 channel if you're new here. Hi, hello, I'm Lydia, and if you aren't new here, make sure you hit the subscribe button, turn the notification on. Why don't I get that little bell tickle, get a tickle, and then get the little thumbs up when I tickle. He likes a tickle. I only try and send a DSA tickle in one go, a lot. Papa! So today we're talking about the difficulty of maintaining relationships. There's friends, family, loved ones, partners, person. When you have a mental illness, you have to report yourself for it. It sounds selfish, but it's not. You have to remember to take your medication, go to therapy, go to an appointment. It used to be a process. You have to report yourself for it. For me, I don't have any IRL friends. I have a friend of my hometown, why I grew up. I have a friend who lives in Brighton. I'm very lucky because my family and me had a lot of issues two years ago, and I didn't think we would recover from it. I'm looking at my family and the industry of our relationship. So yeah, I'm brilliant as now. I talk to my grandma every day on FaceTime. RIP, my phone battery. Seriously, FaceTime takes up so much of your data and so much of your battery. It's basically robbing the phone. But anyway, when it comes to loving people in a relationship, depending on diagnosis, it can be really hard. For me, I have bipolar type 1, BPD, depersonalization, dualization, PTSD, anxiety, brush the records, psychotic records, EDNMS, and then Sonya. The part that makes it hard is the BPD. The BPD type, if I were my brain, just can't function in relationships. And I have to bring up something I don't ever bring up on this channel. The only true relationship I've been in that I've loved someone is with my ex. There are videos on this channel on me and Becca and she is in the interim. Well, her breaking up with me, it was hard. It was one of the worst days of my life. But generally with relationships, I do struggle. With making friends with me, it's not easy. I don't trust people, but I've been hurt in the past. It's so hard to trust people. I'll get there. I just need to start going out more, because I currently live in my bedroom. All I can see is bags from when I was in the hospital and I haven't unpacked yet. Hell, I've still got Christmas stuff in a box that I didn't open. I opened the presents while I put them into a box and they're still there under my table. I've been putting off doing so much. Mental illness makes breaking relationships huge. You have to put yourself in a survive. And I know a lot of relationships. Partner, friend, family member, and you've worked too. And then they rely on you for their support. And then you're supporting yourself and supporting someone else you've been trying. The recipe for this is disaster. That's all I've got for this video. Thank you for watching. And if you are new, like, subscribe, hit the subscribe button, hit the notification bell and give that little tickle to the thumbs up of us. It's the little tickle. Ignore how pink my nails are. They're both hot and rough. And then I dive my acting. I still love it. Thanks for watching. I'll see you in my next video. Peace.