga I start you know the ashanga journey I start really diving into philosophy and really restudying all of these old scriptures I end up going to India at this time and so when I'm in India I decide in my early 30s I decide that I am going to go to an RU Vedic clinic for the first time because I know now from my philosophy philosophical studies that a lot of my health issues are what we call karma and karma is just cause and effect it's just your work it's something to learn from and I also know that a lot of my health issues are coming from emotional stress even though there's some biological factors it's also very emotional too so that's when I discovered the dosha system I've talked about the dosha system a lot on this channel I will tag again some videos down below under show notes of past episodes I've done on the dosha system the dosha system has flat out saved my life I realized when I went to this RU Vedic doctor that I am what is called a vata pitta so there's three doshas vata pitta kappa I have like the only kappa thing about me is my hair I have very thick hair which I did get from my dad I did get my thick hair from my dad his is dark mind blonde his is brown though but I my sister also as they care that's like the only kappa thing that I have in my biological makeup the another kappa thing trait that I have is I tend to keep friends for a very long time like I still have my friends from high school some of my friends from high school so I do tend that's another kappa trait but as far as the rest of my body it's very vata and so what that means vata is cerebral it's air so vata is air pitta is fire and kappa is like earth water so athletic people are pitta my second leading dosha is pitta so I'm air and fire all right I need more kappa so because I lead vata that means I'm naturally very thin I'm very bony bony my bones I've got you know very bony knees very small it's very small wrist very small ankles I tend to be on the thinner side I you know I have dry skin I overthink things a lot one of the side effects of being vata is high anxiety trouble sleeping I've never been a big sleeper I only really get about five six hours at the best and I typically more like four or five hours and that's just how I did my whole life since I was a little kid so that also means that my organs are dry my organs are dry my colons dry so when I eat vata foods because foods are also energy and dispositions just like the human body so when I would eat vata foods like apples for all apples or because I would eat that a lot as a kid we would get apples and peanut butter a snack all the time now relatively speaking in the western world we think that's healthy well that's like giving me arsenic like that's as someone who's vata that's what was causing a lot of these problems was I was eating salad salads or vata foods juices are vata foods I already have too much vata so my body was panicking and freaking out it didn't it couldn't digest it's too vata it's too dry so it couldn't digest another dry food so what I needed was more coffee foods I needed more root vegetables if I wanted to eat an apple they needed to be a cooked apple I needed to change the chemistry of the apple so by realizing this and also again I said I would bring up oils with oils the best oil for a vata is almond oil all of oil coconut oil are detrimental to a vata coconut oil is only good for coppers right coppers need more apples more vata food vata's need more coppa food and so I started to learn oh things were making sense now there were foods that I knew as a kid people would give me and I wouldn't be able to eat it it would make me sick and then I would look back at those foods and be like those are vata foods oh my god this makes sense I also became a vegetarian at a very young age at the age of 14 because every time I would eat meat I would get sick so I stopped eating meat that was one of the last big arguments I had with my dad I was like 14 years old we were in Colorado skiing we went to a steakhouse I don't want to order a steak I wanted to order like sides and my dad got really mad screamed at me and told me how dare I be so ungrateful I'm in this expensive steakhouse on this expensive ski trip how dare I be a little snob I should take advantage and I he forced me to eat a steak and I ended up that night with my mother sitting by my side projectile vomiting all night and my mother sat on that bathroom floor with me and I even remember the pajamas I had on they were purple silky purple pajamas from the limited to y'all remember the limited to well I thought they were so grown up and I remember sitting on the floor in those pajamas hanging over this toilet and my mother sitting on the bathroom floor with me and she just saying to me she's just like rice you just can't eat meat you and so that's how I became a vegetarian she was right I can't I can't eat meat it makes me sick I get sick and when I was a little kid I knew that like when I would go to the pool like we would go to the country club pool without our parents they'd have lifeguards and I'd be my little friends and we have kids menu we could write our parents number down and all of my friends would order like chicken fingers I always ordered grilled cheese so I already kind of knew as I said as the original doctor said when I was eight years old just let her tell you what she wants to eat she knows what she can eat I would always my dad my dad is one of those people even though he's a veterinarian he's one of those people that thinks if you're not eating meat then you're a freak so anyway so all the sudden when I'm learning about the dosha system these things start to make sense to me all the sudden that the when the math wasn't mapping before the math started to math now I started to realize and then I started to notice when I followed a good diet for my dosha I started to notice that my anxiety got better I was calmer I was more grounded wasn't a stressed out my arthritis I was struggling with arthritis which is also a vata disorder that started to get better too and then in my mid to late 30s right before I got on YouTube I figured out blood types I always knew there was something weird about my blood like my mom's dad would say all the time that oh she's got that royal family blood because I am through my mom's father my my maternal grandfather related to the royal family through him and what he was talking about was I'm O-negative I'm O blood I have no antigens in my blood and I have no Reese's factor in my blood now up until this point in my life when I started to put two together the only real big thing I knew about being a female who's R.H. negative is that it could affect my ability to have children and the sense that if I were to have a baby with a man who is R.H. positive I probably would have to have a lot of help my sister is also R.H. negative she's being negative she's not O-negative she's being negative so she's had some different issues but she's had to have help with her kids right so it's the one thing I knew about my blood type except my boyfriend is also R.H. negative so I don't think I would have the same issues because we're both R.H. negative so we wouldn't have an R.H. positive baby anyway but that's all I knew and then I realized that there was a huge huge huge there's all this information about us R.H. negative it's only 15% of the world's population is R.H. negative and I'm reading I'm researching this and I'm like oh my god oh my god like this is me this is all of my health issues R.H. negatives especially O-negatives generally speaking O-negatives have terrible digestions we can't digest anything we have no antigens in our blood we have no rhesus factor in our blood so you're telling me not only am I O-negative so I already have the predisposition to not be able to digest but I also want to on top of it all of a sudden I was like this is why I have been in and out of the hospital my whole damn life because I'm O-negative and I'm Vata that's it and if we in the Western world understood especially the DOSHA system it would have saved me so much pain as a child I would have done out of flourish because I would have been able to know what exactly to eat or what was going on what was actually happening so I realized to us you know I was diagnosed with a stigmatism I have my glasses right here I don't have a stigmatism no R-H-negative has a stigmatism that's just what we're diagnosed with what we have is the back of our eyes are shaped like a diamond and so it filters light differently this is why I see ghosts this is why I can see ghosts and other people can't my eyes shape differently I take in light differently my resting temperature body temperature is 96 what's the average like the average is 98.6 or something I'm at 96 that's always been my resting temperature since I was a kid guess what it's normal for an R-H-negative that's normal for an R-H-negative you know who else was R-H-negative my grandfather my mom's dad and he's his resting temperature was at like 96 to the surgeon he knew that that our body temperature was just lower oh also R-H-negatives tend to have extra organs I have an extra urinary tube some O-negatives have an extra liver or extra kidney that just happens with us and remember how I said my pediatrician when I was really little I remember him telling my mother there's something about blonde-haired blue-eyed little girls that terrible digestion remember how I said 15% of the world is R-H-negative well about 90% of that 15% guess what my friends blonde-haired blue-eyed people or red-haired people the recessive traits there's a small small small small percentage of people in Africa and Asia who are R-H-negative very small percentage majority of people who are R-H-negative come from the Pyrenees mountain of bass people who are all blonde hair blue-eyed people so this genetic blood type that I have which also is showing up in other side effects having blonde hair having blue eyes having an extra urinary tube having a low body temperature having a stigmatism this is all a bad digestion this is all coming from my blood type which if you're new to this channel I've done a lot of deep dives into blood types because this fascinates me so so so much I'll put those episodes down in the description box below as well there's so much more we don't have junk DNA it's it's just so much more than what what they're telling us then I realized with exercise of course exercise being the base of spirituality that with a lot of so with my long distance running that I was doing way back then most most of our professional athletes guess what blood type they have guess what blood type they have O-negative why why you taken more oxygen when you are O-negative you have more oxygen in your blood you can go for longer you have higher endurance rates ring a ding ding this is why I can run long distances and be fine I also realized that when you do things like running or ashtanga yoga what it does to your colon is it jiggles your colon and it moves and helps your colon digest so even way back when when I didn't hadn't connected the dots I just knew that when I did this particular thing not only did I feel better mentally but I felt better physically too and now I have all the answers to this riddle now I know exactly why I am the way I am I also know from emotional level that it intensified because my father being Vata I took it very seriously when my father would be mean to me over things that were out of my control I really took it to heart because I'm Vata ever more copper base I'd probably be like a fuck you and just go away but I took it so so it made it worse right it made the stress made it worse so with that being said I do not have a relationship with my father anymore I haven't spoken to my father in years and I'm totally okay with that I'm actually better off I do get upset that you know from time to time that you know I'm just very grateful that my nephews and my nieces have an incredible father my brother-in-law is amazing I'm so happy that my sister did not repeat this pattern and that she married a really really really good man my father my mother are no longer married my father is remarried to a woman that also is mean to us that does not really allow us to have anything to do with my dad's family I was very close to my grandparents though I great grandparents and so now that they're no longer living I I'll go more into that with my I'm filming again with Bobby this upcoming week to go deeper into the equipment story and so I'll go deeper into this this side of things in that that story that's been very healing for me because I didn't know much about my dad's family because my dad never I've said this before my father always made us feel like we were not Watson's like we were not a part of like we were guests my grandparents never made us feel that way my grandparents were amazing and just I'm so proud to be Ed and Mary and Watson's granddaughter I did they're just amazing we're amazing people but my dad did not make us feel like we we had we were entitled to that family don't really know my cousins my dad had two sisters I have four cousins on that side of the family and I don't really know them whereas my cousins on my mom's side of the family they're like my siblings so that just kind of shows you the difference in the way that now that that comes from my father that's all my father's doing so and before anybody asked I am absolutely my father's daughter if you saw my father I look a lot like my mom's side of the family but if you saw my dad a picture of my dad and me you would definitely know that that's that's my dad I have a lot of similarities with my father as well so you can definitely tell that I am 100% his child so it's nothing like that it's a yeah I'm biologically he's my dad trust me I've done the 23 and me and people from his side of the family have popped up it's 100% that's my dad so before anybody comments that like it was just that's his issue and it and through a lot of therapy and work on myself through my own spiritual work I have been able to understand that that is his issue the way he treated me as a child I'll give you guys another story about the way my father treated me as a child when I was like 12 years old I was actually I remember I was exactly 12 years old my grandfather my dad's dad my mom's parents had since passed away my grandfather my paternal grandfather owned a pillow factory he had made a lot of money he was very successful he'd copyrighted and owned a lot of patents to different pillows he was the pillow guy and he had this factory and my father I was meanwhile my sister and I were went to this very hoity-toity private school the same hoity-toity private school my father went to mind you you went to the same school my father decided that it was a really good idea for me at 12 years old to get up at four o'clock in the morning and go to my grandfather's pillow factory and basically be the janitor like sweep out the pillow factory and I remember my parents talking about it in the car and I remember my mom getting really upset my mom being like no way am I gonna allow my 12 year old daughter to do this she's not our 12 year old daughter is not doing this she's absolutely not doing this she's not getting up at four o'clock in the morning and sweeping out a pillow factory at 12 years old absolutely not and my parents argued about it and then I remember my grandfather because we were at my grandparents house and my dad was telling his dad that he really wants to teach me responsibility and that he wants me to go to his pillow factory at four o'clock in the morning before school and clean clean the factory and my grandfather now mind you again my grandfather was like six five they called him big Ed because he was so free he had these long legs so tall and my dad was like six four so these big giant like this little kid sitting there at the table and these big giants like I saw the look in my grandfather's face and my grandfather was eating and I saw him look at my dad his son and he was like I am not going to allow my 12 year old granddaughter to do that son he called my dad buck he's like buck we're not put I'm not allowing my 12 year old daughter to be in that vulnerable of a position in that factory absolutely not and I didn't know what my grandfather meant by vulnerable of position like I remember thinking like oh was somebody gonna break in and rob the place like I didn't know what he meant what he meant was he had a night crew so there were employees men working in the factory overnight and my grandfather didn't get to the factory until like nine o'clock in the morning because he he was the owner he was boss boss man right and my grandfather was really good as employees and I know he would never hire somebody that he thought was predatory but now it is an adult I reminiscing on that conversation I know what he meant I was a 12 year old girl it was a night crew full of men I was going to be dropped off at the factory to sweep out at 12 years old with a bunch of men and nobody there to protect me and of course at 12 I didn't understand what he was saying but that's what my grandfather was saying and I remembered the anger he got my father from my father thinking that that was a good idea like not only is it not a good idea because I'm 12 years old and no 12 year old should do that note I know a lot of 12 year olds work on their family farms like get up and but that's very different than being the janitor at your grandfather's pillow factory at 12 you should be sleeping at four o'clock in the morning when you're 12 years old the anger that my grandfather had towards my father in that moment like how dare you put my granddaughter your daughter in harm's way like that like just putting her in harm's way like that so that was another thing about my dad like he he put us in harm's way a lot there was an issue when I was an adult where he actually did did something like that to me I was in the midst of being inappropriately I was at his house and my stepmother was there my stepmother's brother was there and the brother was being really really creepy I was in my 20s I'm not allowed to my house my dad's house anymore that's fine and I went to my dad's bathroom it was the 4th of July so I was going to go shower and change and go meet my mom and my stepdad at his family stuff so I was in the bathroom and I was changed I was like 24 25 years old and I had just got in the shower and I was changing and my stepmother's brother just walked into the bathroom and he had been kind of inappropriate with me the whole time I was there like I really was trying to like tell my dad like I not okay with this and I said like what are you doing I'm getting I'm getting dressed can you please leave the room my dad walks by and walks out of the house with my stepmother didn't protect me didn't say anything to her his brother-in-law basically like this is not appropriate you know I was in my mid 20s at the time these this guy was like in his 50s and 60s like my daughter asked you to leave she's getting dressed like what are you doing I left my dad's house with like wet hair no makeup I was supposed to go this really nice little run I had to go to my mom and like find a place to like finish getting ready because and I remember telling my mom I was like I think he was gonna RAP me and my dad and dad just walked out like did not do anything so that's my dad for you I know people in the town love my dad he's a great he's a great veterinarian and he's really good to the town but kind of a shitty father mean very mean to us so so yeah but I'm good I'm good now like I've gone through therapy I've gone through I I totally recognize I'm absolutely I'm grateful I'm grateful for the learning experience I'm grateful that I was given the chance to learn how to stand on my own without my father and I have an incredible incredible partner so I've definitely healed a lot of daddy wounds I dated a lot of really bad men and then healed that now I have really really good partner so anyway I'm rambling on now so with that being said with this story time a little bit about my personal personal life and the things that I've had to overcome and then the friction and the karma that I've had to work through and the gift so all of that that horrific childhood I had actually gave me a gift because it gave me a place to want to change right you if you're comfortable you're not going to change if you're comfortable you're not that's why we have friction that's why God allows the devil to roam around right because it gives us and it forces us to make choices it forces us to course correct and so going to India and learning all of this and having my life completely changed like a 180 completely changed where now my digestion is great for the most part it's great I now know I know what to do the minute it's not great exactly what to do and I'm able to teach people this and work people through this and give people this gift as well it's it's totally worth it and so if you are if this is resonating with you if you are resonating with this then I would absolutely suggest going to Nasik TV to the esoteric health and wellness series I've got multiple videos on the subject already up on there I've got multiple exercise videos and on top of that you guys I've spoken to Jay about this we are planning we're gearing up as nostic rose to do like live classes like we're like live exercise classes live movement classes maybe live workshops over the DOSHA system all that kind of stuff and so we are working on doing that that is something that is in the works but in the meantime while we're working on doing that I am I've created a workshop called the alchemy of movement now this particular workshop is going to get more into the physical body and moving the physical body and where certain certain bundas are certain energetic locks are in the body which does go hand in hand with diet and nutrition and eating and so I'm putting together this workshop we're going to be doing two different live workshops here in Atlanta one at a strong yoga Atlanta has the dates have not been released yet and one up at sacred garden yoga and Marietta those workshops in person with me are going to be about a hundred dollars a person and the reason why their price that that is because you're actually going to get a hands on I'm going to be there to actually hands on help you and be able to see you in person however I'm also going to plan a day probably for the end of April for all of my friends in other countries or other parts of the country that can't come to Atlanta that's only going to be about forty dollars a person because you're you're not going to get me in person it's going to be over zoom so what this is going to be this is going to be the alchemy of movement workshop this is going to be about a two-and-a-half three-hour workshop so what I'm going to do is I'm going to have an actual workbook that I'm if you if you want to do this I will and you want to sign up for it I'll send you I'll email you the workbook if you come to the live event events you'll get the manual the workbook in person there but over zoom I'll email it to you so what if you come to the alchemy it's gonna be about forty dollars when you come to the alchemy of workshop event will start off the first part of the workshop will be going through the workbook talking about these things in the physical body the different values will have a section on the doshas the different energetic points the meridians the bundas the chakras everything will talk about that how it integrates into your body the nadis shashuna where Kundalini or Christ consciousness lives and then after we do about 45 minutes of a lecture where you have your own workbook for yourself in front of you at your house we will then do about a 90-minute movement practice so you will have to exercise you will sweat I'll have different variations so it doesn't matter I don't care if you're totally out of shape or if you're a marathon runner I'm gonna have different levels different modifications and this is super important this movement is 90 minute movement class within the workshop is super important because it will give you a chance to integrate everything we spoke about in the workbook you'll be able to then integrate in a class with me and then the last 45 minutes ish will be a chance for us to close up to have we'll do a brief meditation when we're done and we'll also have a chance for question and answers so if if you in the movement you've got a question because of something we said in the workbook portion is now you're trying to integrate it and it's confusing you can then take a moment to ask the question and I do encourage questions being asked in front of everybody because sometimes when you ask a question somebody else in the class will benefit whether they know it or not from the answer that's given and and it is so much easier to talk about these things in theory but to put them into practice is a totally different journey on its own so I want to give people a chance after we're done a good chunk of time to like really ask me anything go over anything all that kind of stuff so this is going to kind of be like a preliminary now once we get the class is going on Nostics there I don't think there'll be any extra charge it will be just the charge for Nostics but right now this is going to be an actual workshop like not just a class but an actual intensive an actual workshop so I have not again released the dates yet I'm still looking at the dates but I wanted to talk to you guys about that first to get your feedback on if that's something that you would actually be interested in for those especially for those who don't live in Atlanta and can't come to the real life in person workshop right you would we would have to do it on on zoom so again so the zoom option would be about forty dollars the in person would be about a hundred dollars so anyway you guys I hope that that makes sense I really hope I didn't ramble too much I do think that that is it's really important for us especially those of us who are teachers to be vulnerable and to tell you like I think some people have this misconception I've gotten this misconception a lot not just on zoom but in my live classes I'm very physically fit I know that about myself I have a very flat stomach I have a toned body I know that about myself because I've been doing this for 18 years I've been working out working my body for 18 years I'm also very naturally thin all right so I get a lot of people saying that I don't understand this because I've never experienced this but the truth is I've been through hell and back and because I've been through hell and back what you see when you come into my class is the product of 18 years worth of work when I was a child though I struggled I wasn't healthy at all and because I wasn't healthy I went on this journey first as a student and now I've been lucky enough to be granted authorization the only female in the state of Georgia mind you to to bring this forward to you as well so what you're seeing when you see me is 18 years worth of course correcting is proof that this works and that this has worked for me and I hope it will work for you and that this understanding your dosha it's not the one thing another thing I love about the dosha system is it's not one-size-fits-all it looks at your particular dosha so I'm Vata Pitta you might be Kappa Pitta or Kappa Vata it's gonna be totally different for you but we gotta know what you are first in order to start to start where we need to start right don't ever compare your chapter one to somebody else's chapter 10 and do not ever be arrogant enough to think that somebody else's chapter 10 is actually their chapter one all right I've been doing this for 18 years so my level of physical fitness my health is just product is just proof that this work does work and it does help okay if you put the effort in right so I hope that makes sense so yeah for all those people that think that I just woke up and this was just easy for me don't be so arrogant and ignorant as we said with Katherine Edwards arrogant ignorant no I this is 18 years you know that's why I was given authorization is because I have a lot of experience in this a lot of experience right so so yeah and I really want to be able to pass this forward and really want to be able to give people you know a teacher's job is to eventually not be needed a teacher's job is to teach themselves out of a job I'm not a cult leader I want to be able to set up these workshops instead of the series on Gnostic where you have all the information or the baseline of information so that you can take that information integrated into your life and take your power back or you won't need me anymore to answer your questions I'll be here at the beginning to answer your questions to show you your blind spots it's important to have a teacher show you your blind spots too but I want to be able to teach myself out of a job teach myself out of you needing me okay so let me know if that's something you guys would like I hope you're having a wonderful wonderful Easter weekend we got some exciting shows coming up this week I will not be on with Aquarius Rising Africa on Monday but I will be back the next Monday and I will be back this Wednesday this upcoming Wednesday the third I believe of April we're going to be going into the Laurie Valo case with Shanti and y'all talk about some bash it crazy delusional spiritual people just like Ruby Frankie and Jodi Hildebrand we're going to go into Laurie Valo and Chad Daybell so in the whole visions of glory books I'm super excited I was laughing as I said in the Bigfoot part 2 we did with Jessica and Shanti Mondays on Aquarius Rising Africa we're doing delusional dead people and then Wednesdays on solutions with Shanti we're doing delusional alive people so you know if you want to join in for that I'd love to have yet and you can obviously give your feedback as well what you think about I think Chad Daybell's trial starts Monday I think so she Lori's already been found girls already in prison for life Lori's already been locked away throw the key away Chad's trial starts Monday though so alright you guys with that being said happy Easter have a wonderful weekend I'll talk to you soon bye everybody