 Hello, hello, hello. How are we doing? Hello, Fagi. How's it going? Hope you all have had a good week so far, good working week. I know that for some people it might be like maybe like the day before, late in the day before. For me it's Friday. It's about 6.30 p.m. Today I suppose giving you a bit of an update on to what I've been up to. I have been creating my new set of videos so I usually have like one week where I'll sort of script roughly plan out the kind of videos that I want to put out and then one week while I'll record it and then I sort of edit it over over the month. So I've been making them today and following on from one of the live streams that I did recently I am planning on creating a video. I've just been writing the script for it on autism and the manosphere which I think is going to be definitely an interesting one to cover. I know that my the autism aesthetic video has gone out today. Be interested to know what you guys think. Hello on Spectrum Plus. Don't think I've seen you around here. How are you doing? Hello, Sarah. It's 1.30 in North Carolina. Very nice. Very nice. So if you haven't been to one of these auto time lives before it's basically an opportunity to ask me any questions that you want around autism. My mental health, self-improvement, anything of that nature you're very welcome to ask. I do also can also comment on things related to like fitness and relationships and stuff so if you've got any any burning questions that you want to ask me I am all ears of course. And as with the last auto time we're going to be playing some old-school RuneScape in the background. I've got my RuneScape all fired up ready to go for this lovely Friday evening. How has your week been so far? Figuille, Sarah on the Spectrum Plus. Give me the low down. I really wish with it with these streams that I could put some like music in the background. That'll be cool. Like actual music not just like non-copyrighted music. You have been here before while I apologize for not remembering your name. Well welcome back I suppose. A bit more apt. Hi so Sarah says okay I'm low energy at the moment. Yeah I think I'm supposed to be updating you a bit about how I'm doing at the moment. This week's been particularly difficult as in mental health wise. Nothing's really been happening in particular. It's just low mental health as it happens now and again. Filling a little bit brighter today. You being a bit down. I'm sorry to hear that. You can call me Edwards. My day is going good. I will try and remember that Edward. I'll commit it to my memory. Feels like nap time. Are you using my stream to go to sleep? I don't know how I feel about that. Oh my lord. Hi so the plan in terms of gaming today. I am thinking we are going to do some of the agility arena on Rinscape. I'm going to do the hallowed Sepulchre which is quite a cool place. It really depends on whether my computer manages it because as you know sometimes it can be a little bit laggy when it comes to me trying to do multiple things on the same computer. I really need to consider getting like an upgrade I think. Let me give you a little bit of an insight. Here we go. I'll give you a little bit of an overview of this and of course if you guys have any questions please feel free. I will be answering questions and stuff today. That's very usual for the Autie Time stream. Hello autistic autumn. Lovely to see you my friend. How are you doing? Oh yes maybe maybe I'll put on some of the interesting music. I think there's quite like cool music in this place. I can see it. Wait is it playing on my computer? I think it might be. It's not playing through my earbuds. There we go. That's a bit better. Let's turn that down a little bit. That's not too bad. Is it? Let me know. For Jesus I'm just I'm just staying out my PC so I'm watching my phone just now. I don't know where it's trying to get like the music volume right. Alright so I've been thinking about I'll give you a sort of a lowdown on the videos that are gonna come out soon. The ones that I've been scripting. So I've got one about functioning labels which I think it should be a real good one. And we also have a video about autism being sort of viewed in the mainstream media as being like a superpower. And of course we have one about autistic stimming. About some of the trends that I've seen when it comes to I guess sort of what you describe as maybe like the dissolving of the term perhaps in some sense and whether I believe that it's a good or bad thing. And of course like the one I was saying before about the autism manifest of which I think it should be good to tackle. So as the call done says totally tired at the moment I have a noisy neighbor. Hello Angela, lovely to see you. How are you doing Angela? Let's get on with the room escaping. A bit of an overview for this. Basically it's like an obstacle course and it is it can be pretty difficult. It's like different things that you have to try and avoid. I did manage you on Instagram. Oh message me. What did he say? Sorry I'm not always the most responsive when it comes to DMs and things like that. Livestream I'm usually pretty good. So there's like a time limit on each of these flaws and I get these little little marks hallowed marks for completing each of the flaws when I loop some of the chests. So that's what we're looking for. We're looking for these hallowed marks so I get to color my my outfits in black which should make me a very happy very happy boy. Andrew says I'm doing good enjoyed the sunny weather very much. Whereabouts are you based again Angela? I have not I've not really seen much much of the sunny weather where I'm from. Adam says evening all been doing pharmacology all day finished for the week watching this in the background we're playing Fallout 4. I was having some vegan tobacco. That sounds that sounds like you've got everything planned out Adam. I might have just been in the works all week waiting for the opportunity. The Netherlands I'm glad to hear it's nice and sunny in the Netherlands but yeah in the UK it's not. I mean it's nothing really to be miserable about because it's pretty consistently bad in the UK in terms of the weather. So hopefully we'll be back to live streaming on Mondays and Wednesdays at the moment so we'll be able to do some quite a few videos lined up which would be cool to have a look at. I love black and all black you're in all black today nice. Hello Lexi and hello Rita how you doing? Good to see you guys. How's your week been? I like cloudy weather less harsh on my eyes and I understand that. It is where the obstacles get a little bit more difficult. Oh dear no that's not good either. Survived. Yeah I really like a misty weather. Misty weather is my favorite. I love fog. I don't know I think it's it's something maybe it maybe you can because I do have like a little tinge of what I have experienced like a agoraphobia at one point in my life but I don't know it just it feels kind of cozy mist. I don't know how else to describe it. I'm not gonna hit this one. Hello CatW how you doing? Sarasas Thomas your re-upload of Mark Robinson video was good that particular video age like spoiled milk. It wasn't the most favorable video in the world that's for sure. Yeah it's crazy like 40 million views it's it's madness. I was talking to one of my fellow autism creators recently about just like how just because a company is just because a company is not like is big it doesn't mean that they like always are the best when it comes to best practice in terms of like talking about disability and such or even in general like even even the video that we were watching about Dr. Romani like you know you've got you've got a lot of people out there who very much make that kind of argument argument by authority kind of thing but honestly like obviously they specialize particularly in NPD or like narcissism but does not necessarily mean that they know a lot about autism that's for sure or at least they know about it but they know about it in a very stereotypical kind of medical way which is understandable because they are researchers and so medical part of the medical community about you know you're on your coffee break at the moment what do you do for work cats this is gonna is gonna test my my skills because not only am I trying to traverse these obstacles but I'm also like trying to read chat. It's very obvious now Mark Robel did was a total grift you know it's it wasn't the most favorable video. We got a holiday women's day now work today oh nice yes we are playing Reanscape of course my favorite game I'm actually not too bad at this now it used to be awful. Dr. Romani knows a lot about narcissism that's for sure yeah for real neurotypical school boards definitely need to train neurotypicals in empathy training yeah the whole double empathy problem is is is real that is for sure yeah what a legend so this is this is what I'm trying to get I'll show you what this the stores like there's this thing which is called the dark dark die and it costs about 300 of these these little marks here needs to get another 91 of those hello Paula nice to see you again welcome to the jet Adam says I think most of them mean well it's treated as a disorder of an acknowledging it's just a different operating system so to speak less judgments and more working together in the field I think that it just needs to be like I think the main issue with well when a lot of medical professionals who do not like specialize in autism talk about it thank you very much for Italian selling for joining the channel like they obviously have like a medical degree in terms of psychology like the doctors and things like sure but the there is a tendency for some stigmas and stereotypes to kind of stick around and I think you know that that's very apparent but it's also you know they don't tend to have much of awareness about things related to autism outside of the medical community too which I think is an issue true I like many parts of science but I will say that I'm not qualified over in the field I'm training which is botany plant genetic and horticulture very nice I did a few a few modules on I think it was called called biodiversity that was one of the modules that I did obviously not saying that saying that it's anything anything else anything compared to a what you do for you but I found it very interesting I think one of my notifications must have gone off okay fair enough hello Daniel hello catcher are you doing good to see you how am I hmm if I'm honest I'm not I'm not the best mental health wise it's being oops just run into that fire mental health wise it's been pretty tough recently but I'm happy I've done a lot this week I've got most of what I plan to do this week done and I've also got my tattoo which I'm very happy about and just yeah I have been thinking about like over tattoos that I'd want to get and I think now that I know what it feels like I feel like I have more agency in like getting getting stuff boxed but I'm also very careful about very careful about like what does I know I don't have on my body what you play and we're playing old-school re-escape the hallowed sepulchre which is kind of like an agility minigame thing within re-escape autistic Gordon says Dr. Sam varken varken has hosted videos on autism comparing its sociopath and suggesting autistic people have no inbuilt empathy at all not good I've seen a lot of stuff from Sam varken and his these that kind of gray haired dude with the glasses isn't he I mean it's quite humorous but I have to to a certain degree I have to it's hard it's hard to really explain but you know with anything which is social media online online related like you have to you have to wonder at what point is at what point are people like playing the character like you know say he obviously seems to have some level of self sort of perception like awareness of himself but the same time I think he I don't know he kind of plays off it like too well like to the point where you just make some pretty like cringe statements as an attempt to be like humorous I don't I don't know how else to explain it but if that's what he's saying like that's that's not that's not great you're kind of depressed to Danielle I'm sorry to tell you what did you do for a tattoo if you don't mind telling I can show you that I've showed it a few times but it is a well it's actually a RuneScape tattoo but it doesn't it doesn't really look like anything that could be related to RuneScape I guess to most people I think it's pretty cool I'm happy with it it's been in the works for a while I saw it I think online when I was looking for tattoo ideas and I was like hey that looks good I think the actual one I saw wasn't done very well and it was done in red as well so it's a little bit different to the one I saw yeah some tattoos too what are these obstacles what reward will you get to pass them so I get some some little you see that number sort of travel up there that's some agility experience but it's also if I can just show you a second if I can miss this one if I grapple this pillar there is a chest on the other side which I can loot for awards you just need some advice yeah go for it what would you need advice on narcissism was created by abuse during childhood and go to dealing with narcissism free of abuse either interesting should probably not pause here oh dear I don't know do that is cool well thank you very much my friends I'm very proud of myself for dealing with my needle phobia and baby ish Nate sort of nature in terms of sharp pain I hate it I'm gonna get here shoot it's actually an interesting thing actually bread and egg and a sexual daffodil keeps flowering keeps the flower twice as long as there's nothing to pollinate well that is very cool that's awesome yeah I find plants really interesting it just wasn't like what what I wanted to do so I didn't do as many modules so it did it didn't trust me enough for me to want to learn about it but you kind of have to specialize when you get to uni on what you would like to do sort of afterwards around Kelly is creating a great informative platform for autistics that's good to hear very good to hear what does what what you mean like part of the autistic sort of the YouTube stuff or online social media or like a separate platform yeah it's a pretty cool it's a cool game I mean I mean cool is probably not the words the word I would use for it I think it's probably one of the more nerdy games that you can play but I think it's cool started reading started to read about narcissism after watching your video I used to get confused get it confused with psychopathy you want to tattoo this is an inspiration well I mean I am awful with sharp pain and I hate needles so I would argue that if I can get a tattoo at least in the shoulder arm area I think most people can definitely anyone feel like everything is only lashing out at you just you and no one else yeah I think I think it can it can feel like that sometimes I think I'm you know the nature of not not to get too philosophical why I'm getting philosophical in the nature of being human is it is pretty isolating at times especially if you're having negative experience it can feel like it's kind of especially if you go in for like a time where you you're receiving a lot of negative experiences it can feel very isolating I would say you can't cope with a hot weather too cold does not feel that harsh but you don't feel the cold anymore after getting cancer removed something changed but ain't good I can't tell see if I can just deal with this obstacle and I read some of the comments oh that's a closeness oh no oh dear okay panic over panic over nice to do I'm glad you're working I don't need a hat what do I need for that oh I hammer saw I've got a sore glad you're working in some self-care a few needles and and hate pain so wouldn't consider tattooing for my own self-care no I get that also you don't need to get a tattoo I think it's an interesting experience to have but you know it's nothing wrong with just not having a tattoo Thomas stream drawing time he's on all platforms now I suppose I meant cat are they creating like a it's when you said that in my mind I was thinking are they creating a platform for like a separate social media platform for autistic people did plant biochemistry is good but I want to study humans and animals but took it no further so you kind of did the opposite to me then there's just so much that you can learn so much lovely knowledge that you miss out on you to chicken for tattoos I think if you really want one honestly I think you'd be able to you just need just need the right kind of support and preparation and a kind tattooist that's understanding think you know it's not gonna be an easy thing to do any shooter just miss that it's not gonna be an easy thing to do because I mean even if you are okay with the idea of needles and your pain tolerance is relatively normative I think it can still be uncomfortable and painful that's that's just kind of the nature of it come on let me through on God damn it and quickly to the chest to the chest we're all good we're good though we're running low on run energy I got five tattoos in my 20s 20 plus years later I'm indifferent about all but one when I like is a Chinese symbol of fear cooling in blue blue since calm I like that I mean mine just means mine just means the god of chaos on RuneScape is not really much I mean I suppose I could come up with like a meaning for it I guess the chaos of my soul maybe I don't know if that works so does anyone else feel first loved and one minute they hate you especially loved ones the repetitive motion tends to cancel out the pain when I have my tattoo the only part it was her it was placed near the bone and the joints yeah yeah it's kind of like the sort of the fleshy underbelly of my my triceps where it started to hurt a bit more my tattoo covering up a scar on my leg yeah I was thinking about it because I do have some sh related scars but I don't know I kind of I don't mind them I think it kind of in a sense it sort of reminds me of my my resilience to a certain degree so anyone feels similar to an AI I guess sometimes yeah maybe I don't know what an AI I would feel like rank L.A. neurodivergent rebels are an icon linker to say you Thomas yeah I know of them of course I I into I think I interviewed neurodivergent rebel on my podcast way back then I've got much better than needles after undergoing a lot of blood tests I still can't I'm I still can't do those those are just I know for me I mean I do them if I have to but it's it's always an ordeal you wouldn't mind to have to have an elven script that is that that sounds cool need to go make pizza no worries cats nice to have you on triceps area is very quite sensitive yeah yeah it was it felt I think at the most like the pain was kind of like if you were to squeeze like a inflamed like spot or something that's the kind of how it felt on there on that area it was it wasn't the best but I could I could manage it I have cross tattoo on my left wrist was flowing my right wrist I have wings on my chest and ladybug and the leaf on my back very nice that is cool I've been practicing a researching and once I'm confident I have a couple ideas for tattoos I want to do myself I already did two tiny ones and I have several professional tattoos that's very cool I just thought of you as your autistic I thought you could help me as I am autistic as well but it doesn't matter if you can't what would you like help with I don't know if I can don't know if I've seen oh I just need some advice on what I need to do to get some followers that's a hard one obviously like putting putting yourself together at like a content plan I think is a good first step you need to have some time to to think about what exactly you're going to do it's gonna like set you apart and also I suppose some things that you can work on as well during during the time that you making stuff depends which content you want to go with really there's lots of different ways of going about it you know in general you want something that kind of suppose separates you in some way from other stuff that's out there that makes sense but in what manner you want to do that it's very dependent on what you want to what you want to do you know for example you could it could be related to like opinions it could be way to the that you deliver your content it could be a look even like an aesthetic you know that could be something that that sort of differentiates you you know good example of that would be of herbs and altars you know obviously they've got a quite a unique aesthetic it's quite captivating and a drama queen also also does like all the coffee type related stuff I'm actually just talking about coffee stuff because that's what draws me in but you could say the same for lots of different things so there's no like if you're looking for someone to watch to learn from Vanessa Lau is a is a really good creator Vanessa I think the been a Vanessa Lau that's how you say it they do a lot of good stuff around social media content God damn it I am I'm not doing well oh dear I want a tattoo now yeah same lol after three after the third stop up we had to pin in my client with some painkillers otherwise he shivers and shake too much when he gets inked and it's irritating follows come with content consistency good workflow and tags shots that link up to longer videos help to buy and we just started long yeah that's good that's why I thought you could do a live reaction to a video well I mean it really depends on what the video is so I tend to try and cover content which is kind of I mean if it's interesting and have a just distant different angle on something then I will obviously like give it a thought but like even if I was to do a live reaction of content me put out I think it sad sadly although it might sound a bit depressing it doesn't really do do as much as you think it will so I've had a few people who have asked me to like share their stuff on my story and they've got pretty annoyed and like angry at me because nothing came of it you know obviously like it's usually when when people want them to advertise stuff on the platform you would pay for it but I did it for them because you know I wanted to help but then they got angry me so you know you can't really do you can't really do much I mean it's good maybe collaborate with some people who have similar sized channels or just starting off that might be a good way of going about it you must pass these obstacles I know it's really difficult it looks I suppose it looks kind of easy maybe you watching but there's like marines gates really funny it has like these set cycles of things like the actual position of your character is not actually its position it's like two steps ahead of it of the actual character model you've always got to be aware of that when you when you try to move and there's always like a little delay as well that's that one people as Jeff Thomas no worries on that Edward no worries I know it's not it's not the nice like the best most encouraging thing to hear but if you generally want to make content and produce it I mean I would probably say that I'm still sort of establishing myself to so maybe I'm not the best person to ask but I generally say if you if you have the time and you have the funds to pursue making content and you want to put effort into doing it and you've got some distinguishing factors flair that you you can add personally I think that's obviously gonna be quite helpful but it's it's not like a unlike other things in life there's not like a straightforward path to like getting what you want when it comes to online stuff it's very variable on lots of different circumstances and also look I would say I'm interesting I just mash up my special interest with also making art I'm already doing that so why not videotape it some hello journey green good to see you I hope you well too movement like yeah it would be giving me an idea of what to do wherever I'm doing the right thing that's all I want I'm well I maybe I won't react to it but I if you I think I think you may have sent me video before if you want to send me send me the video link again I'll have a look at it and I'll try and give some feedback but again I'm not like the content master I'm very much like starting up on my own as we speak Thomas 16.2k followers catcher no two bars you know this I think most most of the followers that I have the subscribers that you see are like from like a while ago like a long time ago because I have been creating content on and off as a hobby for the like past seven years I think if you if you enjoy what you do and you have the time and funds to to dedicate towards it and you've got some stuff that you want to say some stuff that you want to create then you know I just don't just mean don't underestimate yourself I mean it's all it's all the trial and error I would say now you start off by doing things that you the you like and you think that you would want to see in the content that's on out there and then you try lots of different things and you see what works for you you know and what you can maintain but also it can be somewhat bernie it can burn out a lot of people like most most youtubers who aren't autistic I think struggle with that it's even more I would say a little bit more draining for us you're going to an awards show next week I may want to culture award that is very cool I hope you enjoy yourself for you I was in the more like this once like this I want to I want to see what that more looks like because that sounds cool I'd want to visit more like this it's very gothicky just straight man I forgot to open that chest idea tell me you got here through the daily grinding being authentic thank you very much I still have a long way to go that's for sure I'm off now but thanks for the advice or something like no worries I would you guys got any any questions any questions related to autism or anything that you can ask to stimulate a bit of thought in my brain sounds very aggressive me saying that it wasn't intended to be passive-aggressive in any way you're gonna head out to honor is Sarah good to have you in the air as usual I hope you have a lovely weekend that was unfortunate I think we'll we'll do this until we've got enough of the marks to get another piece of black graceful which is the outfit I'm rocking and then we will reassess and perhaps do something else so it's not too monotonous suppose what one question that I do have for you which would be interesting to your thoughts on is that what do you guys think about like the way that stimming is referred to like in the autistic community because originally it was this kind of what I probably describe as a bit more kind of stereotypical repetitive behaviors that I meant to self-regulate whereas nowadays it's sort of expanded I guess into pretty much any kind of sensory stimulatory behavior that regulates not necessarily having that stereotypical and repetitive angle to it how do you guys feel about about that characterization I have a question how does creativity get impacted by your autism in your opinion I think when it comes to create it doesn't necessarily like hamper my creativity but I feel like I usually when I'm wanting to be creative I need more solid boundaries to be creative with them if that makes sense like don't know how to explain why I mean I'll generally act within the realm of what the task is if that makes sense I'm not really deviate much from it but within within those bounds I can be quite creative I would say I also think that there is an aspect of being autistic and this idea of sort of divergent or lateral thinking you know I think that's that's quite an interesting concept the lateral thinking being tying to seemingly dissimilar concepts together divergent thinking being you know taking sort of atypical routes to achieving the same thing maybe to a greater degree of success or ingenuity or whatever you could call it but I'm interested to see what you guys you guys think in terms of the stimming thing because it's definitely been a question that I've been mulling over and I'm gonna make a video on that at some point doing alright I wonder how much experience we're getting 40k now that's not too bad it's like school art classes they have instructions and restrictions rather than just coming up with everything on their own even with restrictions and getting overwhelmed relate yeah exactly Aptin says it seems that is a broad thing about stimming I try not to attract any additional tension to it when I'm overwhelmed cracking right hand fingers and things that don't do not stand out too much yeah yeah I mean it's I think I because I see a lot of comments particularly from like parents of autistic people you know the particular individuals that sort of trying to I don't know it's kind of a subsection of the autistic community that talks about uses phrase such as like profound autism and you know what parents of autistic kids who have relatively high sport needs you know they tend to get quite upset when we call certain things stimming because they're not like this stereotypical representation that's seen in like psychological or medical literature and also they're not always like repetitive things so I think it's more like I'm trying to think about you know you know is the term changing is it a good thing that it's changing because in my opinion I think it makes it more accessible for people to find different ways of regulating themselves maybe maybe we need another term for it I don't know I'm not sure just had meltdown I'm glad this live is on I'm sorry to hear that girl plays base GPGPGPB I'm sorry to hear that it's never fun is it I'm hope hopefully I can provide some level of comfort during your aftercare yeah I've been I've been you know on the verge of won myself recently but I'm trying to trying to regulate myself as much as possible it's always difficult when you've got like things that you need to do and you also are becoming very overstimulated and stuff it's hard to find hard to find the balance in the long term I think when I paint I give myself a brief then stick to them and then I can be creative within that if that makes sense exactly yeah that's that's that's exactly what I forgot sore again well that's not fun now well I'm in a chill time hopefully me rumbling on about random stuff and playing green scape will be somewhat helpful when I feel bad repetition of some kind seems to be key yeah I mean even with this you know with ringscape I would say that it's pretty like repetitive in nature it definitely calms me down even though it's not like the same thing over and over again it's like there is some level of repetition to it so I quite enjoy it stimming is something that you do compulsively not just a repetitive motion otherwise running would be stimming and it's not never is dancing hey here you go yeah I mean you're highlighting exactly what I'm talking about which is you know at what point what point do we consider things to be stimming or not you know I would probably I'd probably argue that sort of dissolving the term to a certain extent is a good thing because I feel like it opens more people's brains up to considering like meeting the sensory needs and such in different ways you know like I don't particularly have many I don't particularly have many stereotypical stims you know I think you know some of the things that I would regard as like self-regulating for me which you know and bear in mind the problem some things are not really used by a lot of holistic individuals but then there's also things that generally just regulate me quite a bit which do incorporate like some of the sensory needs that I have which are like the gym what I say that going to the gym is stimming I don't know I feel like it it really depends on how sort of concretely or loosely define the term stimming that makes sense I mean you have like little and big stims little stims being like things that are not so stereotypical and kind of in your face and you know people see them as sort of not necessarily like stereotypical things most people kind of do them big stims being like the more stereotypical things I mean bouncing on the trampoline like that's that's one would that be considered stimming because bouncing is definitely a stem bouncing on the trampoline it's like where is the line you know at what point do we consider it to be not stimming it's an interesting line of thought I'm not saying I have the answer I'm just saying that it's I feel like it's an interesting cuts of line of thinking thinking about you know what we'd consider that Thomas I really think we should lobby for some dedicated surface services for helping autistic adults live independently who live independently I think it's it's it's less of a question about lobbying I suppose like I think the issue there is the money aspect because you know obviously that would be the best but it's like convincing the government I don't know I mean I'm all for like speaking up about things and trying to elucidate problems and suggestions suggesting things but I think stepping into like the political kind of policy realms don't know if that's something that I want to do personally I don't want to be a politician anything such as in the world and meaning and the word itself it's it's a good it is good a good and a bad thing do not send it to the fullest extent because no one's around around uses me around me uses that word there is a non-sciency word for it yeah I mean the two things can exist together I mean it just really depends on the lens I suppose so if you are using sort of the medical meaning of the word it might be a bit different to using the sort of the the lay meaning of the word you know we have a lot of things like that it's intro it's an interesting question it's definitely going over my brain I feel like this is helpful I'm having a down day this is helpful to hang out for all I'm glad it's nice for me as well because I get to like put a little bit of a break on my productivity brain and like do something fun it's nice so I stick saying I have the urge to crack my hand or pull my muscles and intense them and fiddle with a yellow stone rosary I use blankets quit smoking the rosary attracts too much tension I like the feeling of a good keyboard and consider it stimulating to notice patterns and words like as as a zazel and decide but it doesn't help me regulate if he says I would say stims are repetitive actions then you have seaving actions which have a similar effect solid bpm says I feel I feel like gaming is definitely a stem that helps me regulate it yeah I mean I think it's it's just like I think that's another good example because you're using it in sort of an atypical sense like I know exactly what you talk like what you mean like it's regulating I thought it's just interesting like the way the different ways that I've seen people use the term you know I don't necessarily think it's a bad thing you know it's just it's interesting to think about hello s lovely to see you how are you doing and now I have a split ergonomic keyboard that is called my ductile manifold with clicky switches me likes typing on it do you guys like the music in the background do you think it's a bit too repetitive and annoying because I'm not I'm not again just turning off I'm more just leaving on because I think I don't know when I would like to watch live streams I quite like I mean to be honest sometimes I like playing music in the background while I'm listening to a live stream you know I mean so maybe it maybe it's not a good thing to do it's soothing good I forgot to sore again I'm missing out on these games I'm not what I'm actually one for a clicky keyboard you know I don't like it the noise kind of over stimulates me it depends if I'm clicking something for the for the feeling and the noise of clicking something then it's nice but if it's just all the time every time that I'm pressing a key it's just clicking all the time I feel like it would be a bit over stimulating for me you know says me right for reading the chat well whilst trying to complete this difficult obstacle oh the music is soothing oh is that what you guys I thought you were talking about the keyboards haha I'm glad do you want it a bit louder or do you want a bit quieter or is it cool well but I'll put some different music on so we've got a bit of a shipwrecked spooky what's your favorite 90s computer game hmm I don't know what what would be considered as a 90s computer game is that like Crash Bandicoot Spyro are those 90s computer games I'm not very up on my my gaming sort of um knowledge much soothing many calming I love mechanical keyboards Cherry MX Brown feels good so good to type on it but I do find the sign a bit aggressive without headphones yeah yeah I could see that nice Hawkins oh thank you very much for being a member nice much appreciated hi Thomas great channel I had a pre-diagnostic assessment for orders and recently and a formal diagnosis appointment coming this Monday evening I'm 57 so I'm pretty late getting getting to this point well congratulations and I hope that my that my stuff has has been helpful during your journey can't imagine getting diagnosed so so late in life it's it must be quite a groundbreaking groundbreaking sort of feeling that's for sure right I'm actually going to get this soul now finally get the soul there we go there we go sort it depends on the search tree brands don't make any sound you just feel the click under with your fingers you guys know a lot about keyboards Nintendo I don't know would Nintendo be uh 90s I yeah maybe I don't know there's this there's this weird game that I used to play on my dad's Gameboy I can't remember exactly what it was called it was a very difficult game I never got past any of the levels because I just my child brain just could not comprehend anything that was carrying on or what to do I was just like mindlessly clicking on everything trying to make stuff work the louder I bet the better I say life irons experience of noises is from noises from different switches hello on Neen I'm liking the emojis very interesting how do you do that do you mean hello or did you mean say Henley I says I'm not into video games anymore but I was in the 80s and 90s but I suck at them I just spend many many a day on on RuneScape as a as a wee boy trying to catch red chin chompers through the hunting skill I remember it I used to drive my my dad mad because I'd like to sit on my laptop while we were watching like a movie I just like click away Mario Legend of Zelda Tetris yeah I like that sort of springs but I am already adept on the fancy ortho linear layout Christine says my husband made his own keyboard and bought a switchboard with all the different switches to determine what feel and sound he liked then he bought the keys and put some Nintendo ones on there wow that is that is cool that's very cool dogs say Henley lol I'm on a clicky keyboard too as it depends on my stress levels that day of whether it's enjoyable or not you just can't get this in any of our community a solid back and forth conversation about the the clickableness of a keyboard over nice keyboard with bright and orange and black keys looks like an Atari keyboard managed just a basic white mac keyboard sorry I need to I need to to be more aware of my my spaces because I imagined that that was pretty loud I apologize for that Thomas sent me my son on instagram regarding sort of dating a discord link oh god I forgot about that I need to get in contact with the person who runs the discord I will I will get that we'll get that sorted I'll send him a message we boy love that my nephew loves videos such computer games I've only been a keyboard nut before now I've had been the only keyboard nut in any group we got boots yeah I'm sorry for booping years you got you got keyboard keyboarded sounds like some kind of futuristic torture technique send them to the keyboard room you will be keyboarded until oh that's a that's a that's just a shiny arrow we don't like those we don't let's just sacrifice some vampire dust to this altar so we can get a little little juicy little surprise we love them keys yeah you can't post links but a search term would work why is that open my music software these headphones are great but sometimes like when I press one of the buttons they just do some unknown thing to my computer it's very rotating yeah that boot was loud I'm sorry for the loud boop I don't know how to to avoid those loud boops but they do tend to happen sometimes what would be in the keyboard room I don't know some you never want to be keyboarded hopefully you will never find out s I think spatial awareness is something many autistic people struggle with because me to have some spatial awareness fear of how close I am to others gives me anxiety yeah I have heard about that um I think I think it's related to uh proprioception which can be um hyper or hyposensitive for autistic people I don't I my spatial awareness is okay it's manageable I do I think it's I think it's less of an issue it would be less of an issue if I wasn't such a large human being if I if I was perhaps an average sized human I think I don't think I'd injure myself as much but you know yeah the separate room for your pc oh my god speak speaking about like the manosphere video that I'm gonna make there was um a recent interview that was leaked I think on not leaked posted on I think a um interview site called grilled youtube youtube page called grilled about that my ring guy from the fresh and fit podcast my god just the the the absolute display of delusion from that man was just palpable it was it was ridiculous and then and then scrolling down into the comments even um I didn't see one comment which was not in support of of this man and he was just completely just exposing some ridiculous takes on like women and dating and relationships it's just absolutely delusional it's just crazy to think like how many people are there just think the exact same as this man it's incredibly it's incredibly concerning I would say it's like the group think mentality it's a scary thing ouch oh they are gonna do it together now fresh and fit a trash yeah I know it's I mean even from from what I know of like the whole sphere in that sense even even like the other crazes within that sphere all like the whole thing that they're just like incredibly immature just closed-minded individuals it's just insane so like they're living in some fantasy world honestly shameful shameful behavior it uh has thank you your channel and others have been very helpful and reassuring just realized probably the oldest view in here I don't know about that I mean do you guys want to do an age poll I haven't looked at my my demographics to be honest on my channel should probably have a look quite interesting I know from looking at my Instagram analytics it seems to be like predominantly well on because Instagram generally skews a bit more towards towards women there tends to be more people on there but I think like 25 to 29 is the average or 29 to 34 I can't remember what can't remember what the um the age ranges um but we do have a diverse group of people I would say not like you could say much for the for the other deplorable content creators out there who have like a fan base of 12 to 14 no one within the autistic community I just mean like some creators it's madness yeah with your time oxygen requires you is and oxygen it requires you to watch their content yeah yeah I see them it's just it's laughable to be honest it's entertaining just how like delusional they can be humans are indignant in indeed is that indignant yeah I think that's on their own in groups it drops the opposite of ants like a bull in a china shop you are right Thomas is the fantasy world new 25s at 10s 52 to do I get enough of that stuff at work I'm sorry to hear that how many oh we're nearly we're nearly at our marks goal got one more run and we should be home free if you if you if you want to have some laughs or I don't know if that would be considered just be laughs I highly recommend checking out the the grill the new grilled podcast podcast episode because I think that just like it gives you I think it gives you a taste for just like the intensity of the delusion that's like manifested within those communities because I mean from from my opinion sort of watching that interview like the man was it was just completely delusional was just not really understanding the point of what the other person was saying trying to constantly just it was it was laughable honestly it was just I've got no words for it but if you want to understand what that community can be like before before I release my video on autism in the manisphere um that would be a good a good sort of example of the the type of toxic content that I'm talking about what's necessary use Thomas I picks up on it uneen um it's just bellows for my crippling nicotine addiction at least it's not anything else that's white and powdery a that would be more concerning grapple on over it get ourselves some marks one shouted so much for knocking stuff over in a house when I was little once I took a plate and I slammed out of the floor and said it's not it's not on purpose this is what it looks like if it's on purpose you got some sass I mean some sass trained trained as a sass master no no I was just kidding sorry I joke around too much I took gymnastics at a dance video so most of what I did was on the floor when I switched to actual gymnastics sorry not very good at multitasking I couldn't get over the fear of doing a back walk over on a beam yeah that sounds that sounds pretty pretty anxiety provoking what's the best book you've read recently currently reading Quiet by Susan Cain I'm reading um uh I think the book called Divergent in the moment well I'm listening to it because I I don't read I listen to audiobooks um I'm listening listening to that one at the moment pretty interesting take on the power of introversion that is cool I mean there's definitely benefits to it I mean you know we need different different kinds of minds in our society there is a there is a point with some people online they're that's wrong with their takes that they're wrong with the takes I feel embarrassed with them yeah it's it's kind of um because you do get there are some people particularly online who can be pretty um like they can sort of generalize like men in general is being like horrible or nasty or toxic which I think is not a good view to have like of all men but they I think that they target that and then they count they sort of counteract it by doing the exact same thing in the opposite direction you know so it's it's kind of this like men vs women mentality that's just constantly talked about within those spaces who's this we're talking about um like the manisphere like fresh and fit particularly the fresh and fit podcast oh what's happening yeah it looks crazy to the green screen you have no vibe is almost complete I suppose it does doesn't that I think it's because of my lights because my lights just like right above my head my phone isn't like to meet tag tag people do have to do something special yeah I think the at you need to do at and then there's like a drop down menu or you can like start typing someone's name and then you have to like click it I think that's how you do it can you do it on your phone honey oh I can actually do this now let's build a bridge and walk over the bridge and on the side of the bridge there's a coffin we open the coffin we take the blood rooms and then we walk back over the bridge that is a rendition from uh Thomas Henley provided by Ray Shadow legends I was the first thing that came to mind was provided by Pampers I don't know why that came to mind brought to you by Pampers I'm getting getting good at this it's requiring less and less of my attention as I continue to do this I can't measure the fourth of my squeezes so I have to guess what do you mean by the opposite like um so um like some some people would be like characterizing men in general as being like horrible sometimes and so like in the way in their eyes like the way to counteract people being insulting and over generalizing they do the same and it's this this is kind of back and forth thing between like these two kind of communities law I thought when you said fresh and fair I thought it was a meal prep delivery service you're like Terry Pratchett books very nice you love my stimming thank you Ray Shadow legends I'm giving them free advertisement I need to stop we have enough my friends for the dark die number two there he is look at that all that effort just for a small collection of pixels which I'm going to convert to albeit a larger amount of pixels dinning it's coming together only four more to go thank you very much kiwi for joining the auto legion tier much appreciated my friends thank you you're making the dream come true my friend thank you right so it we're done with this whatever this is hallowed sepulchre sepulcher every day we've got them there look at them they look great we can just get the rest of them though then it would be then I will be happy until I decide to move on to another arbitrary goal that I set for myself you mean women classifying men as classifying men is horrible like um it's like there's there's some people out there who I don't know they uh they gen they over generalize men as being like horrible pigs who like they have no good qualities about them they kind of lift off these all these traits I say a lot of particular videos on tiktok of that sort but the their response instead of like of these creators who review that content their response is not to um be sort of rational and reasonable about stuff like that their response is usually to like turn it back as and and do the same thing and sort of insult women if that makes sense in a very over general in a similar sort of over generalized way I hope I explain that well I'll be a bit more clear when I put my video out I think nice as a child I would spin around touch objects and have all sorts of rituals and although I don't overly do this now the urge has stayed with me I never knew why until recently interesting I used to um I used to spin around and like on my wooden floor with my slippy socks on that was nice for me I used to do that I don't really do that anymore it's kind of sad because I really enjoy it but if I was to try and do that I think I would fall over and probably severely injure myself a little bit different when you're a bit younger you you know as heavy I suppose well what else did we get from our ventures today I can sell on the on the market not sure you look like less let you look less like a skeleton yeah my my character is just definitely white that says um because I wanted to sort of you know be a bit gothic-y in my character development anyone else um you can't have evolution without again in pixels that's true anyone else grew up in chaos now that chaos is their routine and orderly routine is impossible to implement interesting I haven't really experienced that although I did experience something similar when I was traveling when I was backpacking I kind of got used to not having a routine I don't know if that's what you're referring to that kind of experience if I was a rich girl look at that 105 mil big boy money Thomas you are welcome I'm really enjoying your ASMR post oh I'm glad to hear that I'm very glad to hear that I feel like um maybe maybe doing it in the short speed is not like the best way of going about it I think maybe I'm thinking once my channel grows to a degree where I might be able to like hire someone to help me um or or I find someone who who wants to use my voice to make their own sort of ASMR videos I think I'd be down to do that maybe not ASMR but like meditation you know I like I like doing speaky things like that I feel like the Barbie movie is kind of like this yeah yeah yeah I see what you mean silly yogi a rock says after testing no report yeah I've been told that I'm autistic on paper yet the way I present to myself has them at 50 50 for a diagnosis force if I'm able of course no push so after testing no report you've been told you're autistic on paper but the way that you present is 50 50 it's hard one that because there is like there's some pretty considerable input when it comes to like autistic masking and also presentation tends to vary a lot person to person when you get into adulthood it's a little bit more clear to pick up that someone's autistic when they're a bit younger but when you're sort of getting late diagnosed there can be some you know different factors involved I don't think to be honest if I was to go into it to an interview to talk to somebody um and do an autism assessment I don't think that they would I don't know I think they would pick up on certain things but I think for most people most lay individuals that I talk to I wouldn't unless I mention something about autism I don't think that they would pick up on anything they might think that I'm a bit direct and a bit blunt and perhaps don't make as much eye contact as nice people but yeah an immature back and forth of course yeah exactly hello Jackie lovely to have you on again how you doing I never understand guys that insult women they're also the ones that moan when women don't speak to them yeah that's very true so it's weird like you really just have to watch that episode from grilled and and also have a look at the comments just to see like like the state of delusion that our society isn't at this moment it's crazy it's I mean if you can manage it I mean like it's not not the most favorable of takes from Myron's side but if you if you want to chuckle and you you want to be a take it a bit more light-hearted than I encourage you to check it out I think what you need is to put a smooth voice with some Indian flute music and some fractal patterns your ASMR shots are very empowering they provide counter to my internal crappy thoughts that was my that's my intention with them you know that's my intention I think I'm I'm definitely leaning on creating more of my talking videos I would like to do some more content like that it's just when I have to like because I'm I guess a business now I have to think about what does my social presence of my channel the most most good in terms of like growth and the ASMR videos are not performing as well although I do enjoy making them and I had like a whole structure different like aspects to them planned out it's um maybe maybe when I release the rest of them like it might pick up a bit more but we shall see send me your vocals Thomas I'll make you a channel if you got something that you want me to read out and you want to put it some like um interesting music I'd be happy to do that why not what should we do now I'm at a loss I could do some Guardians of the Rift I kind of do still need to do that I could do some mahogany mahogany homes um what else can I do I could do some more zolcano zolcano is pretty fun do zolcano I can get my new legs out nice nice my friend hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy my favorite series of books though it's been quite a while since I last read them maybe it's time again yeah good intention great help to us I'm glad I share them with some of my friends it's they will catch on give it time I reproduce so I would totally do it sure I mean yeah I'm happy to do that if you've got some um stuff that that you can I can read out and you know um I'll be down for that that might be quite fun no percent I think with the smr shot you could increase the length by repeating the same audio yeah it's it's difficult though because it's like maybe it does need to be a bit longer maybe you're right I'm just trying to like streamline content because it it kind of overwhelms me when there's like so many things that I have to get done like I think my think my thoughts about creating more of those talking videos is that it's it gives me an opportunity to basically do what I do but on a shorter form so it's less sort of all over the place in terms of like what I need to manage and schedule and you know things like that because I do YouTube but I also produce content over on Instagram like pretty pretty much daily so it's um trying to figure out like workflows and my expectations that I have of myself that makes sense also um I'm thinking would any of you any of sort of the regular regular viewers do you guys would would you guys be interested any of you in becoming a moderator for the channel when I do my lives which remember what I need for zolcano I think I have a tab for it high expectations yeah the bbc radio series of hhh chikers galaxy is quite good as well definitely understand focusing content that is most popular right now now I think I think it's more like um it's less about it's it's it's trying to find things that is easy for me to do consistently if that makes sense so like originally I had the plan of my last sort of planning stage like a month or so ago um I was thinking of okay I'd do some ASMR videos I do some talking videos I do some like different voiceover videos with like clips of me and then I'll have one was was like my physique video and then obviously like I clip up my videos and put them out on as like clips um like it's it's just like a lot of different things that I need to think about if that makes sense and I feel like it'd be easy for myself to try and focus on like one style and just get that like perfect correct that makes sense with my work life balance I can hardly offer my helping hand in moderation for your channel no worries it's all good my name says I'll message you on instagram we'll sort something out I could edit some ASMR meditation videos as well that'd be really cool that'd be awesome I mean if you if you guys like I never the thing is the only reason why I don't talk about this is because I am fully aware that like I have not really much much to offer in terms of like compensation at this point because I'm you know I'm very much like in the building phase of my business and I won't be earning a lot for like my first year enough to like have it as like a job while I'm sort of building things up um and so I don't I don't particularly like the idea of like asking for free help do you know what I mean like because I know that for a lot of us it can be it can be quite the working work can be quite difficult and um having more commitments and stuff which you don't mean money off is a lot to I like ask I mean I will put put this out there but if if any of you do like my stuff um like you you are very welcome to and it would be helpful to me um if you want to because I've seen some of the streamers they have like some of their um I don't like the 10th fans some of some of the people that follow them they create like clips channels um of that creator like if you want to um I wouldn't content sort of sort of um well how do you say claim the content if you wanted to make like clips of stuff that I've done and just kind of put it out and if like obviously if the channel starts making you're able to monetize the channel then you could sort of keep that for yourself um you're very welcome to do that if you that would probably be like the most helpful thing um other than that I think one thing that I am struggling to maintain and it's probably something that is eating up into like my weekends and stuff at the moment and that is like basically clipping my videos into short videos and putting captions on them that takes like this takes like pretty much like at least one of my weekends my entire weekends like per month um I think it'd be like a like an overview of what I do because I'm I'm very much trying my best to um produce stuff and try to make it in this YouTubey world um so at the moment I am pretty much Monday I am editing like one of my presentation videos on my podcast Tuesday um and Thursday it's usually either recording or scripting uh Wednesday is doing my talking videos and then Friday is like clipping up my stream and to go out in videos and basically the Tuesday and the Thursday and the weekends are for working on my posts and my short content and stuff and it is taking up a lot and I'm not saying I'm not saying that like I'm annoyed about that because I am very willing to do that but if you guys do want to help out then that is probably the ways that would be helpful I would say what do moderators do uh basically like if if people are chiming in like as sometimes happens in terms of live streams people coming in like trolling or posting all sorts of like deplorable stuff uh you could time them out you know you would be able to be able to do that hello rose tea how are you doing you would love to help Angela um well it's it's come completely up up to you how you'd want to help I think it would be good for the live stream to have some human moderators at least just just in case like some things just get a bit ropey um but yeah the clips and basically just trying to get my voice out as much as possible would probably be like the most helpful totally understand that Thomas they pay me to you for contributing to the community oh thank you very much I mean I'm much appreciated well just um uh I will try and I will check out my Instagram after I finish streaming and I will search through and try and find you guys if you if you send me a message but um I'm not not the the best when it comes to like organization and communications but I do try my best and um yeah I I any any help at all would obviously like be massive but you don't need to like I'm not saying I was like you know only if you want to and only if you have capacity for it and you is something that you would like to do um you know spell checker has got me in the sin bin on lives oh dear that's um that's the the auto moderator apologies Jackie it's just to stop um trolls basically posting nasty stuff QV says I'm a computer programmer I work from home you need a positive affirmation oh thank you um what what kind of stuff do you program that sounds cool you have a podcast I do it's uh the 40 or t podcast you can find it on my channel it's also one like pretty much everywhere any like audio streaming service editing and rendering videos is more time consuming than most people realize yes it is it is most of what I do is actually is not thinking and writing and talking most of what I do is editing that's the reality of YouTube yeah your your graphics designer Christine well if you if you guys do want to have as I said just um send me a message on Instagram maybe like uh put the I don't know you can't do topics in Instagram can you uh just saying like in the first line from your live stream something like that I'll be able to find it I think I'm a database programmer mostly Oracle that sounds very very complex and something that I would have no idea about where to start with how is that did you go to like university and did like a design um thinking I'm not sure not sure how it works sounds cool what do I need for zelka you know zelki boy need a necklace I don't need a necklace do I really but I want one so I'm going to have one it makes me happy to see all of these slots filled up how are you guys with deadlines not good not good the bot moderator doesn't like me saying monster energy drink the last time really that's weird yeah I'm sorry if that happens um as I said I don't have any human moderators as of now so it's just it's just protection because that has happened a few times where there's been like some trolls that have come in and said some annoying things so it's just like a security measure but it shouldn't time you out for like too long it's like 15 seconds or something I'm sorry if that happens though I don't intend it to target you all right it says how do you read comments respond to comments and play games all at the same time this is intriguing um I don't know I don't know it's a good question I try my best sometimes successfully sometimes not depending what my mental state is like okay I don't think I need anything else is okay you know it's fine actually made me laugh deadlines time blindness better love story than twilight yeah that video that I put out about the the timeline is being that was that was fairly that received a fairly controversial sort of array of comments you know not like um emotionally charged just like I think people had very different feelings about all time blindness thing oh no that's not the place is it where is where is okay now I think it's further over this way I think it's this one thanks for an emerald how many people are in here four adventurers it's a little bit too many time blindness is a thing though it is indeed what game are you playing by the way uh this is old school renscape I mean I could try and do it on my own but I don't know if I want to do that and try and snipe a game from somebody else yeah now I have to go watch that video and read the comments yeah it's um it was a difficult it's a difficult one to tackle because obviously like there's a degree of nuance that you have to have when it comes to things like that because obviously like turning up to late for things if you are like in charge or you're responsible for like kids if you like a teacher probably not the best thing but for certain jobs like I think a degree of like adjustments can be put in place for people who on it on occasion struggle to you know make places on time you know I think there's a conversation to be had about it but the actual video that the individual was reacting to um the girl was crying because basically she asked about adjustments for time blindness and her like supporter her friend like shouted at them have you played balt Baldur's gate free it's amazing I have not I have not what is it about I can't seem to find a world at the moment we could go to the mass worlds but mass worlds are just not not worth it in my my experience your thumbnail is different in new way do you mean the one for this one or just one for the videos that I've been making I've been trying to um snaz it up basically like a lot of the um advice that people give when it comes to channel creation and stuff is to have like a consistent style of thumbnail but I do not like doing that because I feel like it hampers my creativity so I'm disregarding that information now and just making thumbnails that I like the look of god there's like no worlds here it is intense but really good and the graphics are ridiculous that sounds cool it was the first job I came came out to about my disabilities or the one that you got did you say the one that you got fired yeah that sucks I'm sorry to hear that so the whole thing of like um people people seeing autism as like like a personality trait rather than a difference in your brain like a disability wait wasn't four people in there Baldur gate is based in the dnd universe oh that does sound good actually that does sound quite fun I wait until the last minute and then I get motivated to do everything at once get out of the door in less than 10 minutes that is relatable no I don't want to go to a zalkano world. Rose says it's important to ask for help even if it is difficult I wish I knew more about moderating or editing or otherwise I would have helped you no worries Rose don't worry about it I mean it's it's I can and I can in a will I will find a way to to manage what I do it was it was more of a offer if you if you would like to when you've got the capacity to help that's all shall I do a mass world I might just do a mass world it's stressful though I have to I have to try and be faster than everybody I'm lucky that autism traits help me in my job more than hinder yes I think I'd imagine yeah but I was at the beginning of a major burnout I was just realizing I was autistic I haven't really worked since then that was actually one year ago actually commenting in a live stream I'm a total novice wait there's four people in here shall I just go I think I'll just go I don't care all right they told me can I join no all right I see it can't do it for the stream eh I'm too nice on this game I should have just gone there were public charge charge school and had a lot of issues yeah very good a good store needs us enjoy your trip and eat all three adventurers that's enough I'm doing it wrong please don't fire us at anyone here get a star hot a song stuck in their head for ages yeah Spotify helps with like reducing ear wounds for me because I can just go on like the discovery playlist issues are quite good anyone know about any good videos about how to advocate advocate for yourself at work um I hesitate to say that it's gonna be like an advice video but I did do a podcast um which uh was on reasonable adjustments in work that you can take a look at if you would like that could be quite helpful um that could be good good Harriet my dad would play D&D video games who would focus on them for hours nice I I would love to play D&D I feel like it would be it'd be my jam you know if I just if I had just a smidgen more organizational skills I would try and organize like a youtuber or to autism youtuber D&D session but I don't know if I'd be able to handle organizing that I don't know if I like this music we've got just um just under an hour left on the stream just letting you guys know give me heads up you love playing D&D I just I'd love to have like you know I have like a couple of drinks just get like real silly with it you know I mean I think that'll be fun I'm definitely interesting when I've had a couple of drinks that's for sure I'm like painfully extroverted I would say painfully extroverted it's it's very irritating thank you I just want to follow the community I just do it for that because it's very music for me I'm sorry I've had those experiences catch up with work and stuff it's not fun random question I teach a lot to touch students if they break any rules in the UK not too sure about that I mean um maybe I would I would has the guess it's probably been no pretty sure no um unless like students are fighting or something maybe it might be a bit different now I'm visually impaired and these kind of games are accessible unfortunately I expect if I could play I would play constantly though I'm sorry to hear they're not that accessible for you yeah there's drinking in most dnd sessions social lubricant Thomas do you know how to get on to Mike's Minecraft server I couldn't figure it out last night after watching his video I didn't know that Mike had a Minecraft server Mike's a nice guy I've been chatting chatting to him sort of off stream oops that person's got boot I actually like tabletop dnd I would like to play in person that would be my preference we're gonna get him yep drinks you see qv qv is right there it's not really something that I indulge in on the regular basis for being honest oh no we're talking about um while during dnd low you cannot it's not for everybody my brother's like the biggest lightweight on the earth whereas I'm like completely the opposite I've been told that I actually like it's very difficult for people to tell if I'm if I have for some reason like people people say that I just don't act any different that might be a fun fun livestream actually to see people playing dnd yeah I think it'll be that'd be really fun hello Joseph welcome to the stream my friends I was giving three bottles of whisky into gin that's me for the next five years I wish I was like that I have a 0.068% chance of getting a crystal tool seed that's that's the very very slim chance indeed I think they go for about 18 million gold coins at the moment which is pretty considerable used to use it as a social crutch yeah yeah dead color is indeed tracky injuries reduces the effectiveness of meds too yep yep yep yep I'm liking this muse it's good they are full of it everyone asks different when they drink oh acts different yeah no I I've just become I think I just become a little bit more um sociable like I just I enjoy socializing more so I just do it well but I don't actually change very much really want to go to the supermarket and now to buy flowers for mother's day because supermarket will be quiet but just can't seem to move you can do it Joseph I believe in you you have the power the power to go and get yourself some mother's day presents everyone band together and give your energy to Joseph with channel unit the executive functioning energy is is traveling into you now Joseph do you feel it haven't you fought him before I have um the the pronouns are she her this this boss here it's like you know it's all okay now beautiful goddess well I mean they're a demon it's the first boss that I tried mind you I'm gonna escape try not to take due to taking lithium yeah it's probably a good idea for you didn't realize mother day was on a different day in the UK but you're first US it's on May here yeah we do have some differences preach Thomas I'm watching if you guys seen that video of that preacher like that crazy like a group preacher was it televangelism I can't remember what what the name of the actual thing is but that that man is um a scary dude I can't remember what his name is I just remember the interview that I think he did it with maybe vice or some something like nature some kind of media company they did an interview with them about why he doesn't take public transport because he said that there's like loads of demons on public public transport and why he has like a private jet oh what do you what do you say us being sober since Christmas of 2008 congratulations that is very good I'm very happy for you oh my demons on triple public transport yikes I know I was wondering what what public transport he was talking about might have to take a trip on that sometime I think it'd be fun I've seen demons on public transport all the time doesn't everybody oh my god man got hit I'm on low I'm on low let me drink up little sippy sippy wonderful yellow liquid Thomas you aren't about Kenneth Copeland I think maybe you're right Figgy I think it is Kenneth Copeland yeah most of the demons demons I've seen on public transport don't bother me so I let them be I'm imagining like this kind of spirited away kind of scene you know I mean public transport in Europe is a lot different to most of the US I wish we had more here in the US yeah it's not really that good in the UK though sometimes it's not very consistent and the actual drivers of the train the staff that work tend to go on strike a fair bit which does make relying on public transport pretty difficult random question but what is the temperature is the temperature low or high where you are today Thomas I mean I can check I imagine it's cold it tends to be cold in the UK that has it I guess maybe let me check on google temperature I'm sorry there's a boulder coming after me um it is four degrees Celsius so pretty cold depending on what what you what your baseline of coldness is like that's what we're going for around two way will you get a takeaway tonight hmm I would like to but wouldn't we all I don't know maybe are you getting a takeaway demons just want to live their lives just like us they do indeed they do indeed all these in budget and all those in evangelical types are scary it is a bit concerning isn't it kind of kind of Copeland put the fear in me I'm not doing too well guys um what's that in Fahrenheit 39 degrees Fahrenheit roughly my kids live in Seattle and Washington DC both have pretty good transport I live in the Midwest and there are a few buses we say takeout in the States I love how you use takeaway yeah I suppose I never thought of that I suppose I did we do say that which is different it's always interesting the um the differences between uh American and English terminology yes that's called to me it's not too bad t-shirt weather I'm joking maybe maybe light jumper weather it's pretty pretty mild for the UK especially in the evening you sure that is four Celsius I think so unless I'm just gravely misunderstanding or I googled wrong me back welcome back up 10 me back me back for stream for runescape stream yes what am I looking at a boss yeah it's big this beautiful girl is okay now my dream girl I'm gonna minor minor minor boys minor down oh no we failed I had some people I made a post on um autism and asexuality and I had some individuals commenting on my my my dress sense I haven't really experienced that before but they went very approving of my pentagram t-shirt that's for sure some people can be judgy you know what I mean your dream girl yeah she's beautiful see here my dreams every night if I can only get the pets the pets of this boss I will be a happy man okay forcing myself to go to the supermarket now flowers is this autistic inertia laziness or fear of people I'd say that if you're mentioning that as a possibility that is probably is the case stop what's wrong with pentagrams um uh some people are just touchy you know I think they were saying something along the lines of oh no not one of these types again it's not cool you're not cool I'm not into all that witchy stuff I'm like what's that got to do witches I suppose it does a little bit but boot instead of trunk bonus instead of hood pavements yeah well my favorite one like horse riding versus horseback riding why do you guys have to stipulate that you're riding the horse on the back why is this why do you need to make add that language in makes the math harder it's annoying also didn't teach us military time either something you have to learn on your own if you want to know it definitely not laziness now I don't know laziness is a subjective term isn't it you realize it's sunday it's not sunday it's friday oh you mean mother's day is on on sunday okay yeah but they want to go to to get the mother's day present now because it's going to be quiet forward thinking the mother's day because otherwise we would be rising on the riding on the front is there a sport can you horse front riding it sounds a bit sus to me oh my god multiple religions use pentagrams it's also connected to pythagoras I think people will just judge you for you I don't think I don't think it if I was to wear anything which was any type of symbol on my on my t-shirt there'll be some people commenting on it people just like to be judgy I'm gonna get hit I haven't seen my family in 10 months now that I moved up north is that a good thing or is it a bad thing would you like to see more of them I get my mother a practical present an indulgent one good idea fair enough you don't have an express yes and no what are you referring to why are you mining those rocks so the the the train of thought here is you mine the rock we put rock into fairness and then we imbue the rock with magical energy and then we hit the boss and it goes down and then we mine the boss and then it goes boom that's how we do it there we go what we're gonna get got a 0.146 percent chance of something good and of course we get nothing because that's just how statistics work and you get my hopes about it hopes up about it is a silly idea sorry Thomas just rambling don't worry about it claire I don't judge people's clothing um they can wear what they want to express themselves with yeah no I don't tend to do that either I was like it's fair enough like if you don't like the the goffy kind of alternative aesthetic but you know it's I do like it it's like I'm not going up to people who don't dress like that and saying ooh another non-goffy alternative person can't stand those what are you talking about that then you have some people who actually tie your sense of dress and you're enjoying your your enjoyment that you get from I don't know demonic or what do you say goffy kind of imagery as like something related to your morality like they actually think that you're a a satanic worshipper it's craziness but to be honest even like the the church of satan is it's pretty reasonable in terms of religious agendas not talking about like the christian view of satan satanism but but like the actual church of satan's bible and all that I don't know if you've seen it before it's basically like humanism oh I get it now thanks don't worry up to them the cult the cult um tefra so we mined the tefra and then we turn we we furnished the tefra into refined tefra and then we imbued it with magical powers into imbued tefra and these these idiots are I'm gonna throw some as well um we've got to stand in the the blue little spiral things on the floor because that increases our damage makes it so that we don't have to go for another round of mining tefra which is very irritating you always have to think you always have to kind of weigh up in your mind depending on how many people are throwing about like how many pieces of tefra they have so that we don't all have to go through the same cycle again sometimes it gets wrong and then you have to redo it over time as you miss out on oh ouch that was unfortunate last year I bought a hot water bottle and I was walking about the shop and the man the man behind me said aren't you a bit old to be buying a hot water bottle I was so angry and embarrassed fever was strange Thomas why not dress up as a devil and see what the trolls say oh god yeah I do actually have some masks I will show you my masks before we we end up the stream I'll show you I'll show you just just before the end of the stream finishes my masks that I'm going to use for my shorts and videos I've got some cool masks and some quirky items it's pretty cool I'm an expert at this game I'm the first to hit the boss and that means I'm gonna be MVP yeah yeah you like the idea Joseph I might do it wait this isn't the church of satan I want my chicken back what do you think of wickens um I think it's cool I I mean anything which is kind of out of the ordinary I suppose and a bit quirky um you know maybe maybe a little bit out there I enjoy it I think it's nice to see people with different styles and fashion but then some people have this kind of air of or you must be like mature you must dress masculinely or femininely or whatever some people can just be very judgy about what you choose to wear I found while the UK is only 300 miles wild at wide at the largest yeah it's a tiny place like you your philosophy of random occurrences just happening is that it oh the absurdism yeah and if I say say enough times that something very improbable is going to happen at some point I'm gonna be right but I could say that it's not gonna happen and in most cases that would be right but then I'd be a bit sad as well so it's really whether I just want to be positive or not really isn't that positive or right but then if it does happen I'll feel a bit silly you know it's almost if you've ever taken a drive as long as 1800 miles probably not actually no I probably have actually um I once took a 36 hour bus ride I don't know if that's that's 800 miles yeah people can be judgy as f you know totally super mack i want to go to closes in 50 minutes hurry joseph run hurry fast as you can my friend may the wind catch your sales on your venture for their mother's day gift I'm heavily into cabals I can even write out scroll for people what does that mean what's the cabal I'm not sure no I'm falling behind pummel the boss with your tetherer boys get that golem they got hitched by the pentagram blackout twos are tattoos are amazing and all the trolls I like the um the blackout tattoos that have um white ink on them so they black it out and then they tattoo white ink over them so cool so cool very cool very nice statistically something with a one in a million chance of happening oh we nearly got caught there um happens to you once a month but we we only notice the really good or the really bad stuff that is a very nuanced tank that I write I I I enjoy that that thought indeed everyone hit the like button yes please that would be nice if you haven't already please subscribe and yeah do that stuff that'd be great catch you thank you again for reminding me you're a g cabala is due mysticism interesting I've never heard of it before when my first clients have gotten out had it gotten out of her skin after two weeks of healing I knew you're gonna say that catcher I was catching on I was catching on it's like last time it came with a okay is this is this is this okay for hydration I'm sorry have a little sippy sippy delicious it's a very sophisticated beverage might I say might add to that my good sir madam the finest caffeinated beverage in the land brewed in the monsters catacombs as long as it's water-based just chugs chugs a bottle of first-pressed rape rapeseed oil I'm getting a lot of money from this I'm getting the monies in yeah I think he's he's he's upset they're they're upset because I'm getting the monies and they're not sometimes there's only two of us now I can't drink water without Mio in it's what is Mio I'm not a chicken scratcher like dude what I'm more of a thick CNC machine with a tattoo gun what are you talking about I drink only three things chai tea latte dot pepper and Mio flavored water I'm interested in in what Mio is I'm very interested yes you you have like the selection of drinks one for flavor one for caffeine one for hydration I think I need to conserve my teffra oh I've seen those tattoos they're cool yeah if you want to design Mio tattoo you've got any ideas as long as it's um demonic looking I'll probably like it it's a concentrated liquid that flavors water it's sugar-free Mio I've never heard of it is it Mio or Mio I love Dr. Pepper I was drinking Mr. Pibb once pooped like Dr. Pepper Mr. Pibb but I was like shh Mr. Pibb how could you drink that dude doesn't even have his doctorate his doctorate in carbonated beverages Mr. Pibb why is that so funny Mio okay I'll have to look it up I don't think I've tried Mio before I might like it once I was inking people with white ink white ink is bad they're being healed and falls out easily I mean that I apply ink very thickly and I do not shy away from doing two or three okay I get you absent sorry I sometimes lose the conversation or flood like the flow of conversation sometimes goes on one like if it's not cool colored enough yeah I see what you mean I call it Mio they also make it caffeinated or B vitamins Mio energy you do this steadily with the same speed of motion of my house it's very cool you must have very good um fine motor coordination yeah is Mio available in the UK I'm not sure I'm definitely hoping to try it I mean this fabled Mio is is receiving a lot of positive reviews what is Mio I don't know some flavor the fabled Mio we must drink plentiful of this Mio why am I speaking like an old-timey person I don't know that's because there's several conversations going on yes I think you're right hey we did it never lucky give me the pet pet give me that pet give me that pet I really want that pet I think the drop rate's about one in three thousand if I'm not if I'm not wrong I've only done 382 of these that should be Mio's new slogan there are also over squeezy flavors to put in water oh is it like cordial is it like a ribena cordial you can put in put in juice you make juice out of you're a fellow inked person too rich we must craft the tephra and then we bring the tephra to the altar and we imbue the tephra indeed and we mine boss and boss give loot do you like anime tomas do I it's like the only thing that I watch a proud weeb this game should be called patience I mean oh someone got a someone got a very piece of special loot in the in the clan chat okay what accent is that I have no idea my brain just produces noises obviously without the function of my mouth just produces noises noises I'm actually communicating telepathically to you guys right now I don't know if you know that there's actually no audio to this youtube video and just streaming it directly into your schools ye old timey accents yes indeed accents of no no specific origin so you guys you know that reaction stream that I did where we tried to watch that vice documentary well vice actually claims the entire video for monetization because we included a one-minute clip so I actually have to go through and have to trim it out at some point after you were too funny today this is this is relaxed tom the more relaxed I get the larger my absurdist humor becomes tomas on the roll today did we help cheer you up you always help me cheer up it's no question woodshed fairy hello welcome to the channel how you doing as a kid my dad would recall all the late night anime I also got to watch ghost in the shower I haven't really watched ghost in the shower before wait they put a claim for one minute no they they took the monetization completely out of the the entirety of the stream because we we streamed a minute of it what's about fair use I don't think they see live streaming videos as fair use sometimes I don't know I don't know how it works honestly I mean generally what I do is I just I stream things if people let me and if they don't want me to I just don't don't look at vice again then yeah it's sad because they do produce some really good videos and I would really like to watch that video but it might have to not hi daniel welcome back good to see you so if it was less than a minute it would be okay no I I don't know why I think it's just they have some content id thing enabled on the channel so anytime that people stream what they're doing or they include enough of their video in their in some in your my god if you include enough of their video in yours or you stream their video then it flags it and basically stops you from being able to monetize it time is just curious here your christian uh no I am cold-hearted rectilian atheist just curious yeah the ins and outs of youtube content creation yeah it's a fun time we love it but I am a good boy I play by the rules sort of may I ask you a somewhat odd question does anyone get visual hallucinations if overwhelmed or distressed um when I'm very very paranoid sometimes I get some semblance of like a visual hallucination but it's not really that consistent to be honest right I think we're done here let's go sell our loot juicy juicy loot see how much money we made how are you doing woodshed I can call you Claire if you want I don't I I just usually default to usernames you okay get all that money that is some grand money that is oh it's juicy it's delectable I got ourselves some crystal shards as well boom I ask why I know straight straight lines get bent a bit like your doorframe has a bit of a curve interesting thanks for sharing that Jackie when I get to Mr. Pib is superior Mr. Pib why is it so funny to me I don't know it just tickles me there's just something some words in life or concepts that just I can't describe why but they just make make me chuckle Mr. Pib Thomas how many robes do you have which is your favorite fabric for them to be made out of curious because I just saw on your robes.com feet and regal thank you very much this is a bath robe I have I think in total about um four dressing gowns or robes and I also have one one I have two onesies and one oody so I've got a fair selection of loungewear it's pretty much what I live in diet pepper pepper is preferred over Pib for me my vision narrows when I shut down this stare at starting yeah it tends tends to me that it's like kind of you get sort of like a tunnel vision get like dark kind of shadows over like the corners of my peripherals got to go take care what it's lovely to have you on rose I hope you're doing well thank you for joining and contributing and talking and stuff it's been lovely Pib isn't even a doctor I heard of Alice in Wimbledon so it seemed real interesting this is a very lively live stream onesies are the best I've got seven congratulations just curious does the full moon effect everyone else's vibrational frequencies don't know what my vibrational frequency would be very monotone I would imagine what's an oody it's basically like a hoodie but it is very long and is very baggy and comfy on the inside I can show you if you want I've worn it before it's it's my orange dragon ballsy thing that I have thanks for sharing your experience with visual oddities yeah it concerned me a few times in the past when that happened but usually it kind of only really occurs when I'm significantly paranoid and anxious my older brother has onesies I do like and would you guys like to see my masks I really want to onesie show them I'll actually show you my onesie actually because I think it's pretty cool let me just quit out of the reinscape we have 107 million gold pieces aren't I lucky boy oh anime sounds even better UD sounds amazing I have to get one of those okay I'll get the UD as well yes you want to see the masks I'll get the UDs first there's one singular UD and there is um one onesie that I will show you see in a sec I actually don't have my onesie on me I think it's in I think I must put it in a wash oh yeah love a good mask this is this is my one my UD basically just like a massive hoodie it's all going wrong okay does it have tigers on yeah my dressing gown does yeah there's something very strange happening to my chair here we go check it out my UD it's a comfy boy it's very nice hairs all over the place right let me get the masks I'll show you my items that I bought for spicing up my short form content so we've got oh sorry I booped you again that's kind of a bit freaky to be honest now that I'm wearing it wow that's that's one of them I've got another one which is a bit angry looking it's all right in it that one it's pretty um I was trying to think of something the reason why I had that on for quite a while is I was trying to think of something interesting to say but couldn't think of anything once I got this one there you go this one's this one's pretty cool it's not the best high quality of masks in the world but I think it it does a good job of providing some visual stimulation yes although it might be quite difficult when it comes to actually talking into a microphone I don't think there's any mouth hole in it no but it might be quite interesting like during my videos they'd be like you know just doing some crazy stuff yeah they're a bit freaky out there there's one I've also got one of these not sure how I feel about this one it looks very steampunkish you know I mean I don't know if I like it though if I'm to be completely honest about my feelings and thoughts over this mask I feel like it's somewhat obscures my open eye aughty borg yeah steampunker of the opera you look ready to assimilate yes Thomas I would tag you on my instagram with me wearing a very scary mask that sounds good you could record speaking after and then dub it over I like that that would actually be easier I might do that sometime that's a really good idea Thomas is a party monster ain't I Thomas just no no no sorry lol scary those things feel suffocating to me this one is less freaky but it still feels like you're gonna go on a mobster rampage both of those massacres are disturbing in a good way oh lol what platform are you using don't know how you doing Mike good to see you can you get can you modify that side so it doesn't get in the way of your eye I don't know there we go that's a bit better isn't it it looks very um sophisticated oh my god you can just use the same video of the mask over and over again and the voice change them and change the background as well that's exactly what I'm thinking catcher but I shall not of course I won't I'll never do anything of that nature to I might like um no I won't do that but um what else have I got in my box of tricks did you ever felt like you can even work in the normal world I'm a girl with autism I'm having a hard time finding my person's purpose yeah yeah it's it's definitely a difficult difficult thing it's not easy to um live in this world as an autistic person sometimes Darth Vader so I also have a sort of uh I mean I'm struggling because because usually these cheap things are like designed for average sized humans um it's not always the easiest but I've got a little pointy finger thing so I can like menacingly point at the camera something something of that nature I don't know I'm just trying to like I don't know provide some interesting visuals to what I do other than me just like talking at a camera you know provide some visual stimulation in some fashion so I've got a pointy finger um these things these things which are highly interesting not sure if I'm going to actually implement any of this to be honest but give it a go got these things which are like metal kind of accessories for your face I don't I don't think so maybe oh my god I'm not sure how I'm going to use these I just I was looking for stuff and I was just like I'm going to try and find some things that will just make my face look a bit more interesting that's basically my my whole thing with this you go like that and then it's not meant to be that way Mike this is not this is not the purpose of me doing this I can't even find it where is the the hook oh there is that's pretty cool man thank you if I can actually like work it properly yeah I think you get the impression and then there's also this one which is I'm just gonna tilt my head up so it just didn't fall down what's that called what you're wearing I don't know some kind of facial accessory and they've got one of these you know just very common for everybody's wardrobe okay oh no it's falling off it's all going wrong I think this hooks on to something my mouth is that where it hooks I hope it doesn't yeah I just oh dear everything's going wrong everything's going wrong sleigh as they say yeah I think this goes this way I don't think that's supposed to hook on my lip is that I think it is actually I mean that's kind of hurts is that how it works I feel like I'm doing some putting some kind of cybernetic enhancements on myself I'm not going to have the patience to put this on for videos does it go that way like that maybe I don't know I got the the the thingies cyberpunk that's that's his fatigue that's his this one game for yes I got a screenshot ready for your drawing strictly creation thank you that was a laugh I did a good way yeah no worries we're all having a good time they look like the doctor nurses Thomas is doing the gods work that's me oh thank you very much up there this is all taking a turn so you decided to not go with the purple hair and don't grease them probably not sleigh as they say lana says I'm coming out of an autistic burnout in a locked ward in Amsterdam but in british been locked up for two months now oh my god sorry to hear that that is awful I've got I've got one more mask and I've got one more hand accessory to show you again I'm not sure exactly how I'm going to use these pieces of equipment I think probably probably for like short videos like specifically this but I'm still not I'm still not incredibly sure I mean I've done it wrong but these are like black obviously black I mean you've got eyes black and claws no idea where I bought this I don't understand what my thinking is and like how I can utilize this for making autism videos you've got no idea and panic buying lots of weird quirky things that I see just in case I might somehow find a use for them help me guys I'm having a breakdown can you help can you help me um single hand leave save me every day make me laugh please sticking in with your health on this I'm glad that I can provide you some help lana I'm sorry that you're going through that at the moment that sounds awful please wear one of those or posing your fitness purse okay I will do well thank you lana thank you I've just been texting with depressing news I'm sorry I don't have one more mask that I can show you which is I've had for a while and I've actually used one of my physique videos which is I quite like it I mean it looks metal it's definitely not metal mancini please maybe not your parents for you I'm sorry to hear that okay it's lights out for me need to go to bed to sleep because I got sick yesterday thanks to no sick days policy in my office that sounds annoying maybe you get a good sleep at some unit people don't say sick days they just spread illnesses around yeah yeah no you mean well there we go that is my selection of various masks which I imagine is going to receive upon upon their use is going to receive a variety of different comments by internet users the mask rules you like it I do have a Pikachu one day actually but it's not um you know yeah everyone's sending you sending you love lana what times are you live usually go live on Monday usually maybe five six p.m. bst as well as that time on Wednesday and then for these ones the orty time ones we have some time on Friday usually usually do that um I apologize for ending ending so abruptly but uh I do need to I think we've been streaming for about three hours and 20 minutes I'm gonna have to go get some get some food so yeah getting on to be quite late tonight and I've got some videos to record and such but um yeah you need a name for when you use those masks Monday what time probably like um five six but um it really depends sometimes my as you can imagine my social battery and my mental health is not always um up to scratch so sometimes I might miss some and then do some another day but that is that is what I'm trying to aim for you know but if you if you do the little notification bell on my on my channel let's subscribe on you'll be able to see um that kind of stuff no it's only been five minutes oh my god it's been a pleasure as per usual guys it's nice to see you thank you Lauren thank you for G thank you Lena Christine of course Cuvie Mike Angela of course always in always there and s neurogeza Daniel Joseph Fagy I think I've said have I said Fagy aptem of course indeed and um yeah clue Josephina it's my making sure that I've got everybody forgetful Hata thank you everyone who's who's um joined first time I hope you have a good time and for any of the any of the regulars thank you so much for all the continued support and looking forward to um going live next week all righty take care peeps and catch you of course and Alistair all right take